I Don’t Like All These Feelings. I Wish I Could Kill Them With Drugs BUT I Can’t Do That Without

“I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.”

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wish my brain was into kinky stuff like producing serotonin and dopamine

And I use drugs to make me feel anything else but emptiness, but when the drugs stopped taking my pain away - I knew I was fucked.

A. Lemmer

“If you can’t do anything about it, then let it go. Don’t be a prisoner to things you can’t change.”

— Tony Gaskins

“And as a child I never thought I’d have to drown myself in poison just to take the pain away.”

- ( @lostandtwisted )

😂

Drink lots of water!!!

Thanks for the reminder!

“I just found some old pics of myself back in heavy active addiction. My whole body was covered in bruises. I told people I was anemic and ran into the things. They never questioned me further. They never said they knew the truth. They never tried getting me help. They just watched. Watch me fall to pieces. Watched as I went down like a sinking ship. Watched me lose myself. Watched me slowly killing myself every single day. That hurts more now as I look back and see how terrifyingly close to death I was....as they watched. Just watched”

-tnh

The Love Witch (2016), dir. Anna Biller

““I understand that nobody understands me, but I can’t be someone I’m not.””

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