// @gryph-rp-hub Unbothered, Moisturized, Happy, In His Lane, Focused, Flourishing

I'm going to take a little break from the dash. I got some bad news on Friday that's led to a low mood that's been threatening to bleed into things a little more than I'd like in spite of my best attempts. I'll be back when I'm feeling a little more steady.

"came back wrong" what about Came Back Afraid. You used to be brave. Too brave maybe, defying the odds at every turn, a fighter, cocky, playing with fire, first to throw yourself at the enemy. Until one day it all caught up to you. You came back, somehow, but now you know all too intimately how it feels to lose, to die, to be destroyed. Now you flinch and freeze and cower at the slightest provocation. Who even are you now if you can't be brave? The grave may have let you go, but the mortal fear still grips you tighter than ever.

me explaining my worlds/stories/OCs after internalizing them for so long

There's something genuinely inspiring about seeing a bunch of fanart and microfiction and deep meta analysis about a character you've never heard of cross your dash, and you assume they're from a piece of media you're not caught up on, but later you learn that it's some random person's OC that six of their friends are super enthusiastic about, and they only seem omnipresent because you happen to be following like three of those six friends. There truly is no minimum viable size for a character-based fandom.

i love it when characters are codependent. i love it when losing someone feels like losing a limb. i love it when two people "complete" each other so wholly and terribly that one can barely function without the other. i love it when the fear of losing the only person who understands them is so all-consuming they'll destroy anything to stay together, including themselves.

“You are the most unlikable person with 18 Charisma I’ve ever met.”

“I can choose not to use it.  The orc has a high Strength, that doesn’t mean he HAS to be lifting things all the time.”

Forget about torturing your blorbos, putting them through the wringer. I'm putting my blorbo in perfectly ordinary, pleasant situations. Their tortured personality will cause them anguish anyway, making an absolutely mundane scene into the most dramatic, agony filled affair as though the world is ending and it's all their fault

i loooooove giving my ocs perpetrator trauma. you hurt people, used and abused and destroyed them, and you will never wash out that stain. you will grow resentful of forgiveness because you refuse to forgive yourself. they don't know what you did like you do. you wear that knowledge like armor, like a sick badge of shameful pride. you can't cut off the hand that struck out and throw it away. you can't pull out your teeth and become something kinder, something more vulnerable.

“your characters need to be likeable” allow me to introduce you to the very worst guy who ever lived