how to not binge
first let’s understand why you’re binging…
you miss the food. you miss the flavor and you miss the freedom. that’s okay. restricting your diet is hard especially because you’ve had a taste for high cal foods and they taste great, i won’t lie. but i have been able to go about 2 months without binging, even though i miss the flavor.
my lw was at the beginning of the pandemic and i was eating like once every three days (because of my ocd). i got into recovery this year but i don’t think i was mentally ready for all the weight gain so i restarted my rexie journey about 2 months ago and i’ve lost a significant amount of weight (about 25 lbs)
now how to not binge!
actually enjoy your low cal meals. savor the flavor and really enjoy it. don’t eat them with the mindset of “this will make me skinny”, eat them with the mindset of “this is actually good food”. the more you start to look at these foods as delicious and tasty, the less you’ll want the high cal foods. look forward to the meals you cook. experiment with flavor and different textures. and remember it’s okay to miss that burger and that pizza, but there’s a whole world of different flavors you have yet to explore in low cal foods!
as i’m writing this, i’m having my breakfast: black coffee, a can of tuna with salt and pepper and some unsweetened applesauce. it might seem like bland food but i genuinely love the bitterness of the coffee and the sweetness from my saliva that follows after i’ve drank it, the savory and slightly spicy flavor of the tuna (i’ve always loved tuna since childhood so this one was pretty easy to like) and the applesauce, it’s like a treat and a fun little snack. i even consider it akin to candy, so i don’t feel the need to eat actually candy.
it’s a mindset to get into. just remember that you don’t have to suffer to be skinny, you can enjoy food while losing weight.
● your parents called you fat
● your brother/sister called you fat
● your friends called you fat
● you called yourself fat
● a stranger called you fat
insomnia got you sleeping in until 2 pm?
that's okay. get yourself some coffee and go thrift shopping, no one will know
anxiety got you staring at walls until 8 pm?
it's going to get better. start a load of laundry and take a hot shower, so you go to sleep clean
depression keep you locked in your room until 11 pm?
it'll be alright. drive to walmart and buy some nice candles for your night, you'll wake up with something new
you don't have to start your day in the morning. i start at 5 pm sometimes and let me tell you, doing something almost always feels better than doing nothing. it doesn't have to be big or important. it doesn't have to be too much to handle. it's enough to wash your face, or comb out your hair. if you feel tired, it's enough to make a list of things you want to do tomorrow. don't let the clock hold you back. it's a piece of glass and plastic. you get to decide what a day is.
Black is an all-purpose color and when available, black should be used with other colors in every ritual. Different colors attract different energies and stimulate certain vibrations in the chakras. Using candles of specific colors can help to amplify the energies in ritual and spell work.
Black Candles are all-purpose for any Satanic rituals. Black candles used in workings of destruction are used to incite the slower destruction of enemies, opposed to accidents or sudden attacks associated with the color red. Black is also a good color to use to bring discord and confusion to enemies. Black can be used for protection, binding negative forces, and breaking up obstacles and blocks. Black can also be used to reverse and break up negative thoughtforms. Black absorbs, conceals, creates confusion and chaos, is used for new beginnings, and obtaining knowledge of hidden things. Black is the container of light, and is one of the most powerful of colors. Saturn rules black. Black influences self-control, endurance, and patience. Spells using black energy are best performed during a waning Moon, on a Saturday when the planet Saturn is strongly placed and waxing. Spells using black need the power of the root chakra.
Blue Candles are good to use in spells pertaining to spirituality, meditation, summoning Demons, healing, sincerity, obtaining the truth, influencing fidelity and loyalty, bringing inner peace, and for knowledge and wisdom. Blue can also be used for establishing harmony in the home, for increasing occult power, and for spiritual protection. For workings of black magick, blue can be used for inciting depression, sadness, and hopelessness, lack of sympathy, coldness, and gloom.
Jupiter rules royal blue. Workings using blue energy should be done on a Monday or Thursday. Spells using blue need the power of the crown and and/or throat chakras.
Brown Candles can be used for communicating with nature spirits and for grounding and centering one’s self. Brown is used in spells for solidity, neutrality, and practicality. In workings of black magick, brown is used for inciting indecision, hesitancy, sadness, dullness, and uncertainty. For working with brown energy, the feet chakras are used. Energy should be absorbed from the earth through the feet chakras.
