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It Feels a Little Real Now

Dabi x Fem!Reader part 6

Warnings: Mention on Pregnancy, minor mention of childhood trauma (nothing specific)

Summary: As you both come to terms with the situation at hand, Dabi shares a little bit of himself with you. While somethings just make everything a little more real for him.

WC: 1.6K

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“You know you could help me, right?” Dabi asks from his spot on the floor.

“Nah, I like watching you struggle. Plus, you so don’t want me to help.” You giggle.

“You’re right - I really don’t want you to help but I really just wanna light this piece of shit up.”

“Please refrain from destroying my baby’s crib.”

He tosses the screw driver off to the side and lays back on the floor. “Our baby.”

“Our baby. Sorry, I’m still getting used to the whole you being here thing.”

His head tilts to the side so he can look over at you seated in your little glider. He offers you a small crooked smile as he watches your hand rest on your little bump. Groaning, he sits himself back up and looks over the instructions again. Taking a deep breath, he sets to work attempting to set the crib up and resist the urge to set it on fire. After almost an hour of grumbling and complaining, he finally pushes the finished crib into the spot you point to. Handing you the little mattress, he sits on the floor and watches you put the little elephant covered sheet over it before handing it over so he can drop it in the crib.

“And crib is done. What do you think, doll?” He questions, holding out a hand to help pull you up out of the glider.

“Perfect. Thank you for building it.” You hum and wrap an arm around his waist.

“Course, doll. The little monster’s gonna need a place to sleep.”

“Don’t call our baby a monster.”

“Nah, she’s gonna be my little monster.”

“Again, please don’t call our daughter a monster.”

“It’s that or crotch goblin.” He states with a teasing grin.

“Can’t she have a normal nickname?”

“Nope.”

“Fine, call her whatever you like. I need a snack.” You grumble, getting up and heading to the kitchen leaving him alone in the nursery.

Once you're out of the room, he turns around and looks around the room. Taking a deep breath, he settles in your glider and stares at the little crib that his baby will sleep in in a few months from now. The thought makes his stomach twist with an emotion somewhere between excitement and fear. The never ending thought that he could fuck this all up courses through his veins like fire. Pushing his feelings to the side, he pushes himself out of the chair and heads into the kitchen to find you coating a chocolate bar in peanut butter and marshmallow fluff.

“Cravin’ something sweet?” He snorts.

“Yeah, plus this is just good. Wanna bite?” You offer, holding the candy out to him.

Raising a brow, he takes the candy from you and takes a small bite. Handing it back, he chews thoughtfully for a moment before nodding. “Yeah, it’s good.”

“Very good. I’m gonna eat this then make dinner. Sound good?”

Dabi nods and hops up onto an empty spot on the counter, making sure to leave you enough room to cook. He had to admit, something about your little baby bump made an odd sense of pride swell in his chest. He had already told you so many times you were his, but now it was obvious. Now you were happily having his baby and he was ok with that. He never thought he’d be the person to be happy about a baby, but the thought makes his heart skip a beat.

“So,” you finally break the silence as you chop vegetables. “You’re ok with this? The whole baby thing?”

“It’s not ideal, but, honestly, I’m not upset about it or anything. I just had to work through some shit. You okay with it?”

“Yeah, I am actually. I was really freaked out and scared at first, but, now, I actually kind of like the idea of having a baby and being a mom. So you really wanna stick around and do the dad thing, right?”

“I mean, yeah, I don’t want to be a shit dad who ditches his kid. I know what it’s like to have a dad that doesn’t care. I’m not doing that to my kid. I know I’m probably not going to be the best dad in the world but I’m gonna try.”

“That’s all I could ask for honestly, especially since I figured I was gonna be doing this alone.”

“Not gonna let you do it all alone, I promise. I care about you and the little monster growing inside of you.”

You can’t help the small smile that takes over your face as you slide all of the chopped vegetables into a pan and add some spices. “Good, I’m really happy you want to be a part of this.”

“Course I wanna be a part of it. You’re having my baby. Just because I’m an emotionally stunted asshole, doesn’t mean I can’t care about you and my kid.”

You offer him a soft smile before turning your attention back to your vegetable stir fry. Humming quietly, you add the finishing touches to the pan and grab two bowls to serve everything. Giving Dabi a small smile, you offer him his bowl before making your way to the couch. Taking the bowl from you, he grabs drinks from the fridge and follows you over, collapsing next to you. Setting the drinks on the table, he watches you take a bite of your food and moan at the taste.

