Guys Like This Make Me Feel So Insecure. He’s Handsome, In Great Shape, And Wearing A Very Slick Suit

Guys like this make me feel so insecure. He’s handsome, in great shape, and wearing a very slick suit -- an alpha, probably applauded by others for being put together and successful. Still, with the beard and the earring, there’s a bit of an edge to him -- masculine and hip, but not in a try-hard way. 

I want desperately to be him, but I never will be. He’ll always get the girls I want. People like my parents will wish they had a son like him. My coworkers will always be more impressed with him than with me.

If I pursue this line of thought too far, I start to become obsessed with guys like him. My jealousy morphs into desire, and before I know it, I want to be one of the girls he’s fucking. I want to kneel before him and worship his giant cock or lick his abs. I want to be his bitch.