Highandscared - Hi!

My baby kitty Captain!! :D

COOOOOOOOOOME HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOME THE KETTLES WHIIIIISTLIIIIING!!!!!!!!!!! MY HEARTS A GHOST LIMB REACHING STARBURNED AND UNKISSED!!!!!!!!!!

im geeked of penut butter kush, but theres no jelly to boost it

i've started streaming and im using it as an excuse to buy more legos and magic cards

Had a shocking revelation last night, maybe this insight will help somebody else. I don't know how to ask for what I want. It seems so silly and ridiculous in my head, just use your words just ask for what you want. I think it's been so beaten into me time and time again that what I want comes second to everybody else in my life. The world has often required me to be stronger than I am, and to make up for it I tell myself I don't need or want anything. To want is to burden another person with the expectation of fulfilling that want, and that's selfish and wrong no matter how small of a task it is. But maybe I'm past the point of needing to be strong. I think I might be the only one still fighting, and at this point I'm only fighting myself. I need to start asking for what I want, and trusting the people around me to fulfill that desire.

sometimes I have brief moments of clarity like oh yes. love and joy should be guiding me and it will all work out. documenting so i remember to express this

Guess who’s enabling an unhealthy delusion because somebody looked at him and now is on a downward spiral that will inevitably leave him more alone and isolated than before! :3

is it ok if i just exist for a little bit im so tired i want to feel ok with doing nothing