“You enjoying the food, doll?” He snorts as you stuff another bite into your mouth.

“Mhmm, I’m starving and this is really good.”

He watches you carefully before digging into his own food with a happy groan at the taste. “Alright, it is really fucking good so I can’t even blame you.”

“Thank you - I’m a fantastic cook.”

“You’re ok.”

“I’m better than you.”

“Yeah, because the only time I’ve ever really cooked is when you’ve bitched at me until I stayed and helped.”

“Well, maybe you should learn to cook since you’re gonna be a dad soon.”

“Guess I could learn to cook a few actual things.”

You smile brightly at him and focus on eating your dinner in silence. The two of you fall into a perfect, comfortable silence while you clean up after dinner. To your surprise, Dabi appears behind you and takes the dried dishes and puts them away. Finally, the mess around you is cleared away and you find yourself curled against him on your bed.

“Hey, can I ask you something?” You question finally breaking the silence.

“Course, doll.”

“Anytime you say something about your family or father, it’s always just how shitty it was. What happened?”

Dabi stiffens next to you but takes a deep breath and slowly relaxes as you trace little shapes on his chest. “You really wanna know about my shitty childhood?”

“I wouldn’t have asked if I didn’t. I know you don’t like to talk about the past and stuff, so you don’t have to tell me everything, but I’d like to know a little bit more about everything.”

“Fine, to make a long, shitty story short, my dad wanted a kid that could be a hero, something more amazing than he ever could be. He wanted me to be that but I wasn’t and, when he figured that out, he acted like I hardly existed. I no longer mattered in his world. So what do you do when you’re built up to be something amazing, then told you can’t be that? You crash and burn and that’s what I did. So, to end our super fun story, I am legally a dead man.”

You sit up and look down at him, attempting to take in everything he just said. “Touya, what do you mean by you’re legally dead?”

“I mean just that. I technically don’t exist in this world anymore. I disappeared when I was younger and that’s it.”

“Touya, I’m sorry. That’s horrible.”

“It is what it is.”

“But it's horrible and I always knew your story wasn’t going to actually be sunshine and rainbows but you’re legally dead? Your family has no idea you’re alive?”

“Nope. And, so far, I like it that way.” He looks up at you and sighs. “It’s fine, doll. I’ve got a whole thing planned out.”

“What kind of thing?”

“Don’t worry about it.”

“I don’t like the sound of that.”

“Eh, it is what it is. I think it’ll be a lot of fun.” He grins.

You roll your eyes but still give him a slightly unsure look. Sighing, you relax against the headboard and look over him on the bed. Your hand unconsciously rubs over your belly. Sitting up, he leans against the headboard next to you and pulls you into a soft kiss. One of his hands joins yours on your belly. He sighs into the kiss and heats up his hand while cupping your cheek with the other one. Just as he moves to deepen the kiss, the baby shifts and kicks against the warmth of his hand causing him to pull away and freeze against you.

You immediately grin up at him. “Did you feel that?”

“Yeah? What the hell was that?”

“What do you mean what the hell was that? That was your baby, stupid.”

“That was the baby?”

“Yeah. That was her kicking.” You laugh as she kicks against his hand again. “She can feel your warmth.”

“She’s kicking? That’s her?” He asks, voice filled with wonder.

“Yeah, that’s her. That’s our baby.”

He swallows and moves his hand over your bump, feeling the baby move and kick more. “She’s real. She’s a real little thing inside of you.”

“Yeah, she is. Our baby is a real little thing.”

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a/n: couldn’t sleep so here we are ahaha (HELP)

Mingi twitter links — Dom ver.

Pairing: Mingi x Fem!reader

a/n: we're nearing the end ahhhh. i apologize for how long ive dragged these posts out, school and work has picked up suddenly so im trying to manage my time a little better. as always, thank you for your love and patience and enjoy 🤍

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warnings + tags below the cut! mdni. 18+ content below.

warnings/tags: spanking, fingering, face sitting, cunnilingus (fem rec), allusions to free use, size kink, perv!mingi, hard dom!mingi, he has a fat cock, riding, cum play, creampies, slight breeding kink, brat taming, sloppy sex, slight size training, consensual recording, rough sex

whenever mingi's bored, his favorite thing to do is put you on your stomach and play with your pretty ass and pussy. he'd spank and massage the plump flesh before pulling your panties to the side, slowly fucking you open for him. link.

