Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 9: Flustered I Guess, Not Everything Is Lost Just Yet. I Actually Spent

Messy lighting experiment from a few days ago featuring my two favourite not-quite-human boys. I’m very much in love with Shin Megami Tensei IV: Apocalypse.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 2: Expressions

It's not as though I'd really need a heart. All I want is to see your smile one more time.

Okay, so. If becoming norted DOESN’T mean losing your free will, then what good would it do Xehanort to make Sora a vessel.

I am honestly so done with the Saix discourse around here.

Saix has Xehanort’s EYECOLOUR AND EARS for heaven’s sake. He is clearly at least influenced by Xehanort during his time in Org XIII. Not to mention he has a X carved into his forehead, X like keeping watch on people (see KH3D).

I always thought that Saix is losing more and more of himself to Xehanort, but that’s only my interpretation of course. He’s still at least partially himself, before his death in KH2, yes. He did terrible things, yes. I’m not saying those should be forgotten.

But please don’t forget, that he was also in a terrible situation and he was slowly losing his only support (= Lea). Situations have a huge impact on our decisions and behaviour, which has close to NOTHING to do with our personality. Feel free to google the fundamental attribution error on that one. Does this justify what he did? Not at all. Does this mean he shouldn’t be forgiven? Not. At. All. If he is willing to repent, then let him do it. EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE.

Then again, I’d like to take a look at the “terrible things” Isa/Saix did. The main problem I see is his behaviour towards Roxas and Xion, who would have needed support and whose situations were clearly made worse by him. Keep in mind that he deeply believes he doesn’t feel any emotions and nobody else around him does either. The definition of empathy (according to Dorsch, Lexikon der Psychologie [translated]) is the cognitive understanding and affective reciprocation of the assumed emotions of another being. Of course Saix doesn’t have any.

The “terrible things” I don’t understand, are those other people see in his interactions with Axel? Roxas and Xion hurt Axel’s mental state way more than Saix, not on purpose of course, but I strongly doubt Saix’ goal was to hurt Axel either. Saix and Axel are ARGUING. Axel doesn’t trust Saix and vice versa. Saix is angry, he’s sad, while he doesn’t acknowledge any of it. He tries to keep Axel close with their shared goal. With pressure, yes, which he didn’t have to, but they are still arguing, remember. There’s still a strong, unresolved conflict in between them. Don’t try to tell me, you’re always kind and caring in an argument, dear haters. Because BY SHARING HATE YOU ALREADY ARE CAUSING DAMAGE TO OTHER PEOPLE. I felt uneasy and irritated, I had sleepless hours thanks to those Saix hate posts. YOU caused me harm with your unnecessary discourse.

So what does this say about you? Shouldn’t you be forgiven?

AKUSAIMONTH | 2018 Day 2: After Missions

It was painful, but least they had each other.

[Day 1] [Day 2]

A super quick sketch for the bEGINNING OF AKUSAIMONTH 2021!!! No "official" list unfortunately, but that won't stop me! :D

"If I had a heart, this would be where I'd die of laughter." 19 Days left.

Because this is one of my favourite cutscenes. It features: - Naminé. - Naminé blurring. - Saix. - Riku. - Riku's theme. - Saix' superawesome dodging backflip. - Saix being pinned to a wall. - Saix grinning. - Kairi defying Saix basically the same way she defyed Axel and I like every parallel between those two. - Kairi being actually cool. - the image of Saix rolling over the floor laughing his ass off. It's just so wrong.

You have changed.

Reeeeeaaaaally late entry into AkuSaiMonth. I didn’t realize there was such a thing until, well yesterday. Yep. And then my internet gave up. I guess it was just as shocked as I was.

How on earth am I supposed to catch up?!

So, Entry Day: OTP Quote.


I wanted to take something else, anything else, but you know, actually that’s it. This one sentence describes it just so perfectly. That's basically why I ship those two.

So I actually would have made a .gif out of a HD scene yesterday but for some reason I can't upload it. Well, so I did a sketch instead. With the only pens I had at that moment, a biro and a neon pink text marker. I actually like the effect though. x'D

I am planning on doing this whole thing. Every day I missed on Berserk Mode, wish me good luck.

Things that make me feel like posting on Tumblr is actually still worth the effort:

THANK YOU SO MUCH for your tags, they make my day!! <3

By the way, I’ve had an Instagram account for a few months now and I finally offically opened it yesterday. So if you want to follow me over there:

https://www.instagram.com/herzblutrose/

Who knows, maybe I’ll use this opportunity to be a little more active on both platforms?

That's the place where I live. Looks cute from up there, doesn't it? When I look out of my room's window, I can see up to the exact place I stood when I was taking this photo.

It's nice to see things from a different angle from time to time.