Kattori2 - Daydreaming

i want thin legs so bad..

I’m scared I’m never going to make it. That I’ll never be skinny. That I’ll always hate my body.

// TW eating disorder; me just venting and being sad.

I love not going out with my friends because of the pandemic, don't get me wrong, I missed them but every time we hang out we drink or eat something, or both really and I've always eaten less than everyone because I'm the only one who is overweight and I feel so ashamed when I eat in front of them (and people in general). They always say 'you eat so little' but obviously I don't!! And it's horrible when this happens because it's like they know that I'm lying because just one look at me they can see I'm too fat and ugly. I am always the single one of them, always the one that nobody wants. And really? Why they comment on it, “u eat so little”??? They want me to be embarrassed or something? They want to throw on my face that I'll never be good enough?? So in the end, I feel better to don't have to go out with them.

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*not mine