BEFORE SUNRISE (1995) Dir. Richard Linklater

i need a digital camera so i can take the same pictures i take with my phone but through a different grainer perspective that makes me think that the future isn't here yet and i'm still in 2013 and i'm not left behind grieving after who i could've been

can someone hire me as a lighthouse keeper. my grip on reality is soooo stable and i will behave so normally under conditions of extreme isolation. and i promise i wont try to fuck the light

I want to eat love and spit out the root (the arteries hidden under your flesh) and I want to drink so much of your blood that it cannot be differentiated from mine until we become one; time and memory will unfold and entangle in an entirely new way and our changeless stardust will explore and melt the milky way after we burn

thinking about that quote by anne carson, "I am someone who did not die when I should have died." and yeah. im wandering the earth with an empty heart and a filled mind like a sick little ghost. it hurts even more when i dont fit into the atmosphere around me and everything feels drowsy and unsettled. im not meant to be here i was meant to disperse and dissolve and disappear years ago and u can tell because i dont fit into this world. im not part of this world like everyone else. im too empty to care and live and love

or people that outgrew you

noo brain don't start missing things you've outgrown please ahah

i'm terrified of the day i've grieved you longer than i've loved you

Is it so hard to hope for love

It’s rotten work but only if it’s you. When I do it for other people it’s fine, enjoyable even.

"she wasn't your person, your person is still out there and you'll find her when you least expect it" okay what if she was my person and i lost her forever