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(wich is like a very funny very haha way of asking for five grilled meat tacos i guess)

((why am i trying to explain the joke this is just spanish shitpost))

A week later and I am still very normal about this

and i oop

Art Blast!! pt2

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This doesn't have to be a public reply but I saw your Instagram story (BE SAAAAAFE :'D) and was curious what it is you write on?

Pardon if you've stated this before and I missed it. But the black and orange/red font caught my eye.

I use Calmly Writer! It has a desktop version, and a free online browser version.

It has a lot of settings to customize, and the browser version is free (I bought the desktop version several years ago, in 2017 I think though)

Here are my settings:

Zen Writer is also a very good writing program. You can play background music during it and also choose your own background and stuff

Calmly Writer and Zen Writer are both focus based writing applications with a little extra relaxation factor thrown in there so it's easier for me to use. I'm not an ad btw I just legit swear by these programs. I've been using them since writing Fnaf stuff in middle school, and I swear by them lmao

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Represention of Autistic Frustration in Laios Dungeon Meshi

Like many other autistic people, I related strongly to Laios Touden while reading Dungeon Meshi. This post isn't going to spend time disputing whether he displays autistic traits or not—while I could do that, I want to focus on why specifically his portrayal struck a chord with me in a way the writing of most other autistic-coded characters has not.

Disclaimer: as the above suggests, this post is strongly informed by my own experiences as an autistic person, as well as the experiences of my neurodivergent friends with whom I have spoken about this subject. I want to clarify that in no way am I asserting my personal experience to be some Universal Autistic Experience. This post is about why Laios' character feels distinct and significant to me in regard to autistic representation, and while I'm at it, I do feel that I have interesting things to say about autistic representation in media generally. This also got a bit long, so I'm sticking it under a read more. Spoilers for up to the end of chapter 88 below.

The thing that stands out most to me in regard to Laios' characterisation is the open anger he displays when someone points out his inability to read other people. This comes up prominently in his interactions with "Shuro" (Toshiro Nakamoto):

The frustration pictured above (Laios continuing to physically tussle with Toshiro, using crude language toward him) becomes even more notable when you remember that this is Laios, who, outside of these interactions, is not easily fazed and often exists as a lighthearted contrast to the rest of the cast. Then we get to Laios' nightmare.

In Falin's words: "Nightmares love emotional wounds. Wounds you hold in your heart. Things that give you stress, or things that were traumatic for you. They aggravate memories like that and cause the dreamer to have terrible dreams." (chapter 42, page 10.) (damn. i'm properly citing for this post and everything.)

Thus, Laios' nightmare establishes an important fact: even if he is unable to recognise social blunders while he's making them, he's at least subconsciously aware that other people operate on a different wavelength to him, and that he's an outsider in many of his social circles (both past and present). His dream-father's disparaging words stress the impact this has had upon his ability to live up to the expectations set out for him, and we also get a panel of kids who smirk at him (presumably former bullies to some degree). Toshiro's appearance only hammers home how much Laios is still both humiliated and angered by his misunderstanding of their relationship.

I've thought a lot about anger as concomitant to the autistic experience. When autistic representation portrays ostracization, it's generally from an angle of the autistic character being upset at how conforming to neurotypical norms doesn't come easily to them; as a result, they express a desire to 'get better' at meeting neurotypical standards, a desire to become more 'normal' (whether the writing implies this is a good thing or not). In contrast, not once does Laios go, "I need to perform better in my social interactions, and try to care less about monsters, because that's what other people find weird." His frustration is directed outward rather than inward, and as a result, it's the people around him who are framed as nonsensical.

The Winged Lion starts delineating Laios' anger, and Laios' reaction is to think to himself, "It can sense all my thoughts, huh?" (chapter 88, page 16.) This is the scene that really resonated with me. I'm not saying I have never felt the desire to conform to neurotypical norms that is borne from insecurity, but primarily, I know that I don't want to work toward becoming 'normal'—I don't want to change myself for people who follow rules I find nonsensical. It's the difference between, "Oh god, why can't I get it," and, "WHY CAN'T YOU GET IT?" (phrasing here courtesy of my friend Miles @dogwoodbite). And for me personally, Dungeon Meshi is the first time I've seen this frustration and the resultant voluntary isolation from other people portrayed in media so candidly. Laios' anger is not downplayed or written to be easily palatable, either.

