I'm In Awe Of How Eloquently And Profoundly Expressed That Was. I Also Want To Thank You So Much For

I'm in awe of how eloquently and profoundly expressed that was. I also want to thank you so much for sharing that! What they have done with such an amazing character and true love story is tragic and devastating but we take back the power to decide it doesn't end that way.

I was 13 when Jackson stood up at April’s wedding. I squealed and spent the whole day on twitter and on this blog that was already called queenkepner. Their love story inspired and excited me so much that I decided to try and write fan-fiction for the first time.

I was 16 when Japril The Movie came out, and I dreamily watched as a decade of their lives unfolded in front of me. While the end had me in tears, seeing their lives flicker in front of my eyes, I remained hopeful they would make their way back to each other.

I was 18 when they reunited in Montana, and though I had lost some faith in the show, I watched the episode anyway. I felt like a 13 year old staying up in her dimmed bedroom all over again. I started writing again after the episode, something I’d long forgone, fueled and excited by their love.

This year, I will be going to university to study writing and literature. I’ve started my own book, I’m in the midst of writing a Japril fic with well over 30,000 words, and none of this would have ever happened without Jackson and April’s love story.

They compelled me at an age where I didn’t know much about love, showed me what it’s like when two people become best friends after a tragedy, and when best friends turn into something more. Their clumsy relationship in on-call rooms, his stoic perseverance to let her get married, the storm inside of him when he saw the love of his life about to marry someone else. Then, a blissful marriage, she’s the one and i love our secret marriage bubble and a love so real and so profound I haven’t felt the same for a fictional couple since. Through weddings and child loss and divorces and child birth, they remained each other’s person, and I will never believe the terrible writing they’ve given us this season in order to fit their own twisted narrative.

Jackson and April are soul mates, and they are fictional, which means I choose to decide their story doesn’t end like this. I’ll leave you with this quote, which fits many of the things that I still wish to say, 6 years after I created this blog for them. To Sarah and Jesse, you remarkably brought together two characters that changed my life, I thank you. To Jackson and April, you showed me what an epic, world-shattering and soul-searing love is. Thank you.

For you, a thousand times over.

200 followers giveaway

It seems somehow fitting that I got to 200 followers the night before I posted the last chapter of Let Me Be Your Light. It still boggles my mind how many people like to read my scribbles! It really seems like yesterday when I got 100 and that felt so wild to me. I can’t really describe how strange 200 feels. This is gonna sound exaggerated and overly emotional but being here with you guys and creating for you has seriously changed my life. I am more me now than I have been in years.

THANK YOU!

Doing the rhink fic giveaway was so much fun the last time I want to do it again!

If you want to, you can read the last giveaway’s fics here: 1st prize, 2nd prize and 3rd prize.

To enter you have to be my follower and either like or reblog (or both, for two chances!) for a chance to win a fic written by me according to your specification. Fluff/angst/smut. I can try my hand at kinks too. (I don’t write otp4/underage nsfw stuff/non-con.)

1st prize: A rhink fic of at least 3000 words.

2nd prize: A rhink ficlet of at least 1500 words.

3rd prize: A rhink ficlet of at least 1000 words.

I’ll choose the winners on Tuesday June 25th. You have until 20:00 EEST to participate.

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yes love your writing

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itlookslikeafreakinllama

7 years ago

Can someone help me?

Hi guys. I’m trying to make gifs on the “Gif Maker- Gif Editor” app and I’m new at it. It seems to work and make the Gif like I want it to and as I am making the post here, the gifs are working but as soon as I try to either actually post or save it, they freeze. Am I doing something wrong? Any suggestions on how to fix this? Thanks in advance!

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help thank you gifs

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itlookslikeafreakinllama

8 years ago

And I’m done with grey’s. Series finale was 13x16. Bey. I’m not watching this shit ever again. Ever.

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itlookslikeafreakinllama

7 years ago

Jackson Avery Appreciation Week 2017: Day 6- Favourite Character Growth Moments

Jackson Avery Appreciation Week 2017: Day 6- Favourite Character Growth Moments

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itlookslikeafreakinllama

8 years ago

Wtf was that nonsense?

That finale was some bulllllshit! I'm not ready to process that utter garbage yet so I'm just going to pretend it didn't happen and distract myself with something else. Denial is the first stage of grief, right?? Completely healthy and normal.

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im done wtf?? grieving japril no seriously wtf? I feel like there's been a death but that's just me dead inside from this bull denial and ignorance is bliss

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itlookslikeafreakinllama

6 years ago

“If anybody could have saved me it would have been you.”

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Virginia Woolf

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ouch

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itlookslikeafreakinllama

5 years ago

Giveaway Contest: To celebrate 2020, we’re giving away twenty paperback classics featuring Truman Capote, Virginia Woolf, T.S. Eliot, John Steinbeck, Agatha Christie, and others! Won’t this collection look lovely on your shelf? :D To win these classics, you must: 1) be following macrolit on Tumblr (yes, we will check. :P), and 2) reblog this post. We will choose a random winner on February 29, at which time we’ll start a new giveaway. And yes, we’ll ship to any country. Easy, right? Good luck!

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itlookslikeafreakinllama

7 years ago

April is an incredible, amazing badass

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