Out Of Bonds

After I graduated from comp sci with big dreams of working in game dev, the only job I was able to find after a year of unemployment during the lockdowns was as a consultant at an investment banking firm and when I say it was soul-crushing that's not an exaggeration. Not quite on the same level as working on killing machines but I couldn't stand it, went back to school to pursue art.

The kicker? It's easy to get a job with a comp sci degree where I live. The military is understaffed. A STEM degree will get you fast-tracked with bonus pay into a cushy intelligence officer or analyst desk job with a pension, benefits, and if you're still able to sleep at night after a couple years that's not a hard pivot into the private sector.

I've been told by career military folks that I should just enlist when I was broke and desperate for a job, like it was obvious and like that knowledge wasn't already haunting me.

I know what it's like to make the wrong call when faced with that choice and I'm never doing that again, but it's made me reflect a lot on the kinds of compromises the system we live in forces upon us.

god I could be so wealthy if I had no ethics. that's so fucking frustrating. I'm living paycheck to paycheck because I'm not grifting vulnerable idiots on TikTok. I feel like I have the ability to very easily scam people. I could make a killing with AI. but god. I have morals and ethics and so I get to be poor as shit. I hate this fucking world

recently i was reminded of how important this is when i was getting lowkey overwhelmed and kind of just annoyed at everything at a party and then as soon as i was walking home with my headphones on in the cool midnight air with a pita wrap everything was fine again.

googling shit like "why do i feel bad after hanging out with my friends" and all of the answers are either "you need better friends" (i don't; my friends are wonderful) or "your social battery is drained, you need to rest and regain your energy levels" (i don't; i've got tons of energy, it's just manifesting as over-the-top neurotic mania). why is this even happening. it's like some stupid toll i have to pay as a punishment for enjoying myself too much

Seen someone say “I can’t die, I got graves to dance on that hasn’t been dug yet.” And honestly, that goes hard. We need to keep that energy.

BLACK TRANS WOMAN SEEKING MUTAL AID

Thank you for everyone who donated so far I’m still crowdfunding for dental surgery and I’m not working right now which is now being delayed even further since not all of my documents match up so I need help with rent and taking care of my mother who’s disabled and my account is over-drafted so please donate if you can

(or If you want to support me pls buy something from my Depop I also source vintage so if you need anything fashion related I got you <3) like if anyone just bought like two things I would be able to really get through the rest of the month and February since I won’t be able to do anything after surgery.

I still have to pay $250 out of pocket for a Ct scan so pls donate if you can

VENMO

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crumb comics dump

That boy is so cute, I wonder what he's listening to…

‎‏I am manal from Gaza. I am 30 years old. I stand before you as a person trying to support my family of 3 members, me, my husband, and my young daughter. We are living in very difficult circumstances after the occupation launched the war on Gaza. We were displaced from our home and live in a tent that does not protect us from the cold of winter or the heat of summer. We live in extreme poverty due to the circumstances and there is no income. We are no longer able to provide the necessary supplies of food, drink and others due to the insane rise in prices. Thus, my source of livelihood was destroyed and we live in very difficult conditions in tents. It is difficult for me to find the words to describe what we face every day in the tents without food, medicine, or drinking clean water, along with the oppression, helplessness, psychological pressures, and daily traumas that everything causes. Around us and unable to care for our families, the fear of danger, disease and death never leaves us

Now, I find myself in this difficult situation, and I humbly ask for your help to save the lives of my family, especially my little girl, by getting us out of Gaza to Egypt and building a new life outside Gaza or helping us get money to buy the necessities we might be able to afford. Asking for help is not easy, but we had no choice because we want to survive and strive to rebuild our shattered lives. We are very grateful for any help you can offer, no matter how small, because your help will go a long way in alleviating our suffering. I hope you will share my story with your family and friends.

Got reminded again of my old coworker who was a massive misogynist but also trans inclusive. Told me he believed trans women are indeed women because "only women would be stupid enough to want to be women"

I wonder what he's doing now