Ohlsdorf Cemetary ♰ [Hamburg, Germany]
The 12H urge to delete all social media accounts and disappear for a while.
Take what resonates, leave what doesn't
Purgatory
I saw someone describe the 8th house as death and the 12th house as the afterlife or purgatory and I really like that
a lot of the time it can feel like you're wandering through a thick fog, unsure of where you're going. Things can feel disorientating and dreamlike, or even like you're trapped
when I think of the 12th house, I think of liminal spaces. Liminal spaces are about transition and the 12th house can sometimes be described as the soul before it comes into the body to be reborn (1st house)
I often having reoccurring dreams about walking through empty, endless malls
Introspection
constant need to explore your deep inner world. Understanding your own psyche and pain, embracing the unknown
very comfortable with the darker aspects of life
can get stuck reflecting on the past and grief/loss. It can feel most familiar to you and like you can only shine your lantern backwards rather than forwards
learning how to take care of yourself and de-stress is extremely important (surrender is key)
Mental Health
feeling trapped or ignored in childhood which could lead to dissociation or the freeze response
might have felt unsupported or distant from mother/caregiver. She could've been too enclosed within her own struggles, leaving you to raise yourself
carrying over karma from past lives or having generational trauma
many difficult life experiences that could lead to things like mental illnesses, self sabotage, repeating cycles, hospitalisation, loneliness, withdrawal, addiction
bone-deep exhaustion, feeling the need to hibernate - insomnia, nightmares, hypersomnia
Healing Abilities
you've been through so much and you empathise deeply with others pain. You use what you've learned from your own experiences to help others
very forgiving, patient, and understanding. You make people feel seen and supported and you could have instances of strangers randomly opening up to you
attracting or being drawn to a lot of hurt or misunderstood people
feeling a strong urge to save people and to get rid of their issues for them, even to the point of neglecting your own needs or getting used by people
4th house/6th house people can also experience this
Nam June Paik: Reclining Buddha (1994)
april storm
october 26, 2018