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14Days of MHA - Day 1 - Family

@Pikahula posted about fourteen days of My Hero Academia. As much as they have given us, it felt wrong to not participate. MHA and this fandom has given me so much. I’ve written fanfic in private for some time and this felt like a good time to post some of it for the first time. Hope you enjoy my take on the Family prompt.

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Content warning/context: Festival Day included a family event. Reader, gender neutral, Class 1-A, family/childhood trauma (emotional, narcissist abuse, CPTSD). Found family fluff, Katsuki x Reader fluff. Word count: 1.8k

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Class 1-A made their way to the courtyard for their turns to meet up with their family members. You followed along quietly lost in a world of thoughts.

You understood why the school decided to add the family event. It was jarring for some students to be away from family. A part of you was worried that yours would show up today though, just to berate you yet again for picking a life they didn’t agree with. They signed off on the dorms more as way to get you out of their life than in acceptance of your choice to be a hero. Whatever their motive, you were excited to have a layer of protection from your family trying to antagonize you daily.

Mina interrupted your thoughts with a bubbly bump into your shoulder “Hey, are you excited?!”

“Oh, yeah for sure” you forced a cheerful smile.

“Raccoon eyes, what are you doing bumping into people?” Katsuki barked at her.

“I’m just excited.” she spun around in a circle while walking. “I haven’t seen them since…” You tuned out the conversation as you caught Katsuki’s gaze giving him an appreciative smile.

When families came up in conversation you brushed it off, kept things vague, or found some excuse to leave the conversation. It’s not like you remembered much of your childhood to have anything to tell. Therapist said that was the CPTSD trying to protect you, the build up of painful little moment after little moment over the years.

The only person who knew anything was Katsuki. Because of course he was observant of that too. One night studying at his house, he noticed you getting sad watching him interact with his parents, pressing it until you explained your situation. You don’t know if he fully understood being low or no contact with family. Even so, he helped take the attention off you when it came up in group conversations after that.

You found a bench on the edge of the courtyard and leaned back on your hands as you sat down. Seeing everyone smile and hug their families made you smile. Everyone was so happy, some of them crying with joy, others laughing, some bubbly excitement at catching up with family in person.

It all was almost enough to make you get up and join. Some of the groups were mingling together, it’s not like anyone would turn you away. As you started to shift to stand, you stopped yourself. This event isn’t for you. Let them all have their time with their families. Don’t be a burden, you thought.

That familiar wave of sadness, loneliness, anxiety, whatever it was, it washed over you. You threw your head back to look up at the sky. Blinking to the adjustment of light, or to blink away the tears that pricked at your eyes.

A woman’s voice forced your head to whip back forward. “Hi there.” It was Mitsuki.

“Hello.” You said as you sat up straight on the bench. You hadn’t notice how sprawled out your arms where. “Sorry, did you want to sit down?” you offered nervously. Had she seen me tearing up?

“Thank you, could use the break from all that commotion.” She laughed lightly as her hand motioned back towards Katsuki barking at Kaminari, while Masaru was apologizing to Kaminari’s family.

You couldn’t help the snicker that escaped and the genuine smile that crossed your face. For whatever reason Katsuki did that to you. Him just existing was like a bright star in the dark sky always leading you back to where you should be.

Mitsuki caught you watching her son. “That boy of ours is such a handful” she had the tone of years of exhaustion from raising him. It was the layer of love and admiration mixed in, that caught you off guard.

That was the difference, you thought. Your family would say you were exhausting but meant it to hurt, that they would have preferred not to have you, that you were a burden. Mitsuki loved her son through it all, his attitude, his explosive energy, she loved him. What does it feels like to have a family that actually loves you, you let your mind wonder before cutting the thought off and steadying your mind back to the conversation.

“He’s not all that bad.” you smiled “It’s just how he communicates.” You couldn’t help the flutter of butterflies in your stomach as you looked at Katsuki, now laughing with the group. He had the most amazing smile.

Before either of you could say anything else, you saw Katsuki notice you and his face change. Something of surprise, annoyance maybe, or was he flustered it was you talking to his mother. “Hey Hag, what are you doing bothering people?” He yelled.

“Katsuki!” Mitsuki stood with authority. “Could you behave yourself for once?” she yelled back at him. She turned back to you, “I’m so sorry for him.” she said with a sweet apologetic smile.

“None needed” you smiled as you laughed. You’d seen them interact before and knew he was nothing but bark towards her. You found it cute how they yelled and argued with each other, knowing it wasn’t from any place of anger or actual resentment, it was endearing.

