I Had To Do It

look at them. perceive.

1 year after Cas’s confession Dean is still a little clingy

you can't convince me dean wasn't already in love with castiel by s11 like. what do you mean on the episode where dean is hung up, nay, borderline desperate to find a way to get castiel back, the case they land just so happens to be handled by a hunter couple (a romantic! mlm! couple!!!!!)

dean dead ass asks them how it's like to settle down with these big green eyes just so full of longing and understanding.

LIKE TELL ME THIS ISN'T HOW DEAN STARES AT CAS !!!!!!!

and this ending, don't even get me started on this ending

THEY GET TO RETIRE!!!! THIS IS DEAN FINALLY SEEING A HAPPY ENDING FOR HUNTERS!!!!! THIS IS DEAN REALIZING AND ACCEPTING THAT IT'S POSSIBLE!!!!!!

they got me in the first half, not gonna lie, with jesse's "they killed my brother" revenge story and cesar's ride-or-die support but then. this sealed the deal.

horses???? hello mr. dean cowboy fetish winchester????? and emt???? when castiel's a whole ass healer mage with his angel mojo???? TELL ME I'M NOT DELUSIONAL

The narrative is giving, "see? this can happen. happiness does exist in this universe, but only from a far enough distance that dean and sam can yearn for it without really getting it."

Did a spread with some drawings of Buffy being her gorgeous self. I absolutely love that outfit she is wearing on the right, like, I need a dress like that.

FREEDOM IS A LENGTH OF ROPE. GOD WANTS YOU TO HANG YOURSELF WITH IT.

— Supernatural (2005-2020)

dean occasionally will look in his closet and it just be empty. because you can't convince me little big brother sam doesn't steal the clothes he fits and swears it wasn't him. whenever claire comes over she 'borrows' the best band shirts to sleep in and literally never returns them. cas is always 'accidentally' stealing sweatpants and anything he can get his hands on (though dean doesn't mind that too much). jack thinks wearing his jackets make him look way cooler, and dean always tells him to just keep them. dean goes to do laundry and he has 2 shirts left and somehow everyone in the bunker all of a sudden has a metallica or black sabbath t-shirt.

Thinking about this River Song quote: “You don’t expect a sunset to admire you back.“ And how I can so very easily apply it to Destiel and it works both ways. 

For Cas: Dean is the sun. He is the reason the world spins and there is warmth in the galaxy. He is pure and bright. He is who Cas fights for and who he will always protect because without him there is no reason to live. And Cas thinks a man like Dean would not spare him the time because he is too busy keeping the world alive.  

For Dean: Cas is something untouchable. Something he can’t begin to comprehend or understand. He is an angel of the fucking lord. And how can something so beautiful and transcendent, something so far away that it seems impossible that it could exist, look at one human on the planet that an angel lights up. 

And how wrong they were to think the other was out of reach.

drew mabel in my easter outfit bc I thought she’d like it 🩷🐣

I relate to Buffy sm ✌