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John Kramer is so the dad that's randomly like "you know I'm not always gonna be around-" and ofc Amanda cried every time

𝔩𝔦𝔠𝔨 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔴𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔡𝔰 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔠𝔬𝔪𝔢 𝔦𝔫𝔰𝔦𝔡𝔢

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“Amanda,” Lynn says carefully. “I think you really meant a lot to John. You don’t have to—” “Don’t give me that condescending bullshit,” Amanda spits. “I didn’t come here to ask for your pity. I came here to ask if you would cut me open too.” Lynn’s jaw snaps shut. She doesn’t understand. Amanda wants Lynn to hurt her? * Two months after Lynn survives her test, Amanda asks her a favor.

What would Amanda Young as an older sister be like?

WARNINGS: very triggering. blatant mentions of self harm, abusive parents/corrupted childhood, drug use, alcohol, murder. reader’s discretion is advised.

CHARACTER(S): Amanda Young (SAW/“Jigsaw” Franchise)

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Amanda as an older sister is something you never asked for, but appreciate everyday.

-> it’s her terrified eyes that glance back at yours— at your sudden discovery of her slicing into her arms and thighs, your own pain reflecting hers.

-> it’s the sound of her sleep-ridden screams that wake you, nightmares so familiar to her, yet never easier to shake.

-> it’s the discovery of needles, filled to the brim under the kitchen sink’s cabinet that bring tears to your concerned eyes.

-> it’s the soothing texture of her hair through your fingers as she lets you play with it, giggles passed between the two of you from gossip about some new kid in your school.

-> it’s the old band tees and over-worn lacy bras that make you laugh at old photo albums of your childhood together.

-> it’s her laugh that’s so contagious, yet so terrifyingly unfamiliar.

-> it’s the smiles she passes you in the middle of an argument with someone on the phone, reassuring you that she’s just fed up with her ‘boss’ where she works.

-> it’s the way her facial expression contorts into a motherly amount of relief when she comes home late at night, finding you passed out on the shared, worn-in couch, TV static from a finished VHS tape illuminating your features in a way that shows you’re at peace. that you’re safe.

-> it’s the discomfort on her face as you question the markings on her inner forearms; immediately ignored, and told ‘(not) to worry about it, pumpkin”.

-> it’s the realization that this domesticated life she’s formed with you will end at some point.

-> it’s the pain-relieving pills that take up half of your side of the shared bathroom’s sink, scattered about miscellaneously the morning after a night out of partying together.

-> it’s the way she’s dreading telling you she’s not what you think she is- that she’s a monster; that she kills people.

-> it’s the comfort in John Kramer’s words that churns her stomach; aching for a father figure she never had, the very father fighre you’ll never get to experience— eating away guiltily at her conscious.

-> it’s the “imposter syndrome” she’s formed over the years that slowly tears the both of you apart— you’re too pure, to perfect to know of the bloodshed she’s caused.

-> it’s the tears shed into her dingy mattress that wakens you from your sleep, pulling you to her room and sitting with her, immediately diving into an embrace so tight you can feel the way her heart rapidly ‘thumps’ against her skinny frame.

-> it’s the way the words ‘i’m so sorry i’m the way i am’ passes her thin and chapped lips so unfamiliarly, you’re almost scared by the sheer force of emotion in her tone.

-> it’s the way she knows you don’t understand what she means, but stay near her anyways, her fingers delved so far into your skin you’re sure it’s bound to rip.

ok hear me out, Hellraiser, but Christmas edition, where Pinhead has little Christmas lights in his head instead of pins, so his bald head glows

I saw someone's post saying something about Descendents Rise of Red where they were like, "it's hard to believe Bridget became a full on villian just because a stupid prank." Although I kinda agree, I'd have to say that we only saw part of what Uliana did. So in her defense she probably finally broke after being pushed past her limits. So yes she did have a right to be a villain.

crying myself to sleep tonight thinking about how amanda was in rehab by the time she and john met. how we’re given no reason to assume that she wasn’t there of her own volition & trying to take steps to get better, even she did relapse by the time she asked cecil to steal from the clinic for her. how jill knows and cares about her enough to remark on her progress to her husband. how john chooses amanda for the trap specifically because jill described her as a “lost soul.” how amanda greets jill warmly when john introduces them post-trap. how she genuinely seems eager to show jill that it worked, that she’s getting better. how she wants to prove herself to, in her eyes, the only two people to ever care about her recovery. how when they meet again, they don’t say anything to each other. how they interact awkwardly & silently. how jill used to worry about amanda & her telling john about it led to amanda being tortured…how amanda wanted to get better but john used her frustration with the recovery process to isolate her from the only person who genuinely wanted to help her. how they weren’t friends before, but they’re strangers now.

𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦 😂☠️🗡️

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