Au Where Patroclus Is A Photographer And He's Always Taking Pictures Of His Gorgeous Boyfriend Achilles

achilles & patroclus commissioned by scarlett–west

>> commissions are always open <<

Let’s play a game called ignore all your responsibilities and then stress about how you’re ruining your own life! 

As a huge thank you to all of you who have supported the comic from the very start up to now and bore with the delays and dramas, let’s have a giveaway!

1st place: a FREE commission of any size (see here) as well as any product from my Society6/Redbubble, including shipping.

2nd place: an A5 sketchbook filled with art of the apollocomic gang and also character bios/sneak peeks of upcoming pages.

3rd place: same as 2nd place but in an A6 sketchbook, with storyboards of past and upcoming panels.

- Giveaway will end September 30th, winners will be messaged privately (people can get weirdly jealous and send rude messages so i’d rather leave it as your choice). All postage costs will be covered by me as this is when my student loan comes in, and also because I’m so thankful for all the donations you guys gave for the Gofundme - I’d be in serious trouble with my rent and whole financial situation without you guys and this is the only way i can think to repay your generosity! The Gofundme has ended, but there is a donation link in the sidebar at all times, and anything (even a dollar) is SO appreciated - art doesn’t do much for the bank account, sadly.

- Reblogs count as an extra entry, but aren’t necessary as likes are completely fine :) (If you left your url during the gofundme you get entered three times! also any donations from now until the end of the giveaway will also count as extra entries.) (also, must be following apollocomic!)

THANK YOU SO MUCH and good luck!

and here we have a small collection of images i like to call “Canes: Does Anyone At Marvel Actually Know What They Are” because i did like the base level amount of work to feel comfortable even making a casual tumblr post about daredevil and much of this seems like shit

[images: a collection of panels from marvel’s daredevil in which either matt murdock or his wife milla donovan, both of whom are blind, are holding or using a cane]

image 1: literally what the hell. matt has a short red crooked support cane that is not even facing the correct way. this panel is very old and not from volume 2 but i included it because it’s just wild, even though crooked canes like this for the visually impaired were popular in, like, post-WWII era, because it’s so short and facing the wrong way and so out of time

image 2: thirty years later and matt has a support cane again, but at least he’s holding it right and at least it looks closer to the right length (this came after a good run of matt actually having a reasonably effective looking cane, so i was understandably pissed) 

image 3: matt has a collapsible cane that… doesn’t work… like any collapsible cane i’ve ever seen does

image 4: matt is holding a cane that looks closer to me to being right, except it’s very short even for a guide cane and it looks like it has a strap at the top except he’s holding it like it’s a handle, and that is an incredibly awkward way to do anything

image 5: that cane looks short as hell, again, even for a guide cane

image 6: that cane looks long as hell, even for a long cane and especially for a straight cane because then it’s unadjustable, and why are you holding it like that

image 7: milla, how is holding your cane straight out from your body like a gun going to be helpful AT ALL ? why is your grip so weird 

image 8: milla, how is holding your cane two stairs down helpful at all, and are you just holding onto the top of it

and certainly not the best friend of the bravest and kindest and wisest human being I have ever had the good fortune of knowing.

so i’ve been thinking a lot about the moment when karen comes to visit matt after he’s beaten by nobu

he answers the door without wearing his glasses, which i believe is the first time since he’s spoken to karen about being blind in the first episode (when he takes them off and then immediately puts them back on) that he’s not worn them when she’s there; he even puts his glasses back on when he’s sitting with foggy going over files and karen comes in 

so matt answers the door looking like this

[image: screencap of matt, battered and bruised, no glasses.]

karen and him exchange what passes for a greeting between them at this point, and then matt immediately goes to the counter and puts his glasses on while karen takes off her coat

[images: two screencaps of karen taking off her coat in the hallway while matt puts on his glasses at the counter]

then he grabs a beer and turns back around, glasses firmly in place

[image: matt, beer in hand, standing behind the counter with his glasses on.]

so i’ve been thinking about why he would put his glasses on so quickly if he’s willing to answer the door without them on. because it makes sense that he answers the door without them because he’s hurt and tired and sick of everything, whatever reason he’s had to keep them on seems unimportant in light of everything that’s happened, etc. and i’d say it would make sense that he went to the door without his glasses, realized it was karen, and then put his glasses back on (because karen is different, because it’s Karen, because he knows how karen reacted to seeing his eyes before) but matt has supersenses, matt knows it’s karen long before karen reaches the door. so what makes him put his glasses on? 

i think what’s different is this 

[image: karen stands in the doorway, matt turned away from her. CC says: “you look like shit.”]

matt hears karen say that, hears karen say “you look like shit,” and matt murdock puts on his glasses, which do next to nothing to hide his abundant injuries or uncomfortable gait or obvious pain, especially given that karen has already seen them. matt murdock, who is so rarely seen without his glasses in the comics and the show, who wears glasses even in situations that seem incredibly deeply impractical, even in his own home, even with people who know him well (and here’s a post about this, and tw for some well-meaning ableism + in-comics ableism) - when karen says “you look like shit,” he puts on his glasses. because matt associates looking like shit with people being able to see his eyes- with being visibly disabled. because matt has to live with not only all of the guilt that comes with his daredevilling and with his super senses and with only being able to do so much, but also with internalized ableism.

so many tiny fluffs

Gorgeous and fantastic commission for me by batcii (who is super nice and amazingly talented) of Achilles and Patroclus being young and in love. 

constantlykatelyn

Pigeon + afro = Pigeafro ! 