if you're needy, mingi has no problem planting you on his face as a means to get you off. he'd get drunk off the way your arousal practically pours into his mouth as he licks and sucks on your pussy, enjoying the way you squirm and rut against his grip. link.

feral!mingi who'd take you anytime, any place. he'd mount you whenever he pleased, rutting erratically into your tight pussy, drinking up your whines and begs for more. link.

mingi splitting you open on his fat cock. he'd rub slowly and teasingly against your folds before pushing himself into you. the way your tight cunt gripped him has him seeing stars, causing him to stop and collect himself before properly fucking you. link.

riling mingi up just so he can fuck you like this. he'd push into you with little or no prep, but it didn't matter, you were wet enough he practically slipped into you before setting a brutal pace with his hips.

playtime with mingi. he'd start slowly with circles around your clit, eventually pounding his fingers into your cunt. he'd hold you down as you cum all over his fingers, only to keep on going and going until you fall completely apart. link.

you had been such a brat all day, talking back and pissing mingi off. it came as no surprise to you that he'd take care of that attitude once you both returned home. pushing you face first into the mattress, he'd fuck you hard, each one of your pleads for mercy only egging him on as he used you as he pleased. link.

riding mingi. he'd use his hands to guide you against his throbbing length, loving how tight you squeezed him. once you'd get tired, he'd fix his grip on your ass before rocking his length into you, loving the way you fall apart on top of him. link.

how mingi would open you up for him. he'd lazily pump two fingers into your tight cunt, enjoying the way you greedily swallow him up. it would take all the self restraint in the world for him not to immediately replace his fingers with his cock. link.

fucking load after load into you, he loves to watch the heaps of his cum pour out of your spent pussy. he'd massage and spank the flesh of your ass, playing with the skin as he watches the mesmerizing sight. after, he'd use his cock to fuck it back into you, loving how wet and sloppy it is. link.

bonus:

the kind of videos mingi would send you to tease/rile you up. link.

a secret folder on his phone was full of videos of you both like this.

perv!mingi who loves to rut against your pretty underwear and ass. link.

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— telling him “i'm glad i didn‘t break up with you that one time”

including scaramouche, diluc, alhaitham, kaveh x gn! reader

꒰ genre ꒱ — fluff, a little sad (kaveh's part), we‘re so evil

— scaramouche

feathery, fluffy clouds breezily dotted the expanding sapphire blue sky as the incandescent radiant rays of eternal warmth— like fireballs, drifted across the sizzling nation of pristine wisdom.

scaramouche mellowly declined his head into your supple lap while you were indulging your trusted presence on a secluded area a bit away from sumeru city— his hair was deep tinged and glinted eminently, dark indigo locks that were lucently aglow from the smoldering sun riveting your frames.

you can still remember it vividly, the spellbound rays tottering down on your body as you nimbly closed your eyes for a second while carelessly scurrying your hand over his silky hair. It was rather comforting to him and you were aware that your boyfriend must've been immoderately drained from his taxing work load.

and by any means whatsoever, within the strong comfort of the fateful consolatory spot, a— you could say, brilliant yet a shade evil idea transited into the deepest edges of your psyche.

you pretended to listen to whatever scaramouche had to proudly talk about as your hand carried on to gladsomely delve further around his scalp, jovially motioning aimless symbols on his head.

his eyes wander shut at the closeness of you when he idly shifted the conversation into another topic, "this is fine." he speaks mousy— his breathing was fluttery and bounteous with love, yet although his voice was not lined out of lustrous silk, it did not trickle in an even consistent tone, you had treasured it nonetheless and his voice was your glaring favorite. "this— this feels fine."

that was it, the perfect timing, you suppress a devilish grin and got ready for your disguised scheme coming into wicked play, "it really is." you tried to respond in a false articulated stainless voice, "—and i'm so happy i didn't break up with you that one time."

bordering on a comical sight right under where your boyfriend was presently marveling on your lap, scaramouche had now instantly bolted up to meet your eyes in a part spread sight— but now something changed, an expression akin to filtered shock and discontent. "what?"

in all respects, he was done with his spoken words, because what made you want to break up with him in the first place? what instance in your past togetherness had been enforcing those negative, cruel emotions in you that you even thought about it?

it was a hurting, clear thought— additionally pestering him and it was more horrific than anything else pressuring his goddamn mind.

"what, what?" you silently ask beneath the lines of your regulated breathing, scaramouche never looked so lost before and you tightly bristled your lips together in an pursue to not blast your evil cover.

