Gentle Reminders In Case You Need It:

Me being born autistic: Well this could have been a lot harder

Everyone else preparing to traumatize the fuck out of me: Would you like to see how much harder?

This breaks my heart wide open

i like to pretend i already died and asked god to send me back to earth so i can swim in lakes again and see mountains and get my heart broken and love my friends and cry so hard in the bathroom and go grocery shopping 1,000 more times. and that i promised i would never forget the miracle of being here

....Okaybut what.

Not me paying *very* close attention to that very American disclaimer, wherein they loosely ebcouraged homicide, um what the fuc? No. Fuc that. What.

Also what the hell is up with this whole giant actual bit of the Pisces Venus missing? Really quite discouraging, but wdIk?

A Personal Thought on Water Venuses by Me.

I love to scroll through tons and tons of astrology observations all day. I can do this for days on end! However, I noticed that we can all agree within the community that having a water venus is a challenge. When I check people’s charts, I like to see how many water placements they have (if they have any) and see how much they feel beyond the physical. To me, having water placements means that you’ve learned somehow to master feeling beyond the physical. Feeling things for what they are, seeing things for what they are, having the ability to spot the subliminal and whatever else people have this tendency to overlook. It’s sucks because you have no choice to NOT face it. It is there, loud and clear. Having your Venus in this element allows you to see what goes on below the surface and seeing things for what they really are.

However, this gave me an idea. Humanity, in its current state cannot handle the natural intensity that water venuses bring on. Finding someone who can match your intensity (and not masking, acting like they can see it) is truly a rarity that seems impossible with every day passing. I’m convinced that we’re meant to literally feel and love beyond the physical. Each one in their own respective ways, depending on the sign. And when you put them together, maybe you can understand from my perspective how these placements are warriors, carrying the world on their backs, better yet in their souls.

Let’s start with a Cancer Venus. Thinking about what Cancer stands for (I.e. emotions, home/real estate, etc.) so I think that to love beyond the physical, I recommend making a space for yourself that you can call home.  Create a safe space where you, your vulnerability, your love, your creativity, etc. can thrive. In other words make a home for yourself. The saying that comes to my mind when thinking of this placement is “home is where the heart is.” Wherever you have your heart set on, that is where you will reside. Be careful of being around people who take advantage of that vulnerability because they are overstaying their welcome. That is your property and you have the right to kick someone out if they disrespect you. In some states, here in the USA, you are allowed to even take them out (if you catch my drift *cough cough* Texas and Florida  *cough cough*) by using a weapon. I am not saying that you need to kill someone…but don’t be afraid to use force if it goes *that* far. If you are able to find someone who can match your intensity, great! Invite them into your home and love them they way how you do when you’re alone. Make sure they love you as well!

For a Pisces Venus, I would say, developing an unconditional relationship with whatever is higher than you. Your spiritual side, your creativity as well, and any other innate talents that you are born with. Develop an unconditional, all-encompassing relationship with it. Because this is a mutable sign, explore the different ways to keep you interested and attached to it. You will need to learn how to express yourself in a plethora of ways to keep the flow going. You are to learn how to go with the ebb and flow of the journey to your higher self. Maybe you found someone who is also on their journey and you two just happened to cross paths. Great! However, beware that there are a lot of people who will cross your path, but only to be an obstacle overcome. By the way, it may seem like I am saying the same thing and in a way I am, but the way it is expressed is different. 

Last but definitely not least, Scorpio Venus. As everyone says, Scorpio is into the dark stuff. This placement has a love for the dark arts. If not a love for the dark arts, an appreciation for recognizing that which is liminal (I don’t know if that is the right term for it, but basically what is actually shown compared to what people want to show). Just like Pisces Venus, the goal here is to develop an enclosed relationship which that you’re innately blessed with. To consume the information, and in turn letting it consume you, guiding you with the necessary information that will help you avoid problems in the long run. Anything taboo, the psychology of a person’s mind, working with spirits/angels/demons/entities/etc. to help you achieve a personal goal whether it be protection for yourself, or to return someone’s negative energy that they have attempted to send to you. Allow yourself to become possessed by the knowledge. Allow yourself to be obsessive over the curiosity for more information regarding what does not be exposed to humanity. 

Of course, too much of a good thing is a bad thing, so practicing the concept of moderation is needed. But this concludes my speech on the psychology of water venuses, from a Scorpio Venus =). Be safe and travel!

All of this.

We knew we had ADHDbrain *long* before diagnosis.

We knew we had BPD *long* before even all the symptoms were showing.

We knew we even were Multiple v. early on (but were gaslit by psychiatry).

You know you better than anyone else.

Gatekeeping culture is like: “don’t get your information online it’s too easy😡!!!” Then offer “find research papers online it’s really easy🙄”

Then block you.

Self diagnosing isn’t TikTok videos and random blogs. It’s literally months to years of research. There’s a lot of reasons why someone can’t get professionally diagnosed.

Misdiagnoses happen a lot

People aren’t taken seriously

It’s expensive asf

Its inaccessible

People want to adopt

People want the right to their bodily autonomy

I’m disappointed when I go online and see my bullies are now nurses. That’s kinda the same thing when I go on here and see professionally diagnosed people who shit on undiagnosed for posting coping mechanisms.

Stop calling people “the problem” for coping. The real issue is people who post any “if you have these… you might have” THATS DANGEROUS. what isn’t dangerous is:

Finding coping mechanisms

Find organization tools to function

Therapy

Talking about experiences

Researching extensively on traits

Documenting

Unmasking

Printing off quizzes or research articles from well established resources (Embracing Autism, ASAN, AIM, awn network, A4A)

Stimming (if it isn’t harming)

Advocating for diagnosis is one thing. Being a bully online is another. It’s a disability not a quirk, a lot of self diagnosed people know it’s a disability. We can identify the actual problems in the self diagnosing community but a lot of us aren’t those.

We’re valid

teens want lana del rey, NOT jesus!!!!!!!!

protective sigil against police officers

Syscourse Damage

Got a big anonymous message from someone, and I think it has a lot of value! I'd like to make a post by it.

Shout out for those who have been hurt by syscourse, on any side. Those who feel they can't exist in this space without becoming an expert on who they are and every source they could ever provide. Those who have practice reading entire essays in Syscourse just to stay relevant. Those who have been traumatized and retraumatized again by syscourse.

It isn't fair, what systems have to go through in this space. Here are some tips for those struggling with finding a place or peace in this place.

Step away from syscourse. You deserve better than the arguments. Block those who bring it to you, and refuse to engage. You never need to.

If you choose to engage, know that it's not your duty to correct everything. You are just a person! You don't need to be an expert, or a psychologist, or a therapist, or anyone. It isn't your job!!

Recovery is elsewhere. You don't need to recover in syscourse spaces. Leave those spaces and take care of yourself.

Everyone has the potential to be an asshole. Moving past that is the key; acknowledge that there are spaces you may never want to be in again, but there can also be a space for you there as well. Recovery can come.

I don't have much more for today, but know that this space is safe, at least. I also recommend @syscourse-confessions as a good space to offer venting or ideas about syscourse anonymously. :)

To all of my fellow jobhunters: May you be the right candidate, at the right place, at the right time soon. And may that place turn out to be full of friendly people. 🌸

You are not what happened to you. You didn't deserve to go through all that. You deserved to be loved, to feel safe, to be safe. You deserved kindness. Patience. You deserved better.