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Meaning of Colors in Anciet Egyptian Art:

And when we go into the thinking and living of the ten divine Sefirot, my own mind must become as sharp as possible, I must strive to understand not only the whole but also every detail of it. But at the same time my living and thinking must be infused by the divine influx, a wisdom that goes far beyond the mere rational, that will let me even see not only the past but also the future. But divine inspiration must be settled upon logical understanding of the scriptures, because I could also be misled by impure spirits. And when one balances out reason (understanding and logic — left column) with divine inspiration (intuition — right column) I bring the energy down to Malchut (our world) through the balance of the central column. And so my life becomes truly blessed and I become a master of my destiny rather than being a mere play ball of it. What false religion and false Kabbalah does is to bring false ideas beyond fact and understanding directly down through the right column for example into Malchut without the balance of logical understanding, and that's why in the tree of the Ari all descends to Malchut only through Yesod.

-Christopher Huber

“Bath of Bright Silence” by David Chaim Smith (2018)

According to the CIA was when someone gets to 33 (33rd vertebrae or Golgotha) it creates a superimposed image of the spirit, the body, and all of the components therefore since Kundalini is a temporal paradox, they die and live through Christ and have the old neural network freely moving in the vessel. This old mapping of the first vessel is the Holy Ghost. The second time one gets to 33 by the number 666, it decimates the first image and keeps the second. Therefore God in the Flesh and something greater than man is in control. 777 is when bio lightning or the lightning flash of creation grants Christ to the heart of the initiate who completed the great work. It spirals down in the months that proceed after the lightning flash. The number 666 is the serpent of wisdom climbing back to the highest crown.

“God's ubiquity evokes oceanic imagery for mystics of all traditions. As a drop of water dissolved into the sea, so we are waves in an ocean of God. And, like fishes unable to comprehend the ocean within which they live, we too must push our language and imagery to describe the divine All. The most common word Jewish mystics choose to describe God is ‘Nothing.’ However, as we shall see, the God they describe is much more than nothing…

[The word Ayin] connotes not the absence of being, but the absence of any boundaries — that is, no ‘thing,’ a nothing that encompasses all creation. Ayin is therefore the font of all being, the substrate of creation. The Kabbalists called God Ayn Sof, endless. Not only can’t you own it, you cannot alter it, change it, or affect it in any way whatsoever. You cannot point to it. You can't even accurately say as much about it as we've already said. It is as if we were waves and it were the ocean. You and I, this book in your hands, the trees, the people we love, even the love itself, all of creation-they are all the waves, yesh, made of that ocean of Ayin, manifestations of that great underlying nothingness and oneness of all being.”

— Rabbi Lawrence Kushner. The Way into Jewish Mystical Tradition, pages 17-18.

“The Sephiroth are also imagined as ten shells or casings around the innermost core of En Soph, the formless and ineffable centre of all being.

The Cabbalists called meditation on this Nothing-in-Everything, extrapolating from a verse in the Song of Solomon (6, 11), "Going down into the garden of nuts".

Shakespeare refers to this when he has Hamlet say, "O God! I could be bounded in a nut-shell, and count myself a king of infinite space".

And Joyce in Finnegans Wake:

"Mark Time's Finist Joke.

Putting Allspace in a Notshall".

Image: Sephiroth scroll, Poland, 19th century.

From “Alchemy & Mysticism” by Alexander Roob (2011).

Diagram of different Trees of Life from "The Assyrian Tree of Life: Tracing the Origins of Jewish Monotheism and Greek Philosophy" by Simo Parpola in Journal of Near Eastern Studies.

being self aware suuuucks like yeah this thought pattern/behavior is stupid and pointless and a symptom. i know this. [does it anyways

‘India-Occupied Jammu and Kashmir’ is like saying ‘Israeli-Occupied West-Bank’, it delegitimises indigenous sovereignty over their traditional lands.

‘Pakistan’ is just like ‘Palestine’ in that it was a lie made up to ensure Islamist domination of the regions they were losing control of.

Kashmir is India the same way Judea is Israel

All Eyes on Kashmir

There’s this dark figure that makes me feel fear and lust in immense amounts that appears in my dreams weekly and I’m convinced he’s my darkness like this dude owns my soul

A Prayer to Sekhmet

You who flows through veins as heat and healing there is none who understands blood like You, who understands inside and out all we keep sealed, anger and agonies, everything we keep consumed.

You who is the Mother keeping watchful eye, decisive of right and wrong, who draws the line, who sees us chase righteous purpose and who drives and pushes us with breath-deep stirrings to those signs.

You know what it is to feel the overwhelming tide, You, Protectress Of Order Most Divine, You tell us, come drink or drought, which urge is right, You stand at our side and bring a strength like fire.