As they continued to bicker from across the courtyard, your smile and laughter faded. You couldn’t stop the waves of emotions crashing into you. Your face slipped into your thoughts. I was so behaved, and yet they never treated me with such love. Why? What did I do wrong? Why wasn’t I good enough? Why couldn’t they just love me?

Even from his distance across the courtyard, Katsuki noticed your face drop. “YN, you good?” he called over, calmer, concerned. Their fighting put on pause as Mitsuki turned to look at you as well with that same concern across her face.

Tears were pooled at the rim of your eyes. “Huh?” you said as you blinked and they streamed down your cheeks, tuning you into why they were you looking at you with such concern. No, no, don’t be a burden.

You shook your head and brushed your eyes with the back of your hands. “I’m fine.” you called out, you didn’t even believe yourself. “I don’t know what happened” you steadied yourself a bit more. “Must have been a bug or something in my eye. I’ll be right back” you were already standing and a step towards the direction of the bathrooms before all the words were out.

“Dear.” Mitsuki said almost a whisper. She took the stride towards you and wrapped you in a tight hug.

What was happening? The mix of intrusive thoughts and the warmth of a genuine hug were pulling you at opposite ends. “I’m ok-ay” your voice breaking from the now full crying that was happening.

She gently shushed you as she pulled you in tighter. “It’s okay if this is hard.” How does she- Did Katsuki tell her?

“You’ve done so much for my son, please let me be here for you.” she pulled you back to arms length to look in your eyes. Her voice sterned, she made sure you were listening before saying “Family doesn’t have to blood. It’s who you want it to be. You are not robbed of new love because of any lack of it in the past.”

Your chin trembled as you held back sodding, tears escaping down your cheeks. She pulled you back into a hug. Maybe so you don’t embarrass her, crying out in the open like this. your sinical thought intruding. You forced it away. Maybe because this is how real parents comfort their kids. You thought to yourself in a softer voice. You wrapped your arms around her and pulled yourself into the embrace.

She continued “We will be here for you, anytime you need it.”

You let yourself sob, muffled into her.

She continued “You are important to my son, so you are important to me. More than that, you are amazing on your own. You don’t deserve to feel so alone, my dear.” You could feel her head shift looking back to everyone in the courtyard. “You have so many people here who are your family. I know any of them will let you lean on them when you need it. Okay?”

You nodded against her as your breath steadied. You weren’t sure if you fully believed her. You knew everyone here was your friend, but you never wanted to burden someone else with your mess of trauma. Would they still truly want to be there for you if they knew how much of a mess you actually were?

Your thoughts were interrupted at the sound of Katsuki barking from somewhere next to you. “What are you doing hag? Trying to suffocate them?”

You felt yourself move before you realized where you were going. Mitsuki had turned and softly pushed you into Katsuki’s arms. He hesitantly held you not sure what was happening.

“Katsuki, Stop yelling.” Mitsuki said as she hit the top of his hand passing by him back to Masaru in the courtyard. You saw her turn and smile sweetly towards you. Almost a giving permission or maybe giving the mom order of let it happen, let us love you.

Katsuki’s energy shifted, concerned, feeling the tension in your body and the jagged breaths from your crying. You were still sniffling as you regained composure. “Family shit get to you?” he said in a soft grumble as he hugged you with more intention.

“Yeah” you said softly curling into his chest. He was warm and smelled sweet. Something about him always calmed your nerves. Taking a deep breath, “I’m such a mess. I was trying so hard to not let it ruin anyone’s day.”

“Fuck that!” he barked above you. Taken aback, you looked up towards him. That cocky smile across his face. “You’re amazing. The only way you’re ruining anyone’s day is by sulking over here by yourself.” he said with confidence and a hint of pink crossing his face.

A soft smile settled on your face as you leaned into him. “Thank you” you mumbled sweetly into him. You could just barely see the pink turn a shade darker.

“Come on already.” he said turning away from you while grabbing you hand. “Let’s go back to the idiots.” This version of him was one of your favorites. He was softer, gentle even. He made you feel safe and important.

As you walked back to the groups of friends and their families, their bright faces washing away any anxiety you might have had joining in on their fun. You smiled and laughed and thought, maybe it was true. That it’s okay to be loved. It’s okay to make a new family.

That even though it was chance that you all were in the same class, that this was your family and you are forever grateful for them all.

Birthday Boy!!!!

