just learned about the ginkgo trees that survived the nuclear blast in Hiroshima
you cannot kill me in a way that matters
After I graduated from comp sci with big dreams of working in game dev, the only job I was able to find after a year of unemployment during the lockdowns was as a consultant at an investment banking firm and when I say it was soul-crushing that's not an exaggeration. Not quite on the same level as working on killing machines but I couldn't stand it, went back to school to pursue art.
The kicker? It's easy to get a job with a comp sci degree where I live. The military is understaffed. A STEM degree will get you fast-tracked with bonus pay into a cushy intelligence officer or analyst desk job with a pension, benefits, and if you're still able to sleep at night after a couple years that's not a hard pivot into the private sector.
I've been told by career military folks that I should just enlist when I was broke and desperate for a job, like it was obvious and like that knowledge wasn't already haunting me.
I know what it's like to make the wrong call when faced with that choice and I'm never doing that again, but it's made me reflect a lot on the kinds of compromises the system we live in forces upon us.
god I could be so wealthy if I had no ethics. that's so fucking frustrating. I'm living paycheck to paycheck because I'm not grifting vulnerable idiots on TikTok. I feel like I have the ability to very easily scam people. I could make a killing with AI. but god. I have morals and ethics and so I get to be poor as shit. I hate this fucking world
consider though: coffee shop romance between rival sword-wielding vigilantes who look different when they're in action, magical girl style.
we can have it all if only we allow ourselves to indulge
they're meant to die by each other's sword why are they in a coffee shop
Tell your kids things
Trying to get facial electrolysis for years, and between being underpaid when I did have a job and ignored now that I'm too disabled to be "employable" I'm just so tired that a really basic stage of my transition has been gated behind an amount of money I can never have lying around. Shaving grows back within 5-6 hours and it never ends
Please help me and my family escape to a safe place and end the suffering.🙏🏻💔
The sound of warplanes is now very loud and frightening.😭🛩️💥
the bombing, destruction, hunger and pain have returned, we are still without a home without a safe place😭💔
We were displaced and homeless several times. There were no vehicles to transport us from the place that posed a danger to our lives. We could only walk or ride an animal. Our bodies are tired. We can no longer bear to move every time because we do not have food or drink to provide our bodies with energy. We lack all the necessities of life
I stand helpless and unable to provide milk and diapers for my child
Our children are dying of hunger
So I ask you to help and donate to save the lives of our children because I know that you will not abandon us or let us down.
Please help us 🙏
The Shore - Barry McGlashan , 2023.
British, b. 1974 -
Oil on paper over panel , 12 1/4 x 8 1/8 in.
a lot of times the difference between messy art and clean art or imperfect art and perfect art or bad art and good art is that the former actually gets finished and the latter stays an idea you punish yourself with
As someone with violent and even homicidal ideation, I think the choices people make are far more indicative of their moral character than anything else.
Thoughts mean nothing. Thoughtcrimes don't exist, especially because what we think is out of our control. If you're not running around hurting people or advocating for others hurting people, then you're fine. For the love of fuck stop stigmatizing mental illnesses and and the unsavory symptoms some of them tend to have.
People can't help it whether they have intrusive thoughts or even fantasize about violence. It doesn't mean we're going to do it. I'm not going to apologize for my symptoms nor does someone finding them off-putting give them a license to be ableist/sanist about it.
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