Its-a-game-i-lost

developing fixations is so funny i’ll watch something and be like yeah i’m normal about this. and then three days later i’m

The list of characters I Obsess over is long, I'll admit. That being said, the list of characters I SIMP over has grown by one and I hate it.

i don’t know what else to do

constant drive to talk about my ocs but also the eternal issue of not being able to articulate my thoughts properly so just imagine that i am grabbing you like this. there are things in my mind but they are not escaping

ok yeah but does the dream smp have THIS??

Can u tell me about ur ocs?

I dont know about them either

(/rp)

I think c!philza’s conversations with ghostbur today destroyed all of us, so I’m going to talk about c!philza for a bit — his ride-or-die bias towards techno, how that influences his beliefs, and his relationships with others.

phil favors techno. that is damn obvious. they’re old friends who go way back. phil also feels somewhat protective over techno — I’m a huge sucker for the headcanon that phil discovered that techno was basically a teenager during the antarctic empire days and subtly began feeling a bit parental to him after that.

the reason why phil became an anarchist ultimately ties back to techno. although phil was living in l’manberg back then, he was secretly helping techno; and his allegiance to techno ultimately resulted in his (definitely unjustified, but incomparable to what most people in l’manberg went through) house arrest. this house arrest, and watching techno’s execution, were what finally pushed him into full anarchy.

the thing is, I think this loyalty to techno is also what completely blinds him to the suffering of pretty much everyone else in l’manberg, and what him allows to be a-okay with dream’s actions as a tyrant.

phil is adamant that government was ultimately what ruined the people of l’manberg. but he somehow completely misses the trauma of the characters. he comes pretty dangerously close to what amounts as victim-blaming the citizens of l’manberg, especially tubbo, taking the position that they got what was coming to them. he says sorry to ghostbur for assisting in killing friend and destroying ghostbur’s library, but it’s clear that he doesn’t regret it.

when push comes to shove, phil always chooses techno. always. and he does not care if that ends up hurting other people who are or were close to him.

even though tommy, tubbo, and fundy aren’t directly phil’s sons, they are still connected to him and see him as somewhat of a father (or grandfather) figure. tommy accidentally calls him ‘dadza’. tubbo was found on the side of the road, and back when phil was in l’manberg they often worked together to build l’manberg. fundy is phil’s grandchild, who’s looking for any family he can get.

and phil sees them as corrupt, for reasons all adjacent to techno. although he was kind to them, he never truly paid attention to their trauma; and once they started directly opposing techno, well. they were dead to him, pretty much. this is neglect and abuse, everyone.

his conversation with ghostbur has only been the most overt example of this. and if ranboo ever decides to leave technoblade, well. I think we know where that is going.

Jayce hate is so funny I love to see it.

I saw a clip today idk if it was a leak or not so I’m not going to say anything but needless to say I will probably have the biggest crash out, we’re going to be fighting for our lives y’all.😭