when you yearn for love and affection but you’ve emotionally repressed yourself for so long that if you attained them you would be overwhelmed with them instantly
went to the depersonalization conference and i wasnt even there
once i beat the depression and the burnout and the anxiety and the loneliness and the exhaustion and the guilt and the awkwardness and the apathy and the low income and the chronic illness and the impatience and the vulnerability and the creative block and the capitalism and the cruelty THEN you'll see
my asexuality is best described as the minecraft 1.17 update
“caves and cliffs” but without the caves and cliffs