"what did you mean by that?" if he had to choose, scaramouche would rather have someone repeatedly run him over with a carriage than be in this clashing conversation, "you wanted to break up with me?"

to your appreciable surprise, he did not let his inner rage come to broad daylight, rather was he willing to figure out what has been going on that made you think that. Now, with the concern being all written across his pretty features, you felt as if you should come clean before he actually gets a heart attack from your wrongful play.

"tell me what i did, i will fix it—" the compression in his emotions had inflated as you snappily got a hold of his squishy cheeks, instantly cupping his face, "i'm so sorry, i'm messing with you." though you ended up awkwardly laughing with a sorrowful grin as to lighten up the damaged mood, scaramouche's mouthing took a turn— slightly dazed but also fed up, the penetrating gaze of him, previously a tone lower but now plumb with a diverting split on his lips.

"you.." the little mewl exposed more than a simple intrigue, "you will regret this." with an eye on him you leaned forward to kiss your boyfriend but scaramouche was one step ahead. He speedily took both of your wrists in his palm and dropped you on your back— making you lose stability of your body.

"oh, what's gotten into you?" he asks— innocently enough for you to believe it at first before he was puncturing specific places on your stomach, fronting matter to pinch and tickle the skin, "ah!" you cry out, whining at the burn, "i'm sorry i'm sorry!"

"don't do that anymore." scaramouche kept you on edge— exactly where he wanted you to be, "or i'll give you a taste of your own medicine."

— diluc

inside the limits of your prevailing ventures, you so happen to find yourself nonchalantly strolling over to your boyfriends tavern— the angels share, where he was, at this time, in the midst of closing the bar after another successful night.

in related manner was it a regular practice you'd follow closely, it being to do your utmost greatest to spend as much time as possible with your primarily preoccupied partner— granted that it was centrally you both walking home and then falling asleep shortly afterwards in your shared bed, though that alone made it worth it to you.

diluc found himself greatly engaged in properly cleaning up the bar counter and putting away a bottle of unused dandelion wine as you ardently knocked on the door with your signature thumps— so he knows it's you, before letting yourself pass through.

pristinely, diluc did not have to look up to see that it was you entering the bar— for one, as mentioned prior, was it the initial bangs on the large door the both of you had originally turned a habit as a humorous joke, as well as the recognized spreading presence of you being more than enough for him to figure it out.

he composes himself as his warm eyes then, without an ounce of wavering, flicker without delay to wholly greet you with his comforting calm manner, "you're early." he reminds you, thinking out loud, each new articulation of his being thoroughly tempted out in an urged chatter— it's noticeable, how unmistakable worn out he was.

"i told you i'd come visit before you're closing the tavern." you listlessly slant back on the barstool to take a convenient seat and you lively smile at him while diluc carried on to clean a couple of the utensils that had become irksome obstacles yet shyly quelling a spiking sneer in him, unreservedly molding himself into your homely aura, "i'm glad then."

in passing, you idly watched him for a brief while until diluc unexpectedly turned to you again, catching you off guard, "oh, i have something for you." he surprisingly hummed along each new syllable and you find yourself admiring the view in front of you, his face generously shading red, "i saw them and had to take it with me."

you recollect your focus on him when diluc spoke in a charming way that sent a beguiling spike through your pounding heart before you noticed something large in his hand; a bouquet of your most beloved flowers.

his posture stiffened a little— most likely because of a miniature impale of nervousness scurrying through his flaming veins, because what if you end up not liking the well scented, thoughtful gift?

though you had loved it, of course— even more than that and as he was eyeing your reaction up close, sensing how your widened eyes coursed brilliantly as you accepted the flowers in your hands, you gaze at him in a darting loving way, tightly squeezing the bouquet in your right arm to be able to give him a hug and express your utmost gratitude to him— for him, because he simply was the best in your eyes, the most attentive boyfriend to have ever existed.

"I do hope you fancy it." his rippling skin felt comforted back in your cosy cuddle with his large hand being closely pressed on your lower back as he made you turn on him closer. "i love it."

"— and I'm so grateful i didn't break up with you that one time."

well, just hold up a second? what.