The culmination of Laios' frustrations in this scene wherein we learn that Laios has fantasised about "a pack of monsters attacking a village" drives home just how alienated he really feels. I need not go into his wish to become a monster himself, redolent of how many autistic people identify/have identified with non-humans to some degree as a result of a percieved disconnect from society (when I was younger, I wanted to be a robot. I still kind of do.)

Obviously, wishing death upon other people is a weighty thing, but the unfiltered nature of this page is what deeply resonated with me. The Winged Lion is laying Laios' deepest and most transgressive desires bare, and they are desires that are a product of lifelong ostracization by others (whether intentional or unintentional). This is the brand of anger I'm familiar with, and that my neurodivergent friends express being familiar with, but that I haven't seen portrayed in writing so explicitly before—in fact, it surprised me because most well-meaning autistic representation I've experienced veers toward infantilisation in trying make the autistic character's struggles easy for neurotypicals to sympathise with.

Let's also not neglect the symbolism inherent to Laios' daydream. "A pack of monsters attacking a village". Functionally, monsters are Laios' special interest—he percieves everything first and foremost through his passion for monsters. His daydream of monsters attacking—killing—humans, is fundamentally a daydream of the world he understands (monsters) overthrowing the world that is so illogical to him, that has repeatedly shunned him (other people). I joked to my friends that it's an autistic power fantasy, and it actually sort of is. And in it, his identity is aligned with that of the monsters, while his anger manifests in a palpable dissociation from the rest of humanity. This is one manga page. It's brief. It's also very, very raw to me. I think about it often.

To conclude, I love Laios Dungeon Meshi. This portrayal of open frustration in an autistic character meant a lot to me, and I hope I've sufficiently outlined why. Also, feel free to recommend media with autistic representation in the notes if you've read this far—I would really like to see if there is more of this nature. Thank you for reading. I'm very tired and should probably sleep now.

Concept doodles for the after-Kallamar-battle scene in Trod that I've been rotating in my mind for almost a year, that go with the past doodles I've made

The Lamb has a breakdown outside what this comic shows, Narinder gets closer to the truth, and they both become closer as a consequence.

eso es tumblr, alimenta mi hiperfix

Rocket Raccoon headcanons

-even as a cybernetically enhanced raccoon, he still is a raccoon so while his eyesight is better than that of the rest of his kind it's still lacks in some ways. While he got excellent night vision, he can not tell the different shades of colors and sometimes confuses blue with green for example. He is also slightly near sighted and has trouble reading small writing and can barely read handwritten stuff

-speaking of his eyes: They reflect light in darkness like most nocturnal animals! This nearly scared the shit out of Peter, when he went to the bathroom one night, turned on the flashlight and was met with a pair of green glowing orbs down the hall. "What the fuck, Rocket?! Dude, i almost pissed myself!"

-he can eat anything! He is not above eating the leftovers of his fellow guardians and sometimes even will dig out fruit and vegetable skins out of the trash, complaining how anyone could throw this away. One time Peter played a mean prank on him by giving him a bowl of Cosmos dog kibble and telling him it's cereal. After watching Rocket delightfully dig in, he burst out in laughter declaring him a trash panda once more

-on rare occasions he gets so angry, that his primal instincts take over and he becomes absolutely feral! He will hiss, bark and growl and destroy things by ripping them apart with his teeth and claws

-sometimes after a battle the implants in his joints and spine hurt from being over used by running and fighting and he has to walk on all fours for some time to ease the pain. He mostly just curls up alone in some corner though, afraid of being laughed at because this is just another animal thing

-he loves swimming. One time the Guardians went to a planet that has lots of lakes and they decided to go for a swim and Rocket had so much fun, splashing the others and finding some discarded parts to make new inventions out of

Sometimes a family is a scientist afraid of spiders and his spider-like son

*give Leshy a stick* Go poke Kallamar

Is this the Cain instinct?