How Can He Be So Wrong Yet So Good?

there's just something so comforting about seeing Bakudeku shippers losing their minds about Izuocha being canon and promptly getting their mouths shut lmao

imagine having the audacity to even think your shitty ship was going to be canon, despite Izuocha being a better ship from the start and actually making more sense?

ANYWAYS, CRY ME A RIVER AND CONTINUE HAVING MELTDOWNS, IDC

i cant get over his stupid fucking smile.

The Things he Hates About You.

SFW. Fluff? Angst? Muzan x GN reader.

Muzan hates that you eat foods which churn his stomach; sickeningly sweet or repulsive savory scents which his body rejects. He still sits with you though, his throat closing while you devour the meals he enjoyed in another life. He tries not to remember those years. And yet, his heart squeezes as he tastes the foods' flavor in your kiss, and he's never sure if it's caused by the echo of comfort from his mortal years, or simply the softness of your lips beneath his. 

Muzan hates your compulsion to help. That you expend your energy and use your strength to assist others, leaving yourself exhausted. It's pointless; a weakness he wishes he could shake out of you. Instead he simply lies beside you as you sleep and recover, despising that you can't seem to say no to the demands of your human conscience. 

Muzan hates that he can see traces of the sun on your skin; dark tones, freckles, sunburn. It reminds him of what he can't have, a freedom he is denied. It's the price he pays for power. He kisses each freckle with desperation, as if he can erase the sun's touch from your skin. You belong with him in darkness, yet he sends you out each day to walk in the light, knowing you'll return after sundown and he can bask in your glow. 

Muzan hates the little lines at the corners of your eyes and across your brow; the signs of aging. He can see you decaying before his very eyes and knows there will be a time you go where he refuses to follow. Every second you slip a little farther away from him, despite growing closer as the days go by.

Muzan hates your laugh. He hates that you find amusement in simple things, that happiness comes so easy to you even if it's only fleeting. How can you be happy? You're dying. 

Muzan hates that the only solution is to turn you, to transform you into a demon and have you at his side for eternity. But then… you wouldn't be you. Your flaws, your fragility, your tender human heart, they would all be gone. He can't lose that.

Muzan hates that he cares about any of this. He's betrayed by his quickening pulse, his relief and comfort at seeing you, and the intrusive thought that perhaps he should bid farewell to his immortality when you are inevitably taken from him.

And Muzan hates that you know all of this, that he sees the adoration and the apology in your eyes. Your love is devastating, painful, and fleeting, and there's nothing he can do to stop you slipping from his grasp.

i HAD to draw this!!!

I’m so sorry

scar reference + notes for my renkaza longfic (under the cut, if you're looking for it)

Slow burn, Ongoing, M rating (subject to change)

Some Tips for writing internal conflict

Wanting Two Things at Once Imagine your character really wants to chase after something big, like a dream school, a major opportunity, or maybe even moving to a new city. But at the same time, they’re terrified of leaving behind everything they’ve ever known. Or maybe they’re in a relationship that’s holding them back, but they can’t bring themselves to let go. Show them getting pulled in two directions, torn between their ambition and their fear of losing the people or places that ground them.

Right vs. Wrong Sometimes, your character will know deep down what the right choice is, but it’s the most difficult one to make. Like, maybe they see someone getting bullied and know they should stand up, but doing so could make them a target. Or maybe they have to decide between helping a friend and doing something that could ruin their own future. These moral dilemmas create intense internal conflict because it forces them to question who they are and what they stand for.

Doubting Themselves We all have moments where we wonder if we’re enough, smart enough, strong enough, brave enough. Let your character wrestle with that same doubt. Maybe they’re the kid who has always been told they’re special, but now they’re in a place where everyone is just as good, and they start to wonder if they even belong. Or maybe they’ve been through something tough, and they’re not sure if they can bounce back. These moments of insecurity make your character feel human, like they’re trying to figure it all out, just like everyone else.

Dreams vs. Fears Show your character dreaming big but getting frozen by their own fears. It’s like wanting to ask someone out but being terrified of rejection, or wanting to move away for college but being scared to leave home. Let them imagine all the things that could go wrong , that moment when fear makes them doubt if they should even try. But also show their desire burning just as strong, making it impossible to ignore. That’s the heart of internal conflict: they’re stuck between wanting something so bad and being afraid of what it’ll cost to go after it.

Beliefs Being Challenged As your character grows, the world will start challenging their beliefs. Maybe they grew up in a family that drilled certain values into them, and now they’re meeting people who see things differently. Or maybe they’re experiencing something new, and it’s changing their perspective. It’s like when you think you have everything figured out, and then life throws something at you that makes you go, "Wait, maybe I’ve been wrong this whole time." This kind of internal conflict is powerful because it forces the character to question who they’ve always been.

Keeping Secrets If your character is hiding something, like a mistake they made, feelings they’re afraid to admit, or a truth they don’t want to face, that secret becomes a huge part of their internal conflict. The fear of being found out or of dealing with the consequences can create a constant pressure in their mind. Maybe they’re scared they’ll lose their friends if the truth comes out, or maybe they’re dealing with guilt they can’t shake. The tension comes from their battle to keep it hidden while knowing they can’t keep it locked away forever.

Pressure from Everyone Your character might feel like they’re trapped between what they want for themselves and what everyone else wants from them. It could be pressure from parents, who have their whole future planned out, or pressure from friends to fit in or follow the crowd. Maybe your character wants to be true to themselves, but they’re scared of disappointing people or standing out too much. This kind of internal conflict is super relatable because, at some point, everyone feels like they’re stuck between living for themselves and living for others.

Fear of Failing Sometimes the biggest obstacle isn’t the external challenge but the internal fear of failure. Your character might have big dreams, but they’re paralyzed by the thought of messing up. Whether it’s competing in a sport, performing on stage, or just trying something new, the fear of not being good enough can be overwhelming. Maybe they’re afraid that if they fail, everyone will see them differently, or worse, that they’ll see themselves differently. The internal conflict comes from their desire to succeed battling against their crippling fear of failure.

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