"...umm, thanks." he earned yet another eruption of laughter from you though you had roughly closed it sunkenly in you, so diluc wouldn't figure out you're actually not being serious right now, at all.

diluc— though now greatly overwhelmed but rather leaning into a more confused state of mind in terms of your sudden exclaim, manages to huff out a low sigh while bringing his attention back to you, slowly drawing himself away from your close embrace.

for a fleeting spell, you both looked into each other's eyes boundlessly astounded and bowled over— stated in a more frequent type of way; it was in actuality diluc who was looking wholly rendered at loss of words when you tried your dearest to keep your wicked giggles in check.

but then, he talks again, although pumped full with overthrowing worry in his once glowing eyes, "I'm not certain on how to appropriately tackle this conversation." he mumbles while virtually thinking out loud, "can you perhaps tell me what i did wrong so i can get better— get better for you?"

quite frankly, you couldn't take it anymore and soon your whole body was filled with great misdeed, he may not have a clue right now but in total truth you were only trying to get a glimpse of a somewhat saddened reaction out of your boyfriend— which now, might've been a little evil, though, after all, you couldn't really pass up on that perfect presented opportunity.

"you did nothing." you squeal in panic, gently placing the flowers on the bar counter to keep your attention on him, "i'm sorry i was messing with you."

you pretty much fell into his arms and diluc instantly had hugged you right back— though still in shock, his eyes growing in the size of saucers. You lied close into his shoulder and tried to lift the mood with a humane touch of your hands on his back.

"you menace." diluc reveals an adorable sigh as his chest heaved up and down, the shock still lingering deep but a smile minimally lifted at his lips when he turned to hearteningly pant out a shaky heave into your arms. "you absolute menace."

— alhaitham

"and that’s correct." alhaitham kindly affirms towards the region of your direction while being patiently sat before your pretty eyes, fixedly gulping down the nascent saliva in his mouth to enunciate his following words, "—now to the next question."

undoubtably and much to your sweet pleasure, your boyfriend alhaitham took his current, new acquired position, awfully serious!

on the whole, he was an excellent tutor— strikingly perfect for your upcoming exam which had caused you a countless amount of sleepless nights, while he was aware of your struggles, he had put it upon himself to aid you as much as he was able to.

bizarrely to you, he was a bit too serious and stern, bound and determined while forgetting to keep it natural. Yet alhaitham understands and recognizes your strengths, turning it attainable to solicit 100% of your greatest strong point, presenting you with your highest amount of concentration to study.

"how does this look?" you ask, rather confident in your mannerism as you firmly shoved the fully scribbled paper into his close direction. He looks at it with hawk eyes and crinkles his brows a little— that being an usual trait whenever he found himself in large engrossment.

"incorrect but i didn't expect you to figure it out anyways."

unfortunately to you, alhaitham had a— let's say, interesting habit of spelling out his words before actually thinking his sentences through enough, or maybe he modestly didn't give a damn about how he was perceived or presented to the audience, didn't matter to him if the person he was talking to is a stranger or his significant other, you.

one quiet, internal thought ultimately, without sweet decorations, turned into two hellish thoughts and you had yourself wonder if you were even capable to pay him back just a little bit, in your usual, evil fashion.

"that's rude!" you falsely squeal out, fearing he may have a clue on your new doings right away as you dramatically drew your hand above your heart to act out a pain in your chest.

"you asked — i answered." you could clearly see he didn't think his wording was incorrect or maybe a minuscule portion grating, so you decided to sprinkle a little sass on him, "you're right and i'd be lost without you." your eyes innocently trail to his face, "i'm so grateful you're helping me study."

you were on the verge of exploding, really, the tempting laugh was overfilling your insides but you pushed through, ending your sentence at last, "— but i'm even more grateful to myself that i didn't break up with you that one time."

alhaitham quirks a brow but did not face you right away, did you want to argue with him? or were you trying to be funny again? because speaking from past lived occasions, he wasn't new to you pulling one of those particular intrigues at him.

well, then again, what if it wasn't a tasteless, blundering joke? what if, you were serious this time, honestly would he even blame you? after all, alhaitham knew himself better than anyone else did.

"so, a break up?" he leans back into his chair before crossing his arms around his body, slowly eyeing you from your eyes, to your collarbones and back again. "mhm." you agree with a hum, although both of you being sat, he was easily towering over you with his stance alone, only making you fuse further into yourself.

"and when?" in fact, he will not let this die down, he will manage to get everything he required out of you while barely leaving you to gasp for air.

you wonder if he had already figured it out (he did), your eyes skimming over the entire table to bring your heedfulness somewhere else. "umm, i don't know!" the comedic side of it all was extremely whimsical to your boyfriend— and his plan to lure you into where he wanted you to seem to succeed as well.

