Hey, long time no see, it's like the hundreds time I try to post this, and I was so close twenty seconds before but it disappeared, I don't have the strength to write down everything again. I was talking about the places I wanted to be instead of my current location : the ocean, on a hill and in space watching a supernova. A friend of mine confess his feelings to me and it feels so wrong and weird. I feel sick and I want to cry ! Everybody keeps telling me I should be happy but I am NOT HAPPY! I feel bad, I don't like it,I am scared and I don't know what to say! I don't understand, I don't like it, I want to run away from my life! Be anyone else! Nobody will ever find this account, I know those things I post are supposed to be part of the pilot of the story I planned to write but I use them essentially as a diary. Goodbye
We ended the year with a sweet dnd session and I traumatized my players once again with some heartbreaking lore and terrifying creatures. Here are two awesome character they met along the way !
This has nothing to do with my book but hell yeah ! COLOURS !!!!! Somehow it takes a lot of time to draw something like that, like 3hours or something.
You remember me? Gosh it has been so long...
I...I must have fucked up.
I really did.
You remember when I say I would try to open a portal because I couldn’t take reality anymore?
Yeah
I never thought I was so close from reality.
I haven’t been here for the past two years or less, I don’t understand what happened because apparently I have been living my life normally here. But you need to understand, I HAVENT SEEN MY PARENTS DURING THIS WHOLE TIME.it took me two days to recompose myself. I HAVE BEEN EVERYWHERE ELSE DURING THIS WHOLE TIME AND NO ONE NOTICED!!!!
I recall those days through a haze, a blurry screen, almost like when you try to remember a dream.
So now I will mostly recall every single places I have seen, before I forget. Because I don’t want to forget, I don’t want to forget those people I met and those skies I saw...
With my friends we had a really philosophical discussion about : “would you like to live in outer space” . them and I tried to think on it and I came with this :
“The only thing I know is Earth, yeah I love looking at the stars, looking at the night sky wondering if we are alone, I love watching NASA documentaries about space and all that have a link with it, listening to people speaking about the Univers Mysteries, I think I would love to go to space but I know myself, I will be quickly homesick. Earth is a pretty good planet trying it’s best, as I do, to stay alive, it’s a beautiful place, I love all it’s features such as cloud, rain or trees, the animals and the seas…
“I don’t think I will be able to live in space, first for this reason, but it’s not the only one, then it’s also because I’m claustrophobic, living in a spaceship/station or in a base on an other planet with no easy ways to go home quickly would be a nightmare to me unless the planet have a breathable atmosphere, because that would mean we can be outside “safely” and whenever we want so, yeah, it would be easier. Finally because I would panic if a thing a little bit unexpected would happen. Oh and I almost forgot, if it’s on Mars we wont see Earth, home, anymore, it will just be a tiny shinning dot in the night sky and I think it will be complicated for everyone.
“Now let’s imagine Earth is pretty destroy, there’s no longer forest and wild animals, the pollution is everywhere and cause horrible new illness. The Earth we know no longer exist and you are choosed to go on a mission in space. Then I think it wont be this difficult anymore because Earth is no longer a peaceful place, it’s not a Home you want to go back to, I think that if it was me I would have remorse, maybe will I feel homesick to but it will quickly fade as I look at the infinite space and it’s promise about a better futur.
“And finally, if I never knew anything else than space, hearing people talking about Earth will just make me curious nothing more.”
They agreed on that but I know everyone is different, they wont have the same reaction as me, and this is why I love talking about such subjects. they makes you wonders how you would react in a totally differents situations as you are right now but the best are when we know the subjects will never be real because it force you to speculate about yourself.
Sometimes I think about the rovers and the deep-space probes we send in space, I imagine them drifting away further every day that pass.
Maybe I’m over-thinking but think it’s sad and sometimes a single tear run down my face I think of that, and it’s the same for stars dying and exploding into Supernovas, planet floating alone in deep space because they lose their solar systèmes, cold ans in the dark.
Yes I’m very sensitives, I hope you understand what I’m saying because It usually don’t make sense for the others.
How I feel you !!!
New art challenge : use picture of crystals and other rocks under polarized light as colour palettes for your ocs.
I invite yall to go and look for more they can be breathtaking ! Also making two colour schemes for your ocs one from the u polarized light and one from the polarized light sounds amazing
Nanami Kento as a Palace guard from Aladdin (1998) for @princeasimdiya12 !
Plus a bonus Gojo as Aladdin in his prince disguise!
Hope you like it !
"Hi everyone, today I am dming the session from the asylum so I apologise in advance for the poor quality of my Internet and my mic. Last session we left of with Sclimith eating the boss and..."
I am violently cut off as the hospital doctor tase me and sedate me before throwing me in a room with white cushions on the walls.
*taste the soup like a witch*
hummm it needs more eye of newt
*learn shading*
I love working on my art style because it's just me looking at cool art and adding it to my art like it's an ingredient in a boiling soup.
Every time I log in.
If someone know the artist please let me know
struggling artist and dungeon master, also geologist and astronomer, I do some shit photography. ✨️REQUEST AND COMISSION OPEN✨️
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