summary:: you and kenans relationship is falling apart but you can’t help but love him amongst it all.
warnings:: angst
writers note:: i lowkey planned on finishing this series ages ago but i need to include kenan so here we are! and also a joao fic coming too from this series nd then i need to clear my inbox ! xx thank uu all for being so patient w me 😭
tags:: @barcapix @n0vazsq @httpsdana @paucubarsisimp ; lmk if you wanna be added!
The bass reverberated through the club, low and steady, like the pulse in her ears as she watched him from across the room. Kenan leaned back against the bar, head tilted, an easy smirk curling at the corner of his lips.
He didn’t see her yet, or maybe he did, and he was pretending not to. That would be his style, wouldn’t it? To play with the tension like it was his own personal game, the stakes as unimportant to him as a casual flick of his wrist.
She knew better now. Too late, but she knew.
The first time they met, he was magnetic in a way she couldn’t quite explain. He didn’t have to try to be charming; it was effortless. His voice, low and smooth, carried promises that made her breath hitch without her even realizing it. He’d been trouble from the start, but she hadn’t wanted to admit it. Not then. Not until the shine faded and the jagged edges of his confidence started to cut.
Tonight, she thought, she’d walked in knowing exactly what she was walking into. She’d come here to end it. To look him in the eye, tell him she was done, and mean it. Yet now, standing there with the echo of his laughter cutting through the crowd, she faltered.
He turned. His gaze landed on her like he’d been waiting for her all along, and her stomach sank. That smile, infuriatingly self assured, spread wider, as though he already knew she wouldn’t follow through. He pushed away from the bar and crossed the room without hesitation, his stride slow but deliberate, like a hunter cornering his prey.
‘You shouldn’t be here,’ she said when he stopped in front of her. Her voice wavered, betraying her resolve.
Kenan tilted his head, studying her in that way he had that made her feel like he could see every thought she was trying to hide. ‘Maybe you shouldn’t be either,’ he said, his tone light, teasing. But there was a weight in his eyes that told her he wasn’t joking, not really.
She hated that he could do this. That he could stand there, so calm, so casual, while her chest burned with a thousand unsaid words. She hated that no matter how much she prepared herself, he always unraveled her in seconds.
‘You don’t even care, do you?’ she said, her voice sharper now. Anger was easier than the ache clawing at her chest. ‘You do what you want, say what you want, and then act surprised when everything falls apart.’
His expression didn’t change, but she saw the flicker of something in his eyes; guilt, maybe, or regret. ‘You’re wrong,’ he said, quietly this time. ‘I care more than you think.’
She didn’t believe him. Not anymore. But the way he reached for her hand, the way his thumb brushed over her knuckles, made her wonder if maybe she wanted to.
Maybe that was the real trouble; she didn’t want to let him go.
And he knew it.
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hi queens i’m tryna clear my inbox so here we are and EID MUBARAK TO MY OTHER MUSLIMS 🙏
anyways here we are queens / kings / its 🥰
love && war part 2. - pablo gavi.
amore a milan. - joao felix. (I LOVE THIS SM.)
moonlight. - hector fort.
‘and we created you in pairs’. - kenan yildiz.
playing for keeps. - toni fernandez. (i forgot ab this.)
OKAY HERE ARE MY TOP 5 WRITERS (not in order bc i can’t choose for the life of me)
@barcapix @n0vazsq @httpsdana @paucubarsisimp @hollyf1 (ik ur not really that much of a fic writer but u never fail to make me laugh)
kali uchis’ “your teeth in my neck” is my new obsession. the song isn’t lyrically phenomenal but the way she can make a song about wealth inequality so sultry is amazing 😭 her voice is so smooth and raspy and the way she pronounces her vowels is so satisfying 😻
Warnings - sickness
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“João!” You called with a hoarse to your boyfriend from the bedroom. Footsteps were heard coming up the stairs to your bedroom, as João opened the door. “What do you need? Soup? More medicine? Wat~” You cut him off simply with his name, “João.” His concerned expression turned into a soft and gentle one as you said his name. Even when sick you still made him feel loved. “Yes?” He responded with the same, gentle tone you had gave him. “Cuddles?” Your voice was sore and hoarse as you spoke, but still soft.
