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I've just realized

StaticMoth is the ✨Mafia AU✨

Vox is a corrupted businessman with crazy influence and powerful enemies. Valentino is a mobster who owns an empire of sex and drugs. The action potential in them is just crazy.

30?? that’s one big accomplishment! proud to say that i’ve read them all and that they all deserve way more kudos than ao3 will let me leave 😤😤💗

fic number thirty!!! short and sad sweet <3

proud of saying that i’m into dark academia BECAUSE of books and writing and classical culture.

i think it is very depressing that like every aesthetic people try to emulate are of people doing things but they themselves are incapable of being somebody that does things… the mall goth 2005 aesthetic revived in 2022 but nobody goes to the mall to be annoying and weird and nobody lets themselves be cringe… the cottagecore aesthetic but nobody knows how to raise gardens or live self sufficiently … the dark academia aesthetic but nobody actually reads books…. The obsession of looking like you are a type of person who does something without actually doing anything … the Instagram effect

the huge split between people going "this is the BEST most beautiful movie ive seen all year!!!" and "this was so BAD im crying on the floor sobbing" is great miraculous fandom never change

Why is nobody pointing out how Deku is AGAIN projecting the things he needs to do in others???

What I mean is, he is literally telling Shigaraki he is just hiding the bad stuff under a rug but he will take it, because he can't just pretend nothing can be done about the past of the way it affects him... honey look yourself in a mirror too! The trauma of being quirkless in a quirkish (?) world, being rejected by the ppl you care and admire, the bullying, all the anger he has deep inside, the hero complex and dependency on a quirk in order to have value on himself, trouble with his identity outside of potential All Might 2.0 yet having trust in the fact he will make it somehow, etc.

Idk if he's now dealing with it and we'll see it fully in the next chapters, but it is important to understand his whole issues and stuff while dealing with his nemesis -which could be great for the whole "two sides of the same coin" thing.

He tends to do this too, even back during the sport's festival with Shoto where yeah, he did help him and he was trying to do so, but it looks like that's the way he mainly has been using to deal with his own problems -by not talking about them, but helping others and giving them the advice and reassurance he also needs.

Im once again saying it, Shigaraki needs to have the love of his friends and feel it again, and Deku needs to also get it from the people he cares and loves -not just thru actions. He isn't that far gone as Tomura, ofc, but it never hurts to feel that, specially when you grew up lonely and isolated.

do you ever just think about how all might must see izuku?

like, everyone else – tsukauchi, nighteye, even gran torino – first experienced toshinori at his best. they met him either in professional settings when he was being ALL MIGHT ™ or when he was young and idealistic and generally had the overwhelming charm of a child with big dreams. when they met him he was making a conscious effort to live up to his ideals, and they only saw how hard that was for him much later, if ever. he knows they support him, but he also knows that they came to admire him long before he ever asked for their support.

and then there’s izuku, whose first meeting with all might was … bad. toshinori was having a bad day, he was grouchy, and he absolutely took that out on izuku. not only does he, five minutes after meeting izuku, immediately dump his baggage about his injury and his time limit on the kid, but he also talks about his self-doubts and waning faith in heroes. stuff no adult should ever tell a child, let alone a hero to a civilian. and then he tops himself by straight up crushing izuku’s dreams, telling him he can never be a hero. finally he leaves the kid on the roof of a tall building, without taking half a second to think how that might go horribly wrong.

and the next thing he sees izuku do is fucking dive into a villain fight to save another kid who’s dying, while all around him heroes INCLUDING ALL MIGHT stand by and do nothing.

like, holy shit can you imagine what toshinori’s view of izuku must be like? he knows damn well this kid is having what is possibly the worst day of his life. he got attacked by a villain, found out his hero is a fraud and had his dreams crushed. that’s without knowing he got suicide baited less than two hours ago. and still this kid, who by rights should be slinking home to cry for the next 24 hours, is out here risking his life to save his friend. knowing full well that if he does this his day can only get worse, either by being injured or by getting in trouble with the heroes.

that puts toshinori to shame.

so of course toshinori admires izuku. of course he offers to make izuku his successor. of course he believes in izuku (even to the point of expecting unreasonable performance out of him, but it never shakes his faith when izuku falls short or has different priorities). of course he’s willing to get down on izuku’s kitchen floor and beg his mother to let izuku be his student. how could he not want to be izuku’s mentor?

izuku may be the only person who makes toshinori actually feel good about himself. he did something terrible to izuku, and still izuku admires him, listens to him, wants him for a mentor. izuku saw him at his worst and said “you’re still my hero.” he makes toshinori feel loved.

and if you don’t think that’s the most heartwarming shit you can get out of my face.

You know, one time I read a fanfic and it triggered my psychosis, sent me into a month long episode THEN a whole year later I was on ao3 just mindlessly scrolling, I came across the fanfic title and it gave me a panic attack, but something compelled me to click it, i didn't read it but i did scroll through it, why? mental illness.

So like... ya

This is me responding to your old(?) post about someone else's fiction not being able to hurt you, this is probably just a me thing but mental illness makes you do things and react to things in insane ways that sometimes you cant control. I knew while reading that it was affecting me in some way, but I kept reading because well, I'm mentally ill, and then a month of my life dissapeared lol

I think I'm trying to make a point about something but I'm not sure

I did after the fact comment to the author and just kinda, told them about what happened, but I didn't harrassed them or something, -

-but when something does what this fanfiction did to me then you're basically obligated to let the creator know I think(they are a really good writer), I'm an adult and the fanfic was in the ballpark of something I would read and if like, 59% of it was taken out and it had a happy ending I would be fine but oh well

Oh boy, I'm starting to have a panic attack just typing this out holy hell anyways uh, I'm not disagreeing with you(?) but I am saying, don't be too quick to dismiss someone who says a piece of fiction fucked with them? idk sorry, have a good one

My friend, the fiction didn't harm you.

Your mental illness harmed you.

Random writers on the internet are not responsible for managing your mental illness for you.

You are responsible for managing your mental illness.

I knew while reading that it was affecting me in some way, but I kept reading because well, I'm mentally ill

This is self harm. You were engaging in self-harming behavior by continuing to read a fanfiction that you knew was triggering to you.

👉 You are responsible for managing your mental illness.

👉 Writers are not responsible for managing your mental illness for you.

And I hate to tell you this but messaging the author about it was absolutely harassing the author.

Sometimes I open Ao3 as one would a fridge in the middle of the night. Hungry, but not willing to commit to anything that is in there and hopping a miracle will make something new and appetising appear out of thin air if only I close it and open again.