“We All Live On The Past, And Through The Past Are Destroyed.”

ANNE PARILLAUD as Nikita in La Femme Nikita (1990) (dir. Luc Besson)

THE TUDORS 2.02 • “Tears of Blood”

The continual victims and losers of the Targaryen Dynasty:

1. Women

2. Dark haired Targs

3. Blackfyres

The final Targaryens:

1. Daenerys Targaryen

2. Jon Snow

3. Young Griff

Rachel Weisz as Lady Sarah in The Favourite (2018)

When a person can't find a deep sense of meaning, they distract themselves with pleasure.

Viktor Frankl

“What do we mean by saying that existence precedes essence? We mean that man first of all exists, encounters himself, surges up in the world – and defines himself afterwards.”

— Jean-Paul Sartre, Existentialism is a Humanism

“There had once been a girl more important than Lyanna Stark”

King Robert reunited with his oldest child, Mya Stone

sketched by: euronswife on twt

Colored in hair version and regular sketch because I wasn’t sure if people would be able to tell it was Mya. I know she has short hair in the series, but this is set a little bit before AGOT since Jon Arryn is still alive (so she could have cut it since), and my biggest interest in ASOIAF is historical influences so I tried to find a way that her hair is sort of short but still influenced by Tudor(ish) fashion in Europe. Her hair is to her shoulders, but because she’s hunching her shoulders in discomfort, her hair looks longer than it is.

The idea for this piece is that Jon Arryn has found out suspicious things about the legitimate Baratheon children that is leading him to believe they are not Robert’s biological children. He still wants to be subtle and not outright tell Robert until he has irrefutable proof, because someone is sure to feel Robert’s wrath and he doesn’t want it to be him. Bringing Edric to King’s Landing means letting Renly know about this (and Renly can’t keep his mouth shut) so he summons a known bastard of the King from his own realm, Mya Stone, to illustrate the differences between children of Baratheon blood and the children of Cersei Lannister. He dresses her in a stuffy yellow dress that she’s not used to, and puts jewels in her hair like Cersei likes to do with the other handmaidens. Mya is worried that the King won’t recognize her after so many years, she was a toddler the last time she’d seen him, after all. But as soon as she enters his chambers and he sets his eyes on her, he sends away his whores. He clasps Mya tightly at the tops of her arms. He seems as if he might cry, and Mya doesn’t know how to feel. She’s hurt from all the missed time, but she wants the King’s approval as well. And the fact he’s so emotional is a sort of emotional release of all the feelings that have been weighing heavy on her heart all her life. She still doesn’t know why he would have left her, why he stopped loving her, what she had done.

Mya and Robert one of my favorite tragic father and daughter, I can’t help it.

"O demônio existe e se revela no ódio e na opressão. Antes de ter medo do pecado, meu filho, tenha medo da virtude, quando ela for triste e quiser limitar o homem. A virtude é o oposto da tristeza, o pecado é o oposto da alegria."

— Tieta do Agreste (1977), Jorge Amado

"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw