| 29 April 2025 |

25/03/29

I've pulled a few really long office days this week.

6/100 days of productivity!

Date: 4/12/25

Tough day today, reminding myself it's ok to be a person with feelings lol.

☀ Morning ▸ went to farmers' market ▸cleaned apartment

🌿 Afternoon ▸ got conference paper down to about 15 mins (still have to time it to make sure) ▸ made slides for conference paper ▸ unclogged bathtub drain without having to call maintenance!!

🌙 Evening ▸ felt sad, overthought and moped about for some time ▸wrote letter to pen pal ▸chat with J tonight

desk update/refresh

did a little bit of a refresh on my desk to make it a bit more cozy. $16 USD desk shelf from Amazon and a white monitor arm. Love the cozy vibes <3 new keyboard is the nuphy air60 v2 in white with cowberry switches.

Night studies are just the coziest 💤🌙

Almost done with the video part of studying for Network+. After this, it’s onto the vendor material.

13.02.2025 [😃]

⌨️: 기사 작성날/ The day I wrote my article

[ 6th april, 2025 • 48/159 days ]

listening to Muse: Live at Rome Olympic Stadium. apparently the vibe rn is 2006 on average

-> IAED project (62/64 tests - i don't think i can optimize it more without changing the whole code so... this is as good as it'll get, unfortunately)

-> had coffee with a friend

Dealing With Executive Dysfunction - A Masterpost

The “getting it done in an unconventional way” method.

The “it’s not cheating to do it the easy way” method.

The “fuck what you’re supposed to do” method.

The “get stuff done while you wait” method.

The “you don’t have to do everything at once” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be permanent to be helpful” method.

The “break the task into smaller steps” method.

The “treat yourself like a pet” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be all or nothing” method.

The “put on a persona” method.

The “act like you’re filming a tutorial” method.

The “you don’t have to do it perfectly” method.

The “wait for a trigger” method.

The “do it for your future self” method.

The “might as well” method.

The “when self discipline doesn’t cut it” method.

The “taking care of yourself to take care of your pet” method.

The “make it easy” method.

The “junebugging” method.

The “just show up” method.

The “accept when you need help” method.

The “make it into a game” method.

The “everything worth doing is worth doing poorly” method.

The “trick yourself” method.

The “break it into even smaller steps” method.

The “let go of should” method.

The “your body is an animal you have to take care of” method.

The “fork theory” method.

The “effectivity over aesthetics” method.

May 8

Finals are over, so my first year of grad school is too! I'm still really anxious to hear back about my grades, but it'll be pretty easy to distract myself with all of the things I neglected to do when I was drowning in final assignments, studying, and anxiety (looking at you, giant pile of laundry).

"what did students do before chatgpt?" well one time i forgot i had a history essay due at my 10am class the morning of so over the course of my 30 minute bus ride to school i awkwardly used by backpack as a desk, sped wrote the essay, and got an A on it.

six months later i re-read the essay prior to the final exam, went 'ohhhh yeah i remember this', got a question on that topic, and aced it.

point being that actually doing the work is how you learn the material and internalize it. ChatGPT can give you a short cut but you won't build you the the muscles.

despite at this point ritual-like patterns of upheaval, it is definitely nice to be back. I've picked some spring research that I really am proud of and may transform into a PhD, plus now happens to be winter pride, so I am immersed in writing and queers. library in the top right is the Black Diamond :)