“A Year Ago, You Did Not Know Today. You Did Not Know How You’d Make It Here. But You Made It Here.

Recognize when you’re at your emotional limits

After getting what you prayed for, pray for discipline to keep it and wisdom to multiply it.

I woke up today wanting, craving, fiening for LOVE.

But the REAL thing, I am willing to be patient as long as it takes for that real thing.

Man I am so deserving of it, I have been very patient, and healed from a loooot of pain and anguish. Its gonna feel so good when it’s finally my time.

i save me, i heal me, i got me, i have me.

“And suddenly you know: It’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.”

— Meister Eckhart

“Please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough.”

— Stephen Chbosky

i think a lot about the loneliness of being aromantic. because it's something that's so profound, right? you're told your whole life that you need something to make you happy, to make you complete, to give you connection with other people, and when you realize you're aro, that's torn away from you. everything you've been raised to want is no longer something that will fulfill you. you are not built to be happy. and it gets better with time, it does! you restructure your world view, bit by bit, and the sting fades, but... i don't think it ever truly goes away. it's hard to express, because i love being aro, and i'm happy being aro, i wouldn't want to be any other way, but at the same time. there is such a profound heartbreak to knowing that you will never be someone's most important person in a society that values romance. that you'll never get the happy ever after that you were promised as a child. and you know you can be happy. but there's a lifetime of amatonormativity that lives in your brain and tells you that you can't.