Let Me Be Tired

do not want to articulate anything!! want only to walk barefoot in a sunlit courtyard with an overripe nectarine in one hand and a deeply battered paperback in the other !

Dark academia things you should NOT strive for:

Caffeine addictions. this shit ain't cute, learn better ways to manage you sleep and energy.

Workaholic culture, working hard is great but not in exsess

Romanticizing mental illness, you are just as valuable and talented healthy, happy. don't convince yourself otherwise

Elitism, you aren't better than other ppl for being more educated if your not polite.

Eurocentric: Dark. Academia. is. Not. Just. For .White. Skinny. People. In. Blazers.

Neurotypical lifestyle and studying patterns. If you can't do things the way neurotypicals do then don't force yourself. I tried to force myself to tale notes and memorise things the way is been taught in high school rather than what was best for me.

on all levels except physical i am lying face down on moss

for as much as studyblr may have its faults, it’s a pretty sizable online space that tells young girls that the absolute coolest thing you can do is be smart and work hard and believe in yourself and i think that’s pretty great

me, mentally flipping through the various daydream universes i’ve crafted up like records in a crate: hmm, which fantasy shall i indulge in tonight?

purple twitter headers

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okay but for real. did somebody actually read “the secret history” without realising it’s a satire?

because from time to time someone posts something along the lines “i cannot understand how anyone would want to be like these characters”/”i don’t get how this is something that people romanticise” and i just. genuinely never realised someone might’ve taken tsh as a serious piece of inspiration as to how to act and behave.

to me dark academia has been just an aesthetic. just a set of ideas and aspirations, a source of inspiration for my passion of learning, a way of dressing, a veil of mystery and romance and the spirit of “carpe diem” decorating my presence. just an aesthetic, rather than the desire to engage in elitism and unhealthy behaviours and acts of instability with the excuse of “being a dark academic”.

i joke about wanting to throw a bacchanal and about wanting to commit art theft, sure. i just always thought it was obvious to everyone who’d read tartt’s books that it’s only a joke, nothing more.

A Guide To Exploring Abandoned Churches

If you go alone, don’t bring a flashlight. You’ll see things you don’t want to.

Don’t bring groups bigger than 12.

Bring water and some snacks, but no wine.

If you have to sleep there, sleep in the sanctuary, but not on a pew.

If you try to read the hymnal, the words won’t be english anymore.

The Bibles will be blank until you confess.

Don’t go into the confession booth. The man talking to you is not the priest, and you don’t want to know what he really is.

The cross on the wall changes locations, don’t look at it for too long.

If you see someone praying at the altar, don’t approach them. If they approach you, don’t talk to them. Leave immediately.

If you hear the organ playing while you’re in the basement, know that your time is running out.

If it plays while you’re in the sanctuary, your time is up.

Take whatever you want, but if you find that one of your possesions is missing, don’t look for it. Let them have it. It’s not worth your life.

If you find a rosary, don’t put it on. It won’t help.

The water isn’t holy anymore. Throwing it on the demons in the shadows won’t work.

Drink the wine if you wish to never leave.

Don’t get seperated from your friends.

If you spend the night, leave at sunrise otherwise you’ll enter another plane of reality with no way back.

If you don’t spend the night, leave through the doors you came in.

You might look behind you after leaving and see that the church isn’t there anymore. It means that they took what they wanted.

Never enter the same abandoned church twice. Even (especially) if you forgot something inside. That’s a lure. On your second tour through, they will know enough about you to keep you there.

• • Black Girl Academia • •

Normalize Diversity in Academia ✌🏻✌🏼✌🏽✌🏾✌🏿

let me tell you a secret. i was bored in literature online class today so i decided to take notes in this handwriting. now, after an hour of writing, it's stuck with me.

in 1 hour, mind you, in 1 hour i converted my handwriting.