He smiled and nodded, walking over to the bed where you laid, sick and exhausted. He laid next to you, holding you close to him while kissing your head softly. “Do you feel a little better than earlier?” He asked in a whisper voice. You nodded, snuggling into him even more while your eyes closed and you started to drift off into a deep slumber. João smiled at your tiredness and held you closer while saying, “Sweet dreams, amore. I’ll be here when you wake up…” João fell asleep not much later, still holding you impossibly close.
A few hours later, João woke up to the sound of his phone ringing. He looked towards the windows, seeing the sun setting. He groans and reaches for his phone, ‘Enzo Maresca’ it read - João’s coach. “Hey, what’s up?” João spoke softly, trying not to wake you. Enzo spoke, “Your going to be starting as forward for tomorrow’s game.” João’s eyes lit up, “Awesome!” He said, looking down at you he spoke once more, “I have to go for now.” Enzo paused for a moment before saying “Alright; see you tomorrow, Felix.” João hung up, grinning while playing with a strand of your hair. You stirred awake, smiling up at João, “What happened?” You asked, your voice still hoarse but better. He kissed your head while saying, “I’m starting a forward tomorrow..” You smiled even more, “That’s my baby” He chuckled, pulling you closer. “I love suck days…” You looked at him confused, “Why?” You say. He kisses you softly and muttering in between kisses, “Because I can be with you.”
summary:: it’s midnight in barcelona after the barcelona copa del rey celebrations after party and you and your lover are on the balcony, enjoying life.
warnings:: none
writers note :: so i’m gonna start a series of blurbs based off songs so lmk if u want any players based on any songs. also in my original version hector was smoking a cigarette but i realised its a bit much so i removed it 😔😔.
tags: @barcapix ; lmk if u wanna be added
The moonlight turns everything silver, but it’s the way Hector looks at you that makes the night feel magical. The two of you sit on the balcony, a half empty wine bottle between you. Below, the city hums quietly, but up here, it’s just the two of you.
Hector leans back in his chair. His shirt is undone at the collar, sleeves rolled up, the sharpness of his usual demeanor softened by the glow of the night. He glances at you, smirking. ‘You’ve been staring at me for a while now.’
You scoff, raising your glass. ‘Maybe you’re just nice to look at.’
He laughs, the sound low and warm. ‘Careful, cariño. Keep saying things like that, and I might get used to it.’
You roll your eyes, but there’s no hiding the smile tugging at your lips. Nights like this; quiet, intimate, unhurried, feel like a dream. ‘This doesn’t feel real sometimes,’ you murmur, your voice barely above a whisper.
‘What doesn’t?’ he asks, looking at you like you’re the only thing that matters.
‘This.’ You gesture vaguely to the balcony, the moonlight, the way he’s looking at you. ‘Us. It’s too perfect.’
Hector leans forward, his elbows resting on his knees. ‘If this is a dream, I don’t ever want to wake up.’
You laugh softly, your cheeks warming. Before you can respond, he stands and holds out a hand to you. ‘Come here.’
‘What are you doing?’
‘Dancing’ he says, his lips curving into a grin. ‘Don’t tell me you’re scared.’
You take his hand, letting him pull you to your feet. There’s no music, just the faint hum of the city, but he doesn’t seem to care. His arm slips around your waist as he starts to sway, guiding you effortlessly.
‘You’re ridiculous,’ you say, resting your hands on his shoulders.
‘Maybe,’ he replies, pulling you closer. ‘But I’m yours.’
The world feels smaller now, reduced to the warmth of his hand on your back and the steady rhythm of his breath. You rest your head against his chest, his heartbeat calming and steady.