"look at me." that damned voice change, nothing that you cannot withstand, nothing but that precise grab his gravelly tone color had on you.

right there, you met his doubtless, assertive eyes, unshaken in his own views. alhaitham unhurriedly leans forward into the table while holding eye contact with you, you're watching him, waiting for chaos to unfold or him laughing at how silly it was for you to even try to fool him.

"maybe next time you get lucky." he quickly wipes his tongue over his mouth, "do you know that you're really bad at acting? it's rather comical watching you try."

heavily exhaling the stored air in your strained lungs, you, wholly fed up with him, rolled your eyes at your oh so confident boyfriend who just didn't know when to keep his mouth sealed tight, "oh shut up!"

— kaveh

love and enchantment, a formidable devotion for another, highly arising out of real personal ties and notable attraction.

for kaveh, those meanings were everything and all, the totality all at once.

beyond a trace of a single doubt, it was unmistakable visible on just how much immeasurable energy and serious effort your boyfriend put into having your blossoming relationship as uplifting, easing and heart warming as possible.

you're his absorbing soulmate and his riveting gratitude and love for you— which he most definitely conveys through those honeyed, dreamy smiles on his plump lips, were sticking out a mile.

from all accessible appearances, one might as well pick up on the nurturing connection that is shared by you lovebirds and how kaveh would always come up with newfound actions to have it shown to everyone in many different varieties.

tonight, it was outside of sumeru city— on top of a idyllic meadow, with the boundless sky being set ablaze by the setting sun right above you, soon to follow was the pale, ashen crescent turned moon, vividly luminous like a silvery claw and fuck, that glittering glow in your eyes as you watched from afar, kaveh wasn't sure if he could fall in love with you even deeper than he already was.

"this is so pretty." the fresh feeling of your body thoughtlessly sloping back into the consoling ground locked out each and every paining worry from your gladdening thoughts.

"i knew you'd like it, i just knew—." kaveh keeps himself from embarrassingly tumbling over his own spoken words, his nails now clawing into his palms and leaving marks— it might've been the nervousness, he fears, although you both had been together for a good while he can catch himself quite frequently becoming shy in his mannerism.

but his phraseology meant nothing, his passing wordage, blank.

there could be sure up to a million and one descriptions to intently describe this current moment happening yet nothing would ever explain it how he saw it, how he perceived you.

aside from that, you also breathed fresh life into his somewhat monotone one, with your sneaky intrigues keeping him on edge the whole time.

"this was a good idea." you're revealing a soft glare to him, a hidden one that from the outside, appeared to be angelic and endearing, though from the inside— salted away an evil plan that was camouflaging your entire mind for the whole day.

call it stowed up curiosity or simple boredom of your person, but you cannot keep yourself from passing up on it, longing to witness kaveh leaving his protective, calming bubble for once in a while.

sure, obviously, he could get mad at you, aggravated or purely stare at you through dead, saddened eyes, but then you'd always be there to make it up to him, in your own charming ways.

kaveh plushly lays on the warm ground before idly securing one of his hands under his head, uncaringly bolstering himself up, "this reminds me of something." you suddenly claim in the direction of your lover so he can hear you, no matter what, "of what?"

in the general run of things you couldn't help yourself but smile at how quick kaveh could get fascinated or absorbed on a random topic you unhurriedly throw into his course of line— no care in the world on what it was, but if you don't tell him and keep the desired answers away, he'd regularly think about it, day on day, until you do end up saying it out loud— which you then, do. "ah, it's nothing!"

"— i'm just glad i didn't break up with you that one time, you know?"

.. silence ..

"..."

"..."

"..."

"kaveh?"

"..."

you might enquire some sort of exclaim or wonder now, did he pass out or? no silly, of course not! it did feel like he was about to suffer from a large heart attack though.

"b-break up?" he soundlessly mutters, panic, immense panic, if he can afford to say anything coherent at all but he was as still as a mouse, indistinct, until ..

"as in, breaking up? a BREAK up?!"

"oh it's nothing." you hushedly wave your hand in front of his anxious face, without concern leaving yourself to fall back and carry on to glimpse up at the moonlight sky.

"what do you mean n o t h i n g?"

"this is tERRIBLE." - "utterly TERRIBLE." deficient panic pitifully munched on your boyfriends entire being, deeply festering itself into the pitched shadows of his now darkened heart.

