Having ADHD with some depression symptoms is really funny (no) because most of the time you live in your hyperfixation, but then you go down from the skies and just: damnnnn, I feel so empty. Like yes, you're living a full and happy life until you start to think about reality. And reality, well, sucks
A Life with Less Societal Expectations
Lacking something sometimes feel so alienating.
Aside from asexuality and aromanticism that can exclude you from romantic and sexual experiences, aplatonicness is also something hard to take. It excludes you from so many things life has to offer.
Aroace people who are also aplatonic, aspec peple who struggle to make friends, aspec people who are outcasts, aspec people who are loners, aspec people who have a past negative experience with friendships, aspec people who are introverted, aspec people who are not comfortable with social interactions, aspec people who were bullied, aspec people who were the last choice in a friend group, aspec people who don't have a stable social circle, aspec people who only have two or three friends they can truly trust, aspec people who have social anxiety, aspec people who are always misunderstood, aspec people who have an "unfriendly" appearance, intimidating aspecs, aspec people who try to fit in so hard but it always feel fruitless, aplatonic people who are happy, aspec people who have no choice but to be by themselves, aspec people with avoidant attachment style, aspec people who love the friends they have but don't know how to show it.
It can never feel the same.
But does it have to?
The successful and happy life seems to be so linear. Graduate, get a high-paying job, be financially secure, find a partner, get married, have children, have sex. Build friendships. It's tiring having to stress out when it's ever gonna happen in this life.
Being aro and ace can already exclude you from at least two experiences. Does being a socially-anxious have to exclude you from making meaningful friendships too?
At this point, it won't even matter anymore. A life with less societal expectations is good too. At least, by carrying those labels around, there is a concrete reason for not engaging in a certain activity for the experience.
Additionally, building a life where we don't have to feel like we're missing out on what is socially expected - dating, getting married, having children, having sex, friendships - doesn't sound like a bad idea.
Lacking something doesn't need to be so alienating. If you extricate yourself from the feeling that makes you uncomfortable in the first place - not having a certain relationship - and replace it with something good, like focusing on your career and volunteering, it feels much more fulfilling.
Accept the void.
You know things are getting messy when among your two the most active hyperfixations you see that a third one suddenly appeared
And now instead of your head being, generally speaking, split only into two pieces, you have three parts of brain functioning like a separate entities.
i think my favorite thing abt the tf2 fandom is the creativity they have with ship names like speeding bullet?? oktoberfest?? literally so much better than just mixing the character names
I am not responsible for who I become when hyperfixating
guys,,,
heavymedic breakup now its time for engiemedic hurtcomfort
He was deep into the work, so he didn’t notice the door of his workshop opening, nor he heard measured steps that came closer. But, he felt the presence of another person at the moment any noise has stopped. Engineer looked up at the clock. It was 1:24 am. It's not an unusual time for him to be awake and the person behind him also knows it. That’s probably why he still doesn’t hear anything against it, Engie only feels it, this dislike for his schedule. Quietly Hardhat mumbled about hypocrisy. Usually, he would have been convinced to let go of work already, but the urgency of the things is insane - they both know it.
- You know I need to finish this, doc
The silence has been enough of an answer. Engineer has already prepared himself for a possible argument. But it still wasn't there. He continued working, seeking for any sign of malfunction — he spent hours on this and still ended up empty-handed. Soon after, Medic took another chair from nearby and sat on it, their knees touching. Then there was a sign, the first thing he actually heard this night from a man. Engineer felt crippling tiredness in that voice.
- Well, at least I can help.
Medic actually couldn’t, another thing they both knew perfectly. But Engineer ignored it and let him stay anyway. Even if he knew that was probably not a good thing for doc to stay awake. Medic was stubborn, when wanted. And after all, just a quiet presence of this man was enough to feel lighter. Though, he knew this calm silence would not last long and soon Medic would start rambling about everything he’d done today and Engineer would be calm enough to listen just like he always does. Soon Dell would get more relaxed and start telling what he was doing, and then listen Ludwig giving honest opinion on it. But it will happen later. Right now, all that is important is a calm night, respawn upgrade that needs to be done by the morning and quiet existing of the man, whose presence was as chaotic, as calming when needed.
That ADHD feel when you have a great idea then it disappears and you can almost taste it but you cant figure out what it was
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YES
And also double points if Dell didn't know about that and just like: "Huh, so you already know each other?"
And Medic just goes: "Well... I know more than I probably should"
The fact that Medic worked with TFC team at some point.
And had/has a relentionship with Engineer.
That means Medic already met his father in law, a nice bonding time,putting random shit into your father in law and hope they work.
Double funny if Medic doesn't know that's Engineers dad.
And then they have an awkward 'family,meet my boyfriend ' moment
Arin •|• They/them •|• aroace voidpunk enjoyer •|• Learn too many languages to be alive •|• Eng/ru/fr/pl/fin btw •|• Have a strange kinship with insane characters
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