-Illustratum Paradoxon
Take it day by day. It took years for them to screw you up, take time with your healing. Love yourself through the process. Give yourself grace! These are things I repeat to myself yet, even so still have those days that just seem like “Didn’t I just heal from this?” “Why am I resorting back?!” BUT it doesn’t always mean that! It’s ok to have a bad day. I have to accept that this is a process and some days triggers will just be harder to deflect. Some days our traumas come to taunt us, but I won’t stop the fight. I won’t keep allowing this battle in my mind keep me from healing and moving foreward. I will not hold on to shame and guilt for allowing myself to feel. It’s ok to feel. It’s ok not to be perfect. It’s ok to heal. It’s ok to be happy. And it’s ok NOT to be on the days that you just aren’t feeling your best. Stop beating yourself up!
-Illustratum Paradoxon
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Um. Do I laugh or cry? It’s accurate. 🤷🏻♀️ 😏
Therapist: I believe you said that your childhood experience was satisfactory?
Four: No, you misheard me, I said it was ‘sadness factory’.
Lol so accurate. 4s are deep thinkers and feelers.
Four: There is no future. There is no past. Do you see? Time is simultaneous, an intricately structured jewel that humans insist on viewing one edge at a time, when the whole design is visible in every facet.
Two: Christ, Four. All I wanted to know is when your birthday was.
Meowijuana by @caseyweldon motion by TheGlitch @illusion911 Music by Cypress Hill 👌🏽
Meowijuana by @caseyweldon
Motion by TheGlitch @illusion911
https://www.instagram.com/theglitch.og/
Music by Cypress Hill
Same. 😔
Here comes the days of hell...
(aka the peak of my PMDD)
Feelings include:
And the result is:
Conflict and tears. Me arguing with my family and me crying a lot.
I really f*cking hate this crap.
-Illustratum Paradoxon
Self reminder: Stop wasting your time for someone else to actually care. Stop wasting your time for someone to empathize the same way that you do. Stop wasting your time thinking that someone is willing to sit in your pain with you. They won’t ever. You just have to accept that no one loves like you. No one feels like you. No one will ever understand you like you do. So next time they ask if you’re ok, just stick with “fine” and don’t waste your time.
- Illustratum Paradoxon
#preach
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