"wait please stop." your words did not hit him, it's like he turned himself on autopilot, his eyes large as he looked into the distance, muttering something underneath his pebbly pants which you couldn't decipher what he was babbling over. "it's a joke, please look at me."

no because maybe you did go too far and after encircling your arms around kaveh's body you held him close to you, so the repeated knocks of your heart could be sensed by him.

"i'm sorry i will never do this again." you are met with his— now glassy laced, scarlet eyes, not once does he speak anymore, because quite frankly, for a second he was scared to his very core, in a frenzy, because life without you, is no life at all, no substantial vitality.

but then, a tone of him, irregular and broken, "don't do this." - "again."

you mildly wipe the warm tears off his face and lovingly keep a couple kisses on his forehead— left cheek, right cheek, his cute nose and ultimately finished your sweet attention on his soft lips— that always tasted like roses and felt so tender on top of yours, easily crawling yourself into his lap.

"i'm sorry, i love you and i'd never break up with you, ever."

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When you forget that your best friend wields a claymore

THE TRIWIZARD TOURNAMENT FOR THE BEAU IDÉAL OF IDIOCY | N.K. — TASK #3

SUMMARY: you're supposed to be in the stands, eating snacks and talking strategy with your friends, enjoying watching the three champions battle for the triwizard cup. you're not supposed to be entangled in what seems to be your own personal (hell) triwizard tournament.

PAIRING: ravenclaw!nanami kento x hufflepuff!fem!reader | mc’s best friend yu haibara, insufferable asshole fushiguro toji, best boy gojo satoru GENRE: hp x jjk au, (friends who are) idiots to lovers, romance, fluff, crack, profanity PLAYLIST: the course of true love never did run smooth WC: 12.2k WARNINGS: underage drinking (don't do this, kids), probably the most serious chapter of them all, mentions of self-doubt and inadequacy

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— TASK #3: HOW TO SURVIVE A BALL WITHOUT COSPLAYING AS A COURT JESTER (OR, ALTERNATIVELY, HOW TO AVOID SAYING TOO MUCH WITHOUT SAYING NOTHING AT ALL)

(Deep down, you know that tonight, the night of the Yule Ball, marks the most pivotal turning point in your relationship with Kento. Either the curtains will rise, casting a spotlight on the two of you, or - and this is less appealing to you - the velvet will fall, signalling the end of the show, of the experience, of you and him. You like to think you’re something of an optimist, especially when it involves Nanami Kento. Okay, maybe you should rephrase: you’re only an optimist when it comes to him. Anything else is a glass half empty.)

As much as you wanted to cuss Kento out for splurging on a gown that you’ll never wear again, especially for a one-time event like the Yule Ball, you haven’t gotten the chance to. Being Head Boy means shouldering a fraction of the responsibilities that come with preparing for it. He’s been booked and busy - so much so that you’re wondering if he’s fallen asleep in his dorm after exhausting himself to the max.

(In retrospect, you have to give him credit where credit is due. He made sure you got something to wear knowing that he wouldn’t be able to accompany you to Hogsmeade the next day to try again. As usual, Kento’s three steps ahead of you at all times.)

You’re fidgeting with your dress as you stand outside the door to the common room, contemplating if you should go up to the Ravenclaw common room to check on him. You’re accompanied by the two trusty goblins, stoic as ever, flanking you like two terrifying vinegar-spouting guardians.

The memory of Toji getting rained down on resurfaces and you stifle a laugh, clamping your hand to your mouth immediately. You glance around, worried that someone will see nothing more than a girl standing next to a huge barrel in a shimmering blue gown, giggling to herself. If that happened you’d actually wish the goblins activated then, just to really drive the humiliation home. (All or nothing mentality.)

The corridor is still, however, no foot traffic, no noise from the kitchens - though you know Sukuna and the other house-elves are in there cooking up a storm - and no one going in and out of the Hufflepuff common room. It’s probably because everyone’s already flocked to the Great Hall, dressed to the nines, in silks and satins and velvet, their hair neat and tidy, polished and primped to perfection, shoes shined so bright they reflect light off of them like a disco ball - long story short, everyone going to the Ball tonight looks sophisticated, and they’re all probably inside the Hall already, finding the perfect seat, drinking pumpkin juice and snacking on the food.

Haibara had left with Shoko earlier, but not before teasing you about your date being Kento, or, in Haibara’s lingo, lover boy. You’d rolled your eyes, throwing the both of them a sharp look that did little to mask the fluttering in your stomach. They’d just laughed, enjoying watching your face turn red (and you trying to hurriedly disguise it). Finally, you’d shooed them off, telling them they’d miss out on getting a good table if they continued to stand here and poke fun at you.

