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and the saga continues...

me: *screams in larry is real*

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Wilmon and hands season 2

I love how they kept the focus on Wilmon and hands in season 2.

Even if they had a lot less really intimate scenes and much more focus on their separate development, them touching and holding hands remained a focal point in season 2.

Even in Wille's dream it's a prominent and important aspect of the intimacy they share. To touch and be touched is so important for Wille.

And it's one of the last thing he dreams of before waking up - holding Simon's hand tenderly.

Then their hands touch by accident (or was it an accident) and you can basically feel the charge that runs through them.

How many memories run through their heads before Simon pulls away. Because Simon is hurting and he's realising just how hard it is to be near Wille. How much it will hurt and how much he can't ignore the pain.

So he pulls away because he's protecting himself and his heart. And then after this he asks Wille for space.

And I think this moment is so much more powerful because of the distance between them through season 2.

Even though Simon has pushed him away before, Wille is still reaching out.

There's a bit of hesitation but at the same time he feels assertive. As if he knows that there's hope for them now.

But he's slow and careful so that Simon has the chance to pull away if he oversteps his boundaries . It's still on Simon's terms but even if it is Wille is still managing to show Simon what he wants.

And this time Simon is not pulling away at all.

It's such a beautiful moment where they are both trying to figure out what will happen to then. They are bringing comfort to each other again. They are trying to be on the same page even if it's difficult because Simon needs to go to the police to bring himself justice and for Wille that has huge consequences.

He'll have to give up on the freedom he's just realised he will be able to have.

It should feel hopeless, it should drive them apart even more.

But it doesn't at all. Because they are being honest and communicating with eachother and most of all. They understand eachother and listen to eachother.

It feels like they feel hope for the first time in months. Both of them.

And then we have their final moment together. Such a beautiful scene.

They hold eachothers hand, they comfort eachother, they are on the same page and Simon most definitely helps Wille be brave. Even if they are litterally ten meters away from everyone else in a wide open corridor they are not afraid to be affectionate and show their love.

It's such a beautiful and tender moment for them.

The more I think and a analyse this season the more I fall in love with it!

Day 7

The Shawshank Redemption completed

I'm so proud of it. I really happy that had the opportunity to see that kind of the author, so my next step is to see the movie. What is more, I'm going to start the next book called The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat

English. I passed the presentation (3/3) and did the homework for the next lesson

Started make a summary for a physics laboratory

to all my researchers, students and people in general who love learning: if you don't know this already, i'm about to give you a game changer

connectedpapers

the basic rundown is: you use the search bar to enter a topic, scientific paper name or DOI. the website then offers you a list of papers on the topic, and you choose the one you're looking for/most relevant one. from here, it makes a tree diagram of related papers that are clustered based on topic relatability and colour-coded by time they were produced!

for example: here i search "human B12"

i go ahead and choose the first paper, meaning my graph will be based around it and start from the topics of "b12 levels" and "fraility syndrome"

here is the graph output! you can scroll through all the papers included on the left, and clicking on each one shows you it's position on the chart + will pull up details on the paper on the right hand column (title, authors, citations, abstract/summary and links where the paper can be found)

you get a few free graphs a month before you have to sign up, and i think the free version gives you up to 5 a month. there are paid versions but it really depends how often you need to use this kinda thing.

when i first watched it, s2 didn't impress me the same way s1 did. but after rewatching i realized that is the point. every scene that draws a parallel acts as a refusal in some way. little moments like simon saying he has to go at the party, but wilhelm doesn't chase after him like he did in s1. or that wilhelm hears simon singing in the music room, but in s2 he turns around and walks away. or marcus asks the names of the fish and simon doesn't tell him like he told wilhelm. or where wilhelm politely said no as the room chanted for him to get on the table in s1, he stands up and shouts back in s2. there were so many expectations for this season, and it takes every moment it gets to demonstrate that the past is not repeating. it is being challenged. tradition, from the royal family to hillerska to the expectations set up by s1, all of it is questioned and all of it is changed just like wilhelm begins speaking the words of a script only to fold it up and choose speaking in his voice in his own time instead

All the lights couldn’t put out the dark running through my heart. Lights up, and they know who you are, know who you are. Do you know who you are? HARRY STYLES - LIGHTS UP

#Flirting

Rhodey: how's life with a newborn going?

Pepper, tearing up: Terrible. I didn't know someone could cry that much, Rhodey. Make it stop. I can't take it anymore.

Rhodey: ... I'm sure she'll outgrow it, Pep

Pepper: oh NO NO NO Morgan's an angel, she's no trouble at all

Rhodey:

Rhodey: but you just said-

Tony, from Morgan's bedroom: [sobbing loudly] I LOVE YOU SO MUCH