You who heals the sick: Bless the physicians who bring cure. You, destroying injustice: Bless those who weather storms. You most powerful of heart: May we reap what we deserve. You who awakens and inspires: May we make something out of hurt.

Anaïs Nin, in a diary entry dated 27 February 1929, featured in The Early Diary of Anaïs Nin: Vol. IV, 1927-1931

Hello! I've been struggling with how to depict and voice an eldritch horror entity. They are far removed from this universe, so I'm at a loss at how they would speak and act when interacting with a host/human. Can you help me and/or give me examples of what that might look like?

How to Give an Eldritch Horror Entity a Voice

-> feel free to edit and adjust pronouns as you see fit.

Emotionless Curiosity or Cruel Fascination

The entity may observe humans like a scientist would observe test subjects. It is not inherently evil, just so far removed that it doesn't comprehend pain or morality.

Example: "You break so easily. Such a soft mind, blistering with thoughts. Why do you weep?"

Example: "Fear. I recognize the shape of it now. Like heat in the bones."

Predator and Prey

The entity is aware of its power but it enjoys the chase. It is patient, and speaks low and slow to stretch out the dread.

Example: "I can hear your pulse like music. Louder now. Louder still."

Childlike and Curious

The entity is innocent and sounds sweet and playful, but does not understand the reality of what it is doing.

Example: "You're leaking! Why do you leak like that? Should I put it back in?"

Timeless Watcher

The entity speaks as if it has witnessed countless lives, deaths, and civilization. Everything the human feels is insignificant.

Example: "You are not the first to beg. The first was a king with gold in his mouth."

Curious but Growing Self Awareness

The entity is just beginning to understand language, humans, and itself.

Example: "Pain. You... do not like it."

Example: "Lonely. That is the word. I have never been lonely before you."

Foreign Language

The entity can't (or won't) use grammar like a human. It might communicate in fractured bursts, in symbols, in numbers, etc.

Example: "Lightlightdarkfolding--fold--fold--fleshwrongYES."

Example: "WE--I--MANY come through the not-between. Hello. Hello. Nothello."

Nonverbal Communication

The entity doesn't speak in the traditional sense. It communicates via dreams, hallucinations, physical sensations, etc. Words might appear as taste, as pain, or involuntary thoughts in the character's mind.

Example: She smelled salt and rotting roses. Then the message came: "Let me in."

Example: He tasted metal and heard weeping in the back of his mind.

I think Ian and Poppy had to kiss eventually. Not in a rooting for the romance kind of way but their relationship is so knotted up, they are neither platonic or romantic but a secret confused murky third thing. They know how to fight, they can argue and bicker and torture each other - we've seen how they hate other characters with Poppy and her sister's relationship or how Ian's relationship with his son. Hatred is comfortable for them, they understand it. They don't understand love though. Neither were ever shown kind and safe love (Ian's mother's love was shaped by her illness and Poppy's father's love was shaped by her mother, it was the most kind love they know but respectively, it's slightly tainted). They both see love as a tangible physical thing rather than one that can exist in the same vocal medium as their hatred can. They love each other, they hate each other. They don't know how to express it other than furthering blurring the lines.

''This is all I need: grief counselling from my own assassin.''

Greg Egan, 'The Walk' (Axiomatic, 1990).

been rotating this quote from Diaspora by Greg Egan around in my mind

"Conquering the galaxy is what bacteria with spaceships would do – knowing no better, having no choice."

It so neatly encapsulates my disgust with the idea of space colonization. Why do you presume that unchecked exponential growth is the only fate we can choose?

Mark S and Helena Eagen give eachother “the look of love.” Half of their faces are obscured since they’re only halves in this moment. He tells her he doesn’t care who her Outie is.

In the season finale, Mark S gives Helly R the exact same look.

Knowing full well she’s Helena Eagen.

He doesn’t care.

He loves all of her.

“I want to live with you.”

Britt Lower: “In all these iterations, they have a different chemistry. For both Helena Eagen and Mark Scout, and Mark S and Helly R, the seed of their connection is their dark sense of humour.”

we hope your rules and wisdom choke you, now we are one in everlasting peace…

borne by jeff vandermeer // the employees by olga ravn

Severance still making me insane

I loved that finale gives my stance on innies/outies even more solid ground.

They are the same people and even without memories they are making the same choices. Mark S and Mark Scout both utterly and completely love-driven. They do crazy, over-the-top, unbelievable shit for love, they both are willing to give up everything for love.

He makes the same choice twice, it's just the person he loves that is different.

