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Anxiety! Is worse than depression

I think this is because anxiety doesn’t just affect your mood, it affects your physical body, especially your nervous system. When my anxiety gets severe, I can barely breathe. My breath is short. My whole body is tense, especially my chest and shoulders. My forehead feels like it is going to explode. My body sort of quits working. I can’t talk, I can’t think, I can’t process anything, I can’t even move. I don’t expect “normal” people to understand, but when I am THAT bad, I feel like I am going to die. My body is in panic mode and although I know there is no fire, my body doesn’t care. It sounds the alarms anyway. I don’t know how else to explain this to other people, but I seriously can’t function during those times. People always say things like “why didn’t you answer the phone or reply to my text?” The real answer is because I was literally checked out.

Everyone gets anxiety at times. In my opinion, what most people describe as anxiety is just stress. Chronic anxiety is like stress x 10000%.

I generally go into depression after weeks of high anxiety. It’s difficult to focus or get things done when I have anxiety. And as you can imagine, it is VERY exhausting walking around 24/7 feeling like that. Add to that insomnia. In my experience, depression is not really sadness. I either feel nothing at all or I feel a deep sense of shame for feeling nothing at all. I care a lot, then I care about nothing at all, then my body is like WTF get your shit together you worthless piece of shit! It’s a cycle. I think that I become numb because my body is worn out from trying to feel everything at once when I was in the anxiety phase. I feel nothing because the pleasure/pain response is turned off. I become a zombie. I think feeling nothing, although not ideal, is easier than feeling everything at once.

I’m both clingy and a bully when I’m comfortable with you.

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