Ok So I Will Only Ship Transformers In A Completely Asexual Way Or Bc Its Funny

You werent sudden daylight in the dark, you’re the gentle moonlight on a summer night

I thought i crawled my way out of the dark, that i carved a home into that darkness all on my own. I had, in a sense. Then i met you. The darkness had ebbed back a bit from what i did, but when i met you it went from a flood to a kiddy pool. It wasnt sudden, that’s probably why i didnt notice it at first, but that darkness became easier. I went from completely lost, to clawing my way to a better place, to making friends with it, to letting it carry me through life until i met you, and then i started to actually live again. I didnt know how or why but being around you made me feel better. Even when i was dating a friend, even when i saw him in the morning and was happy to see him, i never felt that pure lightness i did when i was around you. And then we broke up. I got closer to you. I was falling in love without even realizing it. I fell in love with you slowly, a little more with every smile and giggle and late night conversation until suddenly i was in too deep to go back. It was like being caught in a riptide, only this time instead of being swept up into the dark i was swept into the arms of the sun. Even after i realized i loved you i didnt tell you for a couple months. I was scared to lose that warmth. I had gotten so used to the chill i didnt even realize i was cold, but then out of seemingly nowhere i was warm. It was completely unexpected but at the same time made complete sense. I didnt realize it was love for a long time, but what else could it be, it made total sense. Gods the first time i hugged you after telling you i love you really did feel like being in the arms of the sun. I used to be scared of physical contact. I still am in most ways, with most people. But with you, with you its a need, a craving so deep i dont think it’ll ever leave and i never want it too. And i dont know how it happened, but falling in love with you made that darkness change. I realized i had been trying to make it go away, but i never needed to do that. It’s still there, but it’s no longer lurking, waiting for me to slip into the undercurrent and carry me away, No. In falling in love with you i fell in love with the world, with life, with myself. It was the small things. The warmth of a hug, of the sun, the color of your eyes, then the color of my eyes, your smile, then one day i realized i didnt hate my smile like i used to. I had convinced myself that i looked horrible smiling and looked much prettier with a neutral expression. But around you i smiled so much, you smiled so much, that it made me realize my smile isnt bad at all. I still think i look prettier without a smile most times, but now i know i dont have a bad smile, and now im not afraid to smile. Which is a good thing bc whenever im around you i wanna smile. Anyway, darkness, sun, tides, all that stuff. I spent so long carving out a spot for myself in the darkness, but it wasnt until i fell in love with you, until i loved you, until you loved me, until i fell in love with pieces of myself and the world, that i realized i was wrong. I didnt need to fight the darkness, wrestle and fight the tide. No, i didnt need to do that at all. Darkness isnt something you fight. It isnt something you push away and reject, it’s something you embrace and let go of. Darkness isnt a fight, it’s a dance. The harder you fight to stay in control the more you get spun around and tripped up. Loving you and loving myself made me realize i needed to stop fighting and flow with the music. I dont need a thousand suns, i dont need a way to fix everything wrong with me, i dont need to think theres a million things wrong with me, i dont need to need anything like that. I just needed to be happy, to accept there are days the darkness is my friend, a comfort when the world gets too much, fuel for when i cant keep going. And there are days that the darkness is very much not my friend, where it is pure fear and stopping me from doing anything, where it makes me lash out and confused and hurt. And that’s ok. I dont need to be in control. I will never be in control of that.

It took falling in love to realize that.