Green Candles are used in spells for beginnings, growth, abundance, fertility, healing, success, general good luck, harmony, and influencing generosity. In workings for health and healing, green is an anti-inflammatory. Green can also be used alone or with brown for communicating with nature spirits. Green is used in spells for love, marriage, and making love. Green influences affection, opposed to red, which is used for passionate love, lust, and sex. Green also influences renewal, fidelity, reconciliation, justice, balance, beauty, youth,friendships, attraction, harmony, financial gain, earnings increases, social functions, possessions, riches, indulgence, and pleasure. Green is good for beginnings and growth.
In workings of black magick, green is used for inciting jealousy, greed, suspicion, resentment, sickness, disease, and disharmony. Venus rules the color green. Workings using green energy should be performed during a waxing moon on a Friday when Venus is strongly placed. Spells using green need the power of the heart chakra.
Grey Candles are used in spells for inducing death, illness, and/or to incite mourning and sadness. Saturn should be strongly placed.
Orange Candles are used for creativity. Orange helps in spells for adaptability, sexual attraction, sexual stimulation, sex magick, enthusiasm, and energy. Orange helps with attraction, sudden changes, energy stimulation, gaining control, changing luck and inciting justice. The Sun rules orange. Workings using orange energy are best performed on a Sunday when the Sun is strongly placed. Spells using orange need the power of the sacral and/or solar chakras. For inciting lust and sexual attraction, use the sacral and root chakras.
Red Candles are used for energy, vitality, inciting passion, arousing anger, pure lust and for physical gratification. Red is inflammatory and is used in spells for revenge, anger, courage, determination, and dealing with enemies. Red can be used for protection against psychic attack and for self-confidence. Red incites accidents, fires, and injuries. It is used in spells to invoke power and intensity before workings of black magick. Red is physical and bestows energy, strength, dynamism, passionate love, physical desire, will power, and athletic ability (especially competitive).
When used in black magick, red as opposed to black brings on sudden attacks, accidents, bloodshed, violence, and hatred. Red can also be used to incite wars, anarchy, and cruelty. Mars rules red. Workings using the color red need the power of the root chakra and should be performed on Tuesdays when Mars is strongly placed and waxing.
Violet/Purple Candles are used for enhancing psychic ability, bringing wisdom, for divination, to remove curses, for healing, business success, and for influencing people in power.
For workings of black magick, purple can be used to incite tyranny, abuse of power, and for bringing sadness and treachery to others. Jupiter rules purple. Workings using the color purple should be performed on Thursdays. Workings for psychic power need the energy of the sixth chakra and the third eye and should be performed on Mondays when the Moon is strongly placed and full.
Yellow Candles are used in workings for passing exams, and for increasing one’s intelligence and intellect. Yellow energy rules over the logical conscious side of the brain, computers, communication, audio, video, TV, electronics, books, literature and the will. Yellow is used to improve the mind, to deepen concentration, for mental (left-brained power), to enhance learning ability, and for speech, writing, and publishing. Yellow rules over media concerns, gossip, slander, interviews, brothers, sisters, neighbors, rumors, theft, and all areas of study and communication. Spiritually, yellow can be used for astral travel (along with blue and purple). Yellow is also used to overcome addictions, and to break habits. Yellow is good for friendship.
In workings of black magick, yellow is used to incite infidelity, cowardice, decay, disease, dying, insanity, and inconsistency in others.
Mercury rules over the color yellow. Workings using yellow energy need the power of the solar and throat chakras. Both of these chakras work as a pair. Yellow energy is best used on Wednesdays and Sundays. For anything pertaining to intellect and communication, do the working on a Wednesday. For workings using the force of will, these are best performed on a Sunday.
White Candles are for cleansing, purity, and innocence. The Moon should be strong.
For workings of black magick, white can be used to incite corruption, bring impotence, and to destroy the sex drive. White can also be used to create weakness, neurosis, and fear. The Moon rules white. Workings using white energy should be performed on a Monday and need the energy of the third eye.
More than one color can be used in rituals. The candles should be anointed with appropriate scents and oils before ritual. Oil should be applied with both hands in a stroking motion. Candles represent the element of fire in rituals and are also used for concentration and focus. They attract Demons and spirits.
Always make sure to check your candle as a test as you would with incense before beginning a ritual. Bad odors or burning the wrong way as with cheap incense can ruin a ritual.
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