Currently Looking Back At My Old Scripts From Like 2021/22… Chat What Was I DOING ???? Who Did I Think

pre-shift vibes

adding ‘Unsaid Emily’ to my Inheritance Games DR playlist and cackling maniacally (I’m so sorry Grayson baby I love you)

Get real. It’s a desire for a reason! It’s because it’s meant for you. Just be.

i shifted

it’s so weird to be writing a blog about the fact that i’ve shifted, i’m so happy and honestly still in shock. it’s so real and so strange to see myself through a new body, a new room, a new lifestyle, and to have all the memories as if it’s always been my reality (I know this reality has always existed and it’s just a shift in consciousness, but you see what I mean?)

i shifted during the night of april 5 to 6, 2025. i was just so tired of this reality—just the thought of spending another day here was making me "angry". personally, i don’t use any method, no subliminals (except sometimes), i don’t visualize super well, i can’t focus 100% on anything. all i have is the deep desire to shift and fully dive into that reality.

i looked at my pinterest boards, quickly went over my script, watched a few videos related to my dr, then closed my eyes. i put on songs that brought me closer to my dr, i thought about what i was going to do once i got there, what I’ve already done, i imagined the next day—what my day would be like (i didn’t script where or when i’d arrive in my dr), there are some dishes i can’t wait to try — i was already imagining myself ordering them and eating so much of them.

i was just there, daydreaming about this reality

i repeating affirmations to myself a few time: i am aware of my desired reality and i am in my desired reality.

then suddenly, i felt like i wasn’t in my room anymore, and when i opened my eyes, i discovered my new room. I didn’t feel anything, see white flashes, hear voices, or anything like what I’ve read here. I was just there.

i touched my hair, looked all around me—guys, it’s so real. it’s not a lucid dream, i even did the five fingers test + pinches.

how real is it? you see the way you’re lying on your bed and you feel the sheets all along your body, sitting on your chair, you feel the texture of the seat, and you’re looking at the room you’re in — you see that 3d, that vividness, the details — it’s like that. there’s absolutely nothing dreamlike about it, and it’s incredible how real it is.

i’m not planning to stay long here (I plan to shift now tbh.), and most importantly, i’m a permashifter now. but please, guys, don’t give up! you deserve to live your dream life, i shifted so you can.

A shifting quote I like

''Something that I think all shifters need to realize is that the hard part is over. Finding shifting was the hard part''

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I wish I could make some crazy eye opening post but almost every manifestation that shocked me was just repetition. I just repeated a sentence and received what I wanted. When you stop feeding yourself and your subconscious the idea that you need to find some magic answer you'll find that all you have to do is affirm a little.

I'm not going to overcomplicate the law because that's not been my experience with it. It never took any spiritual revelation it just took repetition. Stop searching and affirm.

It's not about feeling good or ignoring the 3D or anything it's just about thinking as if. You don't have to twist yourself into knots or feel better overnight.

Affirm, persist, profit.

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in a week i’ve made more progress shifting than in the past 5 years

i’ve forgotten everything i’ve heard on shiftok and most importantly

i’ve trusted myself

i’ve trusted myself that not only am i capable of shifting but i also don’t need to put effort in it

all i need to shift is myself

⋆.˚ 𖥔˚ PERSISTENCE ISN’T THAT FUCKING HARD. YOU’RE JUST OVERTHINKING IT.

Here’s the truth, babe:

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎Persistence isn’t some mystical, complicated, twenty-step ritual with moon water and six daily meditations.

It’s literally just this:

“Yeah. It’s already mine.”

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎That’s it. No glittery lightning bolt. No thunderous spiritual awakening. Just a quiet, calm, deep-rooted certainty that what you want is already yours.

Not “might be,” not “hopefully,” not “if I do everything right.”

It is. Yours. Period.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎BUT WAIT—your brain goes:

“What if I’m just delusional?” “What if I don’t deserve it?” “What if it’s not working???”

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎Okay. Take a breath. Let’s be real: doubt is normal. You're not a self-help robot. You're not here to repeat affirmations like a broken cassette tape in a yoga studio. You’re not meant to be perfectly positive every hour of every day. That’s exhausting and unrealistic.

✦ Here’s what actually matters:

Even when you’re crying.

Even when you’re spiraling.

Even when you feel like a damn goblin in emotional shambles—

It’s still yours.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎You having a moment of fear? That doesn’t undo the energy you’ve already locked in. You having a breakdown in bed at 2AM? Still doesn’t change the fact that what you want is already on the way.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎Because you decided. You claimed it. You set that standard. And once you’ve decided something is yours, that energy doesn’t just disappear because your vibes were off for a day. This isn’t about being perfect. This is about being solid.

✦ Feeling sad? Angry? Numb? That’s completely okay.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎You’re human. You’re allowed to feel like shit. You don’t have to constantly be chanting “I am abundant” while forcing a smile like a possessed Barbie. You can fall apart. You can doubt. You can scream into a pillow. You can be a whole mess and STILL be magnetic as hell.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎Because persistence is not about controlling how you feel. It’s about knowing that beneath all the chaos, deep in your core—you already believe. That’s all it takes.

✦ The Real Magic?

That lowkey, quiet belief that never really leaves.

That tiny flicker in your chest that whispers:

“No matter what I feel right now… it’s mine.” That’s the kind of power you don’t have to scream to prove. That’s the energy that bends reality for you. Unshakable. Subtle. Devastatingly effective.

So cry.

Eat junk.

Doubt yourself.

Throw a tantrum.

Take a break.

Feel it all.

But don’t EVER fucking forget who the hell you are.

You’re not just manifesting.

You’re embodying.

You’re not waiting.

You’re arriving.

You’re not begging.

You’re declaring.

Live like it’s already yours.

Because it is.

Even on your worst day,

you’re still that bitch.

🖕 Love,

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎✦ Mercy, your raging godmother or whatever <3

reminder that you can shift anytime, anywhere, under any condition. it doesn’t matter if you’re exhausted, if you’re spiralling, if you’ve just remembered an email you forgot to send and now you’re in a fugue state of regret. it doesn’t matter if you’ve put shifting on a pedestal so high it’s getting altitude sickness (even then, a pedestal is just a glorified step stool. kick it over. nothing is above you, nothing is out of reach), or if your brain is complied of intrusive thoughts and mental white noise. you could be in a grocery store queue, on a sinking ship, in the middle of a hostage negotiation. and could still shift.

people love a reason why not. alas, the conditions are not set in stone. they never were. consciousness is liquid gold. it seeps through cracks, it adapts. you don’t need the stars to align. you don’t need the perfect night, the perfect mood, the perfect silence. you need exactly what you already have... a mind.

had a dream about my dr s/o last night… I need him so bad it’s not even funny anymore pLEASE