You Know I’m A Little Conflicted On John Winchester, Cause On One Hand Seeing The Love Of Your Life

You know I’m a little conflicted on John Winchester, cause on one hand seeing the love of your life burning alive on the ceiling of your infant child’s bedroom must’ve been beyond painful. It must’ve taken years for him to stop being afraid to look at ceilings, expecting to see Mary burning again. But that being said, Sam, and Dean needed him to be their father, not their drill sergeant. The fact that he was a better father to Adam over the two children he had with the love of his life is beyond messed up. Telling your eldest son that he might have to kill his little brother then straight up dying (therefore avoiding the fallout), fudged up. “Inadvertently” making Dean have to be the mother, and father to Sam (cheating Dean out of his childhood), fudged all the way up. Don’t even get me started on his hunter “training techniques” that borderline on abuse. I know he’s a fictional character, and he’s gone through unimaginably traumatizing things, but that’s no excuse to pass it onto your kids. Anytime Sam or Dean mentioned something horrible John did I’d want to pull his behind out of hell/heaven, and slap him across the face. Anyway, thank you for coming to my Ted talk, maybe I’m not as conflicted as I thought 😅.