Alice Miller, The Drama Of The Gifted Child: The Search For The True Self

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– Schuyler Peck, "The Greatest Act of Self-Love Isn't Always Pretty" (Instagram Account: "hiitssky")

[TEXT ID: I TOOK CARE OF MYSELF and it wasn't beautiful.

I took care of myself / and looked at the overdue bills / in the face, even though it hurt. / I took care of myself / and cried ugly through the therapy session; / made another appointment for next week.

I put in the work and wrote / all the bad memories in detail; / apologized to all the friends / I didn't have the energy to talk to. / I finally cut off all my dead ends / and bought produce-slimly avoided / sustaining myself on barbecue chips and poetry. / I recycled. / I set an alarm for 8 hours of sleep / and did not sleep more or less.

I took care of myself / and it wasn't bubble baths, / It wasn't lotion at Bath and Bodyworks / and three cheese pizza. It was uncomfortable. / It wasn't beautiful, / but I am, / and it didn't have to be beautiful / to be worth it. END ID]

I'm not "giving up" or "being negative" I'm adjusting to my reality - which is actually a lot healthier than repeatedly pushing myself past my limits and then getting mad at myself when it doesn't work.

Yasmin    

After getting what you prayed for, pray for discipline to keep it and wisdom to multiply it.