Severance S2E10 - “Cold Harbor” // Westworld S1E10 - "The Bicameral Mind"

new s3 core four or bust. dan ericksen ben stiller you have my coordinates

the severance finale really said humans find beauty and meaning everywhere despite of it all and that doesn't justify the existence of the system that opresses them but also doesn't negate the worth of the life that has been carved out of it despite of it all and fuck you for creating and maintaining and profitting off the very same system that abuses and exploits me and those I love while saying our lives are too miserable to have worth and meaning. they do. no matter how small. despite of it all. despite of it all. I am chewing through cardboard.

by choosing to stay in the cycle they broke the cycle btw. because the cycle relies on the unwillingness of its participants. “every time you find yourself here it’s because [your outie] chose to come back.” almost every time their outies brought them there it was against their will. but the outies weren’t going to bring them back this time. so they simply didn’t leave.

the work is mysterious and important, and that's why we've severed this tuba player

Okay so obviously one of the main questions that Severance is asking is "who is a person?" Like, what is a life, what constitutes living? The outies don't consider that when they choose severance, they're creating an entirely new person, someone with a consciousness that exists seperate from their own. Even if they know that's what's happening in some way, they don't really GET that.

Early in season 1, Helena Eagan seems like such a cold monster for telling Helly "You are not a person. I am a person."

And she clearly is cold, no doubt. But she's also being honest about the way most outies genuinely seem to regard their innies. She's just saying it in a way they won't.

Mark says he understands his innie is a person, but the way he talks to him betrays that. Him and Devon are nice and gentle, but at the end of the day neither of them consider what it will mean to take down Lumon or for Mark to quit. Will it be ending innie Marks life? Sure. But he's not *really* a person, he doesnt *really* have a life, not like they have lives. So it's not the same.

Theyre like, genuinely shocked he takes this so poorly.

When Dylan G proposes to Gretchen, he says "i can give you a life." Which struck me as such a specific way to put that, because... he cant, really? Not "a life" the way she would understand it, with all the things people use to "build a life together." Like, a family, a home, time spent together not in one weird waiting room.

What kind of life can you offer when you only exist on one floor of one building? When you can only see each other in one room, possibly for an hour at a time every few days or weeks?

For Gretchen, that wouldn't be a life. But to Dylan G, it's all he knows. So it is a life, a full one. He has nothing else to compare it to.

For Mark and Devon and Helena, it seems so cruel to look at the lives of the innies and see them as less. As not real. To see the innies as not real people.

But i don't think the show is saying that they're wrong. I don't think it's saying that theyre right, either. I think it's just posing questions, difficult ones. It's easy to say "of course the innies are people, with lives and consciousness of their own, and its cruel to discount that."

But even the innies do the same thing. They do it to Ms. Casey, and to every single one of Gemma's other consciousnesses.

25 seperate consciousnesses, who only exist for hours at a time, in one room. Are those lives, are those people?

As Gemma and Mark run for the elevator, Dr. Mauer yells for them to stop. He yells "you're killing them all." At first i didn't get who he meant. I thought maybe he meant all the innies on the severed floor, like Innie Mark said. If they took Lumon down, they all die.

But he meant Gemma. All the Gemma's that exist in those rooms, the ones Innie Mark created.

If innies are people, seperate people with individual consciousness, then both Innie and Outie Mark just committed mass murder.

And he did it to Ms Casey, too. Has been trying to do exactly that all season. To find his outies wife and get her out of there. It was never a question of asking Ms Casey what she wanted or letting her have a life of her own on the severed floor, the way innie Mark and Helly choose. It was always about getting Gemma out, saving her.

The innies complain that their outies don't treat them like people, that they don't give them choices, but when faced with the same question, neither Helly nor Mark hesitate to put Gemma over Ms Casey.

They don't see her as a person the way they see themselves as people. And they REALLY don't see her other 24 consciousnesses as people. But why not? How long do you have to be alive to be considered a person? How many places do you need to be allowed to exist in before you get a choice?

To the outies, it's hard for them to consider that the innies are people in the same way they are. Their lives are too small, too confined.

And its the same for the innies. Gemma was split into 25 people, 24 of which likely only exist in one room, for maybe a few hours at a time. It's an existence even smaller than their half-lives, and they don't give it consideration the same way their outies don't consider them.

Is a life that small really a life? Would each of Gemma's consciousness' fight for their strange existence if they had a choice? If they knew what walking out those doors meant, would they be afraid to do it?

Would Ms Casey have chosen to leave, if Innie Mark had told her what was happening? If he had stopped to consider what he was doing in that moment, do you think he would have done anything different?

so gemma was orpheus all along. when she looked back, called mark’s name, and asked him to come home.. innie mark realized he had no feelings for this woman. if she had stayed facing forward maybe the allegiance to his outie would have won out. but gemma turning around made him hesitate long enough for helly to appear. and when she called his name.. it was game over. eurydice embraced the underworld with open arms.

also i'm such a gemma girlie. i don't mean in relation to mark or vs helly i don't care about any of that i'm a gemma girl forever. it's me and her. what if you thought you were eurydice until the last second until you turned around just in time to realize you were orpheus

Only Murders in the Building ━ 3x02 "The Beat Goes On"