I'd Like To Experience What Love Is Like For Someone With No Psychological Issues

coming to terms with the fact that i really truly may have this

do you know we love you, laika? from a million miles away? though we did not treat you right i really wished you’d stayed

i hope you know they loved you before they sent you with no cause and now you’re free to wander with stars between your paws

i hope your body’s laced with stardust your mind, your fur, your heart i hope you know we loved you to the end, from the start

the universe is yours to roam the galaxy your turf i hope you play with the comets that i see from here on earth

does sirius keep you company? a dog-star of your own and does ursa guard you sleeping in space where you were thrown

it’s not fair how we treated you you didn’t ask to fly and i just hope you aren’t lonely way up there in the sky

and i hope you burnt out quickly that you weren’t in any fear but i know that it isn't true and i wish you were still here

does it help to know we love you they kept hope within a lie some thought we could bring you back but we sent you there to die

i know that you were scared then i know you were alone but i hope you saw the stars and thought they looked like home

and i know you didn’t make it you had no epilogue but i know i miss you laika no knowledge is worth a dog

scared someone will see right through me and know one of my deepest desires is to be taken care of

as much as i love tendou with abandonment issues due to not having friends before and being terrified of them leaving him i believe we need to give more attention to wakatoshi with abandonment issues. i can't see his mother as the loving type. his father was probably his only pillar of emotional support and comfort growing up and when he moved to america, wakatoshi had all of that ripped away from him, thus the fear of the people he loves leaving him behind. i can imagine wakatoshi in tears grabbing tendou by the wrist as he's boarding the plane to paris, saying in a voice too broken for the man he appears to be that he doesn't want tendou to leave him.

happy birthday ushijima anyway I bet Tendou saw it was international left handers day, and decided as a joke to plan a big surprise and do like a playful "hey its your day buddy" in like a jokey way to make fun of him and then he shows up for this surprise and is like "how did you know it was my birthday?? i do not believe I'd mentioned??? ah of course you knew, you are very clever :)" and Tendou is just like "HAHAHA LIKE I DONT KNOW MY BEST FRIENDS BIRTHDAY PFFTT-" and then sprints to the kitchen to scrape the left-handed jokes off the cake because how the FUCK did this happen?

sometimes i just sit and think about how their eyes both drift down towards each other's lips at the exact same time and i could cry

Crying your eyes out because you hate who you are to your core<<<<<

he’s right 🐮🍫