‘You know,’ he murmurs, his voice soft, ‘you’re the only one who gets to see me like this.’
‘Like what?’
‘Like I’m just a man. Not a ghost, not a name people fear. Just me.’
You look up at him, brushing your fingers against his jaw. ‘You’ve always been just you, Hector. That’s why I love you.’
His lips find yours, the kiss slow and grounding, like a promise sealed under the moonlight.
‘Don’t let go,’ you whisper.
‘Never,’ he says, his arms tightening around you. And in that moment, you believe him.
what do yall think abt franco x alonso!reader
“ur so pretty i almost forgot you colonized my country”
that’s so franco smh
MY SHAYLA 💔🫂
hi baby 😔
ღ - m a s t e r l i s t
who i write for
alejandro balde
lights, camera, golazo - part one
lights, camera, golazo - part two
bound 2
pablo gavi
stadium lights, casablancan nights
ivy
a quiet kind of love.
valentines surprise.
yours to hold.
el mar, el sol y mi corazón.
love && war.
love && war 2.
jamal musiala
for better or for best
the alchemy
boyfriend headcannons
london days.
joao felix
girl dad head cannons
joao felix x non famous girl headcannons
joao felix x sassy girl headcannons
it’s still intact, right?
la rainha de cobham
hell n back
lottery
one wrong digit.
one wrong digit. part 2.
one wrong digit. part 3.
amore a milan.
is this a curse..?
yours for the day.
retail therapy… or not?
lost && found.
priorities.
delicate.
my girls curls.
hector fort
boyfriend headcannons
moonlight
my favourite player.
unexpected but never a problem.
jude bellingham
all eyes on us
kiss of life
madrid, maybe.
not enough for you.
kenan yildiz
i knew you were trouble
cut my hair
in your arms, always.
table for 2.
‘who’s jeans..?’
silent devotion.
first date dilemmas.
match made in turin.
the love of italia.
‘and we created you in pairs.’
hidden in plain sight.
guille fernandez
back to you.
sneaking around.
toni fernandez
playing for keeps.
marc bernal
the best kind of trip.
pau cubarsi
attached by the arms.
kieran tierney
moving on.
taa (trent)
headlines.
charles leclerc
maman et papa.
Hii do u write for Marc Bernal or the Fernandez cousins (Toni and Guille)?
I love ur writing btw <3
summary:: it’s 2am after a long day and you and marc decide to go on a random road trip.
warnings:: uhhhh none?
writers note:: okay so this isn’t really a req but i wanted to write for him to i took the opportunity!
the city buzzed outside, alive with distant laughter and the hum of traffic, but inside the apartment, it was warm and quiet. the kind of quiet that settled between two people who didn’t need to fill the space with words. you sat curled up on the couch, wearing one of marc’s oversized sweatshirts, the sleeves swallowing your hands as you scrolled through your phone aimlessly. the clock on the wall ticked past midnight, and the space beside you felt too empty. he had texted hours ago: team dinner, i won’t be too late, but as the minutes stretched into hours, your mind began to wander.
it was after one when the front door finally creaked open. you looked up, relief washing over you as marc stepped in, hair tousled from the wind, cheeks flushed from the cold. his smile was soft, a little sheepish.
‘hey,’ he said, voice low. ‘sorry i’m late. things ran longer than i thought.’
‘i figured,’ you murmured, unfolding from your spot. you crossed the room and slipped your arms around his waist, holding him close. he smelled like the night air and the faint hint of his cologne, something familiar that eased the tension in your chest.
‘missed you,’ marc whispered into your hair, arms tightening around you.
‘missed you too,’ you replied, voice muffled against his jacket. pulling back slightly, you reached up to brush his hair out of his eyes. ‘you eat? i kept some food warm.’
he shook his head. ‘wasn’t really hungry. just wanted to come home.’
you smiled, fingers lingering against his cheek. ‘come on, let’s sit. you look exhausted.’
he let you lead him to the couch, flopping down beside you with a sigh. without thinking, you pulled a blanket over both of you, tucking it around his shoulders. he leaned into you, head resting on your shoulder as your fingers found his hair, combing through the dark strands.
