Pain?

"Surely I am faking this" I tell myself crying quietly and alone. "I am doing this for attention", I sob.

"surely im faking this," i think, directly experiencing all the symptoms nd not benefiting from it at all

The autistic feel of never asserting boundaries, not because you don’t understand that you deserve to have your boundaries respected, but because the social script of asserting boundaries while making sure that the other person doesn’t feel attacked is one that you never got the knack of delivering, so your only two options are “doormat” or “bitchy and difficult”

Honestly, to any fellow neurodivergents that struggle with doing tasks: have you tried doing the task intentionally badly?

I'm serious. I always used to struggle with getting schoolwork done on time. Then one day, out of a place of spite, I tried to write the shittiest assignment the teacher ever damn graded. (It was a stupid assignment.) Got fed up with the bit halfway through and began writing the assignment in earnest. This has helped me start shit halfway since.

Even if it doesn't work like that for other people, half-assed is better than not finished. Half ass cleaning? Guess what, the space is still cleaner.

If you are reading this, I encourage you to try that thing you are procrastinating on or struggling with using the minimum effort possible.

Makes sense

My body works in mysterious, absolutely dumbass ways. I don't have normal and sensible heat regulation for some reason, so usually my body heat levels are directly proportional to the temperature of whatever beverage I had most recently - if it was cold, I'm cold, and if it was hot, I'm hot. I can go from "sitting in my underwear because it's freaking sweaty in here" to "ah fuck it's cold" and back within an hour for no sensible reason. And if it's cold/raining outside, I'm going to be cold. It's stupid but I don't make the rules.

Today it's been cold and rainy, and we've spent most of the day in the car (with my seat heater on max, but never feeling hot because The Rain Outside). Getting home, I was still fucking freezing at 21 celsius indoors, and since I still needed to take my meds, decided to trigger the overheating response on purpose by having a hot beverage first, so I'd feel the need to remove clothing for comfort and could apply the gel on bare skin as one does.

And for some stupid reason, it freaking worked.

This is the best post!

Depictions of autistic characters in media almost always fall into the "insanely rude but somehow tolerated" -type, or more rarely into the "innocently pure sweet cinnamon roll who's oblivious about everything uwu"-cathegory, but I think it would be great to have a character somewhere who is very clearly on the spectrum, and also this dude fucks. Like, a lot. You start out assuming that this guy's remarks about how much he regularly gets laid are some sort of a self-deprecating, sarcastic joke, but as the story goes on and you get to know the characters better, it becomes evident that not only are women drawn to him everywhere he goes, clearly the ladies also keep coming back for seconds.

And when someone wonders how in the fuck does he do that when he literally can't look people in the eyes he just goes "they are enthralled by my pure animal energy and unfathomble autism" and isn't joking. And when asked why nobody else has managed to replicate that he just goes "skill issue." And throws out the note that a woman just handed to him - with her number clearly written on it - right in front of her because talking to two people at once is overwhelming and he is not in the mood for that now.

go Twigs

reblog to make prev stop having headaches

I’m just going to leave this here…

Oh no I did something maybe possibly irritating or weird.

Now I will weird out us both while I additionally withdraw because I start overwhelming myself.

sorry for ignoring you ive been going insane