Ohhhh I Get It Now. The Little Seed Of Loneliness I’ve Carried With Me Since I Was Five Will Never

Roasted chicken, ginger, daikon, shiitake mushroom soup with lime, cilantro, broccoli sprouts, and rice noodles

i wish i had an older person to take care of me forever. someone who'll kiss me and care for me and tell me that everything will be alright. someone that will tell me what to wear and what to eat so my mind will remain clear and i don't have to worry about anything other than suffocating in their smell and their warmth and i can just follow them and do what they want because the thought of following my own mind scares me and i am worried i'm going to be the reason for my own demise because i am evil. i want a heroine to sleep with me forever and kiss my neck so i can remain sane. is that codependency

"It was a long time ago. It doesn't matter anymore, And yet I cannot let it go. I cannot let it ago."

— Sylvia Plath, from a letter to Ruth Tiffanny

oh and i hurt. i hurt everyday and every i ever said to you feels like a lie and a part of me dies because i feel like a fool for being vulnerable. i wish i never opened myself up and showed you how the blood in my body flowed

“your my best friend, now i’ve got no one to tell i’ve lost my best friend.”

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# those adults that were like second parents for you and cared and loved you like so. suddenly you grew away from their eyes and they cant grasp that youre 19 and no longer 11 but they still understand you more than anyone else

seeing people from your childhood that knew you before you knew yourself is nostalgic but it kills you when you realize they dont know you now

i shouldve lied about my age on here

I feel like im stuck at 15 forever and ill be 25 and thinking about the fact my brain stopped thinking at 15

the worst kind of pain is when you realize you never got to give them the spotify playlist you made for them