‘these are my favorite nights,’ marc murmured, voice barely above a whisper. ‘just you and me. no noise, no cameras.’
‘mine too,’ you said softly. the television played something neither of you was really watching, casting flickering lights across the room. outside, rain began to patter against the windows, the soft sound filling the spaces between your breaths.
a comfortable silence stretched between you until marc spoke again. ‘wanna do something spontaneous?’
you glanced down at him, brow raised. ‘like what?’
he grinned, boyish and bright despite how tired he looked. ‘let’s go somewhere. right now. just get in the car and drive.’
you laughed, shaking your head. ‘marc, it’s two in the morning.’
‘that’s what makes it fun,’ he argued, sitting up. his eyes sparkled with excitement. ‘we don’t have to go far. just... get out of the city for a bit. clear our heads. what do you say?’
you hesitated, glancing toward the window where rain continued to fall in gentle waves. the idea was ridiculous, and yet, there was something irresistible about it. about him. ‘you’re impossible,’ you muttered.
‘but you love me,’ he shot back, grinning
‘unfortunately,’ you teased, grabbing your keys from the counter. ‘fine. but you’re driving.’
‘deal.’
twenty minutes later, you were in his car, the heater blasting as you sped down near-empty streets. marc rolled the windows down despite the chill, letting the rain-scented air whip through the cabin. you leaned back, watching city lights blur into streaks of gold and red. his hand found yours on the center console, fingers intertwining naturally.
‘this is crazy,’ you said over the music, wind tugging at your hair.
‘the best kind of crazy,’ marc replied, glancing at you with a grin that made your heart stutter.
you drove aimlessly, laughing as marc sang (badly) to old songs, stopping at a 24-hour gas station to load up on snacks. you found yourself giggling at the absurdity of it all, standing in a fluorescent-lit aisle at three a.m., marc holding up a bag of gummy bears like it was the greatest discovery of the night.
‘essentials,’ he said seriously
‘you’re a menace,’ you replied, tossing a bag of chips into the basket.
back in the car, you drove until the city fell away, replaced by dark roads winding through fields and trees. eventually, marc pulled over at a secluded spot overlooking a stretch of water, the surface rippling under the rain. he killed the engine, and for a moment, the world felt suspended, just the two of you in a bubble of quiet.
he got out first, grabbing the blanket from the backseat. ‘come on,’ he urged. you hesitated before following, shivering as the cool air bit at your skin. marc wrapped the blanket around both of you, pulling you close. your head rested against his shoulder as you looked out at the water, the sky beginning to lighten with the first hints of dawn.
‘worth it?’ he asked softly.
you glanced at him, taking in the messy hair, the tired but content eyes. ‘yeah,’ you whispered. ‘worth it.’
he smiled, pressing a kiss to your temple. ‘told you.’
the sky bloomed with colors, pinks, oranges, soft purples, reflecting off the water in shimmering waves. marc held you tighter, his warmth seeping into you, grounding you in the moment. for a while, neither of you spoke, content to watch the world wake up around you.
‘this,’ he murmured after a long stretch of silence, ‘this is what life should be. just... us. no schedules. no pressure. just being.’
you nodded, heart swelling with affection. ‘i could stay like this forever.’
he chuckled. ‘careful, i might hold you to that.’
you tilted your head up to kiss him, slow and soft, the kind of kiss that spoke of quiet promises and late-night adventures. when you pulled back, his smile was lazy and content. ‘love you,’ he said.
‘love you more,’ you replied automatically.
‘impossible,’ he shot back, grinning.
the sun crested the horizon, bathing everything in warm, golden light. marc’s arms stayed wrapped around you as the world stretched out before you, vast and full of possibility. and in that moment, with his heartbeat steady under your palm and the future wide open, you believed that maybe, just maybe, you could stay there forever.
