Good Confrontation

Good confrontation

I went to give in my essay today so we talk for a bit about it and then he goes ‘I wish everyone could be as proactive as you but don’t tell everyone about doing this because then it’d be too much for me to get through, if it’s just you it’s fine’ I was buzzing tbh. Later on I go ‘I just want to apologise as well because I probably should have given it in before the half term so you’d have the time to mark it, but that’s due to my own being unorganised’ he replies with ‘don’t ever apologise for giving in extra work, I’ll find the time’ he’s honestly so sweeeet like the way he said it makes me feel like I should never apologise for anything ever again to him, it was lowkey overwhelming. I then asked ‘Am I distracting??’ and he seemed to be thinking really hard about this and struggling to come up with an answer so I expanded and said ‘like in lesson would you say I’m disruptive, I just wanna know so I can be more self-aware’ he said that it wasn’t necessarily me but the girls on my table (E + J haha I mentioned them before) saying how he was going to implement a seating plan, obviously I don’t want to move because they’re my friends so I literally go ‘noooo pleaseeee don’t Sir’ begging like a fucking child, it worked though. He says he was going to give it one more week, now this wasn’t enough for me and I say ‘how about we make an agreement (he was very amused at this point) if we’re good next week we can stay in the same places’, ‘okay fine, fine’ he says and I’m just smiling uncontrollably because everything was in harmony again. We joked a bit more before I left but I realised that I’d gone without wishing him a good weekend so I quickly popped my head past the door and said ‘happy weekend!’ The confrontation was great tbh, if anything maybe this is a platonic infatuation I have for him, is that a thing?? (if not, I’m making it a thing now lmao) I can acknowledge he’s attractive but honestly I just want to be close to him (like close friends). Also I forgot to ask for his birthday, also also, it was easier to talk to him because he normally shares his office with other teachers but when I went to see him he was the only one there so that was a plus.