I'm Not Really Looking To Be Loved Nor To Feel How It Feels To Fall In Love

you are scared of the probability that something bad will happen and you'll probably end up manifesting it"

He said, "I know that you do not speak these words by way of protest and discourtesy. So, seek refuge in Me, and fear lest your togetherness be scattered. You should know that I am perfect in power. My power has no defect. In your very clothing and veil, I will gather you together and I will give you familiarity and togetherness with each other.” (703-4)

“If you still talk about it, you still care about it.”

— Unknown

Anxiety! Is worse than depression

I think this is because anxiety doesn’t just affect your mood, it affects your physical body, especially your nervous system. When my anxiety gets severe, I can barely breathe. My breath is short. My whole body is tense, especially my chest and shoulders. My forehead feels like it is going to explode. My body sort of quits working. I can’t talk, I can’t think, I can’t process anything, I can’t even move. I don’t expect “normal” people to understand, but when I am THAT bad, I feel like I am going to die. My body is in panic mode and although I know there is no fire, my body doesn’t care. It sounds the alarms anyway. I don’t know how else to explain this to other people, but I seriously can’t function during those times. People always say things like “why didn’t you answer the phone or reply to my text?” The real answer is because I was literally checked out.

Everyone gets anxiety at times. In my opinion, what most people describe as anxiety is just stress. Chronic anxiety is like stress x 10000%.

I generally go into depression after weeks of high anxiety. It’s difficult to focus or get things done when I have anxiety. And as you can imagine, it is VERY exhausting walking around 24/7 feeling like that. Add to that insomnia. In my experience, depression is not really sadness. I either feel nothing at all or I feel a deep sense of shame for feeling nothing at all. I care a lot, then I care about nothing at all, then my body is like WTF get your shit together you worthless piece of shit! It’s a cycle. I think that I become numb because my body is worn out from trying to feel everything at once when I was in the anxiety phase. I feel nothing because the pleasure/pain response is turned off. I become a zombie. I think feeling nothing, although not ideal, is easier than feeling everything at once.

Okay baaaaaai

Go back to what u were doin Darling!

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Now I realize, it isn't a bad trait of me! Its something of my own,that marks my identity. I am sorry if I had been hard on you, I can't change. So decision is yours to whether stay or move on😊. I should be fine with anything . But I will definitely miss it.

Its such a difficult time when you realize one of your bad trait and you can't do anything about it.. Not even redumption.. All u can do is.. avoid ppl whom you hurted so that your bad trait won't hurt anyone else again...

Help yourself and others from agony

#helpyourselfrompain

“Don’t wait for things to get easier, simpler, better. Life will always be complicated. Learn to be happy right now. Otherwise, you’ll run out of time.”

— Unknown