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Yes pt2 of the Jude fic plis
summary:: ‘and with hardship comes ease.’ here is finally your ease.
warnings:: THIS WAS LEFT IN MY DRAFTS FOR ALMOST A MONTH.
writers note:: i am SO sorry it took this long? but here’s part one as well.
tags:: @barcapix @n0vazsq @httpsdana @paucubarsisimp @universefcb
it had been weeks.
weeks since you walked out of his apartment, since you left behind the life you had built together. weeks of silence, of pretending you were okay, of waking up in an empty bed and forcing yourself not to check your phone.
you tried to move on. threw yourself into work, took on extra projects, stayed late at the office just to avoid coming home to the quiet. you told yourself you were fine. that you had made the right choice. that love should never come at the expense of yourself.
but god, you missed him.
you missed the way he’d pull you into his arms at the end of a long day, the way he’d press lazy kisses to your temple while you worked, the way he’d always keep a hand on you, your knee, your back, your fingers tangled with his, like he needed to know you were there.
some nights, you swore you could still hear his laugh echoing in the corners of your apartment. some mornings, you still reached for him in bed before remembering he wasn’t there.
and it hurt. because for all the love you had for him, it hadn’t been enough. and that truth sat heavy on your chest, refusing to fade.
then, one night, your phone rang.
his name flashed across the screen. your breath caught.
for a moment, you considered ignoring it. letting it go to voicemail. but something in you, something stubborn, something still so deeply tied to him, made you press accept.
‘hey,’ his voice was rough, like he hadn’t been sleeping.
you swallowed, gripping your phone tighter. ‘hey.’
silence.
‘i don’t know how to do this,’ he admitted, voice quiet. ‘how to be without you.’
your eyes burned. ‘you’re not without me, jude. i’m still here. i just… i just couldn’t keep choosing you over myself.’
a harsh exhale. ‘i know. and i hate that i made you feel like you had to.’
his voice cracked on the last word, and something inside you splintered.
‘it wasn’t fair,’ you whispered. ‘you wanted me to be someone i’m not. and that’s not love, jude. love isn’t asking someone to sacrifice who they are to fit into your world.’
he was quiet for so long you thought maybe he wouldn’t respond. but then,
‘i know,’ he said, voice hoarse. ‘i’ve been thinking about it. about us. about what i did wrong. and you were right. i wanted you to fit into my life, but i never stopped to think about how i could fit into yours.’
your throat tightened. ‘jude…’
‘i was selfish,’ he continued, not letting you interrupt. ‘i thought love meant you’d follow me anywhere, that you’d drop everything because you loved me. but i never stopped to think about how much you already had to lose. and that’s not fair. it’s not fair to you.’
a tear slipped down your cheek.
‘i miss you,’ he admitted, voice breaking. ‘but more than that, i miss being the person who made you happy. and i don’t know if we can fix this. but i want to try. if you’ll let me.’
your breath hitched.
for weeks, you had convinced yourself that he would never understand. that he would always expect you to fit into his world, to mold yourself into something easier, something more convenient. but this—this was him trying.
this was him choosing to meet you in the middle.
‘if we try again,’ you said carefully, ‘things have to be different. i need to know that you see me, jude. that you respect what i want for myself just as much as i respect what you want for yourself.’
‘i do,’ he said without hesitation. ‘i swear i do. i just… i don’t want to do this without you.’
you exhaled shakily, pressing your fingers to your temple.
‘can i see you?’ he asked after a beat. ‘not to fix everything right now, not to force anything. just… to see you.’
your heart ached. you knew this was a risk. that loving him, choosing him again, meant trusting that he would follow through on his promises. but a part of you, the part that never stopped loving him, wanted to believe that he could.
so you swallowed past the lump in your throat and whispered, ‘yeah. okay.’
and for the first time in weeks, hope felt like something real. something worth holding onto.