WAKE UP JOSHUA HONG NEW SELCA JUST DROPPED

“I swear, I end up feeling empty, like you’ve taken something out of me and I have to search my body for scars.”

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Solo-Travelling to Yogyakarta #3

Hanya untuk nyeritain tiket dan penginapan sampai ngelibas dua part hahahahahahahaha. Maafkan. Maklum, sedang ingiiiiiiiin banget ngoceh.

Dan setelah kericuhan urus dokumen ini itu yang belum apa apa ge membuatku terkekang, akhirnyaaa dapat mood lagi untuk ngelanjutin ini.

Yak, okeee, kali ini masuk ke sesi jalan jalan nyaaa. Yeaaaah 🎉

Pagi pertama di Yogyakarta, menyusuri kawasan Malioborooo. Inilah salah satu alasan cari penginapan yang sekitaran malioboro, kepingiiiin banget ngerasain nuansa malioboro yang sepi sejuk gitu pagipagi. Karna alasan itu pulalah aku bergegas keluar dari penginapan jam 7 pagi. Meski kutau, sebagian besar tempat wisata baru buka jam 8 pagi.

Aku berjalan dengan santai sekitar 700 meter dari penginapan ke titik nol Yogyakarta. Cukup lumayaaan, tapiiiiiii……..

Lihatlaaah, nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang mau kau dustakan. Asli, aku mah seneng bangeeet liat pemandangan kala itu. Sepi, hening, sejuk, ditambah sentuhan mesra rintik hujan semalam di tiap sudut malioboro. Bahkan langit cerah berawan dengan cantiknya.

(Saat menulis dan melihat lagi foto ini, aku sungguh rinduuuuuuuuuu Yogyakarta 😭)

Setelah puas menikmati pemandangan di titik nol, dan puas melahap roti bekal (aku sama sekali belum berminat wisata kuliner di sekitaran malioboro pagi itu) aku berjalan lagi ke barat sejauh 1 km. Sengajaa, untuk irit biaya naik ojek online 😂 karna tema perjalanan ini adalah modal nekad dan pas pas an 😂

Tujuan selanjutnyaaaaaaa……….

GEMBIRA LOKA ZOO

Ini tujuan paling awal yang terpikir dalam otakku. Rasanya aku sudah lama tidak ke kebun binatang, apalagi Gembira Loka. Setelah berbelas tahun tidak kemariiiiii, ya Allah ini anugerah aku berkesempatan kesini lagi 😭 dan penampilannya yang jauh berbeda membuatku terkesimaaaaa.

Karna masih pagi, pengunjung masih belum sampai antri berbaris baris panjangnya. Yaaa, mungkin selain aku, hanya ada 5 keluarga lain. Dan itu membuatku puas bukan kepalang. Suasana pepohonan, asri, sejuk, ditambah tidak ramai ocehan orang orang. Luar biasa surga buat para introvert!!!

Dan aku baru sadar ternyata Gembira Loka itu cukup luas yak, pegel cuy! Tapi itu tidak menjadi masalah serius karna yang penting aku bisa lihat hewan hewan lucuuuuw menggemasykan. Meskipun siiih, beberapa hewan tidak sedang berada di sangkarnya karna perbaikan ini itu, juga untuk jadwal penampilan. Seperti macan tutul, kucing hutan dan hewan taring kaki empat lainnya. Padahal itu yang ingin kulihat.

Satu hal yang membuatku agak sedih berada disini. Bahwasanya aku menyadari hewan hewan itu tidak berada jauh dari habitat aslinya. Setiap hari menapaki jejak tempat yang sama. Aku terpikir, takutkah mereka, atau stres kah mereka, dengan kondisi setiap hari mendapati ratusan mata silih berganti menatap mereka. Akankah senyum puas para pengunjung yang berdatangan dapat mereka mengerti, sebanding kah dengan kenyamanan mereka disini?

Aku yakin para penjaga merawat mereka dengan baik. Tapi tetap saja di dalam rasa bahagiaku terselip rasa sedih melihat mereka.

Bagaimanapun, aku tidak menyesal datang kesini. Bahkan jika ada kesempatan lagi aku datang ke Yogyakarta, maka Gembira Loka akan masuk dalam list perjalananku.

Dadah hewan hewan lucuuuu, tetap sehat dan bahagia yaaaa. Sampai berjumpa lagiiiii 🖐🏻

Life isn’t a walk in the park, it will rain.

It will pour. You will hurt and you will scar.

We are all wounded in some way, shape or form. Some worse than others, whether it be emotionally damaged or physically damaged.

That doesn’t make anyone more or less hurt than anyone else.

Everyone has their story and each and every story matters. We may have been victims at one point in time but that doesn’t mean that is your title forever.

Life is full of experiences.

Each and every one is a lesson to be learned to help you grow in this temporary life.

Stop picking at your scabs and opening your wounds, it’s causing you to bleed time and time again.

The healing process takes time, some longer than others but don’t fall into that endless pit of self pity and self loathing. That is when you begin to make yourself fall victim to your own self, only causing you to stray away from any possible growth.

The sun will come out, dry you and begin the growing process. Accept the past storms and storms to come, yes at the time of struggle no one will smile and enjoy it.

Adaptation is key.

You will never stay the same, oh no, there is always going to be change.

You may have the same foundation as before but you have had to rebuild many times.

Stop building the same way, modernize yourself. Yes, easier said than done. It’s not going to be easy to leave your comfort zone.

Maybe you need that walk in the park, when its pouring rain to make you slip up and get hurt. It may just teach you a lesson that new paths are the way out of the self pity and self loathing.

You may find yourself realizing that life is too short to live that way, running in the direction of the storm. You never allowed the sun to shine, you kept building while it was raining.

The storms will pass, allow yourself time to process things.

When you see those warm rays of light begin to break through the cloudy skies, know that the sun is coming.

Have hope, for just one second, breathe; Exhale all of that pain you carry around. Embrace the sun when it gives you light, you must trust the strength built on those sunny days when the sun is nowhere to be found when it’s dark, cloudy and pouring rain.

What you build will be destroyed, rebuild it, remaster it and prepare for more.

Be ready for more.

There’s always more.

Signed,

ThoseMeaningfulWords. VH.

127

Didn’t expect to break again

So much glue in the cracks these days

Empty vessels made we in

Brought to ruin the bricks we laid

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That make us us and separate

That brought to light the borderline

That fake cusp, dust, ends. On with it.

Ad hoc delight, the fertile eyes

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From out the dirt beneath our nails

Came flowers we could eat and kiss

Fruit, mouth, a serpent, Ephron sales,

Cave, now a secret we can miss.

brand new start

since i forgot my password and email. so i decided to make a new acount so yeaaaaaaaaah hellooooo

idyllicjaehyun: For Johnny and Mark, how was it to be able to visit your hometowns, Chicago & Vancouver? And for the other members, how did you find North America?

More answers here.

“She carried an ocean in her eyes, and I was lost in it, not wanting to be found, ever.”

- DG (Her eyes, an ocean)