Falling in love isnt the answer to everything, but it helped a lot more than i thought it would. I never looked for love, not like this. No, i didnt fight for this. This love grew naturally, and grew and grew and blossomed into the most beautiful thing. I will fight as hard as i need to keep this love, but i know i will never control it. I never want to control this love. This love that is wild and frantic and panic and soft touches and tender hugs and carefree smiles and safety and healing and good. This love that feels like sleeping after swimming for hours, this love that feels like following the moonlight on a trail to bed, this love that feels like smiling into dying embers on a night in spring when the world feels old and new and ancient and fresh and right. This love that feels like the home i always wanted, feels like the hugs i used to be too scared to want, feels like the world is finally peaceful without it inevitably being ripped away. I will never control this love, i will nevee fight this love, but i will always fight for this love if i need to, i will fight for you if i need to, but i no longer want to fight. I’ve spent years fighting, now i just want to be soft and spend my life with you. My life my heart my time my love it’s all yours

This fandom will never die its amazing i swear

I love how we can just write “Merlin.” and we all know who’s saying it. and the tone he’s saying it in. no descriptions needed. we just Know. and i love that.

Actually wait i kinda can but its limited to chemical and temperature idk how else to explain it

Kinda like a snake lmao

But i can only tell if somethings even a little too chemical, what general temperature it is, and sometimes if its really sweet or spicy

I really wish i could actually smell my girlfriend’s perfume bc she looks amazing and feels amazing and from the little ive been able to tell tastes amazing so i have a feeling she smells great too and im too much of a nosedead dumbass to notice it ;-;

“you smell good” is a top tier compliment

Shoutout to last year when it was 3am and I was a dramatic bitch lol

Reblogging for the pun lol

I am in love with the tiny moments of people i will never know

Good to know there’s a term for this <3

IM A SFW LER! I want to see My lees having as much fun as i do

IM A SFW LER! I'll Make sure to not overwhelm You or Cross boundaries

IM A SFW LER! I don't have a Kink or fetish about it, i just find it wholesome and a fun way to bond <3

IM A SFW LER! i am a gentle kind of Ler :D

IM A SFW LER! I Make sure to check if you're okay.

IM A SFW LER! My only goal is to see your beautiful smile

IM A SFW LER! Cheer up Tickles are My favourite kind to do

IM A SFW LER! Feeling sad, don't worry! I'll put that frown upside down!

IM A SFW LER! I don't get rough because i don't wanna hurt you.

IM A SFW LER! Don't be embarrassed about liking tickles, it'll be okay!

IM A SFW LER! AND I AM VALID!

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I wanna be strong enough to hold my girlfriend like this

i love sonadow if you look in my earhole you will see a little sonic and shadow running in circles around each other where my brain should be

You made darkness go from feeling like pitch black void to feeling like a blanket of indigo twilight

I love you

I’ll never forget that

Not as long as i live, not even after that, not until existence itself dies out, and even then the last star will fizzle out and whisper of the pure love i have for you

The love of someone saved by one who didn’t realize it, the love of someone who comes back to life out of the care of one who thinks themselves insignificant, the love of someone who wants to give the one they love everything and get only what that one wants to give. You could give me a bowl of burnt tomatoes and id eat it if i thought it would make you smile. And i hate tomatoes so much. But for you i would eat them.

And i know youd never ask me to do anything you thought was inconvenient or would make me uncomfortable but love i would walk through fire and snakes for you if i had to. Maybe not spiders but i would at least consider it very very hard before saying no unless you were in danger. Almost anyone else would be an immediate sorry bud but youre out of luck. I love you enough it would destroy me if you used it against me. But you never would, youd never be able to, and i love you so much i would never make you no matter what. And i will never destroy you. I may not know what to say or how to feel or how to help but i will never stop trying to support you. I will never stop trying to get you to fall in love with yourself the way falling i love with you made me fall in love with myself. But most of all i will never control you. I will never force you to do anything you really dont want to do except for trivial health things. The only way i will ever try to change you is to make you happier, hungrier, or more at peace with yourself. I will never stop trying to let you relax enough to realize just how much i love you

I love you

With everything i am

And with everything i ever will be

And i will never stop trying to show you that

Through kisses and hugs and late night laughs and tickles and soft looks and soul aching rambles and little gifts and tiny actions, i will never stop telling you i love you through words and through every detail and act i can think of