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You ever have a compliment that just sticks with you for literal years and years? Maybe forever?
For me, it’s when I was working as a figure model for art classes at my university (because it paid well due to being an early-morning thing and was easy to get because nobody else wanted to apply due to the near-nakedness and pervasive body image issues in our culture). There was this one professor who was always so happy when I showed up as the female model for that day because he said that I had a “good sense of motion”, and it was fun to draw. (Which, in itself, was a great compliment because I am a clumsy, self conscious person.)
But what really got me was one day we were doing 15-minute poses, which are harder to do because you need to come up with something interesting and dynamic, but you have to be able to hold it for a quarter of an hour without moving even a little bit. They didn’t have any specific guidance for us, so I just… did something. Idk. But about five minutes into wandering around helping the students and talking to them, he paused and told me that I was doing a good job, and, “What a fun pose. You’re reminding me of Rodin’s ‘Eve,’ there. You always have a very Rodin sort of energy about you. Thanks for waking up early for us.” And then just went back to discussing the use of ink with one of the students like he hadn’t almost reduced me to tears.
Then I went home and looked up Rodin’s ‘Eve’ and was blown away because she actually did look like me? I had ended up in that pose almost exactly just by chance, but she also had a soft, squidgy tummy and the hip dips and weird butt and big feet and thunder thighs and strong calves, just like me.
And I don’t have a great relationship with my body. Very much the opposite. I frequently hate the way I look and fit into it, but then occasionally from the depths of the past comes the voice of an art nerd telling me I’m like a Rodin sculpture, and I feel like, “Yeah, I have Rodin Energy so suck it, brain!” And it helps me reframe the way I’m thinking about myself because I can get outside of my head for a minute and see that while I’m frustrated with my body, it has an art to it just by existing. Soft tummy? Fun to draw, nice curves! Big thighs? Strong lines! Dimples and wrinkles and slopes become a place for light to sit. Bodies are so cool, and that includes mine! Even if it’s not quite what I want it to be, it’s still a work of art that nature sculpted just for me.
And for him it just seemed like such an off-handed, normal, natural thing to say. He thought “Hey, that looks like Rodin,” and so he said it.
Just… Idk. Compliment people. Say what’s on your mind. You have no idea whether it’s going to totally change a person’s life. It’s just words to you but it could be really, deeply important to them.
the sims 2 for the ds (2004) had everything… a creepy hotel simulator, the backrooms, a nuclear reactor with rods you pick up with your bare hands, queercoded goth cult leader girl, organ harvesting, bigfoot, meat you can punch in a walk-in freezer, the quote “have you ever caught a meteor with your bare hands? it takes time to get used to the heat and the pain, but it’s a good cure for loneliness,” a subplot in which you deliver a bomb to the mayor’s office in the stuffed head of a cow, put out the fire in said office, and then bury a wiggling trunk in the desert and the mayor is never seen again, a secret superhero lair where you dress up as a rat and fight evil robots, aliens that literally break the game if you try to change the system clock, an art studio, a social system in which you talk people down from lustful/drunken/outraged trances by spamming the same three responses, a milf, an arcade game called sisyphus in which you can’t win and you just roll a rock up a mountain, the only meter for wellness on the main screen being “sanity,” special agent dana scully, and more.
the only thing it doesn’t have is same-sex relationships, but romance is optional anyway. and i totally had a thing with misty waters and no one can convince me otherwise
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Ryan 'I'm a ghost hunter but I don't want to see them' Bergara
I will reblog all my niche interests with no regrets. I have many, I consume much media. I may be crazy, but I'm free.
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