if youre autistic and transgender and you live with your parents you just have to remember soon you wont live with your parents and nothing will ever be as bad as this ever again. im fucking serious
im several girls and a bird trapped in a boys body,
really should have gone to a different doctor.
Randomly questioning whether you might legitimately be traumagenic because you most certainly have childhood trauma, but not knowing whether that trauma is why you're a system or not O.O
proxy system culture is a tired host
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sorry if i forget your name, im really bad at remembering peoples names.
i dont even remember my own name half the time.
Host: *plays cool game once* That was fun
Fictive from said game: Yeah it wa-
Host: AAAAH
how fitting for this to be answered while we've got a really bad headache.
plural culture is headache
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When the game is named after you and you finally get to be the protagonist
Hey, system originals and hosts--or whatever word you'd use. And anyone else who needs to hear it.
It's ok if you want to put your headmates first, before even IRL connections you have. It's not wrong. You're not "cringe". You're not evil or selfish or "worsening your condition" by default. You share your body with your headmates. Whether you view them as parts of your'self' or not, you share a singular form you all have to coexist inside of. People outside your body shouldn't get a say as to what you do with it.
It's ok if you want to do things for them that you wouldn't otherwise do with your life. It's ok if you need to make compromises together about what path you wanna take, and change up some life plans until you can all agree or at least be okay with them. It's ok if the closest connections to anyone you have are those within your own body. It's ok to not want to be close to people unless they accept everyone in your system.
You're not anti-recovery. You're not "giving up" your body to some evil parasite. You're not "throwing your life away because of an illness". You're not bad if you "make everything about your system" because those people are a part of your life as much as any other friend or partner or coworker, you should be able to talk about them.
If you want to make decisions about your body as a collective, please do. You can live a happy and fulfilling life, connected closely with your headmates and all being happy together. It doesn't have to be a struggle 24/7. There will be good days, there will be bad. You won't always agree easily. Things can be difficult, but you aren't wrong for wanting your system to be as big of a part in your life as you yourself are.