You’re Insecure

You’re insecure

You’ve never thought of yourself as someone beautiful.... To you there were plenty of other girls, that were prettier, funnier, skinnier. Niall had managed to make you feel special, and maybe a little bit beautiful, but insecurity always took over you when the two of you met his fans. Plenty of them were better than you. They were sweet, they were more beautiful, they were fitter, just making your self esteem go down the drain. 

Every time Niall had gone out with the boys or at the studio, You would just stand in front of the full length mirror in your shared bedroom, pointing out every single flaw you had, Your nose looked weird, your eyebrows were too bushy, you had too much acne, you were too fat. These were only a few comments you said to yourself. 

You were doing the same thing today, pointing out your flaws had become a daily routine for you. You were snapped out of your trance when you felt a Niall’s strong arms wrap around your waist. “Hi beautiful.” He greeted, kissing your cheek. “Hi.” You greeted, in a soft tone. “Admiring yourself?” He jokingly asked. You smiled slightly. “No.” You replied, your smile instantly vanishing. His eyes sprung up at your sudden change of emotion. “Are you okay princess?” He asked, concern lacing his voice. You turned around, putting the best fake smile you could master. “I’m fine.” You replied. 

Niall wasn’t convinced. His bright cerulean eyes filled with concern and worry. He removed an arm from your waist, to caress your cheek. “No you’re not princess. What’s wrong?” He asked sternly. Looking down at your feet. “I’ll just burden you.” You said under your breath. He lifted your head up, making gentle eye contact with you. “You are not a burden. My love, please tell me what’s wrong.” He pleaded. you sighed, “I-it’s not that easy.” You breathed out, tears filling up in your eyes. 

He saw how you were struggling, not able to get any words out of your mouth. He wrapped his arms around you, placing your head on his shoulder as you wrapped your arms around him, both of you holding each other tightly. You were bawling your eyes out, every single tear that you’ve kept in. You’ve never been like this, you’ve always been emotionally strong, keeping a smile on your face and trying to be happy for the sake of others. Now.... you had just broken down, and in all honesty, you needed to get things out. 

You cried until you couldn’t anymore. Niall had been comforting you all the way, all you ever needed was his embrace and as he place soft kisses on your temple. Pulling away slightly, as he rested his forehead on yours and wiped away your tears. “Can you tell me darlin’?” He asked, his voice calm and soothing. Letting out a deep sigh as he wrapped an arm around your waist. 

You were trying to gather some courage to speak, but your voice wouldn’t let you. “Babe, I want to help you, I really do.” He said, you could see the sincerity in his eyes. “I’m just so insecure of myself, I don’t think I’m a good friend, I’m not a good person, every single girl out there is so much better than me. They’re beautiful, they’re funnier, they’re more caring, they’re fitter, why did you pick this piece of trash when you could of had a diamond?” You asked. 

You leaned your head on his shoulder. “You probably don’t want me anymore...” You trailed off, that was what hurt you the most, losing him, but you knew it would happen. “Princess...” He started. You pulled away, looking at your feet, trying to avoid eye contact. He held your chin with his index finger and thumb, lifting your head up to make eye contact. “Yes, there are many girls out there that I could of had, but my love, you are a diamond as well, and out of all those diamonds out there, you shone the brightest to me. My love you have no idea how wonderful you are. You make me smile and laugh on my worst of days, you’re there to comfort me, anyone would be so overjoyed to have you in their life.” He comforted. 

His words did manage to make you smile slightly, just the corners of your mouth curling up a bit. “Melody, you are the only one I want, I wouldn’t trade you for absolutely anything or anyone. You mean the absolute world to me, you’re my everything.” He added, bringing you in for a sweet and passionate kiss.You smiled in mid kiss, wrapping your arms around his neck, playing with his hair, as you felt your heart soar and butterflies in your stomach. Both of you pulling away reluctantly. “I love you.” You told him, your voice soft with a smile curling up your lips. “I love you so much more, and I am going to help you love yourself. I’ll be with you every single step of the way.” He replied with his charming smile. “Thank you.” You thanked quietly. 

Now you could safely say, that incident changed your life for the better. Niall has been absolutely wonderful with helping you, you’ve become confident, you’re not afraid to speak your mind, it’s okay if you don’t please everybody, you’ve put your happiness before others and you can definitely say you’re much happier than before, you couldn’t express your thanks to Niall in words, he’s done so much for you, he’s been your number one supporter and he was so helpful, how amazing he is to love you unconditionally while you were trying to love yourself. He’s the best person you have in your life, and nothing would change your love for him.

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Hi lovlies! Sorry it took so long for an update, I know this is really late but Happy New Year!! I hope we all have an amazing 2016, let’s hope this year treats the 1D fandom well(I highly doubt that but let’s try) I wish all of you the best love ya <3 ~ Yas