pairing: actor! toji x actress! reader
genre: interview style, slightly suggestive on toji's part
note: ah shit here we go again
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Convincing Toji to do this interview was as hard as his team had expected.Â
The man was extremely private, always giving short answers on red carpets but they were more than enough to feed his fans. Coupled with a confident smirk of his and a proud display of the scar on his lip, the man knew he had people swooning for him.Â
However, he wasnât fond of interviews. It was evident in the way he leaned back in his chair with his arms crossed over his chest, a bored look on his face and only answering when the question pertains to his character only.Â
Other than that, you couldnât get a single word out of this man.
When you heard that you were invited to be on an episode of Actors on Actors, you were both excited and nervous. Talking about yourself wasnât your favorite thing in the world, but you loved getting to know other people in the industry and bonding with them over shared experiences.
What you donât expect is to read Tojiâs name on the paper.Â
âToji?â you turn to your manager with a look of disbelief on your face. âFushiguro Toji?â
Your manager gives you an apologetic look. She could see the anxiety brewing inside of you, and you have to place a hand over your heart to calm your nerves.Â
Talking to that man was the equivalent of talking to a brick wall. There was no way this was going to be a good interviewâand who thought of pairing the two of you together?
The tall, broad shouldered man sits in his changing room with the same paper in hand as his eyes land on his name. His makeup artist catches the glimpse of a smirk on his face before Toji turns to his manager.
âThatâs the pretty one, right?â
His manager chuckles before placing a hand on Tojiâs shoulder. âThe one and only.â
âMaybe it wonât be so bad.â
The interview is off to an awkward start. At least from your part.Â
You feel small under the gaze of such an intimidating man, putting a leg over the other and pulling down the hem of your short dress to hide as much of you as possible. That doesnât stop Tojiâs shameless gawking as the two of you shake hands.
âIâm (Name), nice to meet you.â
ââcourse I know who you are,â the words roll of his tongue smoothly and he watches as you purse your lips, dropping your gaze. âFushiguro Tojiâ
âVery pleased to meet you.â You finally let go of his hand but you couldâve sworn that his hand lingered on top of yours a bit longer.Â
When neither of you decide to speak up first, you let out a nervous chuckle while Toji turns to the filming crew with a playful smirk.
âThis is fun,â
âI meanâŚâ you trail off, smoothening the fabric of your dress. Again, his eyes land on your thigh and clear your throat.
âIâmâŚa really huge fan of your work.â your voice is small as you confess your admiration for his work in the industry. âIâm always amazed by your ability to get into character so quickly.â
âWatched some behind the scene footage?â
You were caught.
âMaybeâŚI mean itâs there!â You laugh and fortunately for you, Toji does as well as he nods.Â
âSure it is. I could say the same about youââ he gestures towards you with a genuine smile. âGreat work, itâs rare to see someone so passionate in the industry nowadays.â
âOh,â you wave your hands. âItâs-itâs nothing, I just really love acting.â
Toji braces himself forward with his elbows on his knees. âHow old were you when you thought of giving it a try?âÂ
Your back straightens up under his gaze and you avoid his eyes as you think of a response. âI was about 6 or 7 when my parents would pull out a camera during Christmas and record me recreating scenes from movies like The Wizard of Oz and The Shining.â
âThe Shining?â
âI was a weird kid,â you laugh when you see the look of shock painting his features. âBut yeah these two were my favorite movies of all time.â
âThatâs interesting, cause in a way I can see you getting into movies like that at a young age.âÂ
âReally?âÂ
Toji really likes the glint in your eyes.Â
âMhm,â he nods as he leans back in his armchair. âLike I said Iâve seen some of your work andââ he raises his hands. âIâm a fan.â
You drop your head shyly, silently thanking him for the amount of compliments he was throwing your way. This was honestly going better than you expected, but you knew it was time to ask him questions.Â
âCan I just say,â you gesture towards the man. âYour recent work absolutely blew my mindâI mean, the entire movie was just amazing but your role. Wow, just wow.âÂ
Toji bows down his head when you clap for him, chuckling when you go the extra mile by pretending to bow down for him.Â
âThat role, was it difficult to get into such a state of mind? Iâve seen many actorsâincluding myself, who needed a much needed break from everything after a certain role. Was it the same for you or were you able to detach yourself from the role easily?â
Toji gives it a thought, taking in the fact that you had crafted this question so carefully unlike any other interview heâs ever been on before.Â
âAfter we finished shooting, I cut off contact with most of the world for about three months straight. I moved out of my neighborhood and into an area where it was just me, the mountains and the sound of birds.â
 Toji proceeds to explain how the role was mentally taxing, how the idea of going back and doing promo for the movie seemed like a huge roadblock he needed to get over. But after lots of therapy and some much needed time off, he was able to get back on his feet.Â
âIâm glad that you feel better now, the industry needs good actors like you.â You admit and Toji leans back in his armchair again with a knowing smirk.
âI could say the same about you.â
The interview proceeds smoothly, with the two of you asking each other questions back and forth. After fifty minutes, the interview comes to an end and you get up to share a well deserved goodbye hug.Â
However, Tojiâs arms linger a little longer around your waist and he whispers something in your ear thatâs facing away from the camera.
âYou look good by the way.â
Guys, the mics are still on!
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Part two of Can My Friend Join?
Yan!SatoSugu x Reader
Sum: You're starting to grow used to Suguru, maybe evening learning to accept his love.
TW: Yandere Behaviors (Cameras, Obsession, Manipulation, trapping), Really toxic relationship, dubcon, oral (F and M receiving), Brief smut, Reader is going through it. SatoSugu (Just a warning in itself), Angst
WC: 4.7k
A/n: Listened to a random Mitski playlist and it lowkey made me depressed while writing this, expect some fluff after this one.
This is love.
You keep telling yourself that, donât you?
Even as silent tears streak down your cheeks in the furthest bathroomâthe one tucked away from the master bedroom, the one even Satoruâs Six Eyes canât reach.
This is love.
The way Satoru leans down, his snowy white hair falling across his forehead in that effortlessly tousled way, pressing a fleeting kiss to your lips before heading out on a mission. His crystalline blue eyes, so striking they feel otherworldly, linger on you for a moment too long before he straightens up, a lopsided grin pulling at his lips. Suguru follows, his dark hair tied neatly back, though loose strands frame his sharp, beautiful face. He gives you a casual wave, the corners of his mouth lifting into a faint, teasing smile as he murmurs, âI love you.â
Youâve never seen Satoru happier than heâs been since Suguru joined your relationship. Happier than back when it was just the two of you, curled up on the couch, his long legs stretched across the cushions while you laughed at some cheesy anime. Back then, his laugh was unrestrained, carefree. The way his shoulders would shake, his hand coming up to push his blindfold up and wipe away a tearâit felt real.
You miss those days.
You didnât cry as much back then.
But they love you, donât they?
They still pay your tuition, still ensure your life is cushioned and cared for. Suguru, always measured and composed, suggested once, âMaybe you should switch to online classes.â His voice was soft, his tone coaxing. It made sense, didnât it? His reasoning was sound: âThere was a special grade curse at the school the other day. We just worry about you, baby.â
Suguru always seems so calm, his velvety voice soothing and warm yet guarded dark eyes giving him an air of quiet authority. You begin to find comfort in that. However, the weight of his presence feels heavy, suffocating even some days.
Satoru, on the other hand, radiates energy. His presence fills the room like sunlightâblinding, inescapable. His tall, lanky frame always seems so relaxed, but you know better. Behind the teasing lilt of his voice and his constant grin lies a man who rarely lets his guard down. The way he looms, leaning just a little too close, reminds you of the distance he refuses to let exist between the two of you.
They worry about you so much. Yet whenever you voice concern for them, they hush you. Suguruâs deep voice reassures you, as if heâs talking to a child, while Satoruâs lips curl into a too-bright smile, his hand patting your head like youâre something fragile.
They love you. They take care of you. It would be selfish to leave them, wouldnât it?
And Satoruâheâs never been this happy.
Heâs working less, smiling more. Suguruâs return has lifted a weight off his shoulders. Heâs not carrying the burden of being the strongest alone anymore. You can see it in the way his smile softens when Suguru speaks, in the way his gaze lingers on him longer than it ever lingers on you.
And yet, you tell yourself:
This is love.
Still, you wonder⌠wasnât Suguru supposed to be going to therapy? You think back to his promisesâvague, half-hearted reassurancesâbut did he ever actually leave for a session? Ever join a voice call?
You donât recall.
You try to push the thought away, like so many others. Ignore the red flags. Focus on the green.
The relationship has its moments. Youâre growing used to Suguru.
Especially your drunk selfâthe one that gravitates toward him, curling up on his lap like a loyal dog, seeking out his touch and the warmth of his arms. He always accepts you, his large hands stroking your back or brushing through your hair with a tenderness that feels almost too loving, almost cruel. You wonder what side of yourself that is, the part that craves his affection so desperately, the part that lets the lines blur between love and dependency.
You might even say youâre learning to love himâor at least the version of him that exists in the quiet of the night. The version that pulls you close under the weight of darkness, his voice low and unguarded as he whispers, âI love you.â
Itâs in those moments that he feels human, almost fragile. A man with calloused hands and a broken heart trying to mend himself through you.
And itâs hard not to wonderâare you really learning to love him, or are you simply surrendering to the inevitability of it all?
Satoru, though⌠he never used to cuddle at night. Even before Suguru entered the picture, he always sprawled out in his ridiculously expensive sheets, claiming restlessness from the constant hum of his cursed energy. He needed the space, he said, and you told yourself he deserved it.
Suguru, howeverâSuguru surprised you.
At first glance, he didnât seem the type for soft affections, but you quickly learned otherwise. Every night, his arms would find their way around you, wrapping you in a firm but gentle embrace. His warmth seeped into you, grounding and comforting, as he nuzzled into the crook of your neck. His lips would brush your skin with soft kisses, a tenderness you hadnât expected from him.
Sometimes, his deep voice would murmur, âSorry we came home so late,â heavy with sincerity. Other times, his words were more vulnerable, whispered just above a breath: âI love you,â spoken in the dark when he thought you were asleep.
Itâs hard not to love him in those moments. Hard not to feel your resolve slip as his presence surrounds you. His breath fans against your neck, steady and warm. His rhythmic breathing eventually syncs with yours, as if his body is learning the cadence of your every inhale and exhale.
For those fleeting moments, you almost forget the cracks beneath the surface.
Other good moments were the intimate ones, the kind that left no room for doubt about how thoroughly they possessed you.
Suguruâs lips would meet yours in slow, deliberate kisses, his touch soft and coaxing, as Satoruâs tongue worked between your legs. The wet, obscene sounds filled the room, clouding your vision and overwhelming your senses. Satoruâs tongue moved with precision, his mouth relentless as he lapped at your cunt, delving deep until your mind felt as hazy as your breathless moans.
Suguruâs fingers never faltered, rubbing tight circles around your clit in perfect rhythm with Satoruâs ministrations. Their combined efforts dragged you over the edge again and again, your body trembling and giving in to the relentless waves of pleasure.
It became impossible to think of anything elseâimpossible to care about anything other than the bliss they brought you. Their hardened cocks stretched you beyond your limits, filling you completely, their stamina nearly too much for your quivering form.
Suguru would cradle your face in his hands, his dark eyes soft yet intense as he cooed sweet nothings. Heâd murmur praises, soothing and possessive, as Satoru pressed the tip of his cock into your overstimulated, leaking cunt. The stretch made you gaspâa sound Suguru captured with his lips, his kiss slow, methodical, leaving you no room to shy away.
Satoruâs hands gripped your hips harshly, his long fingers digging into your flesh, ensuring you stayed exactly where he wanted you. You could already tell the marks would bloom into bruises by morning, a physical reminder of their claim. Suguru, ever attentive, would turn your face gently toward the camera, his voice a low murmur against your lips. âYouâre such a good girl,â heâd praise, his thumb brushing your cheek before pulling you into another kiss.
When they were finally spent, when your body gave out completely, Suguru always carried you to the bath. His embrace was steady, grounding, as the warm water soothed your trembling form. Youâd lean against his chest, your body limp, lulled by the rhythmic rise and fall of his breathing.
Sometimes, Satoru would join, his tall frame slipping into the water beside you. Their voices would soften as they spoke over you, discussing mundane things or recounting their mission. Occasionally, a kiss would press against your templeâa fleeting gesture, tender and claiming all at onceâas you drifted in and out of sleep.
For a little while, it felt like you belonged.
And then, when he thinks youâre asleep, Satoru murmurs, âI knew youâd come around.â
Youâre never sure who heâs talking toâSuguru, the man who swore to eradicate non-sorcerers? Or you, the girl whoâs finally learning to love the monster who holds her at night?
Itâs in these moments that you find yourself slipping out of bed, mumbling an excuse to use the bathroom. Suguru always lets you go with a teasing âCome back fast, or Iâll come get you.â You never linger long enough to see if heâs joking.
Once inside the furthest bathroom, the one that feels like your only sanctuary, you clutch the edge of the sink and sob. Quietly, so no one hears. Until your knees give out and youâre on the floor, shaking and clutching yourself.
This is love. Right?
They loved you. So why were you crying in the bathroom?
Why did each love bite feel like a brand, etched into your skin with every lingering gaze in the mirror? Why did their cum, warm as it seeped down your thighs, burn like it was searing itself into you, a mark you couldnât erase? Why did the blank, soulless stare of the camera lens feel like an accusation, making you flinch away from any piece of technology?
Before too long, you would wipe your tears, force a smile to your lipsâsteadying it just enough so it wouldnât wobbleâand return to Suguruâs waiting arms. His hum would vibrate against your back as his dark hair tickled your neck. Heâd cradle you close, pressing a gentle kiss to your temple.
âGoodnight, baby,â heâd murmur, and youâd close your eyes, pretending his embrace felt like comfort instead of confinement.
But mornings brought their own discomforts.
You found yourself rifling through the master bathroom, searching the countertop with rising panic. Where is it? The nagging thought ate at you.
Satoru, brushing his teeth beside you, glanced over with those striking blue eyes. His tone was soft, almost too casual. âWhatâs up, baby?â
âI canât find my birth control,â you admitted, the words trembling as much as your hands.
âDid you misplace it? Youâve been doing that a lot lately.â He walked over, his long arms wrapping around your waist. A kiss brushed the top of your head, his voice gentle but firm. âGo ask Sugu. Heâs the one who organizes everything.â
So you did. Suguru was at the desk in the living room, working through a report. From over his shoulder, you could see the numbersâcharge rates, payments for missionsâenough to know your schooling costs barely amounted to a fraction of what they earned in a single week.
âYour birth control?â he repeated absentmindedly, his tone light, almost dismissive. âYouâve been misplacing that a lot, havenât you, baby?â
His words felt condescending, like you were a child searching for a lost toy.
âWhere is it?â you asked, voice still soft but with a growing edge of desperation. You were five minutes lateâexactly.
âAh-ah, no need for that tone, baby,â he chided, his eyes still glued to his paperwork. âCheck the kitchen counter. Your purse? Maybe your school bag.â
It took thirty agonizing minutes of searching, panic simmering under your skin, before you found itâperched on top of the fridge.
You stared at it for a moment, unmoving. You would have never put it there.
Suguruâs behavior had become harder to ignore. There were moments when his touch lingered, his eyes softened, and his voice carried a wistful tone. He had baby feverâyou could tell. Maybe it was tied to the twins he lost.
Youâd asked him about them once. His face shuttered, dark and unreadable, and he didnât respond.
You tried asking Satoru, but he had simply glanced away, his usual bravado vanishing for a moment too long.
You decided not to ask again.
Some questions werenât meant to be answered. You had a sinking feeling the truth lay buried somewhere with the higher-ups, in a place you werenât allowed to tread.
Suguruâs baby fever didnât fade, no matter how much you tried to ignore it.
When the three of you went to the store, youâd catch that soft smile tugging at his lips whenever he saw a child. It wasnât the type of smile he gave just anyoneâit was warm, tender, hopeful. And it was always followed by a kiss pressed to your temple. A gesture you used to pull away from, but now, you found yourself smiling through.
Sometimes, heâd suggest wandering into the baby section, his tone casual, almost playful. âJust in case. Want to see whatâs out there.â
The words always made your skin crawl.
Because no matter how innocuous they sounded, your mind couldnât help but spiral. It always went back to the hidden birth control, the misplaced pills, and the monthly pregnancy tests he insisted on. Heâd stand there, watching you pee on the stick, his arms crossed but his expression almost sereneâwaiting, anticipating. He wanted to know right away.
You tried to shove those thoughts into the furthest corner of your mind. Tried to convince yourself it was all harmless.
Satoru, by contrast, didnât seem to care much for babies. He never lingered in the baby aisle and rarely commented on Suguruâs behavior. But heâd hum softly, his hand clasping yours, and flash you a loving smile.
You liked to think that as long as everyone else was happy, Satoru was happy.
And maybe, just maybe, that was enough.
Occasionally, when they left for long missions, the apartment felt suffocating in its emptiness. Youâd pad softly through the vast, cold space, the silence amplifying every creak of the floorboards beneath your feet.
Your eyes darted around, searching for the hidden cameras you knew were there. You werenât sure where they all were, or when they liked to check the footage, but youâd found one blind spot: the hallway closet.
You moved slowly, deliberately, ensuring you didnât do anything that might raise suspicion. Even though you were alone, you couldnât shake the feeling of being watched.
All because they loved you.
Slipping into the closet, you nestled yourself on the floor, silky yukatas hanging above like a shroud. Your laptop glowed faintly in the darkness as you opened it and began your quiet rebellion.
You searched for apartmentsâsomething small, something within your budget. Each listing felt like a whisper of hope. You lingered on them, imagining the freedom they promised, before methodically deleting your browser history. Clearing the cache. Erasing every trace.
It was a silly idea. A foolish one, really.
But for a few stolen moments, it was yours.
It didnât seem so silly after the heated argument with Satoru when he got home.
He was already overstimulated, frustrated, and teetering on the edge of losing his patience. Those moments were the worstâwhen the teasing lilt in his voice faded, replaced by something sharp and mean. His cerulean eyes, usually playful and glinting with mischief, turned cold and calculating, the glow of his Six Eyes adding an eerie sharpness to his gaze.
All he wanted was release. That was all.
âIt shouldnât be a big deal,â he said, his tone flat but brimming with expectation.
Except you werenât in the mood.
âIâm sorry, Toru, I justââ
âI do everything for you, and you canât even provide me with a little comfort?â His words came out harsh, the grin curling his lips into something too sharp to be soft. He stepped closer, his towering frame casting a long shadow over you. His presence always felt overwhelmingâbroad shoulders, perfectly sculpted face framed by stark white hair, and a lean body that seemed to hum with restrained power. You swallowed hard. Did he get taller?
âI just got off my period, so itâsââ
âItâs what?â His voice cut through your hesitation, his hands flexing as if he were trying to leash himself. âCome on, baby. Just a quickie. Or let me use your mouth.â
The fight drained out of you before you even realized it.
You ended up on your knees, the cold tile biting into your skin, a sharp contrast to the heat radiating from your flushed face. His long fingers twisted tightly into your hair, guiding your head as if you were nothing more than a puppet for his pleasure. His pale chest rose and fell steadily, the faint sheen of sweat on his skin catching the light, glinting like cruel punctuation to his earlier frustration.
The tip of his cock pushed past your lips, the stretch almost unbearable as he moved with slow, deliberate thrusts. His head tilted back, exposing the sharp lines of his jaw, tightening with every wet sound that filled the room. A low groan rumbled deep in his throat, vibrating in the space between you like a growl of satisfaction.
Your throat burned, gagging and gasping as you struggled to adjust. Your hands clutched at his thighs for balance, fingers digging into the hard, taut muscles beneath his impossibly smooth skin. His hips began to move with more force, his breaths growing heavier, the faintest smirk curling on his lips as he reveled in your struggle.
His moans grew louder, rougher, until with a sharp tug of your hair, he pulled out. Hot ropes of cum painted your face, the heat of it stark against your flushed skin. You blinked through the haze, barely catching your breath, the sting of humiliation bubbling up in your chest.
Before you could even reach for something to wipe yourself clean, the sharp click of a camera shutter echoed through the room.
You didnât need to look up to know what he was doing. You could already imagine him grinning at the screen, tapping a few buttons with casual ease. You could picture the caption as clearly as if heâd whispered it into your ear:
"Our girl is so beautiful, isnât she? <3"
The thought sat heavy in your chest, a mix of shame, anger, and something else you didnât want to name.
And then, as if nothing had happened, Satoru turned sweet again.
He brought you a towel, his large hands surprisingly gentle as he wiped your face. âCome on,â he coaxed, his voice softening. He guided you to the bathroom, his fingers lacing with yours, and drew you into the shower.
Under the warm water, he washed your hair, his hands threading through your strands with care. His crystalline eyes softened as he began to tell you about his mission, his lips quirking into a small smile. From the counter, he produced a small box of mochi, your favorite snack.
âYouâre everything to me, baby,â he murmured, his lips brushing your temple. His arms wrapped around you, his broad chest pressing against your back. âIâm going to marry you one day. You know that, right?â
And just like that, the storm passed, leaving behind only his affection..Â
Your heart sank at the mention of marriage. With them, you knew theyâd find a way to make it happenâthe three of you, bound together, no matter how impossible it seemed.
After the shower, you slipped into bed, craving the comforting warmth of the sheets. It was a small solace, a fleeting moment where you could envelop yourself in something soft and familiar.
Satoru liked to cuddle during naps, and true to form, his lanky arms found their way around you. He pulled you close, his chest pressing against your back as he nuzzled into you. His kisses came next, peppered across your lips with deliberate exaggeration, loud and obnoxious.
You used to giggle when he did that. You used to squirm and laugh, batting him away as he grinned and pulled you closer.
But now, you stayed still, letting him press his kisses and settle into a nap with you.
You couldnât remember the last time youâd giggled like that. Or the last time youâd laughed at all.
On their next mission, you had exactly six hours.
Exactly six hours for a stupid idea. A fleeting thought.Â
Youâd planned this carefully, down to the second. When they asked where youâd be, you made some excuse about a doctorâs appointment. It was believable enoughâSuguru always asked to see the summary of your visits when you got back, a habit you knew was less about care and more about control.
But this time, you lied.
There was no appointment.
Instead, you booked a one-way trip. Far, far away from Tokyo. Far enough that they wouldnât be able to find you, at least not right away.
The States. It was the only place you could afford with the small stash of cash youâd scraped together over the yearsâbirthday cards, Christmas cards, anything youâd managed to squirrel away without raising suspicion. You even bought a prepaid flight gift card, ensuring it couldnât be traced back to you.
No suitcases, no sentimental keepsakes, nothing but the clothes on your back.
Before you left, you scrawled a simple note, placing it where you knew theyâd find it. Just three words:
"I love you."
Ironic, isnât it?Â
As you sat at your terminal, the minutes ticked by with agonizing slowness. You told yourself a 14-hour flight wouldnât be so bad. It was freedom, wasnât it? The first real breath youâd taken in months.
But then, a familiar figure caught your eye.
Megumi.
He wasnât aloneâthe other first-years trailed beside himâbut it was Megumiâs gaze that stopped your heart. His dark eyes widened when they locked onto yours, a flash of recognition that made your stomach churn.
Your anxiety hit you like a freight train, crawling under your skin, seeping into your every bone as they walked past. Megumi glanced back at you one more time, his lips parting just enough to mouth the words: âIâm sorry.â
And then you saw itâhis hand reaching for his phone, his fingers already dialing.
You didnât have to guess who he was calling.
Your heart sank, but you told yourself it wasnât his fault. You knew Megumi had his reasonsâhis own happiness to protect, his own precarious balance to maintain. He was trying to survive too, wasnât he?
You understood. You really did.
But understanding didnât make the fear any less suffocating.
You cried the entire car ride home, your sobs tearing from your throat, raw and uncontrollable.
Satoru didnât even glance your way. His icy, dull gaze stayed fixed on the window, his jaw clenched so tightly you thought it might snap. The silence between you was deafening, broken only by your muffled cries and the hum of the car engine.
In the passenger seat, Suguru sat quietly, his expression unreadable. His hands rested on his knees, fingers drumming absently, as if the tension in the car didnât weigh as heavily on him.
Poor Ijichi-san gripped the steering wheel, his knuckles white, clearly caught in a situation he didnât want to be in. He glanced at you through the rearview mirrorâsympathy flashing briefly in his eyesâbefore he quickly looked away, the moment shattered by Satoruâs cold, piercing glare.
The car felt suffocating, like the air had been sucked out, leaving only the weight of your despair and the oppressive silence of the two men who claimed to love you.
Your brows furrowed in confusion as you watched the familiar sight of your apartment complex slip past the window. Panic prickled at the edge of your already frayed nerves, your grip tightening on the fabric of your clothes. A small sniffle left your nose, your voice coming out hoarse and broken.
âWhere are we going, Toru?â
You turned your gaze to Satoru, hoping for an answer, for anythingâbut he didnât look at you. He didnât respond. His profile was cold, distant, his lips pressed into a thin line.
Your stomach twisted, guilt clawing at your insides. You must have hurt him. He always clung to your love like it was his lifeline. You must have broken that lifeline, snapped it in two with your attempt to run.
You shifted your gaze to Suguru, hoping for some clarity, but his face gave nothing away. His dark eyes flickered toward you for the briefest of moments before returning to the road ahead, his expression as still and unreadable as ever.
The car veered away from familiar streets, the urban sprawl giving way to the shadowy embrace of the woods.
Your chest tightened.
Every nerve in your body screamed as the car crept deeper into the forest, the tall trees looming like silent sentinels. Your mind raced with grim possibilities. Were they planning to leave you here? Like an unwanted dog, cast into the cold for daring to run away?
But then, just as the panic began to claw at you, your gaze caught the sight of something familiarâsomething that made your heart sink even further.
The tall, imposing torii gates emerged through the mist, their vibrant red striking against the muted greens and grays of the forest.
Oh.
The Gojo Estate.
âI donât think I can trust you enough not to leave again,â Satoru said quietly, his voice uncharacteristically calm, almost detached.
He wasnât usually the one to chide youâthat was Suguruâs role. Suguru, who would dole out punishments with a sharp tongue or a chilling, parental tone, as though you were a misbehaving child. But now, Satoruâs words held a gravity that made your chest tighten.
âSo,â he continued, his crystalline eyes fixed ahead, âI figured here, you could have a few more eyes on you. Maybe even enjoy it more. Who knows? You might even come around to the idea of being Mrs. Gojo or Mrs. Geto. Your pick.â
He smiled faintly, but it didnât reach his eyes.
âWe already filled out the documentation. Youâre married.â
The words hit you like a physical blow, the weight of them crashing into your chest. Your mind spun, unable to comprehend the sheer audacity of it, the sheer finality.
You felt chained.
Like a dog, tethered to their will, stripped of freedom, and locked away under the pretense of love.
They didnât say anything as they walked you through the grand, silent halls of the Gojo Estate, and for that, you were almost thankful. The air was heavy with whispers and disdainful glances from the servants. A non-sorcerer? Their murmurs carried through the air, sharp and cutting, as though your very presence was an affront to their world.
When you reached the bedroom, Satoruâs hand guided you forward with surprising gentleness, his fingers brushing yours as though nothing had changed. He led you to the edge of the plush, sprawling bed, and you forced a small, trembling smile to your lipsâa weak attempt at peace, at hope.
His bright eyes softened, and for a moment, you thought maybe, just maybe, you could reason with him.
But then his hands caught your wrists.
A light kiss brushed your lips, so soft you barely registered it over the sound of your own heartbeat pounding in your ears. The faint click of the cuffs was almost lost in the quiet, but the cold metal digging into your skin was impossible to ignore.
He stepped back, his expression unreadable.
It was Suguruâs voice that filled the air next, low and calm, like a lullaby that promised nightmares.
âYouâre going to provide us an heir,â he said, his smile almost serene, even as your eyes widened in horror. âIt was Satoruâs idea, actually.â
His smile deepened, almost teasing, as though he enjoyed the shock and betrayal etched across your face. âAnd youâre not leaving this room until youâre safe and pregnant.â
The words hung in the air, suffocating you.
Suguruâs tone carried a quiet, unmistakable happiness, as though this was something heâd always wanted. Maybe it wasâheâd always longed for a child, hadnât he? You turned your gaze to Satoru, searching for something, anything.
But all you found was the lovesick smile he gave Suguru.
Not you.
Your chest tightened as tears pricked your eyes, the overwhelming urge to scream, to sob, to lash out building inside you.
But you didnât. You couldnât.
Instead, you sat there, the cold metal biting into your wrists, the weight of their love crushing the last sliver of hope youâd held onto.
You had grown numb.
Must be from all the love, right?
part 2 of the slasher!Franklin story
Part 1
đHappy Halloweenđ
Warnings: fem!reader, captivity, graphic depictions of violence, gore, death, smut, dubcon, spanking
Word count: 7.7k
How long you were kept down there you werenât sure. Your days started when you woke up and then ended when you fell into a fitful, uncomfortable sleep.
You were kept chained up like an animal at all times, and while the chainâs moderate length meant you could get up and walk around a little, it became harder to do that as time passed, as your only form of nourishment were the bottles of water Franklin left for you. So while you remained alive, you were becoming weaker by the day, which forced you to stop moving around so much so you could conserve energy.
You sat chained up to that table near the door, slowly withering away while you waited for him to carry out whatever it was heâd planned for you.
But whenever Franklin would come in to continue his sick work, more often than not he didnât acknowledge you.
Heâd walk by you, sometimes carrying a body that heâd hang on a newly emptied meat hook, other times leaving with the pieces heâd cut from one of the bodies within the room. You didnât know what he was doing with them. For your sake it was better not to know so you wouldnât need to speculate on what heâd do to your remains when you were dead. You didnât want to die knowing heâd turn your skin into a lampshade or eat the meat from your legs or anything like that.
Franklin was keeping quiet about it, and youâd rather it stay that way.
At one point youâd seen him walk by the open door carrying a spike strip like the one youâd run over, and only then did you realize that he was the one who had set that on the road, leaving out a trap to force you to go to him for help. You wondered how often that ploy worked.
Still, nothing else had really happened to you.
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(Note: I am not a tradwife nor do I condone forcing gender roles and societal pressures onto anyone, I just wanna be a cutesy wife for Simon Riley)
Simon prefers you call him Simon over Ghost. He thinks that since he's literally married to you, there's no reason for you to call him by his call sign. Calling him Simon is much more intimate for him and he likes separating you from everything he endures as Ghost. He just wants to be your Simon.
He knows he's gone for long periods of time. Time you spend not talking to him or doing couple things. He makes up for it, though, by doing anything you want when he's at home. If you're tired of planning, he's got you. Simon has a whole list of random things to suggest when you just want to be taken care of without worry.
He LOVES spoiling you. In his line of work, he gets down and dirty. He loves knowing you don't have to do anything of the sort (unless you want to). He pays for your nails to keep them pretty, unlike his dirty, battered ones. He will get you monthly subscriptions to whatever you want, beauty boxes, gaming passes, entertainment, etc. All luxuries he can't experience while at work. Simon knowing you're the opposite of him, clean, spoiled, safe, is enough to keep him working forever. Giving you everything he can't have. His love isn't all monetary, but a lot of it is when he's away.
Simon loves watching you. He gets major anxiety about you when he's away. To help with this, he installed security cameras in and around the house. When he gets the luxury of a WiFi signal, he'll check in on you. If you happen to see a little green light flash on while eating, relaxing, cooking, or any other mundane task, you'll offer him a smile and a wave. Sometimes you'll blow him a kiss (or give him a private show).
We all know Simon is physically fit, but that doesn't mean he has any type of expectation for you. He loves whatever you have to offer him, as long as you're in good mental and physical health (remember, being physically healthy comes in different shapes and sizes!) Simon is completely enamored with you. He believes he was blessed to be the only man on earth to be married to a real goddess. He would build a statue of you by hand (if he wasn't so bad at any type of art). If you want to go to the gym, he'll buy you the best membership he can. If you don't, he'll buy you something else that occupies your time.
Simon loves feeding into your hobbies, whatever they may be. Coming home and seeing something new you created or hearing about something you've learned makes his day 10x brighter.
You love cooking for him. It took a lot to break down his walls and food is one of them. He appreciates the time and effort it takes to plan and execute a meal as well as the skill needed to cook as well as you do. The best brands and foods for his wife only! Nothing makes him feel more full of you and your love than when he's eating something you've made for him, other than when he praises you and you get a little twinkle in your eyes and a smile on your face.
You also happen to love keeping the house nice for him. You clean fairly often, though it's not hard to keep up after one person (and any pets you may have). You like knowing he's trusted you with one of his largest assets, his home. It gives you a sense of power knowing you're the only person who controls what kind of house he comes home to. Messy, clean, minimal, tacky, bright, dark, etc. Simon appreciates anything and everything you do for the house. Knowing you've gotten everything taken care of and decorated in a way you both like is like heaven to him and lifts a huge weight off his shoulders. He loves smelling a clean house after smelling nothing but dirt, blood, gun powder, and stinky men for days. (He couldn't care less if the house was a cardboard box, as long as you were there and you still loved him.)
If you want to work, go to school, learn a trade, or be a stay at home, he supports you. You don't even have to explain yourself to him, Simon trusts you so much that even if you were to say "I don't know" he would hear trumpets because an angel just spoke to him.
Nsfw: Despite what people may think, Simon typically isn't a dom. He spend a majority of his time directing people and being an authoritative figure at work. That isn't even mentioning how tolling it can be knowing you took a life and the physical exhaustion his work takes. He likes being taken care of, however you see fit. Sometimes he'll be a dom, but only if he's been away from work and needs to let off some steam.
The sweetest ever. Cuddles, words of affirmation, snacks, whatever you need. He feels as though his sole purpose since he met you is to make you feel like nothing less than a deity. Sometimes he'll get insecure over his ability to take care of you or not being around, but one kiss from you, perfect you, and the perfect life you maintain for you both and it fades away.
Overall, Simon Riley is the hottest, most doting husband to exist, ever.
⥠TW: nsfw, noncon, incest, abuse of power, sex-slave reader, gangbang
⥠FEM reader
Nasty emperor whoâs gone to the pleasure house every day since coming of age. Now middle-aged and a seasoned dictator, fucking his own litter of bastards because they all have his familyâs long line of royal hair and eyesâand it gives him some sick sense of pleasure to have made you allâbred to be his own personal harem of half-blood princes and princesses.
Most of you hate him, of courseâbut none of you can do anything about it. Kept prisoners in pillow rooms, hidden away in the castle. The Kingsguard stands watch, ensuring you all stay putâalways on hand for the Kingâs visit.
You all have your tongues, nipples, clits, and dicks pierced with ringsâand yes, he uses a leash on them all to remind you of your place.
He'll wear an open robeâand only thatâwalking in stride with his cock in hang. And youâll all kneel for him, in row upon row, as he makes his pick for the evening. Sometimes pointing out a group of three or more for an orgieâother times, singling out just one of you.Â
âI created this little pussyâit belonged to me before you ever even came into the world,â heâll grunt. Fucking your cunt deeply from behind, cockhead cuddling your womb, soon to fill it with his big loadâringed hand pulling that pretty hair you inherited from him, grinning by your ear in huffs and puffs and gross vows, âGonna breed you, my girlâmake you big and round with a pretty sister-daughter or brother-son.â
You cry in disgust, but you donât dare fight back. It wouldnât do you any good. Forcing you all to be his little subservient harem of whores is the least of the cruel things he puts you through if you upset him.Â
âIâm not just your KingâIâm the God that gave you life. You worship me,â heâll say. âDisobey me, and youâll face my divine judgment.â
Devine judgmentâmeaning rope burns, tied up tight and unmoving, allowed no food until youâve proven your loyalty by making all your fellow half-bloods cum.
Your sisters, in the dozens, will ride your faceâwhile your brothers, two at a time, make full use of both your holes.
And heâll sit on a throne of blankets and pillows and watch as they all take youâsome scared to disobey him and be put in the same positionâothers equally depraved as him, making a meal of itâeach giving you a good slap for not being good children like them.
And thatâs how it goes, for hours, until all of them are spent and youâreminded of your place.
⥠BNHA â Enji, AFO ⥠JJK â Kenjaku, Sukuna ⥠AOT â Zeke ⥠DS â Doma, Muzan ⥠HxH â Chrollo
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IN CONTEMPT | simon riley
You tried to move on, but no one quite measures up; not to the way he touched you, not to the way he ruined you. But when he reappears, you can feel him even before you see him. The past has a way of punishing disobedience, and now, itâs here to settle the score.
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18+ AU, fem!reader, takes place in the UK, porn with plot, pathetic!reader, harddom!simon, soft!simon, cuckolding, stalking, dirty talk, implied voyeurism, extreme exhibitionism, praise, rough sex w aftercare!, breeding kink if you squint, smidge of degradation, unprotected sex, cream-pie, oral sex (f!recieving) fingering, squirting [ 16.6k words ]
Fuck Simon for vanishing, for leaving you with nothing but a ÂŁ21.90-shaped hole in your wallet.
Itâs humiliating, reallyâhow twenty quid can leave such a deep dent in your otherwise empty pockets. But the alternative? A fate you couldn't afford to entertainâsleepless nights, baby-screeching, endless tears, and a lifetime tethered to a man who couldn't even be bothered to stick around longer than 5 minutes after fucking your brains out, taking your favorite pair of oversized sweatpants on his way out, too. So, you swallowed the morning-after pill and kept it moving.
The immediate days after he disappeared blur together in a heavy, sluggish haze. You still show up to work, still plaster on a smile that doesnât quite reach your eyesâthough it never did, even before Simon. Every shift is the same bullshit but somehow worseâcustomers testing your patience, coworkers draining the last bit of energy youâve got, and a boss who somehow manages to be more insufferable than the rest combined, multiplied by ten, then squared.
Your life was shit before, but thatâs all been exacerbated. Nothing feels right anymore. You donât remember who you were before him, how you managed without his touch. Everythingâs off-kilter, like the world shifted just enough to make moving through it a little harder.
You try to shove him out of your mind, slam the door, bolt it shutâfor your sake. But when one door closes, a window inevitably opensâand he is the draft that seeps through, whistling through the gaps, curling around you and filling your lungs, regardless of how hard you try to shut him out.
The rational part of your brain tries, with dire urgency, to tell you that it was just sex; that it wasnât supposed to mean anything. You made an offerâarguably reckless, maybe even stupid, but not regrettableâand he accepted. Weird, but simple. Clean. Done.
But even as you rationalize and deny his effect on your life, your body betrays you. It still remembers whether you want it to or notâthe phantom heat of his massive hands branding your skin, the weight of him pressing you down into your creaky mattress, the primality of being wrecked, ripped apart, and haphazardly stitched back together.
Itâs hard to fight the way your body cravesâthe pang buried deep in your bones, in your cunt, gnawing at you like a plague. It wears you down, sanding away every hard edge you put up against the hunger for him. Eventually, you stop trying. Stop pretending.
After a week, you begin to cling to the news channels like they hold your salvation, listening like their reports are scriptures to damned ears. You sit on the scratchy, cheap carpet in your living room, bathed in the cold, artificial glow of the screen nearly every night, waiting like a dog at the door for an owner who isnât coming home. You watch until your eyes dry, stinging as you blink, your fingers twitching around a carton of pad thai, stomach a tangled knot as you swallow each bite. Every time that breaking news banner slashes across the screen, your pulse spikes, breath snagsâthinking: this is it. This is the moment his name finally breaks through the LEDs.
But it never comes. You envy how they can swallow it all down and forget him.
Heâs gone. Not only from your life, but seemingly from existence itself. No reports. No shitty CCTV footage of him. No murmured speculations from tight-lipped officials. The world moved on within a couple of days as if they were paid to not to speak his name. As if speaking his name would plague them with the shadow of him as well.Â
Days turn into a week, a week turns to two.
A fortnight, two weeks on the day since it all happened, and still, you canât let go. The less you hear, the more you need him. The obsession burrows deeper, twisting its roots around your ribs like weeds, pulling tighter with every breathâsuffocating, consuming.
Then come the dreams.
The first time you see his eyes in your sleep, you wake in disarrayâyour sheets tangled, your hair tousled and your skin sweaty. The imprint of him lingers, burned into the backs of your eyelids, in the goosebumps on your neck.
You can't deal with it anymore.Â
You canât cope with the way he haunts you. Itâs cruel, really, how he lives up to his name. How heâs gone, yet has never truly left.
You download the BBC app and turn on notifications. Each alert is a spark, a fleeting moment where your breath catches in your throat, where your heart stutters against your ribs. You cling to the possibility, to the thought that maybe this time, there will be somethingâsome sliver of information, some sign that he still exists in the world beyond your memories.
Every vibration, every chime sets you on edge. Your fingers twitch, your stomach knots. You find yourself unlocking your phone without thinking, scanning headlines with eagerness that borders on despondency. You tell yourself itâs just curiosity. Playing detective. But deep down, you know better.
You need him.
Itâs pathetic, really, the way your mind latches onto every news clip, every report, dissecting vague mentions of overseas conflicts, covert operations, missing operatives. You read between the lines, searching for somethingâanythingâthat could be him. A shadow of a man. A ghost in the margins.
You probably look like an addict going through withdrawalsâwaiting, itching, restless.Â
In a way, you are. You couldnât get enough.
The second you feel the faint buzz in your pocket, your breath hitches, your pulse kicks up. Your fingers twitch before you even register the movement, scrambling for your back pocket, ripping your phone out like itâll tell you exactly where he is, what heâs doing, when heâs coming back. But it never does.
You keep watching. Waiting. Because something must surface eventually. Because if you stopâif you let the remnants of him settleâit makes him real in the past tense. And you canât stomach that. Not yet.
Notifications pile up as you go to work, then come home, go to work, then come homeârinse and repeat. War, corruption, scandal, catastropheâbut never him. Instead, you choke on the taste of useless knowledge, drowning in politics you couldnât care less for, memorizing names of leaders who mean nothing to you right now.
How could they mean anything when the weight of it all feels so Orwellian? You constantly think back to a time when breathing was easier, when you werenât so voraciousâso infinitely, pathetically hungry. But now, Simon is the Thought Police, and you, like Winston, can feel something comingâstalking, circling, tightening the trap.
You tell yourself you wonât stoop to his levelâthat you wouldnât degrade yourself, touching yourself to scraps like he did to your letter, your messy, faceless scribblings. But the truth is that youâre worse than he, because you donât need a piece of paper. Youâre already pent up, already had a hit of him, and thatâs all you need. Heâs there, beneath your skin, in your blood, indelible in every sense of the word.
You cave, slipping your fingers beneath your panties, knowing how futile it is. You canât touch yourself like he canâcanât make yourself feel the way he does, the way his hands, his mouth, make everything feel alive. Make everything feel worth it. That hollow emptinessâthe dark, insatiable void that is him; it will swallow you whole. But what else is there? What can you hold onto when nothing else has ever come close? Itâs all you have.
Though, when the wind blows, when you're alone in your room, your legs trembling from the soft circles you trace on your clit, it doesnât feel like you're alone at all. Thereâs something there, the faintest sense that someoneâs eyes are on youânot intrusive, but there. Observing, spectating..
Itâs that feelingâthat feeling of being vulnerable, of being prey that gets you going. The final puzzle piece clicking into place, the last push before your back arches and youâre coming undone, gaspingâno, howling his name, until it reverberates off the walls of your room.
You feel it all the time. A prickle down your spine when you lock your door at night, a sudden hitch in your breath when you pass by your bedroom windows after a shower. A pit in your stomach when you walk home from the railway station, some shadows out of place, some that stretch too long beneath the streetlights, like theyâre reaching for something. Or reaching for you.Â
Thereâs something that consistently lurks in the alley across from your flat. A narrow sliver between homes, shrouded in shadowâan odd, latent presence that doesnât quite fit, too still, too tall to be a dumpster. You swear itâs there almost every night, the air thick with it, but whenever you try to get a closer look, from your front door or wherever, itâs always goneâvanished.
It could be a trick of the night, a cruel illusion it could be anything, anyoneâbut would you be this wet if it was? Would your breath falter, thighs pressing tight, when the curtains stir just enough to frame the shadow across the street?
You feel it, a slow creep along your spine. A presence you can never name, but know all the same. It feels like him, each goosebump shouting and hissing his name. Itâs a connection that defies reason, something deeper than instinct, sharper than memory. A pull, a whisper in your blood, like an unspoken language only the two of you understand. Youâve never felt anything like it before, never known a presence so visceral, so consuming. If this is madness, if this is nothing more than a delusion stitched together by longing and desperationâso be it.
Youâd welcome insanity if it meant he was really here.
The shadow lingers. Not moving, not retreating. Just watching. Waiting.
A whisper curls in the back of your mind, sultry and insistentâgo to the window. Let him see.
You leave it open now. Always.
The only thing youâve gained since losing your virginity to Simon is a strange, newfound confidenceâlike a secret only you know, a mark heâs left on you that no one else can see. The longing isnât new anymore; itâs settled in, familiar, woven into the fabric of your days. It doesnât sting like it used to, but it never really leaves either, just hums beneath the surface, constant and quiet.
But the irony isnât lost on you. Because for all that confidence, youâve never felt emptier.
Youâre four hours deep into your shift. Itâs a quarter past four in the afternoon and youâre standing in the detergent aisle, one hand gripping the pricing gun, the other peeling discount stickers off the roll and slapping âClubcard Exclusiveâ onto bottles of Persil like a machine. Mindless. Repetitive. A perfect, numbing distraction.
Four lousy weeks since Simon. Four weeks of gaps where his presence used to be, of clawing at scraps just to feel something real. Now, all youâve got is the fluorescent hum of the overhead lights and the sharp scent of artificial âSpring Freshâ assaulting your nose.
And then comes Keith.
Fucking Keith.
His footsteps are light, but not light enough. Like a predator who thinks heâs stealthy when, really, heâs stomping through the underbrush, scaring off anything with a pulse. You always know when heâs coming, when heâs about to invade your space. It starts as a shift in the atmosphere, an overwhelming surge of something cloying, thick, unwelcome. It seeps into your personal bubble like a scent you canât scrub off, a presence you canât ignore no matter how hard you try.
"Hey, love," he drawls, his northern accent grating the moment it reaches your ears. He sidles up to you with that same cocky ease, the kind that might almost be impressive if it werenât so painfully unwarrantedâlike he truly believes he belongs at your side, like heâs convinced himself you want him there.
You donât look at him. You keep your focus on the detergent, pressing the sticker against the plastic with a little too much force. Maybe if you ignore him, heâll take the hint this time.
Though, he never does.
âDidnât think Iâd find you today,â Keith continues, leaning against the shelf with that stupid, self-satisfied smirk. As if youâve been playing some kind of cat-and-mouse game rather than actively avoiding him. âBeen hidinâ from me or somethinâ?â
You exhale sharply through your nose, and internally count to three.
Heâs not ugly. Not by any means. Heâs tall-ish, broad-shouldered but lanky, with sharp green eyes that never seem to blink, like theyâre waiting for something to happen. His jaw is set, strong, but there's an unsettling tightness to his smileâlike heâs always hiding something just beneath the surface.
His confidence is anything but charming; itâs suffocating. It pours out of him in tides, clinging to you like obnoxious, over-sprayed cheap cologne, like the lingering stench of stale Lynx body spray that seems to follow him, no matter where he goes.
âIâm working, Keith.â Your voice is flat, clipped. Not an invitation.
âOh, I see that.â He gestures to the bottles like heâs just now noticing them. âRiveting stuff. But, yâknow⌠if you ever wanna take a break, I could keep you company. Maybe grab a drink after the shift?â
The same fucking offer, over and over. Like if he keeps throwing it at you, eventually, youâll crack.
You sigh, setting the pricing gun down with a little more force than necessary. âI donât drink.â
Keith chuckles, unconvinced. âEveryone drinks.â
Jesus Christ.
You finally turn to look at himâa mistake. His grin widens, taking your attention as a victory. His eyes rake over you, lingering a little too long in places that make your skin crawl.
âCâmon,â he says, voice dipping into something meant to be sultry but only makes your stomach twist. âIâd be good to you, yâknow.â
There it is. That undertone, that expectationâthe same fucking entitlement youâve seen on him a million times before.
Your fingers twitch, itching to whack him over the head with the pricing gun. Instead, you grab another sticker, slap it onto the next bottle, and pretend he doesnât exist.
But he isnât done.
âYouâve been different lately,â he muses, watching you too closely, eyes raking up your body, to your face, and back down. âReal quiet. Distracted. Whatâs up with that, honey?â
Your jaw tightens. You press another sticker down, smoothing out the edges.
âNothing.â
Keith hums. âThat right?â
You grit your teeth. You hate this. You hate that heâs noticed. Hate that heâs perceptive enough to see the cracks. Hate that some part of you, some stupid, pathetic part, is sort of enjoying the attention âeven if itâs coming from him.
Because itâs something.
Because itâs not radio silence.
But itâs not him. Itâs not him, and you fucking hate that. You hate Simon for leaving you ravaged without so much as a goodbye. He ruined you, twisted everything you thought you knew, and then just vanished like you were nothing. And thatâs what cuts the deepestâthat you were never even worth the closure.
You should've known better, back then. But you sure as hell know now.
Usually, youâd brush Keith off with a simple excuseâa friend you donât have, a date that doesnât exist. A lie. Youâve perfected the art of deflection, wrapping yourself in a comfortable mask that keeps him at arm's length. Heâs persistent, but youâre sharper. Always have been.
But when he presses again, you hesitate.
âCâmon,â Keith says, his voice too casual, âJust one drink, on me. What do you say?â
You feel the old reflex kick in, the instinct to shoot him down. But you hesitate. The words hang there, suspended in the air, ready to be said.
Maybe itâs the loneliness gnawing at you, sinking its claws deeper into your skin with every passing day. Maybe at this point, youâre craving anythingâthe heat of another person, the touch, the distraction. Anything to fill the space Simon carved out and left behind, like a hole in your chest that nothingâs been able to fill.
Or maybe itâs just a fuck-you to Simon. A fuck-you to the way he still haunts you, weaving through your mind like wind through dead branches, whispering questions that will never be answered. To the ache burrowed deep, winding through your ribs like roots splitting through concrete, relentless in its hold.Â
You suck in a breath, the tension fizzling and popping inside you, and before you even realize whatâs happening, you hear yourself say, âAlright. Fine. One drink.âÂ
At least it was on him.Â
Keithâs expression shifts, his eyes widening in shock, like the idea of you saying yes never even actually crossed his mind. The surprise on his face is almost comical. He stumbles over his words, trying to mask his confusion with a quick laugh.
âNo way,â he says, shaking his head, a grin tugging at the corners of his mouth. âReally? Iâuh, I thought youâd shut me down again.â
You donât answer, just shrug. The words feel too heavy in your mouth like they donât belong to you. But theyâre out there now, hanging between you like a promise neither of you fully understands yet.
Keithâs smile widens, but thereâs something gross behind it now. Something triumphant.
âWell, if youâre sure,â he says, stepping a little closer, the air thickening with the scent of his cologne and something darker, more insistent. âI know a place nearby. Not too far. We can grab a pint or two, talk... maybe get to know each other better.â
His gaze lingers on you, too long, too shallow. His eyes flicker down to your lips for just a fraction of a second, then back to your eyes, and you feel a shiver run down your spine. Ugh.
It should make you step back, re-think what youâre jumping into.Â
But you donât. You canât. You need Simon out of your head and gone. For good.
âAlright,â you say again, this time with a little more force as if youâre trying to convince yourself just as much as you are him. âOne drink.â
Keith grins like the Cheshire Cat, the satisfaction in his eyes clear as day. âIâll pick you up at 9,â he says, voice low and assured. âPlenty of time to get home and change, right?â He lets out a small chuckle, his confidence oozing from every word like he already knows the night is his to win.
You nod mechanically, a brief pause before you speak again. âYeah⌠Iâll uhâIâll text you my address.â The words come out flat, detached. Itâs no big deal. Totally.
His smile widens, smug in a way that makes your stomach churn. âGood. Iâll see you then.â He turns to head back toward the break room, giddily gliding down the aisle, like he's walking on air.
You just stand there, frozen for a second, watching him go. The store hums around youâdistant chatter, the clinking of metal shopping carts, the soft shuffle of customers weaving through the aisles. It all feels like a blur, the noise distant and muffled, as though you're submerged in water. Your mind is far away, caught in the thick fog of uncertainty.
You donât even know what youâre doing, but maybe this is what you need.
Simon lingers in the back of your mind like a shadow youâre always reaching for without thinkingâan instinct, a reflex you canât unlearn. And the thought of replacing that longing with something so fleeting, so hollowâsomething so⌠Keith, feels like a betrayal. Like carving out a piece of yourself and handing it to someone who will never understand its weight.
A sigh escapes you. You pull out your phone, thumb hovering over the screen as you look at the glowing numbers. Your heart flutters, unease building with each second that passes. But you donât stop yourself.Â
You type out your address slowly, each letter feeling like a weight added to your chest. It shouldnât be a big deal, right? It couldnât be that bad. Youâll just go out and try to make the best of it.
You hit âsend.â
So much for getting to know each other.Â
Keith hardly bothered to ask anything about you; the conversation is dominated by the insufferable droning on about his crypto investments. You arenât really listening.. Your mind keeps drifting, thinking of his absence.
Simonâs absence.Â
God, it bothers you how deeply heâs imprinted on your mind. Was it the fact that he took your virginity? Thereâs no way it could have been that chemically altering. Yes the sex was amazing, but how could he haunt your thoughts so extensively after barely saying a word to you, only ever muttering filthy things while fucking your brain numb?
Stop thinking about him fucking you. This is a problem.Â
You pull yourself back to the present. The dateâs going... fine. Nothing special. Youâd pulled on a simple pair of jeans, a black top. Nothing too flashy, nothing that screamed you were tryingâbecause you werenât. What did it matter? Not like you had anywhere to go, or anyone to impress anymore. Clothes didnât mean much when your world had narrowed down to this: a quick escape.
The pub is crowded for a Thursday night, an odd mix of tired regulars and middle-aged menâDILFs youâd much rather be accompanying. They laugh loudly, their voices thick with the warmth of too much liquor; theyâre the ones you should be with, the ones who seem to care, to be alive in a way that doesnât feel so desperate.
But instead, youâre stuck with Keith. His voice drones on in the background, talking about Bitcoin and intermittent fasting like heâs just discovered the secrets of the universe. His words are empty, meaningless in the moment, but you smile and nod, letting the noise of the pub drown out whatever nonsense heâs spewing. The drinks are goodâstrong, surprisingly soâand it burns its way down your throat, a welcome distraction. The alcohol settles into your chest like an old friend, warm and familiar, a little dangerous, but comforting all the same.
Youâre a pint and a half deep, just enough for a pleasant buzz, for the edges of your thoughts to soften. Keith, on his third, is looser, expressive, leaning into your space a bit too much, his knee brushing against yours beneath the table. The alcohol makes it easier to stay present, to focus more on the moment instead of the static in your head.
He cleans up decently. The dim lights of the pub soften the harsh hazel-green of his eyes, take the tension out of the lines around his mouth. After a pint, heâs not as awful to look at. As you near the end of your second, heâs not too hard to listen to. His presence in the booth next to you isnât suffocating anymore. The uncomfortable tightness has faded, replaced by something more manageableâa comfortable numbness that lets you go through the motions without feeling every single heartbeat. The kind of numbness you can live with for a while if you donât think too hard about it.
You welcome it, more than you welcome the shit storm youâve been for the past month.
You let the minutes pass, letting yourself be carried by the momentum of it all. You finish the pint, your focus drifting to the sensation of his hand brushing against yours, to the faint, gnawing in your heart as it cries for affection. It was all so simple. So much easier than youâd expected, this little dance, this surface-level distraction.
Then, a few minutes later, it happens. Keith leans in, his lips parting, the space between you closing like a slow, inevitable collision. His conviction wraps around him like a cloak, thick and heavy, as if he knows exactly how this will unfold. The warmth of his breath grazes your cheek, his scent faint but persistent, a mix of cologne and something stale, like the nightâs beer. His eyes flicker with implicit expectation before they flit shut, his lips a mere centimeter from yours.
You donât pull away.
You donât have the energy for that anymore. Not for the back-and-forth, the push and pull of deciding whatâs right and whatâs not. Youâve been worn down, layer by pitiful layer until all thatâs left is this: the heat, the need, the emptiness that drives you to reach out and accept whatever is offered. You let it happen, your lips parting to meet his, the kiss tentative at first, but growing more insistent as the seconds pass.
Itâs not good. His lips are too stiff, too small against yours, moving with a clumsy eagerness that reeks of desperationâlike heâs been waiting for this and has no idea what to do now that itâs happening. But itâs something.
Something to dull the ache, to quiet the static in your mind long enough to pretend youâre not suffocating. Something to ground you, to remind you that youâre still flesh and bone, not just longing and regret. Something to forget in the morning.
Because why not?
Maybe if you drown yourself in something elseâsomething that isnât honey-brown eyes and a mask that hides too muchâyou can finally erase the impression Simon left behind. Finally silence the ache, the apparition of his touch that you still feel under your clothes, even within the pub. Even with Keith by your side.Â
Maybe if you let yourself unravel into someone else, scatter the pieces of what Simon broke and stitch together the fragments of what came before him, youâll be able to move on. Maybe if you swallow it all, stretch yourself wide, dislocate your jaw just to fit it all in and swallowâyouâll get by. Youâll manage. Even if it never digests. Even if it all bleeds through the cracks anyway.
So, you push further. Let your fingers ghost over his knee, lean in closeâjust enough that your breath brushes his skin. You whisper, low and saccharine, asking if he wants to get out of hereâhead back to your place. A distraction. A mistake in the making.
Keith practically yanks you from the bar, his grip firmâtoo firmâas he steers you toward his car with single-minded determination. His fingers dig into your wrist like heâs afraid youâll slip away, like he needs to keep you tethered. The street lights flicker overhead, casting fleeting shadows across his face, sharpening the hunger in his eyes.
The drive is a blur of speed and silence, the tension between you both is thick enough to choke on. His knuckles are white around the steering wheel, foot heavy on the gas, cutting the fifteen-minute trip to your flat down to five. He doesnât speak. Neither do you. Thereâs nothing to say. Just expectation hanging in the air, dense and stifling, laced with something desperate, something thoughtless. You let it wrap around you, pull you under.
Then youâre at your door, and heâs on you. His chest flush against your back, hands already gripping your hips, body pressing close, his breath hot and uneven against your neck. His teeth graze your skin, just barely, like heâs tasting his killâlike he already knows heâs won.
God, you feel like a slut.
The world keeps spinning. Traffic hums in the distance, the wind howls through the alleyways, life presses ever forward, indifferent to the choices you make. But here, as your hands tremble against the cold metal of the lockâit all shrinks to this. The frantic thrum of your pulse. The too-firm grip of his hands, insistent and wandering, pressing into places they have no right to be.
Because you donât belong to Keith.
You donât look back at him. You canât. Because if you do, if you meet his lustful, haughty gaze, you might stop.
And you canât afford to stop. Not yet.
When you both make it inside, you shut the door and Keith tries to kiss you, to make this something itâs notâsome messy, desperate collision of lips and teeth, a lustful explosionâbut youâre not down for that. You tilt your head and give him your neck, dodging his lips like itâs second nature. He doesnât notice as you guide him to your room, too lost in the idea of getting his dick wet to realize youâre steering this whole thing.
And wet, he gets it.
He fucks you on your bed, and itâs got to be the most boring experience of your life. Heâs got you prone, on your stomach, and you donât look at him. You canât look at himâbecause that would make it real. That would solidify the fact that youâre here, in your own bed, fucking Keith of all people.
You keep your gaze fixed ahead, on the dim sliver of moonlight seeping through your windowâs curtain, as he ruts into you. The pace is off, mechanical like heâs following some half-baked porn script in his head. You have to fight the urge to ask if itâs even in, if heâs just finger blasting you. With Simon, you didnât have to wonder. The stretch, the burn of him splitting you open, the way he had you trembling, leaking down your thighs before he even properly fucked youâthat was something else entirely.
Keith leans over you occasionally, breath hot and panting against your ear, his attempt at dirty talk making you cringe.
âYou like that, love?â
No, Keith. Youâre jackhammering my cunt with your pencil dick.
You donât answer out loud. You just lay there, belly pressed against the mattress, and try to conjure the feeling of someone elseâsomeone bigger, rougher, someone who knows what to do with you. But even in the dark, even facing away, you canât bring yourself to lie. This isnât Simon. Itâs not even close.
You wait. You endure.
Finally, he shudders and spills into the condom you made him wear, and you silently thank the universe that the miserable ten minutes are over. Simon had you writhing for at least thirty. After eating you out, too.
You continue staring ahead as Keith collapses beside you with a satisfied groan, murmuring something, pressing a kiss to your forehead like this meant anything. You donât react. You barely register his voice.
Because out the window, across the street, thereâs that shadow again.
Still. Watching. Waiting.
And for the first time all night, you feel something genuine.
You definitely couldâve found better than Keith. But God, heâs easyâeasier than a prostitute in the back of a bar, and just as desperate.
Itâs been a month since you first fucked himâtwo since Simonâand heâs like a goddamn pest, lingering, clinging, always there. But you donât push him away, either. Not completely. Because if youâre being honest with yourself, it is nice to have someone in your bed, someone to text, someone to pick you up when you donât feel like taking the train. Heâs convenient. Reliable, even.
But his affections are only tolerable in small doses before they become suffocating. Heâs a lovesick puppy, always trailing after you, those hopeful, stupid green eyes searching for something youâll never give him. And God, you feel horrible for using himâhorrible, but not enough to stop.
Each time heâs between your legs, each time his name pops up on your phone with a good morning, love, each time you toss him a scrap of attentionâa lazy smile, a half-hearted hug, a peck on the cheek if heâs especially luckyâyou see it. That flicker in his eyes, that glimmer of something warm and delusional, like he thinks this is leading somewhere. Like he thinks youâll wake up one day and want him the way he wants you.
And maybe thatâs the worst part. The way he clings to every half-truth, every unspoken maybe, every quiet moment that isnât outright rejection. Heâs a fool for it. And maybe youâre cruel for letting him believe in something that doesnât exist.
But you did warn him. Laid it out in blunt, undeniable termsâthis isnât love, Keith. Just sex. No strings, no expectations.
But you suppose, for someone like him, being something to youâno matter how small, how insignificantâis still better than being nothing at all.
Simon doesnât linger in your mind the way he used to. Not as much. Not as sharp. You shut off notifications for BBC, but couldnât bring yourself to delete the app. Just in case.Â
But every time Keith is on top of youâgrunting, sweating, tryingâyouâre reminded of what you had. What it felt like to be wanted in a way that left bruises, but youâve accepted the fact that Simon is gone. Gone with the wind; traceless, like he was never here to begin with.
Keith stays over some nights, always making sure to slip out in the morning. Per your request.
At first, he obeys. But then the edges start to smudge. Morning lingers too long, bleeding into midday, stretching into afternoon like melted wax. Before you know it, heâs still there. Still there when youâre making coffee, still there when you just want to be alone in your dingy flat.
You wake up one morning to an empty bed and the smell of eggs sizzling, the sound of your cabinets opening and closing. You drag yourself out of bed, rubbing the sleep from your eyes, and there he is, standing in your kitchen, bare-chested and humming some god-awful tune as he tends to eggs and flips pancakes with a spatula that hasn't been used since you bought it.
âMorning, sweetheart,â he says, flashing you a grin like this is normal, like heâs your boyfriend.
You blink at him, groggy, disoriented. âWhereâd you even get pancake mix?â
âHad some at my place,â he says, as if thatâs a completely reasonable explanation.
You texted him last night for him to come over and fuck you, and he brought foodâfrom his own flatâto cook in the morning. Was this supposed to be romantic? Jesus, fuck. You turn back to your room, ignoring the smell of breakfast permeating your walls, and throw yourself back under the covers.
It only gets worse from there, though.
He starts using your shower, stepping out smelling like your shampoo, like your soap, like your space isnât your own anymore.Â
Even when heâs not here, he finds ways to insert himself into your day. Youâre halfway out the door, ready to catch the train to work, when your phone vibrates in your pocket.
Keith: Hey, on my way to pick you up
Your stomach sinks. You didnât ask him to do that.
You sigh, rubbing your temple as you type out a quick, You really donât have to, I can take the train.
Keith: Nah, babe, Iâm gonna.
And thatâs the problem. It doesnât matter what you say. He just does it anyway.
Youâre on your lunch break one day, tucked away in the breakroom, enjoying a moment of peace with a granola bar you snagged from the petrol station days ago. The store is busy, but back here, itâs quietâjust the faint hum of the coffee machine and the distant chatter of coworkers.
Then, something tugs at a strand of your hair, pulled tight in your ponytail, making your head jerk back just a little.
Your throat tightens before you even turn.
Sure enoughâKeith.
He plops down in the chair next to you, all smug, too close, legs spread wide as he leans back like he owns the place.
âHowâs my lovely girlfriend?â he asks, tone playful.
Your fingers tighten around the granola bar, the wrapper crinkling. âIâm not your girlfriend, Keith,â you say, feigning a small, polite smile. âBut Iâm okay, thanks for asking.â
Keith just chuckles like youâve made some kind of joke. âYeah, totally. Yâknow, weâve been at this for a while, lovey. Think youâll let me meet your parents soon?â
You freeze mid-bite.
Thereâs a slow, nauseating churn in your gut, a deep unease that coils tight around your ribs, squeezing, festering.
âYou canâtââ you pinch your nose bridge, âYouâre not meeting my parents,â you say, firmer this time, staring at him, hopingâprayingâthat maybe this time, heâll get it.
Keith just shakes his head, still grinning. âAwh, thatâs alright. Youâre just scared, dolly. I can wait for you.â
Your mouth goes dry. You donât even bother dignifying that with a response. You just shove the last of your granola bar into your mouth, chew like youâre forcing down something bitter, and push back from the table.
âGotta get back,â you mumble, standing, already heading for the door.
Keith doesnât follow, but you can feel his eyes on you as you leave.
The more he smothers you, the more you wish you never started this shit in the first place. What were you thinking? You shouldâve just put on your big girl panties, pushed the memory of Simon as far down as you could, and moved on. But each time you think of Simon, itâs like a knife twisting in your gut, because God, just the thought of being able to moan his name makes you want him all over again. You crave the way he fit, the way he understood you without all the effort. You want him to give you what you needâwhat you crave, even though you know deep down that itâs a foolâs wish.
With Keith, the cracks are starting to show. In bed, he starts trying too hard, like heâs desperately trying to prove something to you. Heâs fishing for praise, waiting for some kind of validation. Heâll ask, âThat was better than last time, right?â as though the answer matters to you. As if youâve been keeping score.
You arenât. You never were.
Your room smells like him nowâlike cheap cologne and sweat. He just gave you the most disappointing dicking yet, and heâs already passed out. The light is off and youâre lying there, forced into a state of calm thatâs not really calm at all. You can feel him beside you, his breath steady as he sleeps, completely oblivious to the storm inside you. You turn away from him, laying on your side, staring blankly at the wall in front of you, your heart hammering in your chest.
Fuck, what the fuck are you doing? Why the are you doing this to yourself? It feels like punishment. Like you've shattered some unspoken rule, a silent code, and now you're paying the price. You just wanted an escape, a moment to breathe. Not to be someoneâs charity case. The questions spin around you, but there are no answers. No clarity. Just endless doubt.
You let out a soft sigh and toss back onto your back, the weight of everything pressing down on your chest as your head rests on the pillows. Your eyes catch the sight of Keith's hoodie, thrown carelessly over the desk chair.
As you stare at the hoodie, lying there where you first saw Simon, you truly feel itâheâs really gone. No longer in the fragments of your room, no longer in your bed, slouched in your desk chair, lingering on your dresser.
The room is suffocating, thick with heat that presses down on your chest, suffocating you with every breath. Itâs heavier than it should be, the air stale and still, clinging to your skin like a second layer. Keith insists on keeping the windows shut. He hates the drafts. You hate him for it.
You sit up, your skin sticking to the sheets. The weight of the night lingers like a fog, clouding your thoughts. You sigh, lethargic, your body sluggish as you swing your legs over the edge of the bed, the coolness of the floor greeting your bare feet. Your panties are discarded somewhere in the mess. You find them and pull them on absently, the fabric sliding over your skin
You round the bed quietly, your footsteps muffled against the worn carpet as you approach the bedside table next to his sleeping form. Keithâs pack of cigarettes sits there, unassuming, but it calls to you. You tug one out, the familiar crinkle of the cardboard grounding you for a moment. You take his lighter next, the flick of the flame a cruel reminder of how the nasty, expensive habit has settled into your bones. You never meant to start smoking. You swore you wouldnât. But now, itâs just another part of the routine, a pointless comfort youâve grown too used to, another reason you shouldâve never gotten with Keith.
You walk to the shut window and lift it open with one hand. The cool night air rushes in immediately, cooling your skin. You lift the cigarette to your lips, sparking it, and watch as the tip ignites. The glow is soft against the dark, the only light in the room for a brief moment before the flame dies and the smoke curls up, wrapping around you like a secret. You take a drag, inhaling deep, the burn of the nicotine settling in your chest, grounding you, if only for a second.
You lean against the window frame, half-sitting on the bottom portion as you lean to let the smoke escape outside. The night is unnervingly quiet. You guess itâs just about midnight, but you donât bother checking your phone. You take in the sight of the street, the houses on your block, There's nothing across the way tonight, just the empty stretch of alley, and you find your gaze drawn to it, unable to look away. The stillness wraps around you, and the faint echoes of your own thoughts seem too loud in the silence.
Something coils sharp and tenacious in your chest as you stare into the emptiness. You let Keith in, let him slither into the cracks of your life, and now itâs rotting you from the inside out. Youâve been shoving anything you can into the hollow space he leftâdistractions, vices, fleeting touchesâbut it only stretches wider, gaping and endless..
A part of you aches for that shadow to appear, if only once, just to feel something. Because another part of you knows what it isâwho it is. Knows that heâs gone.
And that, more than anything, stings.
The cigarette is nearly burned down to the filter, the last embers glowing weakly in the dark, a pale orange against the quiet night. A gust of cold wind bites at your skin, snapping you back to reality with a sharp chill. You turn to look over your shoulder, and Keith is sprawled across the bed, mouth hanging open in that obnoxious, ungodly way he sleeps. A snore rattles through the silence and your eyes instinctively roll.
You take a final drag, the smoke bitter on your tongue, and then snuff it out against the window sill and toss it, watching it smolder into the dirt below. You stand up, stretching your stiff limbs, and close the window, leaving just a small crack for the night air to filter in.Â
Fuck Keith and whatever it is he wants. This is your house. Youâre not his mom, his girlfriend, or whatever the hell else he thinks you are. If you want the window open, then so be itÂ
You turn back to the bed, your body aching for the solitude of your own sheets. You crawl under the covers, pulling them tight around your shoulders. The warmth is a small comfort, but itâs enough. Sleep tugs at your eyelids, beckoning you into the quiet. Your hands cover your ears, trying to block out the guttural snoring coming from Keithâs side of the bed. Itâs like a fucking chainsaw cutting through the peace you crave. But you hold on to the stillness, the promise of escapeâif only for a few hours.
Youâre dead asleep when the sound cuts through the thick haze of unconsciousnessâa soft, broken whimper. Barely a sound at all, more like a breath hitching in a throat, swallowed before it can fully form. It weaves itself into your dreams, threading through whatever meaningless fragments your mind had pieced together, distorting them into something unsettling.
Your body is heavy, limbs weighed down by exhaustion, but the noise needles at you, persistent in its quiet agony. You groan, eyes still shut, rolling onto your side as you mumble something incoherentâsomething about Keith shutting the fuck up, that you have work in the morning. Whatever it is heâs doing, you donât want to hear it.
For a moment, silence settles over the room like a thin sheet, barely there but present enough to lull you back into the pull of sleep. Then the bed shifts. A slow, deliberate movement, like someone rising carefully, trying not to wake you. A footstep follows, then another, the faint creak of floorboards. You breathe a little easier, thinking maybe heâs leavingâmaybe heâs finally getting the hint.
But then it comes again. This time, distant, muffled. A cry, higher-pitched, threaded with something frantic. It makes your skin prickle, not with concern, but with irritation.
You frown, eyes still shut, brain too fogged with sleep to process much beyond vague annoyance. Heâs either having a nightmare or, worse, a wank in the corner. Neither interests you. You donât even want him here, in your bed, taking up your space.
You sigh, pressing your face deeper into the pillow, trying to will yourself back into unconsciousness. Whatever it is, itâs not your problem.
Seconds later, you hear it again, more desperate this time, like a wounded animal with its throat ripped out, struggling to breathe. It grates against your nerves, pulling you further from sleep, until frustration bubbles up in your chest.
With a groggy grumble, you push yourself up, your movements sluggish and heavy with exhaustion. Your right arm props behind you for support as you rub at your face, knuckles pressing into your tired, shut eyes.
âKeith, will you shut the fuââ
Your voice cuts off mid-sentence, throat tightening as you finally blink the sleep from your vision. The dim light from the streetlamp outside casts long shadows across the room, bathing everything in sickly, pale yellow streaks.
Keith isnât in bed with you.
Heâs in the chairâyour desk chairâagainst the wall and facing your bed, bound with ropes that are wrapped so tight they cut into his arms, legs, wrists, chest. A rag from your kitchen, dark with spit, is stuffed into his mouth, held in place by a strip of fabric wrapped around the back of his head. His chest heaves, his nostrils flaring with panicked breath as he stares at you with wide, frantic eyes, veins bulging against his skin.
Your body locks up, breath snagging in your throat.
âWhat the fââ
You barely get the words out before Keith starts thrashing against his restraints, his muffled cries breaking through the stagnant air of your bedroom. His whole body shakes with the force of it, the chair rocking slightly under his weight, but it doesnât budge. The ropes hold firm.
You start to move, heart hammering, the slow creep of realization curling up your spine like a cold finger tracing each vertebra.
Then you feel it.
A large, cold, calloused hand slowly traces the curve of your upper back, dragging upward, a ghost of a touch against your spine. It lingers at the nape of your neck, fingers threading through the back of your scalp, tightening just enough to make your breath hitch.
Every muscle in your body locks up, your breath shuddering out in uneven bursts. The room shrinks, walls closing in around you. The grip on your hair tightensânot a yank, not yet, just a firm hold that makes your scalp prickle.
Then, a shift. A press of something solid and warm against the crown of your head. The unmistakable drag of breath as whoever inhales deeply, like heâs committing you to memory. A low, gravelly hum rumbles from his chest, thick with something unreadable. Satisfaction. Possession. Maybe both.
He's right beside you. Close enough that you can feel the heat radiating off of him, that his presence warps the air around you, suffocating, intoxicating.
You donât dare move.
Because you know exactly who it is.
The scent of him just like you rememberâgunpowder, sweat, something faintly woodyâclashes with the lingering staleness of your room. It seeps into your lungs, an old ghost resurrected, clawing its way back to the surface.
Then, finally, a voiceârough, undeniably Mancunian, curling at the edges with something almost amused.
âBeen busy, huh, pet?â
The words slither into your ear, smooth and deliberate, sinking their hooks into you like they never left.
You swallow hard, the heat pooling low in your stomach at the deep, deliberate pull of his voice. It scrapes against something raw inside you, something that never healed right. Your heartbeat stutters, then picks up, but not from fear.Â
Still, you donât move. You donât look.
If this is a dream, you donât want to wake upâwake up and risk him being gone again.
Your eyes stay locked onto Keithâs, wide and frantic in the dark, his chest rising and falling in shallow, panicked breaths. He looks at you like youâre supposed to do something, like youâre supposed to save him.
But before you can, Simon makes the choice for you.
The grip in your hair tightensâno longer just a hold, but a command. He tugs, slow and controlled, and your head tilts back whether you want it to or not. Your breath hitches, your fingers twitch at your sides, but you let him. Youâll always let him.
And there he is.
Maskless.
Your breath snags in your throat, brain stalling, tripping over itself. You need a secondâone long, aching secondâto make sense of it, to stitch together the face you only ever caught in fragments. A shadowed jaw, a flicker of his mouth, the barest glimpse of his nose when he was buried between your thighs all those weeks ago.
But his eyes, his eyes donât lie.
Theyâre the same eyes that have haunted you for weeksâdark, relentless, burning into you even in sleep. The same ones that linger behind your eyelids, that youâve conjured in the dead of night, that youâve chased with trembling hands and gasping breaths, desperate for something that feels like him.
And right now, theyâre burning into you, unreadable as ever.
Heâs here, in the flesh.
His bone structure is cut from marbleâsharp cheekbones, a strong brow, a subtly clefted chin that adds to the undeniable masculinity of his face. Soft blond stubble shadows his jaw, catching the dim light as he tilts his head, studying you with those dangerous, all-consuming brown eyes.
Scars carve their history into his skin, some thin and white, others pink and freshly healed. One splits through his eyebrow, another drags across his cheek, and two more pull faintly at his lips. They settle among the freckles dusting his nose, a contradiction of softness and violence, of things that should never coexist but somehow do.
Heâs devastating.
His other hand has found your throat, palm rough and massive against your skin. He could snap your neck with half a thought, with an eighth of his strength, and yet, all he does is trace along your jugular, feeling the rapid thrum of your pulse beneath his fingertips. Itâs possessive. Calculated.
His grip shifts, sliding up to cradle your jaw, just before his thumb drags across your bottom lip. He presses forward, slow, deliberate, until his thumb slips past your teeth, resting heavy on your flat pad of your tongue.
You donât think. You just react.
Your lips wrap around the digit without a secondâs hesitation, without him even needing to ask.
And the look in his eyes?
Like he never expected anything else.
With his thumb hooked in your mouth, saliva pools at the corners of your lips, threatening to spill. You canât swallow, canât do anything but sit there, pliant and open for him, while he holds you in place like some helpless, caught fish.
His grip in your hair loosens, but only so he can guide your head forward, tilting your chin with the hand still in your mouth until your gaze lands back on Keith.
Heâs wide-eyed, panic threading through every inch of him. His breaths are ragged, desperate, as he tries to piece it all togetherâhis wrists bound tight, the ropes cutting into his skin, the oppressive weight of the man looming behind you, and the sight of you. Sitting there, silent, pliant, unresisting.
Keithâs mind races, but thereâs nothing he can do. No words, no pleas that will untangle this mess. You can see it in his eyesâthe confusion, the fear, the realization that heâs powerless. Heâs looking at you like he doesnât even recognize you anymore.
Simon hums, low and contemplative, a deep rumble that vibrates through your very bones.
âThis yâplaything, baby? What youâve been fillinâ yâtime with?â
You try to move your head, to make some kind of response, but his thumb presses down, firm, stopping you before you even begin.
His tongue clicks, a disappointed tut that rolls through your ears like a warning. Like he already knows the answer and doesnât like it.
âKnow I left you... Wasnât very nice of me, now, was it?â
His voice is thick, rich with something unreadable, but his grip tells you enough, a warning and a promise all at once. He tilts your chin back up, forcing you to meet his eyes again.
You want to tell him no, it wasnât nice, that he ripped something out of you when he left. That youâve spent every goddamn second since trying to fill the void he carved. But all that escapes is a strangled, pitiful âmm-mm,â your lips parting helplessly as spit slicks your chin.
His smirk deepens, eyes darkening as they flick down to your mouth, to the mess youâre making of yourself.
âWasnât very nice of you, though, was it? Goinâ âround openinâ your legs for the first man yâsee, hmm? First one willinâ to put his cock in what ainât hisâŚâ
The words strike something deep, hot, and ugly inside you. His? If you were his, then why the hell did he leave? Why did he disappear like smoke, slipping through your fingers, leaving you clawing at the air, grasping at nothing? What is he doing here now, after all this timeâafter breaking into your home, tearing through your life like a storm and vanishing just as quickly, leaving you to sift through the wreckage alone?
Anger surges, reckless and unthinking, and you bite down on his thumbâhard.
He doesnât pull away. Doesnât even flinch. Just smirks at the pain like youâre some unruly little puppy testing its limits. His eyes gleam, a slow, predatory amusement playing across his features as he finally, finally pulls his thumb from your mouth.
You wipe the drool from your chin with the back of your hand, straightening as much as you can under his hold. âIâm not yours,â you say, low and firm, but your voice lacks the conviction you wish it had. âIf I was yours, you wouldnât have left so suddenly, you dick.â
His expression shiftsâless amused now, more exasperated, like youâre missing something so glaringly obvious it physically pains him. He pops the same thumb into his mouth, licking the taste of you off like itâs second nature, like heâs reclaiming something.
"âCourse I left, love. Was on the run.â
You blink.
Oh.
He watches the realization flood your face, that sudden shift in your gaze thatâs almost embarrassing to witness. You can feel the heat of his stare, the sharpness of it, cutting through the tension in the room. Simon leans down toward you, dropping to one knee to be at your eye level, his movements slow, deliberate, like heâs savoring every second of your discomfort. His hands rest casually on his thighs, but thereâs nothing casual about the weight in his voice.
âBut,â he says, a playful edge in his tone, but the undertone is sharp, cutting through the soft hum of the room like a knife. âI guess if yânot mine, then I guess I should go, huh?â
The words hang between you like a challenge, testing your resolve, pushing at the walls youâve built so carefully. You feel your heart pound in your chest, your throat tightening. You open your mouth, but the words catch before they can form. You shake your head, but itâs not enough to make him stop.
He stands up then, straightening to his full height, and itâs almost like the air shifts around him, âFine then,â he says, his voice low, almost amused. âNo problem. Iâll leave. Yâcan stay here with Keith, yeah? Let âem keep yâ company.â
The words hit like a gut punch, a shock to your system as you realize youâve completely forgotten about Keith. Heâs still there, bound and helpless, and a grimace pulls at your face as you glance over at him. Sure, he was annoying, but this? This isnât what he deserved.
How Simon knows his name is a mystery, but somehow, it doesnât surprise you. It never does with him. Keithâs name slipping from Simonâs lips is an ugly reminder of something youâd rather keep buried. Something you regret.
Simon starts to turn, heading toward the door, and the world tilts on its axis.
You canât let him go, canât let him walk out like thatâagainâlike itâs nothing, like you can just let him leave and keep pretending that none of this matters.
Your legs feel weak, like they might give out from underneath you, but you manage to stand. Slowly at first, then with more urgency, your hands reaching out toward him without thinking. They land on his forearmsâmassive, firm, like steel wrapped in skinâand you grip him hard, pulling him back just a little, just enough to make him stop.
Simonâs body tenses under your touch, but he doesnât say anything right away. He simply turns back to face you, his expression unreadable. The quiet between you two stretches.
He lets you stop him. He knew you would, he wanted you to.Â
You glance at Keith, whoâs dumbfounded as he struggles to comprehend whatâs unfolding. Then you look up at Simon, where that insufferable, knowing smirk tugs at the corner of his mouth.
âDonât,â you say, voice tight.
He cocks his head, brows furrowing slightly, though amusement lingers in his dark eyes. âDonât what?â
You swallow, feel the words stick in your throat before forcing them out. âDonât go.â
Something in his expression flickers, shifts just slightly before settling into something heavier. He doesnât waste time. He steps toward Keith, bending at the waist until heâs face-to-face with him, a lion looming over an antelope with its throat already torn open, arterial spray painting the dirt, limbs twitching in useless protest as the last dregs of life seep out.
âHear that, lad?â Simon drawls, voice thick with condescension. âShe doesnât want me to go. Wants me tâstay right hereâstuff her full oâ my cock, yeah? Bet she doesnât want that from you.â
Your mouth falls open, lips parting in shock. Not because heâs wrongâJesus, heâs not wrongâbut because he says it like itâs the simplest fact in the world, like heâs reading it straight from the book of universal truths.
Keith is trembling now, his whole body shaking like a leaf caught in a storm. His chest rises and falls in quick, shallow breaths. He looks so small, so pathetic compared to Simonâs hulking figure.
Simon doesnât look away. He watches him, studies him, his gaze slow and calculating before he hums, almost thoughtful. His voice is deceptively quiet, laced with something deceptively soft. âThink that pencil dick does âer wonders, eh?â
Keith whimpers, eyes wide, body rigid, already feeling the metaphorical teeth at his throat. Simon just reveles in it, feeding off the fear like itâs sustenance. And youâre dumbfounded.Â
And aroused.
You shouldnât react to this the way you are. You shouldnât feel your cunt growing wetter than it's been in months. shouldnât feel your breath hitch at the way heâs openly claiming you without hesitation, without shame. But you do.
Because even if Simon doesnât have the right to stake his claim on you, doesnât have the right to act as if you still belong to himâdoesnât he?
You signed your name at the bottom of that letter all those weeks ago.
And to Simon, that was the dotted line. The confirmation.
You swallow, the sound too loud in the thick silence, your body frozen as you watch Simonâs one-man pissing contest unfold. It gets his attention, though. His head turns sharply, eyes locking onto yours with an intensity that pins you in place, cutting through the tension in the room like a knife.
Despite the draft floating through, the air is thick in the room; it presses against your chest as you stand frozen, caught between two menâone holding you hostage with his eyes, the other trembling with frustration and fear. Simonâs smirk doesnât falter as he straightens up, glancing over his shoulder at you with that same cold gleam in his eyes. Heâs toying with you. You know that. He has been. But there's something different now. Something sharp and jagged in the way heâs looking at you, like heâs definitively claiming the space between your hearts, drawing lines you canât ignore.
Keithâs eyes flicker between you and Simon, darting like heâs searching for an escape. You imagine he thinks Simon is some crazy ex, some jealous, unhinged thing from your past. But that couldnât be farther from the truth. He whines through the make-shift gag like he wants to say something, to demand an explanation, to plead. But heâs frozen, paralyzed, locked in place as it all crumbles right in front of him, powerless to do a damn thing about it.
Simon, however, is unfazed. Barely even interested. His eyes flick back to Keith, sharp and dismissive, like heâs looking at a stale loaf of bread.
âYou, lad⌠are just a stopgap. Temporary. Got that?â
Simonâs voice is steady, calmâlike heâs explaining something simple, something Keith shouldâve already known. Then, without warning, he grips Keithâs hair, yanking his head up from the scalp and forcing him to look into those cold, unrelenting eyes.
Keith lets out a sharp, choked noise as he makes Keithâs head bob in a mockery of a nod.
âYeah,â Simon murmurs, voice laced with amusement. âThatâs right. Now youâre gettinâ it.â
Simon releases Keithâs head with a sharp flick of his wrist, sending it snapping backward. Keith groans, but Simon doesnât spare him another glance.
Instead, he turns back to you. Fully. His gaze is heavy, piercingâdigging beneath your skin like heâs peeling back layers, searching for the fight in you, daring you to contradict him.
But you donât. You canât.
And he knows it.
You want to scream at him, to remind him that youâre not a prize to be fought over or a possession to be claimed. But the words die in your throat, stifled by the raw, undeniable tension curling in the pit of your stomach. Because heâs right.
He stalks toward you, closer and closer until youâre forced to crane your neck to meet his gaze. The room feels smaller, quieter, as if the world around you has paused in reverence of him. You canât escape his eyes, those brown depths that see right through you. They peel back the layers of your mind.
His lips curl into a dangerous, knowing smirk that sends a shiver down your spine. âThought yâcould just disobey, sweet thing?â he murmurs, his voice soft but dripping with venom. âThought yâcould just fuck off and be so⌠disrespectful?â
His words slice through the air, every syllable hitting you like a lash against your skin, the sting burrowing under your flesh. His eyes darken, becoming something primal, like heâs waiting for the moment you finally realize just how much he controls you. âThought I wouldnât know?â His voice drops lower, almost a growl. âThought I wouldnât do somethinâ about it?â
You try to hold your ground, to summon the will to look away, but the weight of his gaze pins you in place. His eyes bore into yours, unblinking, unrelenting. Thereâs a coldness there that you never thought youâd see from him.
Itâs unmistakable now. The contempt he feels for youâdisrespecting him, breaking his trustâitâs palpable in the furrow of his brown and the frown lines on his lips.
Your throat tightens, a mix of shame and anger swirling inside you. You want to argue, but how could you? After everything? Heâs right, isnât he? You did disrespect him. You did go to someone else, let another man touch you.
You didnât think heâd come back, but deep, deep down you knew he would. You knew he was still there, always watching, you just didnât want to accept it. And now, as you stand in front of him, feeling the weight of his gaze, you realize the kind of power he has over you. Not just physical, but mental. Emotional. And that power isnât something you can run from, no matter how much you want to.
His hand reaches up, brushing a loose strand of hair from your face, the touch soft, almost affectionate, but you can feel the danger lurking just beneath the surface.Â
His breath skates along your ear, scorching in its proximity, his lips barely touching but still branding you like a slow drag of a candle stick on paper. His other hand settles on your throatânot choking, just securing, owning. Like heâs collaring you, like heâs locking you back in place where you shouldâve been all along.
His voice is low, every syllable laced with quiet fury. âGotta show yâlittle plaything who yâreally belong to, huh?â
Your breath stutters, your pulse hammering beneath his fingertips, but you nod, eyes wide, body betraying you in how quickly you submit. His heat rolls off him in waves, seeping through your flimsy shirt, wrapping around you like a smothering embrace. Itâs too much and not enough all at once.
âWords,â he murmurs, his grip flexingâjust a tease of pressure, just enough to make your stomach drop.
âYes,â you rasp, the word trembling as it falls from your lips.
And then youâre movingâyou donât know how, donât know if he shoved, pulled, or if you just folded for him, but suddenly youâre laid back on the bed, looking up at him.
He towers over you, broad shoulders blotting out everything else, his presence suffocating in the way that makes your lungs tighten and your blood rush south. You stare up at him, and he stares right back, gaze heavy and dark, like heâs been waiting for this.
Like heâs already decided what heâs going to do with you.
Simonâs voice, a low, guttural growl, fills the room. âLook at him,â he commands, his fingers snapping the buckle of his belt. The metallic click echoes, a sharp, ominous sound.
You turn your head to the side, gaze locking onto Keith's. His eyes, wide and terrified, dart between you and Simon's hulking frame. His hands twitch against the restraints, his legs kicking feebly, a desperate, futile struggle.
The leather of Simon's belt snakes through the loops and he tosses it aside, metal clanking on the floor. Then, a sharp tug on your ankles yanks your hips towards the edge of the bed. You gasp, your head whipping back towards Simon, shock and fear battling for dominance in your expression.
But his hand clamps down on your chin, his grip like iron, forcing your gaze back to Keith. He leans over, his lips brushing your ear. âLook at him,â he repeats, his grip tightening. âIf yâso much as blink, if yâlook away, this stops. And we're done.â
The threat hangs in the air. A whimper escapes your lips, a small, broken sound of surrender. ââkay,â you whisper, your voice trembling, your eyes glued to Keith's terrified face. â... OkayâŚâ
The fabric of your panties rasps as he yanks them down, a swift, decisive motion that leaves your pussy bared to his hungry eyes. A gasp escapes your lips, a mix of surprise and a sudden, unwelcome heat blooming between your legs. Without warning, heâs on his knees and his mouth is on you, hot and wet, his tongue a relentless, insistent invasion. He licks and sucks, his ministrations both brutal and exquisitely precise.Â
Instinctively, your eyes flick downwards, seeking his own. His gaze, dark and intense, is already locked on yours, a silent, predatory command. He pauses, his tongue hovering just above your swollen clit, the unspoken threat hanging heavy in the air.
You wrench your gaze back to Keith, your body trembling with a mixture of fear, embarrassment, and arousal. You fight the involuntary arch of your back, the way your face wants to contort in pleasure, the sounds that threaten to spill from your lipsâsounds Keith has never heard, expressions he's never earned. The shame burns, a hot, corrosive acid, mixing with the raw, undeniable pleasure that pulses through you, a traitorous betrayal of your own body.
Simon senses your restraint, the tension that coils within you, the silent battle raging in your soul. It only fuels his desire, a cruel, possessive hunger. He slips his fingers inside you, two, then three, crooking them in a teasing rhythm, stretching you wider and wider.His lips tighten, nearly swallowing your clit, the sensation sending a jolt of electricity through your core. A loud, involuntary whine spills from your lips, a desperate, animalistic sound you can't suppress. Your back arches and you canât help but look at him, your hips lifting off the bed, as he holds your thighs hostage against his shoulders, his mouth and fingers working in tandem, driving you closer and closer to the edge.
Keithâs panting, his chest heaving, still fighting against the restraints. But somethingâs shifted. His struggles are less frantic, less desperate. His eyes are half-lidded, glazed with a sheen of arousal. A flush creeps up his neck, his breath coming in short, rapid bursts. The sight of him, both terrified and aroused, is a brutal contradiction, a twisted reflection of the conflicting emotions tearing you apart.
Simonâs fingers move inside you, stroking your g-spot while his tongue continues its work on your clit, slurping and sucking so lewdly. âMissed this fuckinâ pussy, God,â he murmurs, his voice heady with lust. âNeedy girl, yâtaste so good,â he groans as he makes out with your folds. He thrusts his fingers deeper, his tongue swirling and teasing.Â
âLook at himâ he commands, releasing your clit with a pop, his voice a low growl. âLook at how hard yâmakinâ him, girl. He wants you, donât he? He wants tâbe the one doinâ this tâyou.â
You feel your peak building, the pressure mounting, a wave of sensation threatening to overwhelm you.Â
Your hand instinctively clutches at Simon's cropped hair, your fingers digging into his scalp as the pleasure intensifies. You drag your gaze back to Keith, his body a twisted tableau of arousal and restraint. His hips buck against the chair, a frantic, rhythmic movement, and he gnaws at the rag gagging him, a desperate, muffled sound. His eyes, glazed and dilated, are locked on yours.
You canât handle itâyou tear your gaze away, the weight of his shame, his helplessness, too much to bear. Itâs unbearable, looking at him when the only man youâve ever truly wanted is the one between your legs.
You hate that Keith is watching. Hate the way his eyes track every movement, every shift of your body. But fuckâif it doesnât send a pulse of heat through you, knowing someone is.
You try to look away, to break the connection, but Simon's eyes hold you captive. They're dark, intense, burning. This time, he doesn't force your gaze away. Instead, his eyes silently beckon you, Come, they say, Come in my mouth, baby.
Your orgasm coils low in your belly, winding tighter and tighter, heat licking up your spine like a flame searching for air. It swirls, thick and consuming, a molten ache that makes you want to cry. You arch your back, your body convulsing as you call out his name, a desperate, raw plea that fills the room. A wave of pure pleasure washes over you, and you unravel, gushing into his mouth.
Simon groans, a low, guttural sound of satisfaction, as he savors the taste of your release. Unbeknownst to you, he'd been rhythmically grinding his hips against the edge of the bed throughout your orgasm, his own arousal building each time you clenched around his fingers. He takes his time, meticulously licking you clean, his tongue lingering on your swollen flesh.Â
Eventually, he pulls away from your pussy, but not before slapping your sensitive clit, the sound echoing in the room. The force of the impact sends a jolt of overstimulation through you, a lingering tremor that makes you twitch and gasp. He chuckles at the reaction. Asshole.Â
You instinctively clutch at your shirt, pulling it off, the cool air a stark contrast to the heat still radiating from your core. Your senses are reeling, your body still thrumming with the aftershocks of your orgasm.
He moves to straddle your hips, his large, powerful thighs rooted on either side of your hips, anchoring you beneath him. He leans over you, planting his forearms on either side of your head, effectively caging you. His eyes bore into yours.
The space between you is barely a breath, just the warmth of his exhale mingling with yours. His lips are still slick, shining with the remnants of you, his cheeks streaked with evidence of just how deep he wentâmessy eater. You watch as his gaze flickers down, lingering on your mouth like heâs thinking about it, like he wants it, but he doesnât move.
You mirror him, flicking your gaze from his lips back to his eyes, searching for somethingâan answer, an intention, a reason why heâs hesitating. Your brows pull together, your voice soft, uncertain. âSimon?â
A grunt. Thatâs all he gives you. A quiet, low vibration in his chest, but his eyes stay locked on yours, unreadable, unreadable, unreadable.
Your fingers creep up, threading into the short, soft hair at the base of his skull, anchoring him in place. He doesnât pull away, doesnât stop you, just breathes. His eyes keep flicking down, but he still doesnât close the distance. Itâs unlike him. Unbecoming of him. A man who takes what he wants without hesitationâwhy now, when you're right here, does he stall?
âWon't you kiss me?â The words are barely above a whisper, but they break something in him.
He nods slowly, like itâs unpracticed. Like heâs never done something so intimate before.
He nudges his nose against yours first, like heâs testing the waters, feeling out the moment before he lets himself sink. And thenâhis lips press to yours.
Soft. Gentle. Everything you didnât expect from a man who just slapped your overstimulated cunt.
Your eyes flutter shut as the kiss deepens, slow and unsure. His lips are dewy from where heâs been, the taste of you lingering, and for once, you have to guide himâslowly, patiently molding your lips to his, showing how to do something other than take.
And he lets you.
The kisses start slow, tentative, like heâs learning you. But it doesnât last. Hesitation melts into something more primal, more insatiable, and you canât help but reciprocate. His lips part against yours, and when your tongue brushes against his, he groans low in his throatâdeep, guttural, vibrating against your lips.
It sets something off between you, a chain reaction of need. His hands start to wander, dragging over the curves of your bare skin, rough palms mapping the places heâs missed. His fingers press into your waist, then skate down to your hips, your thighs, then back up again, as if he canât decide where he wants to touch you most.
You arch into him, your body betraying you, craving the heat, the weight of him. His touch grows firmer, his grip tightening like he needs to feel you under his hands to prove that youâre real, that this isnât just a fever dream.
Somewhere between gasps and swallowed moans, he pulls back just enough to yank his shirt over his head, revealing broad shoulders and a torso carved from marble. Heâs still in just his boxers now, and itâs almost unfairâthe contrast between his near-nakedness and your own, how heâs still clothed while you have nothing left to hide.
But then his eyes rake over you, his tongue flicking out to wet his lips, gaze dark and full of intent. He reaches out, slow, reverent, fingers tracing the dip between your collarbones before sliding lower, down the valley of your ribs, spreading warmth everywhere he touches.
âFuckinâ beautiful,â he murmurs, voice rough, eyes locked onto yours like youâre the only thing in the world worth looking at.
You smile bashfully before your eyes flick to the corner, catching movementâor rather, the absence of it. Keith.
Youâd once again forgotten he was still here.
Heâs unnaturally silent, his breath shallow, his body frozen. But even in the dim glow of the room, you see itâthe damp patch spreading across the front of his sleep shorts, dark and unmistakable.
He came in his pants.
Something cold prickles down your spine, a mix of disgust and something else, something twisted. The shame on his face is unbearable, carved into every trembling breath, every flicker of his glassy eyes. His face is utterly wrecked, drained of any fight, any defiance. Like he already knows heâs lost. Like he knew it the second tied him up.Â
Simon follows your gaze as he gets off of you and leans back against the headboard, legs spread, arms resting lazily at his sides. His gaze flicks between you and Keith, amusement curling at the edges of his lips. He scoffs, shaking his head as he watches the pathetic, trembling mess still tied up in the corner.
âJizzed his pants? Christ.â His voice is dripping with disgust, but thereâs something else there tooâsomething utterly pleased. Like Keithâs shame only serves to highlight his own triumph.
Your breath is still uneven as you turn back to Simon, watching the way his fingers stroke absentmindedly over his own stomach, dangerously close to the waistband of his boxers. He exhales slowly through his nose, then lifts his hand, trailing fingers up into your hair, brushing over your cheek in one slow, deliberate stroke.
The touch is gentle. And maybe itâs that contrast, the tenderness hidden beneath all that violence, that makes you instinctively lean into his palm, nuzzling against it like you belong there.
Something flickers in his expressionâsomething unreadable, something deep. But itâs gone just as quick as it came, masked behind an air of satisfaction. He stretches, cracks his neck, and then settles back against the pillows, arms behind his head, looking up at you with expectation.
âGo on then,â he murmurs, patting his upper thigh. âGive the bloke a reason tâcry.â
You glance at Keith again, slumped against the chair in the corner, his face burning with ignominy, his breaths uneven. His teary eyes are flicking between you and Simon, his hands twitching in his restraints like he doesn't know whether to cover himself or reach out for something that will never belong to him.
Simon watches you, tracking every flicker of emotion across your face. He tilts your chin toward him. His grip is firm, but not forcefulâjust enough to remind you of what he expects.
âCâmon, pet,â he drawls, his thumb tracing slow circles at the hinge of your jaw. âLet âem see what he was never gonna have.â
 You don't hesitate, your body moving eagerly. Simon reclines, his fingers already toying with the elastic waistband of his briefs, a silent invitation. You crawl over him, straddling his hips, the rough fabric of his briefs a stark contrast to the slick heat between your legs. You settle your bare, slick cunt onto his clothed cock, a kaleidoscope of butterflies shooting through your core as you feel the girth of him beneath you.
Now, your back is to Keith. You can't see his face, but you can imagine the look that must be twisting his features. Simonâs enjoying the spectacle, reveling in the power he holds as he cucks him.
And, you admit to yourself, a dark, shameful part of you enjoys it too. The knowledge that Keith is forced to watch, to witness it all, fuels a perverse excitement, a thrill that makes you slicker than Simonâs touch alone does. The realization is sickening, but exhilarating.
Simonâs hands grip your hips, guiding your movements, urging you to grind against the clothed length of his erection. The fabric of his boxers, rough against your swollen clit, sends a jolt of pleasure through you, eliciting a soft mewl from your throat. His cock twitches beneath you, a hard, insistent pulse, and he hisses at the rhythm of your grinding, a low, guttural sound of barely contained desire.
You meet his gaze, your eyes wide and seemingly innocent, your hands resting lightly on his chest. âCan I fuck you now? P⌠please?â you ask, your voice soft, almost pleading.
âFuck, sweets,â he growls, his voice thick with lust. âTake itâit's yours.â He pushes his boxers down to his knees, and with your eager assistance, reveals the full, throbbing length of him. He cups his cock in his hands, pumping it lazily, his eyes fixed on the way it reaches just below your belly button. A low groan rumbles in his chest. âFuckinâ hell,â he breathes, his voice ragged.
He reaches for your hips, helping you lift them, guiding you as you position yourself above him. The anticipation is a tangible thing, a thick, heavy tension that fills the room as you slowly lower yourself onto him.
You hesitate, hovering above him, the anticipation a sharp, almost painful thrum in your core. Then you lower yourself onto him. The initial stretch is intense, a sharp, almost burning sensation that elicits a low moan from your throat. You bite your lip, bracing yourself, as you take him inch by agonizing inch, savoring the feeling of his thick length filling you, stretching you wide. A whimper escapes your lips, a sound that's both a cry of discomfort and a raw expression of pleasure.
He feels impossibly large, impossibly full, as if he's somehow grown even bigger since the last time. It's an overwhelming sensation, a raw, visceral fullness that borders on pain, yet is laced with an undeniable, addictive pleasure. It's the ultimate release, the scratching of an itch you didn't know you had.
When you finally take him all, a guttural groan erupts from Simonâs throat. His hands grip your hips, his fingers digging into your ass, kneading and urging you on. His eyes, dark and possessive, are fixed on you, watching every movement, every subtle shift of your body. âLook at that,â he murmurs, his voice thick with desire. âLook how you take me. So fucking tight.â His gaze lingers on the way his cock distends your abdomen, stretching your skin to its limit, a visible testament to his size.
Too lost in the pleasure, you barely register Simon's occasional, smug glances towards Keith, the subtle shifts in his expression as he watches.Â
You begin to ride him, slowly at first, savoring the feeling of him filling you, stretching you, the friction building with each rise and fall of your hips. The rhythm quickens, escalating as your body adjusts to his impressive girth, the pace becoming more frantic, more desperate.
The room fills with a cacophony of sounds: the slick slap of skin against skin, the wet, gasping moans that escape your lips, Simonâs rough whispers, a torrent of the dirtiest words imaginable, painting the air with sex. And beneath it all, Keith's muffled whines, the rhythmic bucking of his hips against the restraints, a constant, jarring counterpoint to your pleasure, a stark reminder of how heâs watching.Â
The muscles in your thighs begin to tremble, a burning ache that spreads with each thrust. The sensory overload, a chaotic mix of the lingering aftershocks of your previous orgasm, the constant, invasive feel of Keithâs eyes on you, Simonâs roaming hands, and the insistent, stretching pressure of his cock, begins to push you past your limits. His pubes, coarse and rough, scrapes against your swollen clit, sending jolts of raw, almost painful pleasure through you. It's too much, a tidal wave threatening to drown you.
Simon senses it all, the subtle shift in your rhythm, the way your breath hitches and catches the way the sodden walls of your cunt clench around him. His hands grip your hips, his fingers digging into your flesh, and he stills your movements, halting your grinding just as you teeter on the edge. He holds you suspended, your bodies locked together, the tension building to an almost unbearable degree.
Simon pulls you close, your foreheads touching, your breaths mingling in the humid air. Both of you are slick with sweat, your bodies still thrumming with the aftershocks of your shared climax. He murmurs, his voice surprisingly gentle, âDo you trust me?â
You nod, the affirmation barely a twitch of your head, your trust in him a strange, almost instinctive thing.
With a sudden, almost effortless movement, he lifts you off his cock, setting you aside on the bed as if you weigh nothing. He rises to his knees, his eyes dark and intense, and grabs you again, manhandling you onto your stomach. Your chest presses flat against the mattress, your ass raised high in the air, and yourâre directly in sight of Keith
You clutch at the bed sheets beneath you, your knuckles white, as you brace yourself. You feel Simon's hand smooth over your ass, the touch both possessive and caring. Then, two sharp, stinging slaps land on either ass cheek, making you jolt. A gasp escapes your lips, but beneath the sting, a traitorous heat blooms between your legs, your cunt leaking.
He leans over you, his cock pressing flush against your ass, hard chest against your back, the heat radiating from him. He rasps in your ear, âHeâs gonna watch, sweetheart. Heâs gonna watch as I fuck yâtill yâbrains leak out yâears, ainât that right?â He continues. You whimper, a small, broken sound of acceptance, your body trembling.
Keith looks utterly defeated, his face a mask of exhaustion and a strange, twisted arousal. The dark stain on his shorts has grown exponentially. A flicker of guilt pierces through the haze of your cock-drunk stupor. A pang of remorse, a whisper of conscience, tries to surface, but itâs quickly swallowed by the need that simmers within you. The shame is there, but itâs overshadowed by the throbbing between your legs.
You're repulsed by the situation, by the violation of Keith, by the way Simon is using him to make a pointâas a pawn in this twisted game. Yet a shameful part of you revels in the power, in the dominance that Simon exudes.Â
Simon leans back, his eyes dark and predatory, and grabs his cock, circling your entrance with the slick, glistening tip. He teases you, the anticipation stretching the moment into an unbearable eternity. âWhat do we say, hmm?â he murmurs, his voice a low, dangerous purr. âWhen we want something?â
Your face is half-smushed against the bed, the rough fabric digging into your cheek, and a muffled plea escapes your lips. âPlease,â you whisper, the word barely audible.
He continues to torment you, the tip of his cock dipping in and out of your swollen entrance, each teasing touch sending a jolt of desperate need through your body. A string of pleas spills from your lips, âPlease, Siââ you beg, your voice thick with desire. âPleaseâI need itâ I need youââ
Simonâs eyes gleam with cruel amusement as he watches your desperation. âAwh, baby,â he drawls, his voice dripping with mockery. âDon't ask me. Iâm not the one yâneed to convince.â He hums.
He reaches out, his hand weaving through your scalp wrapping around your hair, and he yanks it back sharply, forcing your head into an unnatural, painful angle. Your neck strains, and your eyes are forced upwards, locking directly with Keithâs.
âAsk him,â Simon commands, his voice a low, menacing growl.
Your eyes meet Keith's, and you whisper, your voice thick with shame and desperation, a string of broken pleas.
Simon's grip tightens on your hair. âSay it proper, pet,â he instructs, his voice hard. âSay, âPlease let Simon fuck me, Keith.ââ
You instantly repeat the words, verbatim, the phrase a humiliating echo of his command. Unshed tears prick at your eyes, threatening to spill if Simon so much as grazes your clit again.
Keith looks between you both, his gaze shifting between your prettily arched body and Simon's monstrous, towering figure behind you. A flicker of something that might be resignation crosses his face. He nods lazily, a slow, almost imperceptible movement.
Simon smirks, a triumphant, possessive expression twisting his lips. He releases your hair, the sudden freedom making your head loll forward. âSee what happens when you ask nicely?â he murmurs, his voice laced with a dark satisfaction.
And then, without further delay, he inches in, the head of his cock pressing against your swollen entrance.
He slides into you, the angle intensifying the stretch, filling you even deeper than before. The sheer size of him steals your breath, the slow, deliberate intrusion forcing the air from your lungs. You claw at the sheets beneath you, your knuckles white, tears wetting the fabric.
He grunts as he sheaths himself fully, then pulls back before plunging in again. He watches as your cunt clenches and drools around him, sucking him in with a desperate, hungry grip. âGreedy pussy,â he growls, his voice thick with lust. âSheâs so fuckinâ greedy.â
You whine, a broken, helpless sound, your body trapped beneath him, forced to endure his thrusts. There's no escape, no reprieve, only the overwhelming sensation of him filling you, stretching you, dominating you.
Gradually, he picks up the pace, the rhythm becoming faster, more brutal. You howl, your drool soaking the sheets beneath your face. Heâs hitting spots you didn't know existed, stretching you to the brim, the feeling bordering on unbearable. You can barely focus, your vision blurred by tears, the world reduced to the relentless pounding of his cock, the wet squelches from your pussy, and the raw, visceral sensations that rip through your body.
Each thrust forces a wheeze of air from your lungs, a sound that more closely resembles a death rattle than a moan. Your whole body is ablaze, and heâs the one who struck the matchâwatching as you burn, as the flames lick higher, consuming everything in their path.
Simon suddenly hauls you upward, his hand looping around your upper chest, pulling you flush against his sweat-slicked chest. His hips donât falter as they continue to snap into you, your body arching involuntarily with each powerful stroke. His other hand grips your waist, anchoring you, while he leans into the crook of your neck, sucking on the sensitive skin there.
Your entire body, a raw, exposed spectacle, is laid bare before Keith. Your mouth hangs slack-jawed, your tits bouncing with each rapid, violent thrust that jolts through your frame. Even though heâs seen you naked before, heâs never witnessed you like this: so utterly debased, so completely at someoneâs mercy.
Heâs never seen anyone like this.
Simon licks a slow, deliberate stripe from your neck to your ear, his tongue tracing a path of fire across your skin, all while continuing to fuck you, his rhythm unwavering. Youâre limp in his arms, your head lolling back, your eyes rolling towards the back of your head. The pleasure is so overwhelming, so intense, that you can barely even manage a sound, your vocal cords paralyzed by the raw sensation.
He harshly whispers in your ear, his voice a low, guttural growl, âYâgonna cum,? Can feel yâclenchinâ âround meâfuck, yâso tight, babyââ
You manage a garbled, broken attempt at a âyes,â your voice thick with unspeakable pleasure.
âGood,â he murmurs. ââM close too and yâgonna take it allâ Gonna fill this cunnyâfuck,â He pauses, his voice hardening, âAnd yâbetter not take a fuckingâ Plan B this time.â
The words, a brutal reminder of your vulnerability, snap the last vestiges of your control. A wave of raw, unadulterated pleasure crashes over you, unlike anything you've ever experienced. You gush, your orgasm violent as you squirt, your release spraying across his cock and the sheets.
He continues to fuck you, his thrusts relentless as he chases his own high, his hands squeezing your tits, urging you on. âAtta girl,â he grunts, his voice thick with lust.
You go limp, your body leaning against him, your mind a blank canvas of pure sensation. Then, with a final, shuddering groan, he empties himself inside you, filling you to the brim, his cum a hot, pulsing tide that leaves you feeling utterly spent.
He stills, holding you close, his arms supporting you. Heâs truly fucked you senseless, leaving you a shell of your former self.
Slowly, gently, he pulls out of you, the withdrawal leaving a strange, hollow ache. He lays you on your side, his touch surprisingly tender, and presses a soft kiss to your shoulder. You let him, your body and mind too exhausted to offer any resistance.
He rises, his movements fluid and predatory, and stalks towards Keith. From your position on the bed, you can see the hard planes of his naked form, a stark, imposing figure standing before the bound man. He speaks, his voice low and menacing, the words barely audible. Keith looks up at him, his eyes wide with fear.
Then, with a casual flick of his wrist, Simon retrieves a knife heâd apparently left on your desk, the blade glinting in the dim light. He swiftly cuts through the ropes binding Keith, freeing him from his restraints.
Within seconds, Keith scrambles to his feet, his movements frantic and desperate. He doesn't look back, doesn't offer a word of explanation or apology. He simply runs, fleeing the house as if pursued by demons.
You lie there, your body still thrumming with the aftershocks of Simon's brutal possession, your mind struggling to process the scene. You don't know what Simon said to Keith, but the fear in the other man's eyes, the sheer urgency of his escape, speaks volumes. It couldn't have been anything good.
The front door slams shut, the echo reverberating through the quiet house. The sound of hurried, stumbling footsteps fades into the night. Keith is gone.
Simon exhales through his nose, slow and deliberate, before setting the knife down exactly where he had left it earlier. The metal clinks against the wood, sharp and final.
You havenât moved.
Your body still hums, every nerve alight, the aftershocks of everything thatâs just happened still pulsing through you. Your heart slams against your ribs, beating an erratic rhythm you canât quite slow down.
Then, warmthâsolid, steady, unshakable.
Simon sidles in behind you, his presence swallowing yours whole. One thick arm loops around your waist, the other sliding up to your sternum, pulling you back into his chest, into his heat. You donât resist. You donât even think to.
He presses his chin to your shoulder, his breath warm as it fans across your skin. His grip is firm, possessive, like heâs afraid youâll disappear if he lets go.
âStill with me, love?â he murmurs, voice rough, threaded with something unreadable.
You swallow hard, blinking yourself back into the present. Your fingers twitch at your sides, unsure whether to push him away or pull him closer.
You choose the latter. Your hands settle over his arms, feeling the solid muscle beneath your palms, the way he holds you like you belong to him.
You hum in response, soft and instinctive, nuzzling just slightly deeper into the warmth of his chest. Itâs comforting in a way you donât fully understandâhow you can feel so at ease wrapped up in the arms of a man who is anything but safe.
Your fingers trace idle patterns along the skin of his forearm, feeling the scars, the ridges, the history carved into him. You tilt your head slightly, voice still a little breathless as you ask, âWhat did you say to him?â
Simon chuckles. âTold âem if he so much as breathed a word about this, Iâd track him down, carve his tongue out, and mail it tâhis mother. After I made him swallow his teeth, oâ course.â
Your eyes widen. âJesus Christ.â
âAt least I didnât go with my original plan.â
You hesitate, blinking, your heart skipping. âWhat plan?â
Simon leans in, his lips brushing the shell of your ear as he murmurs, completely unbothered, âKillinâ him. Tossinâ his sorry corpse into the Thames.â
A beat of silence.
ââŚOh.â
Simon laughsâan actual laugh, deep and rumbling, like you just told the funniest joke in the world.
And itâs only now, sitting here, still bare against his heat, his arms caging you in, his scent thick in your lungs, that you remember heâs still a criminal.
Simon holds you close, his chin resting against the top of your head, arms locked around you like he has no intention of letting go. His body is warm, steadyâlike he belongs here, like you belong here.
Then, quietly, he murmurs, âYâmine now.â
You let out a small chuckle. âYeah, I got that part.â
His chest vibrates with a quiet laugh, one of his hands slowly dragging up and down your arm, fingertips tracing your skin like heâs memorizing you. Itâs gentleâtoo much so for a man like him.
You shift just enough to glance at the analog clock on your nightstand. The dim glow of the numbers makes your stomach sink.
âShit.â
Simon hums in question.
âSunâs coming up,â you sigh, rubbing your face, âand I have work in three hours.â
He doesnât even pause. âNah, yâdonât.â
You let out a tired laugh. âThat so?â
âMhm.â He pulls back slightly, just enough to look down at you, his eyes dark and sure. âTold you. Yâmine. That means yâdonât have tâwork.â
You blink up at him, frowning. âSimon, I have a life here. A job, a flat. I canât just give it up.â
He shrugs, lips twitching. âIâll get your lease terminated.â
 You turn to face him in his embrace. âWithout penalties?â
His smirk is slow, lazy. âDonât worry about it.â
You stare at him, not even bothering to ask what that means. You already know. You also know youâre too damn tired to fight about it.
With a long exhale, your fingers trace the pink scar just below his collarbone. âWhere would we even go?â
He doesnât miss a beat.Â
âHow do yâfeel about Manchester?â
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THIS IS THE FINAL INSTALLMENT OF THE RETURN TO SENDER UNIVERSE. I WILL NOT BE WRITING ANOTHER PART.
fisherman price x reader cw: noncon undressing/bathing, dubcon touching. 11k words. 18+ mdni the crew aboard a deep-sea crabbing vessel rescue a woman adrift in the north sea. you wake up on a boat surrounded by men you don't know, with no memory of where you came from. or: john price rescues you from certain death and decides that you belong to him [masterlist]
Jonathan had long forsaken his godliness; but if he were to deify anything, it would be the Sea.Â
Great big blue, infinitely vast and infinitely deep. She was sweet when she was still, gentle, little ebbs like kisses against the barnacled hull â formidable when she was angry, titanic swells like mountains that crashed and shattered and sucked irreverent men down into the depths of her.Â
She took as much as she gave, demanded sacrifices for her gifts. Stole his father when he was a boy, swept off the deck of his ship by a rancorous wave and cast out into the expanse before she inevitably swallowed him. But what she purloined she returned in abundance â a cornucopia of life; fish, lobsters, molluscs â and enough crabs for John to make his living for the better part of his life once he retired from the Navy.Â
In more recent years, though, he had begun to lose faith in her, too.Â
The seas were violent and only getting rougher, warmer when they needed to be cold to let the crabs get meatier, colder when they needed to be warm so they could replenish their numbers.Â
A burgeoning resentment had rooted in his crew like a spreading cancer, minute at first but steadily swelling â every year they were paid a little less and damaged a little more, and who else was there to blame but their skipper?Â
Wrong spot, wrong depth, wrong time of year; he seemed to keep getting it wrong, despite decades and decades of seafare. As though the Sea was punishing him, as though he had taken too much â only a matter of time before it was his turn to give.Â
She made known her spite as he leaned over the paint-chipped railing of the deck-facing balcony, watching his crew haul in pot after pot from the raging ocean. Each cage more vacant than the last, the crabs smaller than he had come to expect from the once generous North Sea, soft brown shells where they should have been thick, ochre red, and thorny. Half of them too small to keep, so were begrudgingly tossed back into the deep.
The sun had set not ten minutes prior, hidden by black cloud and dense fog, the sea and sky smudged into a uniform shade of gloaming blue. The waves were tempestuous, whitecaps high and valleys low â the Iron Tide was a resilient girl, and she carved through the bulk of the swells, but even she could not avoid the plummets and climbs of an ocean this rough. He felt the mist of the cracking waves on his cheeks, the wind blistering cold and forcing him to squint.Â
As the Captain he had outgrown the need to get his hands dirty, he could stay in the comfort of the wheelhouse if he wished â but he still liked to venture down to the deck to pull ropes and haul pots when he could, if only to show his crew how it was properly done. He liked to ensure his callouses stayed thick and his mettle hadnât turned soft.Â
âThisâs a fuckenâ suicide set, captain!â Roared Johnny from the deck, work-worn voice barely audible over the bellows of the waves on the hull. Lead deckhand with the attitude of a first mate.Â
The first mate himself, Simon, had begun ascending the rusty steel stairs with an uncharacteristic urgency, the hood of his fluorescent orange jacket around his shoulders, kept there by the wind.Â
âHow many âve we got?â John asked him, jaundiced, having to shout over the gale.Â
âThirty-two,â Simon said rigidly, âfrom twenty pots.âÂ
âFuckâs sake,â John grunted, aggravated, smacking the rail with his palm. He cynically observed the next pot as it was hauled up, even emptier than the last one, and he made up his mind. âAlright, set âem back.â
âTheyâve been soaking for twenty-four hours,â Simon disputed, but the pith of his irritation resided in the knowledge of how much labour had already been wasted. It was an inexorable fact, though â there was little point in retrieving them now, as empty as they were.Â
âItâs a waste of time to haul them all,â John barked. âWhat have we got, seventy to go? Set them back.âÂ
Simon rubbed the bridge of his nose with a thumb, exasperated. âAlright.âÂ
He echoed the Captainâs command in a roar down the stairs, deckhands looking up to listen before they obeyed â John watched, disenchanted, as they began launching the string of pots over the side of the deck one by one, throwing loops of yellow nylon rope and the bright red marker buoys out to follow them.Â
It was easy for John to fall into a sour mood, and after the abysmal stew Nikolai had thrown together for their supper, his fuse was cut even shorter. Seemed the Russian mechanicâs turn to cook always landed on the harshest nights, left everyone crotchety and indolent.Â
He needed nicotine.Â
He made his way back to the helm with a crease in his brow and his jaw in knots. The bolted windows spanning the length of the bridge were near impossible to see through, the battering of sea spray distorting the view of the dark ocean that extended unendingly past the bow. He glared out into the abyss for a beat, stoically watching the black waves, wondering what next the Sea would punish him with.Â
A blink of red pierced through the mist.Â
He almost ignored it, at first, rubbing his forehead as he twisted his spinning chair behind the helm â until it was there, again; a pin-prick of bright carmine, cutting through the blue sea fog and disappearing behind a wave.Â
Frowning as he leaned into the radar screen, his eyes scoured over the bright blue disk and immediately caught on a tiny yellow blip. Due north, twenty degrees west. It was faint, flickering every odd moment, and he stared at it vigilantly â a spot he would normally dismiss as sea clutter, if not for the blinking light he thought he saw on the horizon.Â
He reeled down the window by the seat and stuck his head out into the winds, squinting through the spray â at the top of a crest shone the little red light, blinking at half-second intervals, clear as day.Â
The realisation rinsed him colder than seawater.Â
A lifeboat.Â
He snatched the intercom radio from its hook by the wheel and held it to his lips.Â
âAll handsââ He barked, âSecure the deck. Got a lifeboat up ahead. Prepare for rescue.âÂ
Simonâs crackling voice quickly came back through the radio, from the call point on the deck. âDâyou say a lifeboat?âÂ
âThatâs what I said.âÂ
âRoger.âÂ
John could hear the yelling on deck from the wheelhouse, all that fervour frothing up at the prospect of an emergency; a new challenge. He immediately spun the wheel to adjust the rudder, steering the boat in the direction of the blip on the radar. Gently pushed the throttle to catch up and felt the roaring engine quake through the boat, the sharp bow of his ship cut through the swells like a fist through a wall.Â
âSee it,â Simon called through the intercom.Â
âWhatâve we got?âÂ
âLife raft.âÂ
He tugged the throttle lever back to halt the boat on approach, aligning the vessel so that the lifeboat was portside, knuckles white on the wheel. He set the engine to hold station before marching out to the deck, bracing for the wind as he hurried across the steel balcony and down the ladder, knurled steel stairs clanging loudly with every thud of his boots.Â
âAny survivors onboard?â John shouted, joining his crew where they peered over the railing, as another wave cascaded over the gunwale, greenwater flooding the deck before gushing out of the scuppers.Â
There it was, neon orange and climbing up a steep swell. Hardly a lifeboat â an inflatable raft, little red light blinking atop a rounded corner. From the deck he could tell it was ancient, the bright skin of the raft peeling and blistering, exposing the ballooning black rubber within that kept it afloat. Modern regulations demanded modern lifeboats â fully enclosed boats with their own motors, search and rescue transponders equipped. He struggled to imagine the kind of vessel the raft had even come from; certainly not a cruise ship, or any legally operating fishing or passenger boat.Â
âOnly one,â Alex answered, yelling over the roar of the ocean.Â
Nik let out a grunt, dismissing it all with a sweep of his hand. âThat woman is dead.âÂ
John squinted at the raft, and quickly determined that Nikolai wasnât unreasonable for thinking so.
The woman aboard the raft lay face down in the orange bed, bare-footed, nothing on but a saturated ivory dress that clung to her skin like glue. Sodden hair webbed across her back, tresses floating in the inch of water that filled the basin of the boat.Â
Even if she were a corpse already, though, he wasnât going to let the Sea digest her unchallenged.Â
âAlright,â he declared, chewing on his plan before he uttered it. âIâll strap on the lifeline, jump in and grab her, then you lot can reel me back in.âÂ
The disputes were quick to gush from his crew, all cursing and shaking heads.Â
âGet fucked,â Alex scoffed, appaled, âskipper jumping overboard? What world are you living in?â
âYou gonna do it, then, Keller?â John retorted, lips in a line.Â
âI can,â Soap yelled, already shucking off his heavy jacket. Daredevil that he was.
John gritted his teeth. Wasnât sold on the risk of losing his lead deckhand; but as he considered it, he would never be prepared to risk losing any of them.Â
âYou sure?âÂ
âAhâm the best swimmer,â he boasted through a grin, now down to his thermals, shoulders raised in the cold and rubbing his hands together.Â
âGood man,â John nodded approvingly, and the crew quickly went to work strapping him in â hooked the harness over his shoulders and secured it in the front, fed the end of the long blue rope into the winch so he could be retrieved after the catch.Â
Came the thudding of boots on the deck, running towards the commotion; âFuckâs going on? Whyâs the engine idle?â
Kyle, the shipâs engineer, finally emerging from the engine room with a smudge of gear oil on his cheek. Must have had his earbuds in when the Captain issued the all hands directive.Â
John let out a huff, not prepared to give a long justification to the designated safety officer, conscientious as he was.
âOh shitââ Gaz chirped, discovering on his own the gravity of the situation, as he glanced over the railing and spotted the raft. âIs she alive?â
âWeâre about tâfind out,â Soap said keenly, bouncing on the balls of his feet to warm himself up.Â
âYouâre jumping in?â Gaz balked, âThatâs â youâre fuckinâ mental.â
John let out a sharp huff. He didnât disagree, but he thought it counterproductive to express any reluctance. âGot a better idea, lad?âÂ
Gaz sighed anxiously as he clutched the guardrail, head hanging from his shoulders. He knew as well as John that this was the only option â it was that, or leave the woman adrift in the ocean to die, if she werenât already.Â
John held fast to his pragmatism, but his morals were unyielding. Nobody gets left behind.Â
Men took turns giving Johnny good luck pats on the back as he climbed over the railing. He hung off the other side like a monkey with his fist around the bar, looking down into the furious ocean and taking an anticipatory breath.Â
The crew watched raptly and let loose a strident cheer as he launched off, diving into the waves with knife-pointed arms and sinking out of sight. Nik remained steadfast by the hydraulic winch, ready to set it off at any indication of either success or failure.Â
Soap reemerged from the water with a visible gasp ten-odd metres out, breaking through the white foam and powering ahead in a freestyle stroke. He reached the raft quickly, and climbed aboard like a wet dog, hauling himself up over the ballooning sides and almost pulling it under the water with him. He kneeled beside the woman once he was in, pulling her by the shoulder to assess her â he gave no indication to the crew as to her status before he hoisted her up and held her tight to his chest, arms hooked under hers so that she wore him like a backpack.
He pushed himself back into the water with an eager holler; âGot âer!â
Nik immediately pulled the lever on the winch and it zipped loudly as it began spinning, winding up the rope and hauling Johnny through the swelling sea. The crane arm of the davit extended far enough beyond the gunwale that he didnât slam into the hull on his ascent, and he clung to the limp woman for dear life â John and his deckhands leaned as far over the railing as they could without toppling overboard, hooking the rope that suspended the swimmer and heaving he and his cargo onboard.Â
Soap coughed out a splatter of seawater as he gingerly lay the woman on her back, before rolling over and wiping down his face, dripping wet.
âFound yerself a mermaid, cap,â he sputtered, sniffing and shivering violently as he pushed himself to stand.Â
âNicely fuckinâ done, Soap,â Alex lauded, smacking him on the back and earning a screech from the Scotsman.Â
ââS too cold,â he bit, grabbing at his genitals through his sodden thermals. âMa fuckenâ balls are gone.âÂ
âGo in and get dry,â the Captain barked, as he hurriedly crouched beside the woman, sweeping locks of drenched hair from where it stuck to her face.Â
âJesus,â Gaz muttered concernedly.Â
Her skin was bitterly cold, but soft on her cheeks; some indication that resuscitation might have been possible, that her skin wasnât as stiff and waxy as corpse skin would have been. Eyes were lightly shut, her thick lashes clumped together by seawater. He used a gentle thumb to lift up an eyelid, and her pupils were nice and black â blown out, but not clouded over. Laces of capillaries meshed through her white scleras. Blood still bright red.
âHowâs she looking?â Alex asked, crouching beside John, pessimism in his throat.Â
âSheâs frigid,â John said grimly.
âCould be hypothermic,â Gaz said from behind him, worry leaden in every word. âThat water is barely higher than zero.âÂ
âMh,â John grunted in agreement, hastily pressing the palps of his fingers under her jaw into a spongy jugular, held there for a few seconds â no pulse. âWeâll worry about warminâ her up once we get her breathing.âÂ
He leaned back and interlaced his fingers, laying his hands knuckles down between her breasts. Pushed his weight into her sternum with a hard shove and her ribs sunk underneath him, bouncing back up when he released the pressure. Repeat. Over, and over, grunting with each desperate compression.
The heaving bodies of five men caging her kept the bulk of the angry waves from dousing her, the spray crashed over Johnâs back and dripped from him, beads landing on her body. Solemn silence hung heavy between them, as though fearful that expressing any hope would condemn her to certain death. Simon clutched Johnâs shoulder, grip encouraging.Â
He counted his compressions until he reached thirty, before he urgently keeled forward and pressed his mouth to her cold lips, pinching her nose and lifting her chin â pumped air from his lungs into hers with a forceful breath, then another, then another. Her chest rose as it filled up with his air, sunk again as he let it seep out from behind her teeth.Â
Returned to compressions. Push. Push. Push. He pressed so hard into her sternum that her ribs threatened to snap under the weight of him, but they were rubbery enough to withstand it.Â
Continued the next round until he reached twenty-one â when water began to rise up her throat, sloshing about in her open mouth and trickling out of its corners. He urgently halted his compressions to flip her onto her side and tip out the brine, hammering into the midline of her back with an open palm.Â
âCâmon, love,â John growled, teeth gritting. âCough it up for me.âÂ
As though she had heard him, a gurgle eked from her throat, torso retching as an eruption of water gushed out of her mouth and sprayed over the deck. A few weak coughs followed the first, and she shuddered â the men roared in shock and celebration as John returned her to her back.Â
Her eyes fluttered open for less than a second, shrinking pupils fixed on John for a heartbeat â wet, glittering under the beaming of the deck lights, carving straight through him and taking root in the marrow of his skull. Vacant and yet swollen, the glow of life anew, as though glaring right into the heavens â and with a little sigh, they feathered shut again.Â
He held a hand to her cheek, gave her head a soft shake; prepared to continue the chest compressions, but as he curled forward and held his ear to her lips, he felt her breathing, shaky and weak against the cartilage shell.Â
âShe breathinâ?â Simon asked bluntly, laden with apprehension.Â
âYeah,â John huffed, relief potent as liquor flooded hot into his chest and made his temples throb.Â
âGood shit, capân,â Alex commended, releasing a puff of pent air, just as relieved as the lot of them.Â
John nodded dismissively, hands on his knees, before he pushed himself to stand. He stood over the girl and hoisted her up with his hands under her arms, before delicately draping her over his shoulder.
âGaz, help me with her, will you?â He grunted, before marching toward the stairs up to the superstructure. âYou three â funâs over. Get back to setting the pots. Iâll send Soap back out once heâs in his dries.â
âAye aye,â Alex said facetiously, shaking out his hands as he and the others returned to the stack they had just tied down.Â
âWhatâs the plan?â Kyle asked stiffly, in quick pursuit as John steamed up the stairs.Â
âGotta get her warm,â John said.Â
âYeahââ he agreed with a hesitant tone, âwhat dâyou want me for?â
Johnâs eyes rolled into his skull. âYou did a couple years of health science, didnât you?âÂ
âOne year,â Kyle corrected.Â
John could have said that he wanted Gaz specifically because he was the shipâs assigned safety officer, or because he was the only man aboard with a university degree. But, in truth, he wanted him simply for the fact he was the least likely of all of his crewmen to make stripping the girl into something needlessly lascivious.Â
He carted her to the head in steady stride, passing Johnny through the narrow corridor as he dried himself off with a towel around his neck.Â
âSheâs alive?â He asked hopefully.Â
âUh-huh,â John rumbled.Â
Soap triple-smacked the veneer panel of the wall with a flat hand in excitement, all but bouncing off the ceiling with it. âHalle-fuckenâ-lujah! Need help warminâ her up?âÂ
âNo. Get your skins on and head back out to deck, Johnny, yâgot more pots to drop.âÂ
Johnny groaned like a teenager, but he went off as he was told.
The head was small â enough room for a toilet, a shower, and a three-inch wide sink, not quite the floorspace to lay her down gracefully. John tore back the curtain and propped her up against the wall of the shower, nestling her into the corner so her head leaned against the perpendicular wall.Â
No sense in wasting time. He clinically peeled the sodden fabric of her white dress up her thighs, lifting her limp leg to tug the skirt out from under her.Â
âChristââ Gaz grumbled, disquieted, he turned away.Â
âWill yâhold her arms up for me?â John monotonously requested, uninterested in the boyâs reservations.Â
Gaz sighed as he obeyed the order, taking her cold hands by the wrists and holding them above her head. John hiked up her dress without reservation, revealing the saturated bra and underwear she wore underneath, as he lifted it her arms up above her head.Â
âThisâs fucked up,â Gaz mumbled.Â
âWhat is.âÂ
âTaking her clothes off,â he said, reluctance poignant.Â
âYouâd rather we let her freeze to death, eh?â John bit, not even dignifying the engineerâs aversion by turning to look at him.Â
He tugged her flaccid body towards him, and her head fell against his shoulder â he reached under her arm into the space between her back and the shower wall, unclasping her bra with a single hand.Â
âNo,â Kyle acquiesced. âDo we really need to take off her underwear, though?â
âSheâs not gonna get warm in wet knickers, is she,â John grumbled, frustration blossoming, releasing it in a sharp sigh. âYâneed to grow up, Garrick. Go and grab my jersey and a towel from the laundry, then.â
âOkay. Sure, yeah,â he agreed, marching out of the head like he might trip over in his haste.Â
John bit down on nothing as he pulled the straps of the girlâs bra down her arms, adding it to the pile atop her drenched dress. Didnât help that she was a lovely thing â pudding-soft curves, pretty little face â might lend an explanation to the young engineerâs discomfort, couldnât reconcile the attraction he felt to a near-dead woman while she was incognisant of her nudity.Â
John did not care, he had no qualms.Â
A pragmatist, through and through. He felt no shame for admiring her as he leaned her back against the laminate wall, nipples grey-purple and hard as pebbles by virtue of her palpable hypothermia. Soft lips were slack, not as blue as they had been when she was fished out of the ocean, now that her blood was pumping again.Â
He wasted no time ogling her, though, he was no reprobate. His only priority was getting her warm and awake. And that happened to involve hooking his fingers into the waistband of her knickers, saturated in seawater and cleaving fast to her skin.Â
He hooked an arm around her to lift her from the shower floor, used the other hand to tug her underwear over the swell of her bottom before he set her back down to reel them down her thighs.Â
Pretty cunt, too. Unshaven, how he liked them.Â
He reached up for the shower head, held it in a fist as he switched on the water. Already nice and warm, preheated by the engine-powered calorifiers. He held the stream of warm water over her chest, watching as it cascaded over her breasts and flooded between her thighs. Didnât care if he got himself wet in so doing. Checked her pulse every odd moment with the pad of a finger on her wrist, ensured her chest continued to rise and fall.Â
Rubbed his free hand over her skin to scrub off all the salt; started modestly with her arms, shoulders, back â but was unhesitant in rinsing and scrubbing her armpits, down her belly, between her legs. Didnât touch her pussy, though, even John felt that was a step too far. He simply rinsed it. Let the water run over her mons and channel down the cleft of her unaided.Â
He tilted her head back and ran the warm stream over her hairline, careful not to let too much water pour down her face. He combed thick fingers through the tresses, scrunching her hair into a ball to wring out the brine before rinsing it out again.Â
As he carded his fingers through her scalp, though, he felt a lump; just above her hairline, concealed by the locks. A squishy protrusion from the skull, with a frayed ridge through the centre of it. Only then did he see the diluted blood in the water that puddled at the bottom of the shower, originating from the ends of her saturated hair.Â
Add that to the list of ailments, he thought. Poor wee girl. Theyâd need to tend to that.Â
Kyle finally returned with a cautious knock on the door, a single knuckle.Â
âDâyou fall overboard, Garrick?â John murmured â he had been gone far longer than it should have taken to find the items he requested.Â
âSorry,â he said. âCouldnât figure out which fleece was yours.âÂ
John said nothing.Â
âShe warming up yet?â Gaz asked tightly, likely not even looking in the direction of the shower, now that she was entirely nude.Â
The girlâs skin was now plush and pink under the heat of the water, and felt warm to the touch under the back of Johnâs hand; so with a satisfied nod he shut off the water and hooked the showerhead back into its fastening.Â
He reached backward with a gesturing hand, and Gaz handed him the crisp towel he had brought from the laundry without a word.Â
âLooks like she got hit in the head,â John commented, as he draped the towel over the girl's front, rubbing her down to get her dry. Arms, shoulders, armpits, thighs, feet. He was thorough.Â
âShit,â Gaz said morosely, half-hearted. Soft young man, soft in a way John was almost envious of. Sometimes he wondered if he had grown too rough around the edges, too abrasive for his own good. âWhat the fuck happened to âer?âÂ
âNot a clue,â John said. âNothing good.âÂ
âThat life raft was â that was non-standard,â Gaz pondered aloud.Â
âThought the same thing,â John replied, as he scrunched her hair in the towel, twisting it up to wring out the water. He was careful with the top of her head â dabbing her scalp gently, leaving dark red smears in the blue fibres.Â
âFerry capsized, maybe?âÂ
âWe wouldâve heard about a ship capsizing nearby,â John said. ââSpecially a passenger vessel. Theyâd have blasted the distress call out in every direction.âÂ
âMh,â Gaz agreed.Â
âShe had no shoes on,â John remarked, tone sombre. âNo gear, no jacket.âÂ
âRunning away from something?â asked Gaz, picking up what John might have been suggesting.Â
âMaybe,â John said, before hanging the towel around her back and hauling her up from the floor with an arm around her ribs.Â
He hung her floppy arms over his shoulder, kept her body tight to him, the towel just long enough to conceal her buttocks from Gaz, sensitive lad. He kept her up with a forearm under her rear, bounced her to adjust. She was impossibly easy to lift; John could have carried her one-handed, if he were less concerned about avoiding brandishing her nudity around the ship.Â
Gaz followed him out of the head, towards the galley.Â
âShe had no belongings with her, eh?â Gaz asked, âno wallet, nothing?âÂ
âNo.âÂ
Kyle let out a long sigh, worry oozing from his every pore. âDonât wanna imagine how long she was drifting for.âÂ
John nodded, as he sat her down on the bench seat of the dining table, the thin vinyl cushion squeaking underneath her. He dumped the towel, and grabbed his jersey from Gaz â one of his heavy Patagonia fleeces, fabric thick, plush like sheepskin, dark navy with a zip collar. He pulled it over her head, fed her arms through the long sleeves and adjusted it down her torso. It was long enough that it reached her mid-thighs, hands two-thirds of the way through the sleeves â big enough to conceal everything, and cozy enough to keep her warm. He pulled her hair out from inside the collar and lay it to one side over her shoulder.Â
âGrab me the first aid kit,â John ordered dryly, as he leaned her against the seat, holding her head upright with a hand at the back of her skull.Â
He fingered through her locks of damp hair, looking closely for the contusion that he felt ballooning out of her scalp â found it, eventually, dark purple and swollen, sticky burgundy blood coagulating around the open wound and gluing bits of hair together.Â
âThink she fell?â Gaz asked, as he returned with the red polyester pouch after rummaging through the galley cabinets, unzipping and unfurling it.Â
âSâthere betadine in there?â John asked, before he had acknowledged the engineerâs question. âHard to say, it looks rough.âÂ
Kyle handed him the little brown dropper of iodine solution, popping off the cap for him. âYou donât think someone hit her.âÂ
Johnâs jaw tightened. âIf they did, they hit her bloody hard.âÂ
âFuckinâ hell,â Gaz grumbled, upset, watching with his arms crossed as John tipped over the little bottle. He squeezed out several rust-brown drops, they landed squarely in the wound in her scalp, emulsifying with the tissue. âThisâs all â just wrong.âÂ
âLeast sheâs alive,â John murmured, through a huff, as he put down the betadine. No use in attempting to bandage it, the laceration was small enough that it would heal on its own if left unbothered.Â
âWonder where her home is,â Gaz mused, tone dismal.Â
âWeâll âave to see what the bird says when she wakes up,â John said, laying the girl down on her side, tucking up her knees.Â
âWhat if she doesnât?âÂ
âShe will,â John asserted as he stood, rapping an appreciative hand on Kyleâs shoulder. âKeep an eye on her, will you? I need to get back to the bridge.âÂ
âOkay,â Gaz nodded tightly.Â
âAnd get her a blanket,â John ordered on his way to the ladder. âCall me if anything changes, yeah?âÂ
âWill do, Captain.âÂ
You tasted salt on your tongue.
It was dark, and your body was so heavy â your neurons fired off to raise an arm, and all they mustered was the twitch of a finger. Skin felt warm and viscid, lacquered in a tepid layer of tar as though fully submerged in gooey black pitch, too thick to move around in.
Your eyes perceived nothing but deep, liquid burgundy, and the sparking of white-and-red stars that encroached on the borders of your vision, writhing and swirling in the abyss of your blindness.Â
Still, salt on your tongue.Â
It was foul, overpowering, all consuming â that brackish grit in every corner of your mouth, between your teeth, crystallising in the back of your throat. It filled your nose, stung where it adhered to the delicate mucosa of your nostrils, every breath hurt to take in.Â
You could feel it in your lungs, too. Shards of salt embedded in your bronchioles, saline glutted alveoli, trachea plugged with viscous brine.Â
Your diaphragm spasmed beyond your control, body seizing as you erupted into a coughing fit â wet and phlegmy, salty fluid gurgling in your chest and hucking out of your mouth with every ragged splutter, you almost choked on it as you heaved in as much air as your lungs could imbibe.Â
Your eyes shot open, then, vision so blurry that you had to wrench them closed a few times before the membrane over your corneas began to dissipate.Â
A rubbery cushion under the side of your head, fuzzy fabric enveloping your arms and chest, something scratchy and heavy over your legs. Warm, sore â you ached everywhere, every joint stiff, every muscle burning, every organ twisting and floundering inside you.Â
Dizziness wracked through your head, brain swimming free within your skull, spinning around in circles and bouncing against the walls of its cavity as though you were being tipped forward and backward and forward again.Â
Nausea swelled up quickly, filled you up to the ears and made your stomach cramp and contort â bile rose up your throat and burned on its way up, you leaned over the surface you lay on and let it spill out from your teeth. Hardly any vomit, merely an oozing stream of chartreuse bile that dripped in strings from the corner of your mouth.Â
You heard a voice, a manâs voice, at first too disoriented to understand it.Â
âShit â oh my god, youâreââ
A hoarse groan escaped your chest in response, not a noise you made on purpose, as you tried to roll onto your back.Â
âAre you okay?â He asked urgently, and suddenly you noticed a pair of knees under a table beside you, only as they shifted when the person stood. âHey â youâre okay, youâreââ
You moaned again, squinting under the bright light above you, vision distorted by vertigo and brine. Tongue too fat to form any words yet.Â
âYouâre okay, let me â let me get you some water.âÂ
You heard the hurried thuds of boots away from you, and you rubbed your eyes with the heels of your palms, finally able to see properly once you opened your eyes again. Shakily pulled yourself upright with a hand on the table, muscles quivering so violently that they could barely hold you up â but fired adrenaline began to kick in, thumping out from your chest and buzzing in your fingertips as you glanced around the room, utterly alien to you.Â
âWhereâŚâ you croaked, soaking in your surroundings. Panelled walls of honey oak, an ugly veneered table in front of you, you sat on its bench seat. A small circular window sat above the table, bolted around its borders, and a single light bulb hung from the ceiling.Â
The room smelled like dish soap and body odour, fetid with the scent of an unwashed sponge and a hovering note of fish carcass. A small kitchen, as you turned your head around to check behind you â the man towered over a sink, you heard the hiss of running water.Â
âWhere am I?â You finally asked, finding your words, but your voice was as frayed as if you had swallowed glass.
The man turned then, and you did not recognise him. Not at all. A complete stranger, with a furrow in his brow, and an awkward smile tugging at the corner of his lips.Â
You bolted up from the seat then, tossing aside the blanket that rested on your knees, fight-or-flight reigniting your muscles and setting your heart into overdrive â your head spun with it, and your balance was completely off kilter, you had to continually readjust your feet to keep yourself upright.Â
âHey â hey, easy,â he said edgily, voice soft.Â
âWho the fuck are you?â You barked, immediately defensive, you tried to keep your eyes pinned to him while you made note of your peripheral surroundings.Â
âIâm â Iâm sorry, I didnât â Iâm Gaz. Kyle. Iâm Kyle.âÂ
You scowled at him, panting, hackles raised high as you shuffled away from the table. âI donât know anyone called Kyle,â you hissed. âOr anyone called Gaz.âÂ
âWe havenât met before,â he said, body twisting to face you as you inched around him.Â
He put down the glass of water he held in his hand, and that only further enkindled your terror. Now his hands were free. He could tackle you, if he wanted to. Tall man that he was, muscular under his black jersey, his big doe-eyes did nothing to soften you to him.Â
âWe found you in the water,â he tried to explain, âwe thought you were dead. But we rescued you.âÂ
âThe fuck do you mean, found me?â You spat, now approaching the kitchen, your eyes scoured around for something to grab.Â
He could detect your scheming, inched closer to you on quiet feet, attempting to flank you.Â
So you dashed â bolted towards the small cooktop, where a magnetic strip mounted on the wall held an array of kitchen knives.Â
âFuckââ He cursed, through teeth, failing to grab you in time before you snatched one by the handle, and held the blade in front of you with both hands.Â
You jabbed it at him as you backed out of his reach, arms so shaky you almost dropped it â but you kept it tight, holding onto it with vicious devotion, as though dropping it would be your death sentence.Â
He held up his hands, not in surrender, but as if he were attempting to settle a wild animal. âOkay, love, take it easy.âÂ
âStay away from me,â you shouted, trembling, backing away cautiously.Â
âCaptain!â The man roared worriedly toward the ceiling, and you flinched. âLook, love, Iâm not going toââ
âFuck you,â you bit, before you spun on a heel and flew towards an archway.Â
âShit.â He cursed as you escaped, but he had not yet pursued you.Â
You scurried down the narrow corridor, bare feet aching with every step, knife extended in front of you and prepared to slash at anything that got in your way. You were wobbling all over the place, as though the ground beneath you was rocking back and forth; you toppled into the wall on your right, yelping as you tried to get yourself upright again.Â
You reached a great big industrial door, painted blue and with a tiny circular porthole too high for you to see through. It had a wheel in the centre of it, connected to a series of bars that spanned it from top to bottom. Not a door you had ever seen before, but you inexplicably knew to twist the wheel â left, first go, and the bars shrunk away from the top and bottom, the steel door unsealing with a clank.Â
Now you heard the thuds of running boots, fast, growing louder, closer â you shouldered open the heavy door and leapt over the lip at the bottom, immediately blasted with an ice-cold wind that made you shrivel up and almost retreat back inside.Â
The sky was stark black, and you were blinded by floodlights. You stumbled towards the railing, hanging onto it for dear life as you almost slipped over on the frigid metal grating under your feet â it felt like barbed wire on your soles, and you whimpered with every step.Â
Your fierce desperation to escape trumped any pain, though, you burned hot as a boiler, thundering adrenaline keeping you aflame. You spun your head around to determine where you were; a pitch-dark abyss surrounded you on all sides â no sky, no ground, no lights on the horizon, nothing. You peered over the balustrade and realised then that you were on a ship, now seeing the building-tall waves that cascaded over the floor below, bedizened in ropes and grates and metal cages and buoys, populated with a few people in neon jackets.Â
âHeyââ Came a bark from behind you, and you shrieked â immediately scurrying towards a steep staircase, pole-narrow, almost toppling down it as you bounced to every second step.Â
The floor of the deck consisted of slippery water-logged wood, and the soles of your feet struggled to find any grip as you sprinted across it. You werenât even sure where you were running, just away, from the man who had followed you â but it became quickly clear you had no escape, and the orange-jacketed men on the deck had turned their heads to spot you.
âOh, fuckââ One barked.Â
Another erupted in bewildered laughter; âShe breathes, alright!âÂ
âOi â girlââ Called one.Â
âCâmere, hen!â Shouted another, Scottish. âWe donât bite!âÂ
You sobbed as you ran, ravaged by a fear so potent it made your heart shrivel up like a raisin â you were sprayed by a crashing wave, blinded by the salt, and your feet slipped out from under you. Collided into the hard ground with a slam, a bounce, you skidded across the wood and your knife tumbled out of your grip, sliding out of reach.Â
Only as you flopped around on the greasy floor did you realise your nudity under the sweater you were wearing, bare thighs slick with cold sea water, ass bitten by the arctic wind. You scrambled to get yourself back up, crawling on your hands and knees towards your only weapon â until a thick arm hooked under your belly, swiftly hoisting you up from the ground with yank, and you squealed.Â
âEasy, now, womanââ Gritted the man, the hoarse growl of an old dog, and he held you flat to his chest. âIn such a hurry to go back overboard, eh?âÂ
You wailed, attempted to buck yourself free from him while your feet dangled off the floor, but he only secured his grip with another mammoth arm. The other men on the deck approached hastily, concern and confusion etched in their cold-ruddy faces, looking between each other as though waiting for somebody to decide what to do with you.Â
âLet me go,â you sobbed, paltry voice broken by hiccups, you spluttered and cried and kicked when you could muster it. âPlease, pleaseââ
âPut her down, Nik, for fuckâs sake.â Came the roar of another man, approaching from further away, an authoritative fury that your captor swiftly obeyed.Â
You landed on your bare feet onto the wet floor with a squelch, and a sob, but he kept a firm grip of your shoulder to prevent you from fleeing. You wouldnât have, though â now, it was clear to you â there was nowhere to run.Â
âWhat the fuck is wrong with you?â Yelled the evident commander, âAll of you? Christ, look, youâve scared the shit out of her.âÂ
You saw him, then, as he stood in front of you â towering, heaving, you felt the vibrations of his heavy feet on the deck with each step. Broad shoulders cloaked in a rugged navy jacket, the hood pooled around his neck, a pair of roomy yellow overalls strapped over the waterproof layer. A black knitted beanie sat on the top of his head, folded just above his furrowed brows. His lips were in a snarl under his dense beard while he addressed the other men, but they softened into a neutral line when he looked at you.Â
There was something familiar about him, not that you could place it; a face you might have seen in a dream, or crossing the street once. A face you could imagine with a glowing light beaming from behind it, as though the moon eclipsing a sun. You had no memory to tie to it, and yet, it settled you slightly.Â
âYâalright, love,â he said, voice honey-warm and thick with gravel, he held a hand in your direction and gestured to follow him. âCome back in, will you? Too cold for you out here, eh?âÂ
You sipped a shaky breath, shivering in the bitter wind, glancing at the men surrounding you from under your brow. Returning to the man that gestured for you, you gave him a feeble nod, and waddled in his direction.Â
âThaâs it, câmon,â he said gently, hovering a hand at the small of your back. He turned over his shoulder to shout at the others; âYou lot have more pots to set, donât you? Get back to fuckinâ work.âÂ
He guided you gingerly towards the stairs, close behind you to ensure you didnât slip over on the way up. Opened the weathertight door to let you in, but walked in front of you down the same corridor you had escaped through. You held your arms tight around yourself, left soggy footprints along the vinyl floor.Â
âGot yourself all wet again,â he said, an edge of irritation in his tone.Â
âDâyou get her?â Came a call from the kitchen you had awoken in, and the man â Kyle â appeared at the end of the hallway. You froze.Â
âGo finish your work, Gaz, yâstill got an hour on the clock.â He ordered flatly, and Kyle looked at you past him.Â
âYes, Captain,â he grunted disdainfully, shouldering past the man in front of you, and squeezing around you where you pressed yourself into the wall. âHope youâre feeling okay,â he mumbled sheepishly, before disappearing down a flight of stairs.Â
The captain looked back at you, flicked his head in the direction of the kitchen. âCâmon, let's get you dry.âÂ
The kitchen was much smaller than you remembered it being not a few minutes prior â cozy, much warmer than outside but still not quite warm.
âSiddown,â he said from the kitchen, not as forceful as a command but just as compulsory. You gingerly sat yourself on the same bench you had woken up on, watching him carefully, lips sealed.Â
He approached you with a tall cup of water, held by the rim with the tips of his fingers. âDrink it.â
You took the cup timidly, but once it was in your grip you did not hesitate; tipped it into your mouth and skulled it down desperately, a dribble escaping the corner of your mouth. You had no idea how thirsty you were until fresh water touched your lips â fresh, not salty â you panted like a dog when the cup was empty, half-quenched.Â
He took it from you, filled it back up at the sink before bringing it back, and you drank the second cupful just as quickly.Â
âBetter?â He asked, and you nodded, wiped your mouth with your hand.Â
âThank you,â you said quietly.Â
You watched as he grabbed a light blue towel from the tabletop, and for a moment you thought he might hand it to you â instead he crouched in front of you, and took your leg by the ankle.Â
You immediately chirped and attempted to tug your foot free on reflex, but his grip was firm; entire hand wrapped tight around your ankle, he gave you a tut.Â
âSettle down,â he snipped, resting the sole of your foot on his collarbone. âIâm only dryinâ you off.âÂ
Said with such certainty that you began to doubt your instinct that it was inappropriate for him to put his hands on you â tempered by the feeling that he knew what he was doing, that he was only taking care of you.Â
He looked at you impatiently until your tensed muscles eased, before he nodded in satisfaction. He hooked your foot over his shoulder so that your ankle rested on his trapezius, before he bunched the towel up in a fist and ran it up the length of your leg.Â
You leaned on your arms behind you, heart in your throat, beating so fast that you could hear it buzzing in your ears.Â
He was focused, wiping the seawater and muck off your skin, up and down your thighs, down the underside of your leg.Â
âTook a tumble, did you?â He asked plainly, dabbing a fresh graze on your knee with the towel, making you flinch with the sting.Â
âYeah,â you said meekly; you were sure it would bruise eventually, but it was largely painless for the time being.Â
He tutted you, but continued, wiped down your calf and dried off your foot last; he was fastidious about it, pushed the fibers of the towel between your toes, engulfed your foot in the cotton, scrubbed it along the sole of your foot and your toes curled with the tickle.
He set that leg down once he was done with it, and wordlessly demanded the other with a curl of his fingers.Â
Confounding yourself, you did as you were told, and offered him your other leg; he repeated the procedure, resting your foot on his shoulder and scrubbing your leg with the crunchy towel, unabashedly wiping up to the top of your thigh, between your legs, under your knees.Â
It didnât escape your notice that you were naked underneath the jersey, and if he were to look a little higher his eyes would be square with your pussy. The thought made you tighten, and he gave you a disapproving glance when he felt it â but he finished with the other foot, and set your leg free again.Â
âThank you,â you muttered, tight-lipped, dizzy with confusion.Â
âDâyou want a new jersey?â He asked as he stood, swiping a hand over the sleeve shoulder, where seaspray had beaded on the outside of the fleece.Â
âIâm okay,â you said timidly, tucking your legs together.Â
He nodded, dropping the towel back on the table. âAlright, pet,â he said. âLetâs get you a cuppa, yeah?âÂ
You were quiet, but he busied himself in the tiny kitchen anyway â followed the rumbling of a water boiler and the slosh of hot water, the opening and closing of cabinets and drawers, the tinking of a spoon in a teacup.
âHope you take it with milk and sugar,â he said. âYouâre getting it whether you like it or not.âÂ
âThatâs fine,â you croaked.Â
âGood girl,â he said, as he returned with a brown glass mug and set it down on the table in front of you. âGotta get some sugar in you. You remember the last time you ate?â
You shook your head.Â
âMh, well, letâs get you fed.âÂ
âIâm not â Iâm not hungry right now,â you said hesitantly, and when a divot pulled in his brows, you clarified; âdonât think I can keep much down yet.âÂ
He nodded. âNo problem, love,â he answered, with a pacifying grin. âHowâs the head?â
âWhere am I?â You asked pointedly, cutting to the chase, unwilling to take a sip of your tea out of lingering suspicion.Â
He sat down across from you, landing in the bench seat with a grunt, interlocking his fingers on the surface of the table. His glare was scrutinising, albeit gentle, as though checking rather than inspecting.Â
âYouâre aboard the Iron Tide,â he said candidly. âWeâre fishing for crabs in the North Sea.âÂ
âIron Tide?âÂ
âThatâs the name of the ship, love,â he answered, a little patronising. âIâm her skipper, Iâm Jonathan. You met Gaz, heâs our engineer â he gave you a fright, I bet, but heâs a good lad.âÂ
You nodded edgily, looking askance at him. âOkay⌠but, how did I get here?âÂ
He smiled sombrely at that, crowâs feet pinching in the corners of his tired eyes. An oceanic blue, you noticed, little round seas reflecting the light that bounced off the table beneath him.Â
âWas hopinâ you could tell me that, pet,â he gibed, nodding at your mug. âDrink your tea.âÂ
You took a sip, as you were told. Just cooled enough to sip with a slurp, blanketing your salty tongue, warm and saccharine, hot as it went down your throat. Earl grey. The taste made you feel tucked in, as though a blanket were over your legs, a pillow behind your head â but the murky memory was as fleeting as it was vague. You swallowed it with a sigh, and he looked pleased.Â
âSo?âÂ
âSo what?â You asked, with a frown.Â
âHowâd you end up on the high seas, hm?âÂ
âIââ You cut yourself off, as you stared into the steaming surface of your tawny-coloured tea.Â
Words danced at the tip of your tongue, amorphous and flavourless, nothing you could place. Notions that, if you were to reach for them, would drift away, or turn to smoke.Â
You didnât have an answer.Â
âI donât know,â you said, voice shaky, glancing at him with worry knitting in your brows as though he might be able to remind you.Â
âYou donât remember?â He asked carefully.Â
A piteous heat swelled beneath your eyes, tears welling from their ducts and pooling in your eyes, your vision went blurry with it. You shook your head.Â
âSâalright, pet,â he said, fixing a hand to your wrist across the table. âItâll come back to you. Do you remember anything at all? If you were on a boat, what country youâre from?âÂ
Again you shook your head, sniffling, you wiped an errant tear with the soft sleeve of the oversized fleece you have no memory of putting on. âNo.âÂ
Concern cracked through his stoic expression, and it only made you more upset.
âDo you know your name, love?âÂ
You vacuumed in a slow and trembling breath, eyes bouncing between your hands, as if they might hold the answer. You could think of names â Jessica, Lucy, Nina, Anna, Rebecca â but they were only that, random names floating about in the air around you, and you could not pin any of them as your own with any certainty.Â
âNo,â you eked, followed swiftly by a sob, despite your effort to swallow it.Â
He exhaled, long and beleaguered, stroking the back of your hand with his colossal thumb. Hands as big as saucers, calloused and molten hot to the touch. Made your hand look like a pixieâs underneath it. Â
âDonât fret, eh?â He said, failing to comfort you. âYâgot plenty of time to remember. Just finish your tea.âÂ
âWhat do you mean?â You asked weakly, plenty of time comment making you uneasy. âArenât you going to take me to â back to land?âÂ
He smiled, bemused, as he released your wrist with a pat and leaned back against the bench seat, hanging an arm insouciantly over the back.Â
âNot heading all the way back to port yet, love,â he said frankly. âWe only left a couple days ago. Got a lot more crabs to catch.âÂ
âIâm â I have to stay on this boat until youâre done fishing?â You asked, fighting back the tears that threatened another cascade.Â
He tilted his head. âThisâs my job. If I donât get crabs, I donât get paid. Neither do the other lads, ân they wonât be letting that happen.âÂ
You pouted, lip quivering and face scrunching, and he let out a huff.Â
âLook, sweetheart, what would I even do with you if I took you back now?â He asked, tone rigid. âYâgot no ID, no passport, no papers, nothing on you but that bloody frock. We donât even know what country you belong to. Youâd get snatched up by the authorities and tossed around immigration services until your head is on backwards.âÂ
You sniffled, wiped your cheek with your sleeve. You had no argument, and even if you had the energy to muster one, you had no knowledge of how such a system worked, or where you would possibly go if they allowed you free movement. Youâre sure youâd have a house somewhere, a family, someone out there must be looking for youâŚ
The thought made you cry again, head falling from your shoulders and landing in your hands, you sobbed unremittingly into the dense fleece.Â
Jonathan sighed at that, evidently growing impatient, but he pushed himself to stand â he was suddenly next to you, planting himself on the bench with his thigh against yours, and he draped an arm around your shoulder.Â
âSâalright,â he crooned, voice as deep and rumbling as an engine, and you found yourself curling into him on instinct. Tucked up under his arm, head on his chest, a warm hand rested on the side of your head and smoothed down your hair. âWeâll sort it out.âÂ
âI donât even kn-know where my home is,â you blubbered into him, muffled by his jacket, still speckled with beads of sea mist. âOr if â if Iâve got a family, or a husbandââ
âYâlook a little young for one oâ those,â he remarked, with a chortle.Â
âWhat if I donât remember anything? Ever?â You cried, and he stroked the shell of your ear with his calloused thumb, fingers woven in your hair.Â
âNone oâ that,â he grumbled, you couldnât determine if he was rocking you or if it was simply the motions of the boat tipping over the waves. âNo wallowing on my ship. Keep your chin up, and youâll be fine.âÂ
You whimpered, but nodded, and he petted your head like a cat.Â
âWe got another nine or ten days at sea,â he said, comforting hand retreating from you, resting on his lap. Kept his heavy arm coiled around you, though, and you were daftly grateful for it. He patted you on the far shoulder with a stiff hand. âYouâre a tough girl, yeah?â
âI dunno,â you sniffled, sitting yourself upright and reeling away from him. He released you, then, arms crossing over his chest instead.Â
âWell you survived God knows how long floating around in the North Sea, pet, Iâd call that pretty tough.â
You attempted to compose yourself, sucking deep a breath and wiping down your face with your sleeves. Hoped that whoeverâs fleece it was didnât care about tears and snot being smeared over the cuffs.Â
âIs there somewhere for me to sleep?â You asked cautiously, in an attempt to come to terms with reality â nine or ten nights of sleeping on a fishing boat. It made you sick to think about.Â
He curled his lips as he thought for a moment. âYou can sleep in my bed,â he said. âSkipperâs cabin is a lot nicer than the crew berths, Iâll tell you that.â
You blinked at him, uncertain â it was unsettlingly vague whether that meant he was offering you the bed to yourself.Â
âOr you can ask one of the lads to share a bunk with them, Iâm sure they wouldnât mind.â
You shook your head hastily, and he cracked a grin. âNo, thank you, skipperâs cabin sounds good, please.â
âAlrighty,â he concurred, with a nod, the deal done. âSleepy already, eh?â
You nodded sheepishly â for the most part, you just wanted to be alone, somewhere quiet and enclosed, out of sight. But you were utterly drained, left ravaged by receding adrenaline, body battered and bruised. Curling up in a bed sounded luxurious, and heaven only knows how long it had been since you slept in one.Â
âYâonly been awake for twenty minutes,â he joked. âAnd youâve hardly touched your tea.â
He flicked his head towards the mug, and his imperious expression made clear that he wanted you to finish it.Â
So, if only appease him, you clutched the mug and tipped it into your mouth, sucking down the now luke-warm tea in five hefty gulps. Licked your lips when you were done, and dumped the mug back on the table.Â
âHappy?âÂ
He smiled wide, let out a haughty chuckle. âNicely done,â he said. âAlright, then, letâs get you tucked in.â
He pushed himself to stand with a grunt, finally freeing you from behind the table, and you followed him.Â
âYâsure you donât want a bite?âÂ
You shook your head. âMaybe in the morning, if thatâs okay.âÂ
He laughed as he made his way toward an upward staircase. âMorningâs fine, but Iâm not having you starve yourself.â
âI wonât.â
As you climbed to the top of the stairs you reached the bridge â a large control station with many screens, all showing different radars and panels and numbers. The wheel was there, too, a spinning chair with a sweater thrown over the back of it tucked in front of it. Sea spray made pattering rain-like noises on the thick windows, but very little light came in from them. The air was thick with cigar smoke and terpenic air freshener, the everpresent ghost of saltwater lingering in between.Â
âJust through here,â he instructed, and you followed him around to the other side, through a door, and down a shorter staircase.Â
There you were met with a bedroom; it was intimate, stuffed full of bags and boxes and papers. A fold-out desk jutted out from an warm-wood wall, covered in maps weighed down by protractors and a drawing compass. Coats hung over hooks, boots lined up by the door.Â
A cot bolted to the wall, perhaps a king single, unmade â a thick duvet with a red-and-navy plaid blanket tossed overtop, heavy wool that you could ascertain would be itchy without needing to touch it. A single pillow in a navy pillowcase, cream-coloured fitted sheet likely toned off-white due to age or overuse.Â
It was rich with musk in there, the single porthole window not able to be opened, and the heady scent made you dizzy. You imagined it was only a marginally diluted version of the same scent youâd get pressing your nose into his armpit. It was only tempered by traces of toothpaste and cigarettes, and the potent smell of Imperial Leather bar soap. Daft that you remembered that, and little else.Â
âNot a five-star hotel, eh?â He gibed, nudging you with his elbow. You didnât have a response, at first, and he chided you; âDonât be a sourpuss. No room for being fussy here, love.â
âNo â this is perfect, thank you, Iâll sleep anywhere.âÂ
He smiled and crossed his arms, rocking on the balls of his feet. âAlright, well, you get yourself comfortable then,â he said. âLooâs just through there, if you need it. Use my toothbrush if you like, just give it a wash after, eh?â
You almost grimaced at the thought of sharing his toothbrush, but the lingering bile and salt in your mouth had you looking forward to the taste of toothpaste.Â
âNeed anything else, pet?â He asked, still gruff. âParacetamol? I can get you something else to sleep inââ
âIâm okay, thank you,â you insisted, perhaps too plainly eager to get him out of the room.Â
âAlright, love,â he said. âGânight, then. Iâll just be up there, still got some steering to do.â
âOkay.â
With a firm nod, he turned around and headed out of the cabin, shutting the door behind him.Â
You let out a pent breath once you were alone, potent exhaustion suddenly crashing into you like a train. You stumbled into the tiny ensuite â a small toilet and a sink, the shower head jutting out from the wall above the commode â rinsed his frayed toothbrush under the tap and globbed on some colgate.Â
Brushing your teeth made you feel marginally human again, and you spent a good five minutes scrubbing out every crevice of your mouth. You washed it afterwards, like he said, and stuck it to the wall with the suction cup on the back of it.Â
There was no mirror, and you found yourself glad of it. You couldnât yet confront the fact that you did not remember what you looked like, an existential dread that simmered in your belly, but too tired to churn up.Â
Only then, as you glanced at his bar of soap (it was Imperial Leather, as you had guessed), did you realise how clean you felt â you wondered if he had washed you, and now you were certain that he had changed you. The thought made you shiver, and you tried not to think about it.Â
His bed was squeaky underneath you, and the mattress so soft that you sunk deep into it; the weight of him permanently embedded in the springs, you settled into the divot like a cat, curled up towards the wall. It was bitterly cold in the cabin, much like the rest of the ship, so you tugged the blankets up your cheek, rubbing your icy feet together to warm them up.Â
The sheets reeked of him, of man and musk, the pillow smelt of scalp and salt. It was unusually comforting. Such a human smell, and as you tucked yourself under his layers of blankets it swirled around in the front of your head and made you dozy.Â
Sleep called to you, dark and ebbing, and you slipped willingly beneath the surface.Â
You were roused, only slightly, at the sound of a door handle.Â
Not alert enough to open your eyes, you still floated deep in slumber, soft and warm. Your consciousness ascended close enough to the shallows to acknowledge the opening of a door, the footsteps across a hollow floor, but the sounds conveyed no meaning to you.Â
Sleep pulled you downward but you floated languidly back up at each noise; the fizz of running water, the scrubbing of brushing teeth, the spit of toothpaste. Â
A zip being undone, velcro being ripped open, boot laces being untied. The clunk of a shutting door, a cough, a grunt, and you finally broke the surface.Â
Now entirely awake, you remained completely still â not out of fear, you didnât think â perhaps in the hope that he would leave you alone to keep sleeping, absolutely not ready to get up yet. He made no effort to be quiet, as he dumped his boots by the door, rummaged around in his belongings for a moment, coughed again.Â
You kept your nose close to the wall, eyes barely open. He flicked off a light switch and the room was abruptly drowned in darkness.Â
The blanket was lifted from you, then, and you flinched â with the cold air nipping at your skin, you realised your long jersey had been hiked up in your sleep, and your bare bottom half was starkly exposed.Â
You froze, curled up, tongue in your teeth; until a sudden weight plummeted into the mattress, bouncing you up before sinking deep behind you, causing you to slide into the dip. Â
With a grunt and a huff the blanket was pulled back up over you, scratchy wool brushing your cheeks. A titanic arm hooked over your stomach, and you squeaked â he paid no mind, yanking you backwards until your back was flush with his chest, ass nestled into his lower belly, his thighs tucked up behind yours.Â
You held your breath, skittish, not yet daring to move; he let out a deep sigh into the back of your head, warm breath seeping through your hair and into your skull.Â
His entire body was a furnace, burning hot, and you felt yourself melting into him whether you liked it or not. A mammoth hot water bottle, wrapped around and behind you, keeping you soothingly warm.Â
His hand ventured nowhere untoward, arm only hanging listlessly over the divot of your waist, forearm tucked into your chest. He felt clothed against you, sweatpants and a thermal on.Â
There was something wrong about it â something off, a survival instinct that buzzed around you, humming like a mosquito, a ringing in your ear, annoying and persistent.Â
But his pyretic warmth made you lightheaded, so comfortable tucked into him that it felt like you were already dreaming.Â
With a heavy blink, and a deflating breath, you sunk deep into him and let slumber swallow you whole once again.Â
TRAINER KĂNIG
sfw + nsfw. sucking kĂśnig's humongous titties. big cock. shower sex. semi-public. non-fluent kĂśnig.
it was a practical decision, you told yourself, scrolling past flashy advertisements for gyms promising overnight transformations, past testosterone-fueled testimonials about âbeast modeâ and âgrindset.â
you'd sworn to yourself that as soon as you had the financial breathing room, as soon as you didnât have to mentally calculate whether a dinner out would set you back for the week, youâd do it. invest in yourself. not in aesthetics, not in performance metrics, but in survival.
something that made you feel safer so that walking home late at night wouldnât always feel like a loaded gun pressed to the base of your spine. you wouldnât keep your keys between your fingers like they were some flimsy excuse for a weapon.
you found a coach who was within budget, someone named kĂśnig. a straightforward profile without a profile picture and just a handful of mid-range reviews.
it was genuine in its mediocrity, not glowing in the way bot-generated reviews tended to be, but not riddled with horror stories of scams or half-baked lessons either. people mentioned that he knew what he was doing, that he was patient, that his methods were effective.
but there were a few comments about his communication too. his english, more specifically.
at first, you were more nervous about looking weak than anything else.
logically, you knew that was the point. that was why you were paying for thisâ to get stronger, to learn. but the thought of stepping into a room filled with people who could probably bench your body weight while you struggled with a 25 kg deadlift made something inside you shrivel. made you feel like youâd be under a microscope, mistakes magnified. the thought of someone watching you fumble through drills, assessing your formâ the potential for ridicule made your stomach knot up.
so, you signed up for solo lessons.
before you even met him, kĂśnig messaged you. a late-night notification breaking through the dim glow of your phone screen.
âis it ok that my english is not so good?â
you blinked at the screen. read it again. there was something unexpectedly⌠earnest about it. a self-consciousness that you rhymed with your own.
your thumbs hovered over the keyboard before you replied. âof course! i donât mind at all.â then, after a second, âiâll probably learn some phrases from you, haha.â
a long pause. three dots appeared, disappeared, reappeared. finallyâ âthis is nice. i will try my best.â
something about that, about the fact that he had asked at all, the careful way he phrased it, stuck with you. you didn't know why, but it did.
the first time you met kĂśnig, you nearly turned around and walked straight back out the door, convinced your coach still hadnât arrived.
at first, you genuinely thought you had the wrong room. or maybe thereâd been some kind of mix-up, like another instructor using the space before your lesson.
you had walked into the gym expectingâ what? some average-looking guy in a compression shirt? maybe a little bulky, maybe with that particular kind of gym-rat energy, all tight smiles and way-too-enthusiastic handshakes.
instead you got kĂśnig.
a massive, six-foot something, tank built like something that was meant to withstand damage and then deliver it back tenfold.
his hoodie, loose on his frame and looking a bit worse for wear from too many washes, still did nothing to hide the sheer scale of him. the water bottle he was holding was dwarfed by his hand and his arms, even relaxed at his sides, looked like they could crush a manâs ribs without much effort.
out of place. that was what he looked like. less self-defense coach and more guard stationed at the gates of hell.
you hesitated in the doorway, gripping the strap of your gym bag, suddenly hyperaware of every muscle in your body tensing up.
and then he spoke.
"⌠my client?â his voice was surprisingly soft. deep, yes, but smoothed down with the lilt of his accent.
you had to crane your neck to meet his eyes. jesus christ.
âuh, yeah, i think so,â you shifted on your feet, clearing your throat. âi booked the solo slots.â
he nodded. âgood.â a pause. then, âyou are⌠beginner?â
you exhaled sharply, not quite a laugh. âyou could say that.â
his eyes smiled, something in the creases looking like amusement, before he jerked his head toward the back of the gym. âwe start slow then.â
the whole thing went⌠surprisingly well.
kĂśnig was an amazing instructor for self-defense, not afraid to teach you moves that were downright dirty. not just the textbook counters or polished techniques that looked good in demonstrations but the kind of violence that left real damage. moves that could end a fight before it even started. his lessons were brutal in their practicality, built for survival, not sport.
his shrug always came before the skepticism could leave your mouth, as if he already knew the doubts forming behind your eyes. anticipation sat in his expression, waiting for you to question the practicality of a move that involved hitting someone's throat or breaking a wrist. waiting for that flicker of hesitation so he could counter it.
âhas no rules, defense,â he simply told you, adjusting his gloves with a nonchalance that felt at odds with the destruction he'd just inflicted on the poor training dummy. his foot still pressed into its broken torso, the material caved inward like a crushed can. âsâlong as you're safe, is good tactic.â
it was truth that didnât need embellishment to him. kĂśnig wasnât just saying it to justify his methodsâ it was a simple fact.
he made it seem less brutal, more justified. not just an excuse for violence but a reassurance, a lesson in survival.
it had you thinking if maybe you had been seeing things too rigidly, measuring combat in terms of right and wrong instead of what kept you breathing. kĂśnig didnât. his world wasnât one of fairness, it was of outcomes.
you exhaled, glancing at the poor, ruined dummy before looking back at him. âi think you broke it.â
kĂśnig tilted his head, unbothered. âhm. ja.â then, after a pause, he grinned, nudging the dummyâs crumpled remains with his boot like it might suddenly spring back to life. âbut was good form, yes?â
the laugh that bubbled up caught you off guard, an unexpected burst of warmth. the corners of his grin lifted just a little higher at that.
texting started out as a necessity. scheduling changes, clarifying techniques, occasional reminders about bringing extra wraps. that was the whole point, reallyâ a way to communicate outside of training.
somehow, though, kĂśnig turned out to be a menace over text. sarcasm practically dripped from his messages, sharpened now that he had the time to translate things properly. he was witty, sometimes outright ridiculous, and the sheer absurdity of his jokes caught you off guard more times than you could count.
kĂśnig: i think i have unlocked a new level of muscle soreness. my body is rejecting me. i am a broken man.
you: rip. gone and forgotten.
kĂśnig: good. don't tell my story. it's kind of pathetic.
âkĂśnig,â you typed one evening. âwhere the hell did you learn english?â
âthe internet.â
immediate suspicion flooded your mind. âwhat part of the internet?â
ââŚthe bad part.â
âbe more specific.â
âahâŚâ there was a long pause, like he was regretting his choices. finally, âweird forums.â
apprehension curled at the base of your spine. âwhat kind of weird forums, kĂśnig?â
ââŚconspiracy theories.â
sheer, undiluted disbelief clung to you as you stared at your screen.
âWAITâ he backpedaled immediately, as if he could feel your judgment through the phone. âi was a child!!â
âA CHILD IN CONSPIRACY FORUMS?â
âit was not like that!!â
his frantic response only made you laugh harder. âthen explain.â
âi was just reading, yes? stories. people told very cool stories. aliens, secret government projects, ghostsâ
âoh my god, you were a cryptid kid.â
ânein!!â
amusement bloomed in your chest. âso what iâm hearing is you were, like, deep in the trenches. lizard people? JFK clone theories? the moon isnât real?â
ââŚyes.â
âjesus christ.â
âit was fun!! and good english practice!â
âyou learned english from paranoid men on the internet.â
âthey were very passionate.â
laughter ripped through your chest so violently you nearly dropped your phone. kĂśnig sent a series of increasingly exasperated texts, all variations of âstop laughingâ, which only made it worse.
every time you thought about it after that, a fresh wave of giggles overtook you. the next training session, you couldnât even meet his eyes without picturing tiny kĂśnig hunched over an old computer, nodding solemnly as someone named TruthSeeker88 explained how the queen of england was actually a reptilian overlord.
he hated you for it. âyou are evil,â he muttered when you brought it up again, shoving your shoulder lightly. âthis is slander.â
âis it slander if itâs true?â
âYES.â
somewhere along the way, little snapshots of your lives started slipping into the conversation. kĂśnig sent blurry photos of his boots kicked up on a table, a war documentary playing in the background. âhistory lesson,â heâd caption, like he wasnât watching something unreasonably brutal for fun. you sent the sky from your morning walk, pink bleeding into gold, and he always responded with a simple âpretty.â
you werenât sure if he meant the sky or something else, but you let yourself wonder.
and then, selfies.
his were always shy, half-obscured, like he couldnât quite bring himself to let you see too much despite the fact that you saw each other every week. the lower half of his face, mostlyâ jawline tucked into the shadows, the soft curve of a grin barely visible.
sometimes it was just his hands: wrapped around a steaming mug, fingers long and scarred, or flexed absentmindedly over his knee, veins shifting beneath pale skin. you never commented on them outright, just sent something casualâ âcozyâ or ânice gloves, old manââ but you always saved them, tucked away in your camera roll like little guilty pleasures.
yours were much less subtle in comparison.
exhausted post-workout, slumped against your couch with a dead-eyed stare. wrapped up in a hoodie, coffee in hand. the first time you sent one, you didnât expect much. maybe a quick âgood jobâ or some kind of fitness advice. instead, he sent âcute.â
you stared at the message for a full minute, blinking. your stomach did something stupid.
after that, he started commenting more. when you looked particularly grumpy, heâd send a teasing âyou need nap, bird?â or âangry face. very scary.â and when you groaned about soreness, he was smug about it, âshould have stretched. tsk tsk.â
it was cute. unbearably cute.
but all good things must come to an end.
one month. thatâs how long this was supposed to last. four weeks of training, a neat little package of lessons that would leave you more capable of handling yourself in a fight. somewhere along the way, that timeline stretched, bending under the weight of something neither of you dared acknowledge.
kĂśnig should have cut you off weeks ago.