La vie pourrait être tellement mieux avec cette espèce là xD !

If they existed ;U;, watch it with salsa or tango, it’s great xD

I am sO here for autistic matt murdock!!!!

Matt Murdock is an autistic, manic-depressive, disabled superhero with sensory processing disorder and i will fight the Whole World About All Of It 

some facts tho, like, canon facts gathered from comics and show: 

matt murdock sleeps under a thick heavy blanket 

matt murdock sleeps with silk sheets because “cotton feels like sandpaper on [his] skin” 

matt murdock is generally very sensitive to texture and feel of clothing and fabric and can’t life comfortably in ones that are Wrong

matt murdock is very sensitive to taste and texture of food and can’t comfortably eat things that are Wrong (oysters) 

“What I wasn’t taking into account was maybe my greatest weakness: sensory overload.” 

in fact let me just quote that whole section 

“For me, it’s not just about warmer weather or navigating traffic. Because of my hypersenses, everything out here is new to me. But the human brain, no matter how smart, can only process so much data at any given time. The more there is to learn, the more difficult it is to maintain your normal level of concentration.” –matt on the difficulties of moving to a new city 

incidentally i’m like 900% sure this is a big piece of why matt continues to use a cane even after his identity is revealed (so that he doesn’t have to devote so much of his energy and concentration to orientation and mobility)

matt murdock gets sound and smell sensitive migraines 

matt murdock hates crowds 

matt murdock has frequently gone manic in response to traumatic events in his life and has stayed manic for months on end

matt murdock is known to both himself and his friends as someone who struggles with severe depressive episodes and self-destructive behavior 

matt murdock literally word-for-word canonically describes himself as having depression. he uses the word depression to describe his experiences. i’m not gonna put the panels in here because they stress me out. 

matt murdock (on the show) is a massive fidgeter. he fidgets extensively with the handle of his cane and continues to make those same gestures even when he’s not holding the cane 

matt murdock (on the show) uses a script to describe difficult situations, even if that script is not 100% appropriate for the situation (he uses the same script of “world on fire” to describe his supersenses to both foggy and claire, even though it’s not suited to foggy; consistently says “i’m blind” as an excuse for superhero behavior things even though it doesn’t fit the scenario- although lbr nondisabled people are so awkward about disability he probably does this because it works 99% of the time. still a script tho)

fisk on the show is So autistic-coded that many many of the things that are like “you’re like me, daredevil” that fisk says/does/the parallels between fisk and matt are actually autistic-coded things

when in college, matt wears huge ear protectors and a dust mask to sleep in to mitigate the sensory input of trying to sleep in a room shared with another living person (who is the ever-loud, ever-smelly foggy nelson)

matt murdock has super extreme empathy levels for the people in hell’s kitchen, but only hell’s kitchen- which helps to explain why he’s pretty chill with crime as long as it happens outside his neighborhood

matt murdock develops extremely close, strong connections with a very limited number of people

even though matt murdock cares So Deeply about the people in his life, he is truly terrible at spoken, neurotypical communication

matt murdock’s emotionality is Off given his circumstances and the traditional/typical neurotypical response to those situations. foggy comments on this when matt is happy-go-lucky after tragedy, and he’s so known for it that they literally call him the man without fear (it’s not that matt has no fear- it’s that matt presents fear differently, responds to fear differently)

matt murdock has developed specific coping mechanisms and behaviors to respond to certain sensory input:

“Three-hundred-some pulse rates just doubled. I can’t unhear them, so I use one of my mental exercises. I picture all those hearts as instruments in a giant orchestra.” 

it’s kind of hard to make distinctions between the things matt does because he’s blind (textured suits, specifically organized desk, routines, etc) and things that he does specifically because he’s neurodivergent, and i know folks are going to challenge me on that, because how dare i headcanon a character as autistic. especially how dare i claim a character can be disabled and also mentally ill and neurodivergent

 but i think this difficulty of distinction makes sense, a) because supersenses, and who says that supersenses can’t also be described as sensory processing disorder and in terms of neurodivergence and b) intersectionality of experience; because guess what people can be autistic and blind and you can’t always separate out specific elements of why people respond to their world in certain ways because brains are fucking complicated