Happy Birthday Katsuki!!! 💥🎉

Eating up these full color sketches

14DaysofMHA - Day 6 - Minor Character

Hard to say who is a minor character or not. But here are some of my favorites that I wish we would have gotten more of

In all seriousness, this is another sign Keigo's going to Do Something. There's something interesting how there was speculation about Hawks getting a quirk back, but he actually has Power he didn't, and I'm fascinated that the wings he saw as a curse but were essential to his identity being removed has basically left him with more agency and ability to help than as a hero. And there's no reason they'd repeat that he's the President with the power to Fix Things (even if it's joked about by one of the most unimaginative and milquetoast characters in this manga) if it was to be discarded.

One Piece Wano thoughts part 2

This arc was so damn long. Like almost too long. But also it felt like some of the end was rushed. (Like a chapter or two for Robins and Jimbeis fights didn't feel satisfying, minks where basically off acreen)

Did not see the Kanjuro twist coming. Love being surprised.

The whole Raid fight(s) was a lot. Like so much going on, everyone moving around every two seconds. It being more than just the crew fighting/we're tracking just was a lot. Don't feel like some things had enough time to shine.

Oda not keeping people dead made those that did die not impactful in the moment. Anytime some "dies" I'm just thinking are they really or will some random thing save them. (Kin dying could have been so impactful but then he just wasn't put together correctly since punk hazard, come on Oda, that kinda sucked).

Overall, loved Kaido as the villain of the arc. He's noble in some ways, evil in others. Very good villain overall.

Ace 😭

Finally getting to the big fight and it definitely paid off. Seeing the group all work together without having to say much was cool. Zoro blocking the Big Mom Kaido attack shows how damn strong he is.

Love how both Kaido and Big Mom find Law's powers annoying/they don't have an immediate defense for them.

Wait, what's at the end of Luffy's dream that's the same as Roger's?

Nami getting protective over Tama is cute. Mama bear Nami again with kids.

Eating up every Marco crum I get. He's so funny. Old veteran just happy to be there. Izo carrying him out of the battle as he rambled about old legends had me cackling.

Killer is cool as hell. His short screen time with the Hawkins fight, go get em partner. Loved it.

Law doing all this and saying it's so he can learn about history is hilarious to me. Boy is annoyed and always having a bad day and saying it's just to learn history just came off funny.

The time limit and bombs in the basement felt not needed. There was already so much going on, so many fights, the whole place on fire. I get it, but meh.

The that's how dinosaurs work joke did nothing for me. Kinda dumb.

Sanji having to battle internally of becoming emotionless could be really interesting. Hoping we get more of that.

Loved the Zoro v King fight. Getting to see Zoro work out internally about the sword and King's body's abilities. He is the GOAT for a reason!

King is hot. Why have I seen nothing about how hot he is. Nice surprise.

The way I squealed when Zoro said Luffy is his best friend!!

Gum Gum / Nika lore drop is great. Unfortunately kinda knew it from spoilers cause the Internet broke when that happened. Still cool to see it and I like the look of it far better than his gear three and four forms. Particularly the rallying people. He's been doing that since day one and that adds an extra layer to it.

I need, need, more information on Zoro and the fucking grim reaper. What the hell happened after the panel?! We're just skimming over that?!

Yamato holding they're own with Kaido, his wolf form is sweet. Helping keep Momo on track and getting used to his dragon powers. Cute.

The so-and-so samurai, Ushimari, is definitely related to Zoro right? SBS said not his father but could be uncle or something right.

Going to miss Law, Kid and Luffy bickering. They bring back the silliness of pre time skip.

Sabo didn't kill Cobra, there's no way. Cobra was dying and they probably planned it that for some reason and Vivi went with Sabo to fight in the revolution.

Questions though. Shanks presumably knew what he was stealing. Did he intend to eat it? Did he plan to give it to Luffy? So many questions there.

Are Kaido and Big Mom dead? Or just stuck floating in lava...cause that's a thing they can do ...

Shanks is on screen for two seconds, using haki from offshore and it's the hottest fucking thing.

Love the flag handoff to Mom at the end. The open invitation to join the crew. Luffy felt like a proper captain, proper emperor in that moment.

Haven't watched the anime in some time, it's pacing has been so bad in the past. Do want to sit down to watch Wano. Have seen edits of these fights and feel like they got to expand on what Oda was rushed to get out for weekly.

Anyways, onward to Egghead!!

One for all

Fucking jump scare