âyou are expert already,â he tells you one evening, leaning back against the wall with his arms crossed. his tone is light, teasing, but thereâs a hint of real curiosity beneath it. âi do not think class is needed. why do you keep taking?â
hesitation flickers in your chest. because of you, you want to admit, but the words sit heavy on your tongue, too risky, too exposing. instead, you roll your shoulders back and offer something easier, something safer.
âi need to beat you first.â
amusement dances across his features. kĂśnig huffs out a quiet chuckle, tilting his head as if considering the possibility.
âit will not happen in a million years, i think.â
arrogance suits him. confidence carved into his bones, stitched into the way he moves, the way he fights. you donât argue because heâs rightâ heâs bigger, stronger, more experienced. if he wanted to, he could probably break you in half without much effort.
but miracles happen.
itâs a fluke. both of you know it. a momentary lapse, a split second where his guard lowers just enough for you to slip past his defenses. kĂśnig lets you tryâindulges you, really, humoring your attempts at taking him down like heâs teaching a child to wrestle. that cockiness, that easy amusement, is what costs him.
somehow, impossibly, you get him in a triangle choke.
his body tenses the moment your thighs clamp around his neck, locking him in place. shock flickers in his eyes before it shifts into something unreadable, something quiet and assessing. his breath comes out steady despite the position heâs in, controlled in a way that makes your pulse stutter.
for a moment, you think you have him.
then, with an ease thatâs almost insulting, he pries your legs apart, spreading them like itâs nothing.
a gasp hitches in your throat.
his movements donât stop thereâ before you can even process whatâs happening, he shifts, pressing himself close, kneeling between your thighs, completely caging you beneath him. his grin is wide, pleased, entirely too unbothered for someone who had just been seconds away from losing.
âvery good, bird,â he praises. âvery good takedown. i like.â
air sticks in your throat. something is wrong.
âk-kĂśnig-â
he blinks at you, tilting his head slightly. âja?â
your bugged-out stare flicks downward, and his follows instinctively.
oh.
his entire body tenses. his pupils shrink.
understanding dawnes, slow and terrible, as he finally feels the press of something very, very apparent against you.
âthat was not supposed to happen.â
no shit.
kĂśnigâs weight shifts over you, muscles tight as he tries to move away but insteadâ maybe by accident, maybe notâ his cock drags against your core, thick even through the fabric separating you. the pressure is just enough to make your breath hitch, a spark of something warm licking up your spine before a sound slips from your throat.
he freezes, head jerking up like a startled animal, eyes darting around the empty training room, scanning for any sign that someone mightâve heard, his breath uneven as he listens, as you listen, as the silence between you stretches impossibly thin.
nothing. no one.
he exhales. something in his face twitches, like heâs still trying to convince himself this is real, that you really just made that sound because of him.
his gaze drops, landing back on you, mouth parting, jaw flexing. then his body moves again, slower this time, cock grinding against you, rubbing you through your clothes, dragging heavy between your thighs, and you swear you see his eyelids flutter just slightly at the friction.
his forehead presses against yours, breath coming faster. âtell me to stop.â
the words hit your skin as more air than voice, warm against your jaw, but you donât even need to think about it, because stopping is the last thing you want right now, the very last thing your body would allow.
âd-donât stop.â
he curses, words slipping before he can stop them, and you donât know what they mean, only that they sound wrecked, like theyâve been dragged up from somewhere deep in his chest.
kĂśnigâs forehead presses harder into yours. his hands tighten at your waist. his breath comes out uneven, stumbling over itself, and his voice fumbles through the next words. âi donât have lube.â
âwe donât nee-â
âwe do.â his face twists a little, mouth pressing tight, like the idea of taking you without it is actually painful.
you swallow, shifting slightly under him, feeling just how big he is. slick gathers between your thighs, and before you can stop yourself, the question slips out, barely above a whisper.
âare you big?â
his lips twitch, like heâs fighting back a grin, like he canât believe you just asked that, and then it spreads into something quintessentially kĂśnig, â slow, lazy, and warm.
he presses in harder, dragging over your soaked cunt through the fabric of your underwear. the friction pulls a gasp from your lips, hips rolling up instinctively.
his grin stretches wider, eyes flicking down to watch you grind against him. "i am not small."
heat floods you, pussy fluttering around nothing, aching. your hips move again, searching for more, slick soaking through your underwear. your head tips back, breath catching. the sound that escapes you is closer to a whimper than youâd like to admit.
his lips find your jaw, tongue flicking out, tasting sweat and skin. his voice follows his mouth, words warm against your neck. "pretty little pussy..." he murmurs, dragging the syllables out like heâs savoring them. "bet itâd feel better wrapped around me."
the sound that leaves your throat is humiliating, high-pitched and needy. you donât mean to make it, but itâs too late.
kĂśnig grabs your wrist. pulls you up. your balance falters, and before you can recover, he hauls you toward the showers. boots thud against tile. the door slams, lock clicking into place.
his mouth finds yours before you can speak. lips crash into yours, messy and eager. tongues tangle, breaths mix, heat pouring between you as your fingers twist in his hair. a laugh bubbles up between kissesâyours or his, you canât tellâand he groans into your mouth, grinning against your lips.
âfuck,â he breathes, pulling back just enough to look at you. cheeks flush, eyes dark with something feral. âwanted this so longâŚâ
clothes hit the floor in frantic shoves. hands fumble, pulling fabric away until skin meets skin, warmth pressing in on all sides.
his cock, thick, flushed, and dripping with precum, hangs between the two of you, weighed down by its own girth.
he sees your stare and grins. "big, huh?â
words fail you and for a moment you can't do anything but nod dumbly.
kĂśnig reaches past you, flicks on the shower. water crashes down, steam rising fast. the air thickens with heat and he wastes no time to pull you under the spray, water slicing over skin.
scarred hands find your face, thumbs brushing your jaw as his mouth returns to yours.
your hand slides down between you and wraps around his cock. konig's hips jerk forward, breath shuddering out against your lips.
âcould kill you with this, eh?â his grin tugs lazy at the corners of his mouth. his chest lifts and falls, breaths dragging in deep, water cascading over both of you, hot against skin already burning.
your hand tightens, fingers sliding along the thick length of him, precum slicking your palm. warmth pulses beneath your touch, veins pronounced under your grip. he twitches when you give a slow twist near the tip, hips jolting forward. a groan rips from his throat, echoing off the tiled walls.
âscheiĂe,â he hisses, jaw working as he fights the urge to thrust. one hand flies to his hair, tugging as if the sting will help. water streaks down his face, lips parted, breaths breaking up his words.
ânot helping,â you breathe, voice shaking. you press your mouth to his jaw, pressing a kiss there before your tongue darts out to taste the salt of his skin. his breath catches, eyes squeezing shut.
âoh, fuck-â his hips rock forward again, cock dragging through your fist, smearing more warmth along your stomach. precum drips from the flushed head, glistening in the steam-filled air.
a grin tugs at his lips, strained but there. âyou tryna kill me?â the words slide out. "scheiĂ kleines dingâŚâ
you laugh, kissing down his jaw. ânot my fault youâre easy.â your thumb slides over the tip.
his head knocks back against the wall, neck stretching, throat working through a swallowed groan. âyou- fuck- you think is easy?â a hand finds your chin, pulling your gaze up. âlook at me.â
kĂśnigâs eyes catch yours. blown out. a ring of blue against black. then suddenly his lips curl, and his voice slips through his teeth.
âi have touched myself to you.â
you blink. âwhat?â
his grin widens. âbefore.â his hips push forward, cock dragging against your belly. âmany times.â
your face burns.
âoh my god.â
his head dips, lips brushing yours, his breath hot and amused. âyou do too, hm?â
your heart stops. heat shoots through you, cunt clenching. âyeah,â your breath shudders. âme tooâŚâ
his eyes widen, like he didn't expect you to admit to it, then narrows, grin pulling crooked. âyeah?â his cock twitches in your hand again. âfuckinâ knew itâŚâ laughter spills out, breathless and warm.
kĂśnigâs head dips to press a sloppy kiss to your lips. tongue sliding against yours, messy and eager. laughter rumbles out, hips rolling, giggles slipping between mouths.
âfuckinâ knew it,â he repeats, words slurring together. âthink about me late at night? fingers stuffed in that pretty cuntâŚâ
you gasp, half scandalized, half aroused, hips shifting as slick pools between your thighs. âkĂśnig-â
âyeah?â another thrust. precum smears across your belly. âtell me.â
âi- fuck- yeah,â you breathe. âthink about you all the time.â
he groans like the words alone could undo him. kĂśnigâs hands drop to grip your thighs, fingers digging firm into the flesh as he lifts you like you weigh nothing. your back meets the cold tile with a dull thud, heat from the shower clashing with the chill seeping through the wall.
your legs wrap around his waist, pulling him close. his cock drags through your folds, thick length sliding slick against your cunt, nudging your entrance but never pushing in.
kĂśnig watches your face, chest lifting with every shaky breath. âhow much do you take?â
you blink, heat simmering through your skin. âwhat?â
his cock slides against you again, harder this time, grinding against your clit, making you twitch. ânormally. how much?â
a shrug rolls through your shoulders, confidence bubbling up, reckless. âall of it,â you answer without thinking, back arching, rubbing against him, arms looping around his neck. âi can take everything.â
he stills, expression shiftingâ his lips part, brows lifting just slightly. then he laughs, a low, amused sound, mouth curling into a grin. ânein, you can not.â
challenge flares in your chest. âi can.â
another laugh, softer now, hands adjusting on your thighs. âyou are-â he shakes his head, grinning wider, lips brushing your cheek as he exhales, â-so very stupid.â
heat pools in your stomach, thighs clenching around him. âiâll prove it.â
hands grip your thighs, fingers pressing deep into flesh as kĂśnig shifts his weight, cock grinding slow against your entrance, precum smearing where youâre slick and warm. a breath shudders out of him, jaw tight, brows pinching like heâs trying to hold something back. âyou say this,â he mutters, âand then you cry.â
âi wonât,â you shoot back.
âhm.â his gaze flicks down to where his cock pushes against you, dragging through your folds. âweâll see.â
kĂśnigâs fingers flex. his grip tightens and your breath hitches. âready?â
âplease,â you gasp, nails biting into his shoulders.
he grits his teeth, cock sliding as deep as your walls will allow, head bumping against your cervix. every sob that escapes your lips makes his hips stutter, breath catching like heâs holding on by a thread.
"oh shit," he mutters. "look at you... crying so much."
"feels too good." your hands are weak on his shoulders.
kĂśnig grins, breathless, hands squeezing your hips. "ja? but you begged for this, no? say âplease, kĂśnig, fuck meâ-" he mocks your voice, low and whiny, then thrusts, ripping a squeak out of you. "and now you cry like a little baby like i said."
you shake your head against his chest, tears spilling hot down your cheeks. you love itâyou love his cock so much it hurtsâbut you just canât stop the sounds. every thrust drags a new sob from you, body trembling in his grip.
"shh." he squints down at you. "you are too loud-" his hand slides to the back of your head, pressing you close. "fuck... here. suck."
your lips brush his chest, and his nipple is right there, stiff against warm skin. you hesitate, dizzy from pleasure, but then your mouth opens and you latch on, tongue flicking over the peak before you suck soft and slow.
kĂśnigâs hips jerk.
"oh, shit- good girl," he breathes, head falling back. his fingers tangle in your hair. "yeah, just like that. little baby needs something to suck on, huh?"
your cheeks burn, whining against his chest, mouth working over his nipple as his cock drags in deep and slow. he groans, low and desperate, fucking you through your cries.
"such a messy baby," he grins, looking far too fucked-out to be as smug as he is. "canât stop crying, can you? too good, yes? too much?"
you nod, sobbing around him, and kĂśnig just laughs, like he canât believe how fucked you both are.
"keep sucking," he growls. "will fuck you âtil youâre dumb.â
Fandom: Dungeons and Dragons
After months of adventuring with your party, you can't help but be curious about a certain dragon born....
cw: cisfem reader, Monster fucking, OC x reader, fantasy racism (someone is not nice to dragonborn), biting, slight mention of bleeding, fingers in holes
a/n: A very special thanks to @tyga-lily, who talked with me about her little dragonborn and made me fall in love with this concept and to @saetyrn9 who came up with his name :)
"The bath is free, Obi."
For how much a night costs, the room is nothing special, but any inn with running water is heaven sent. Itâs been almost two months since anyone in your party has slept in a proper bed and your body can feel it. Simply wearing the silk of your nightgown feels luxurious at this point; sleeping on down is going to feel obscene.
"I'll be quick." Your party mate stands with a grunt, the day heavy on his joints. You almost want to tease him, but after this adventure, your knees are screaming too. It's hard enough for you to throw yourself on to the bed
Despite knowing him for the greater part of a year, you always forget how large the dragonborn is until heâs next to you. Towering over you with delicate horns and ridged crest, Obsidian Vyke -Obi, to his friends- is all black scales and teeth. The air crackles around him the way it crackles around all sorcerers, subtle yet wild, so itâs unfair that heâs also built wide. Thick biceps and a barrel chest: no magic user should be that muscular.
"Take your time." You watch him as he moves around the room, dipping around the singular bed and pulling his sleeping clothes from his travel sack.
"I'm sorry about this," Obi says, peering over his shoulder, "I know I'm not as nice to room with as Kiri."
The two other members in your party had been fast friends-- unfortunately, they were also quick to become lovers. Usually, that did not pose any issues to the group, but tonight, the inn only has two rooms available. It seemed cruel to separate the lovebirds, so you and Obi agreed to cohabitate for the night.
"I donât mind sharing a bed with you." The idea gives you butterflies, this flitting, nervous energy. You trust the man with your life-- fuck, heâs saved your life in battle -- but something about sleeping next to him makes your skin goosepimple. "As long as you don't snore."
His eyes narrow in a smile. "I'll try my best."
The dragonborn undoes the lacings of his leather outerwear using the sharpened tips of his claws, delicately catching them under and pulling. The motion is careful and patient, repeated until he can toss the garment into the room's only chair.
Itâs not that you donât want to share a room with him. In fact, you think you want this a little too much. You're absorbed with all of his movements as he primps a bit, adjusting the hem of his shirt so it sits properly, running a palm over his crest, sliding off his traveler's boots. If you're lucky, his shirt will be next and you can catch a peek of the toned spance of his stomach.
"My lady," His teeth flash in the fire light, pearls against the deep, dark opalescent hues of his scales, "You're staring."
"Ah, I'm sorry!" Heâs one to talk; youâve felt his gaze following you for weeks now. That's the only reason you're thinking about him and his body.
And, using that logic, he's the only reason you bought that bodice ripper last week, the one starring a pretty red dragonborn and his human lover--
"Is there something in my teeth?" Obi teases. That earns him a giggle, but, when you don't respond, he exhales through his nose and moves closer. "We're rooming together tonight, so if there's any tension between us, I'd rather-"
"I heard a rumor," you blurt out.
He goes pale. "About me? What did Thyrll tell you?"
"No, about dragonborns in general."
Relief relaxes his features.
"And you just want to know if it's true?" There's a click in his voice as he laughs, something strange and inhumane, "It's okay. You can ask. Let me guess- I eat poor little gnomes? I enchant humans with my-"
"Is it... inside of you?"
The dragonborn pauses at that, eyes wide. "Excuse me?"
"Your..." You cannot believe you're about to say this, "Cock."
"Oh."
You scramble up, hands over your face as you head towards the door. You aren't sure where you're going to go in a nightgown, but anywhere else has to be better than here.
"Oh, I'm sorry! That was so rude of me."
A wall of muscle suddenly blocks your way. Those dexterous hands that you were admiring moments ago are now touching your shoulders, rubbing up and down affectionately.
"It's alright, my lady, I'm just... surprised." He smells like petrichor, something strangely earthy and yet unnatural clinging to his scales, and laughs like summer rain, "I think it's natural to wonder about different races, I just didn't think..."
His sharp eyes are dilated a bit, the pupils closer to almonds than slits as they bounce up and down your body.
"I've had my own... curiosities about others as well," he admits, "So, who am I to judge?"
Your spine prickles at that. Who exactly was he curious about? One of the elves in your party? The barmaid downstairs? Or is it you that the thinks about at night, cock in fist?
The dragonborn misreads the upset look on your face. "I promise that I am not cross with you. How about I answer your questions and you'll answer mine? No judgments."
You settle a bit. "If you're sure."
He smiles a draconic smile, all teeth and the smallest flick of his tongue.
"Of course I'm sure. I'm not embarrassed because my species is a bit different than yours."
You watch him for a long moment. Heâs kind. A scoundrel at times, but kind. It's etched into his face, always reflected in his wide, chartreuse eyes.
"So, it is different,â you say carefully.
"It is."
âVery different?â
âWhen my cock is hard?â He says it so easily. Always proper, it makes you squirm to hear him curse, âNo. But when Iâm not, it is, in fact inside.â
"It's just... flat down there?"
"Yes- give me your hand."
You weave your fingers in between his without a second thought, but he just shakes his head and pulls away. Then, he takes your still open palm in his and brings it to his torso. The muscle there is just as firmed as you imagined and it's hard not to linger in once spot to appreciate it, Slowly, Obi guides your hand down, running it over the linen of his pants. Underneath, you can feel how it's slightly ridged with larger scales than the rest of his body and, subsequently, larger gaps form in between. It's just skin-- well, it's just scales. You're touching nothing technically intimate, but your heart races anyway, caught in your throat.
"See?" His voice has the edge of a tremble and, when you look up, you realize just how close you two have become. Practically chest to chest, his snout is only inches from your face, close enough that you can see how each individual scale slightly shifts in color as the fire dances. He seems to have realized too; dragonborn expressions are hard to read, but you don't miss how deep his breathing has become.
"It's nothing like touching a human, is it?" he mumbles, hand squeezing yours ever so slightly, âNot intimate at all.â
"Well." You curl your fingers up, clumsily feeling through the fabric, "Maybe a bit.â
The fire crackles in the fireplace. He breathes again, on the brink of a sigh, and you think heâs just as caught up in this as you are.
"Just a bit?" Heat radiates from him. If he were human, it'd be alarming, but instead there's a comfort to it. You're still warm from the bath, and yet you chase that heat, slipping your hand from his just to bring it under the waistline of his pants.
"More than a bit."
He's hot underneath it all, almost uncomfortable to the touch as you explore the space blindly. His eyes haven't left yours, his lids getting heavy with every prod and poke of your fingers.
A vertical line of soft, exposed skin catches your ring finger and his body jumps reflexively as you accidentally dip inside of him. Itâs strangely dry, yet much softer than the rest of his scaled body. Despite yourself, you explore it a bit more, pressing in the same way youâll be playing with your own pussy tonight.
"A-ahh--" The dragonborn sucks in a deep breath and you can feel his abdomen crunch under your touch, "Be careful."
"Did I hurt you?" you ask as you pull away.
His chittering laugh returns. His hands rest on the small of your back, not pushing, but not entirely platonic either. When he talks, the air tastes like distant embers, just far enough away, yet not close enough, "You didnât hurt me, donât worry."
âAre you sure?â you press, âYou made a weird noise.â
âVery sure,â He dips low enough to press his lips against the shell of your ear, "Youâd do the same if I put my fingers inside of you."
This time, the heat is coming from inside you, twisting and pulling with want.
"With your claws?" You manage to joke through your suddenly dry throat, "I might cry."
"I could cut them," His voice is rolling and low as his hands explore, one traveling up your spine and the other dipping the smooth over your ass. When they both reach their zeniths, they switch directions. The silk of your dress catches against his skin, pulling it up and revealing the fat of your ass to the air. "Nice and short."
His nails dig gently into your skin, nothing more than a nip, a test.
"Youâre so soft, all over. Your body just gives when I touch it,â Thereâs a distant tone to his voice as he speaks into the curve of your neck, âToo delicate for me, arenât you?â
You hum in disagreement and his teeth prove you otherwise. Itâs barely a graze, but the nip against your pulse point drags a whimper from deep within you. Your companion chuckles, then coos with pity as he does it again, much, much kinder this time.
âOh, youâre knock kneed and sweet for me,â The already blossoming bruises are soothed by a warm, textured flash of wet. His tongue is rougher than a humans, longer too, and it leaves behind a string of spit that is more viscous than any humanâs. âLike a fawn. My sweet fawn.â
The hand that once explored him is trapped in between your bodies, unable to move, but you can feel something against your stomach: something hard, something thick. Too much cock for your human body, but, fuck, youâre going to try.
âBet youâre even softer down here.â A singular clawed drags over your bare ass, searching for underwear that isn't there and your body trembles with want, âOh, look at that, shaking like a leaf. I bet youâd melt if I-â
A sharp knock at the door scrambles you two apart. A moment passes and the sound almost feels imaginary, but then it happens again. You smooth your still wet hair and try to gather yourself, heading to the door in a hurry. Somehow, the dragonborn is more flustered than you. His scales are physically ruffled and his usually stoney brow is creased. He canât blush, but you swear you can see his face alight as you swing the door open.
There stands a familiar elvish figure, with dark straight hair and the prettiest of smiles.
âKiri!â you exclaim. Sheâs a natural beauty, like most elves. All legs and sharp angles, sheâs a good head taller than you, leaning over with almost a condescending grin. Sheâs so beautiful that you almost hate her for it.
âI am sorry to be a bother, rogue.â She speaks in Elvish and the dragonbornâs head tilts slightly side to side, like a dog who hears his name, as he tries to listen. âI came to thank you and the sorcerer.â
âOh, yeah, no worries,â Your Elvish is unnatural on your human tongue, âWe are fine here.â
âMy lover thanks you too,â she winks and giggles. Sheâs over a hundred years older than you, and yet still head over heels like a schoolgirl. Elves might live for thousands of years, but they take hundreds to mature. âWe will not be sleeping much tonight.â
You roll your eyes and pretend to gag, biting back a smile, but then Kiri grows serious.
âIf he scares you, please let me know,â she continues.
âObi?â you say, âHeâs a sweetheart.â
âIâm sure he is, but those teeth! Like needles. Braver than me, sleeping next to a monster like that.â
You glance at your dragonborn and he looks away before you can meet his eye. A disappointment settles in your stomach. Monster is such an ugly word for a pretty man. Everything about him is charming and refined, from the way he speaks and the way he walks, to the way he shines his scales when he thinks no one is looking.
âThatâs rude.â Youâre quick to reply. Kiri grew up around only her own kind and their ideas-- she doesnât always know whatâs uncouth or offensive because of it, âDonât say such awful things.â
âIt seems like heâs already gotten hungry.â She jerks a chin to your shoulder. You reflexively reach to cover it, only to pull away when the spot feels wet. Blood speckles your fingers- not enough to warranty any worry, of course, just the slightest graze of the skin.
âThatâs not--â
âI tease, I tease!â she continues, âI know it is just a scrape. Can you imagine? To lay with someone who is all claws, fire and untamed magics! I-â
The man in question stalks in between you two silently. With a towel in his arms and a chip on his shoulder, he stomps by with a snort of his nostrils.
âIâm going to bathe.â His Elvish is worse than yours, but it's enough to make Kiriâs face drop. The worst part is that he doesnât sound angry-- you could deal with anger. Instead, he sounds heartbroken. âI donât mean to be frightening.â
You both walk him stalk down the hall until he disappears around a corner. Kiri swivels to look at you, bewildered. âSince when does he speak Elvish?â
also: what happened to the anon who told me they were going to request heaps? I have one request from them and am having trouble on writing for it.
Anon if youâre reading this, please send in more requests for me to work with!!! I donât want you to think Iâm ignoring you or anything!!
đYandere!Hawks | Keigo Takami x F!Readerđ
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Summary:
Youâre just trying to play some Animal Crossing. Unfortunately, your captor has issues with that. Itâs totally not like he caused the problem in the first place.
TWs for: Noncon/Dubcon | Rape
Tags:
Quarantine vibes, anal, assplay- the ass gets fingered, tom nook comes FIRST, loss of anal virginity, orgasm denial, power struggles, thank you for commissioning me! â¤ď¸
(A/N): later than expected but thank you for being patient with me bro
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You can see him over the top of your Switch, looking apprehensively at your curled-up form. Cornered against the sofa armrest, you decide to ignore him and hope he goes away.
âIâm beginning to regret buying you that thing, you know.â Keigo proclaims, arms folded. Without his hero getup he looks unfamiliar, bearing far too much casualness than you were ever comfortable with. Youâre so used to him coming home and skipping the middleman by changing into pyjamas straight away. But today is one of his first days off in quite a while, allowing him the chance to wear something normal. You wish he was at work. Itâs nicer having the apartment to yourself.
In response, you give a brief hum and continue to gather wood. After all, there are more important things to address: you owe Tom Nook so much money.
âDonât you want to do something with me today, baby? Youâve been good. We can go outside, if youâd like..?â
âItâs okay.â
He frowns.
You havenât really been behaving on purpose, youâve just been preoccupied. Countless hours of Animal Crossing have resulted in you staying quiet when he attempts to cuddle you, awkwardly wrapping his arms around your body whilst trying his best to not obstruct the screen. Heâd make occasional comments on what you were doing but had never watched you play long enough to understand the game itself.
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