Hospitaiforbrokensouls-blog - Dying

“I’m lonely. And I’m lonely in some horribly deep way and for a flash of an instant, I can see just how lonely, and how deep this feeling runs. And it scares the shit out of me to be this lonely because it seems catastrophic.”

— (via flame)

are you okay?I can't say " I know exactly how you feel, " because I don't. But I just want to ask if you are okay, because I know when I was feeling empty and depressed for a period of time, I remember wishing someone were to ask if I was okay, just so I knew someone is noticing and someone cares. I may not know you, but I do know that you are a human being, who feels things and may not always be able to express how you're feeling...

No I’m not I just want to fucking die already everything in my head torchers me and I can’t life any more I just want to end it like three days ago I’m out of places to cut and out of pills to take and all the pills that can actually do it are hidden from me I have to wait for someone to get distracted to do it

Seriously. I‘m just sick of all those lies. Am I really that unimportant that I don’t even deserve the truth??

Not gonna post or answer anything for the next days, weeks, probably months, idk.

I’m sorry.

“And when my mother asks me what’s wrong I just say I’m tired because I don’t have the heart to tell the woman who gave me life that I don’t want it anymore.”

— (via wstdxo)

“my life is an out of body experience disconnected from everything around feelings i just don’t know my mind is a black hole and all those sleepless night knowing i’m never going where i want to go”

— t.m.

“Doesn’t it scare you that you’ve wasted more than half of your life hating yourself? It should.”

— Michelle K. (via quotemadness)

The depression won today. Staying home from school because it’s too hard to get out of bed. I just woke up and I already know the days going to consist of suicidal thoughts and sleeping the pain away.

You know what sucks even more than being mentally ill? Being self-aware about it. Like you constantly know that your behavior is a problem and you know exactly what it is and exactly what’s causing it, but nobody believes you because you’re mentally ill.