Walking Has Officially Crossed The Threshold Into Annoying. When I First Started Waddling A Little, I

Walking has officially crossed the threshold into annoying. When I first started waddling a little, I felt it before anyone could see it. The weight of my belly felt like it had sunk into my pelvis more and forced my legs to move a little different. It almost felt like when my belly started to pop and people were struggling seeing that in the beginning too. But now people are noticing me waddling because it’s so pronounced

The first most obvious thing? I can’t keep up with anyone anymore. I’m now always the slowest. I get tired easily too. I run out of breath so fast, I get so self conscious with how fast I’m out of breath and with this huge belly i can’t take full on deep breaths and that makes it hard to catch my breath! I’ve gained 75 lbs in 8 months and most of it is in my belly. It’s hard to walk with a bunch of weight pulling you forward and down at the same time. My body certainly does not feel like it still has the ability to move fast, changed by the fact that my legs have been pushed apart the heavier my belly has gotten. Between having to lean back to stay balanced and how low it’s dropped, and I can’t walk normally anymore. I can’t do one foot in front of the other smoothly, I just shift my weight from side to side.

You tell me I look so cute with my pregnant waddle. I can feel you and others looking at me as I struggle to get up from laying in bed or sitting down. When I sit my sitting my legs are forced to spread open in order for my belly to rest between my thighs. Leaning forward to get up has become harder, I have to rock myself back and forth to gain momentum. You helping me up has become a more intimate experience. You like feeling how much heavier I am each time and I like feeling supported, cared for, I like your eyes on me.

When I’m finally up my hands are either supporting my lower back or carrying my midsection. When my hands are on my back I move more slowly. Leading belly first- It enters a room before I do.

You love when you see my shirts slide up to my belly button. I always get so self conscious when that happens. It feels so irresponsible, waddling around with heavy pregnant belly just hanging out. I feel so self conscious, waddling slowly, belly undeniably huge and just popping out of all my clothes. Everyone knows. Everyone knows what you did to me. There’s no hiding it.