It’s quiet now.

You shift your weight onto your right foot, then back onto your left, wringing your hands together as a soft anxiety prickles at the back of your mind. 

Has he overworked himself?

If he has, you’re not surprised - Kento has a bad habit of taking on way too much, pushing through with nothing more than sheer determination. He always manages, always gets everything done with that unshakeable composure of his that he wears like a second skin (but not with you, you realize), but he rarely realizes the effects it’ll have on his body in the aftermath, the toll it takes on him.

You sigh, rubbing the back of your neck. You should go to him. (And, if he’s asleep, you’ll leave him be, because he needs it.)

You turn to the barrels, your fist raised to rap the code.

“I’m not late, you know. I’m on time.”

You freeze where you are, because you recognize the voice at your back. You fight back a smile, attempting to school your expression into one of indifference, before turning to face him.

It’s all for naught, because the moment you set your eyes on him, your breath is taken hostage.

Unfair. It’s unfair just how handsome he looks. You don’t even think the word ‘handsome’ embodies what you’re seeing right now. Kento’s always been infuriatingly striking, of course - that’s old news - but this? This is something else entirely, and your brain is trying (and failing) to keep up.

His dress robes, a rich and vibrant midnight blue that compliments the tones of your gown like drops of ink bursting like fireworks in water, like a beam of sunlight exploding into fractals as it passes through glass - fine on their own until they are touched by their opposite, making them ethereal - fit against him perfectly, tailored to his frame with an elegance that makes him seem almost regal. As if he truly belongs in a castle, awaiting his princess.

The robes in their entirety embody him, understated but undeniably refined (you’re pretty sure this is all calculated - Kento’s calm yet deliberate nature at work), with sleek white accents at the cuffs and collar that give them a subtle contrast, making the blue pop even more. The fabric flows effortlessly, like it’s made for him, a crisp, smooth look that screams of simplicity and luxury.

But no, that’s not what takes your breath away, not what makes your heart beat in your chest like the sound of a thousand drums in unison. No, it’s the tie. The tie that you sewed, the tie that Toji said was the ugliest thing he’d ever laid eyes on, and the tie that you eventually learned to be ashamed of.

The tie that Kento is wearing with a casual confidence, like it was never a question of whether or not it was going to be a part of his outfit. (You remember all the times he’s defended the necktie’s mere existence when all you wanted to do was burn it to ashes.)

If you were one of the Champions, he’d be your number one cheerleader.

You swallow hard, trying to push that thought away as your eyes trace the way the bright, warm, sunshine hue of the fabric stands out against the otherwise dark tones of his attire. The dark spots, like ink, dotting it make the yellow pop out even more, drawing attention to it, neatly knotted around his neck. 

But, the thing is, it looks good on him, and you’re not sure how to process that.

You shake your head, trying to focus. It’s like he’s got you in a spell (fitting, considering where you’re standing), completely consuming your mind, making you notice every single detail about him.

Your eyes slide to his hair in an attempt to stop gawking at his clothes and how good they make him look, but you realize too late that it’s just a poor move, because now you’re obsessed with the way his hair is neatly pushed back to expose his forehead and the way there’s still that hint of natural messiness, a slight disarray that elevates it all the more. 

You purse your lips together, because how can someone look so much like a deity among mortals? And, your mouth turns dry when you meet his eyes, how can the aforementioned person be looking at you like, well, that?

When you’d turned around, he’d been wearing an almost imperceptible smirk, but now, now you notice the subtle shift in his expression as his eyes slide over your figure, taking in your delicately placed headband (matching with his necktie), the gown draped over your frame, the slight dusting of makeup Shoko had insisted would make your eyes pop, and the way you’re just standing there, looking out of your depth, holding onto your wrist like it’s a lifeline.

You notice his lips part slightly, his brows relax, the faintest flicker of warmth in his sweet eyes, like a match being struck, lighting his world on fire. It makes your chest tighten with something you don’t want to name.

He steps toward you with the same measured composure he always carries around with himself, his gaze sweeping over you yet again with quiet intent, like he’s committing all of this to memory. Like he’s memorizing you, admiring you like you’re a painting in the Louvre, like you’re a work of art that’s been carved out of marble.

His hand lifts, reaching to fix something on your shoulder - a stray thread, you think, or, and this is a reach, an excuse to touch you. He’s so close to you, and his scent, clean, sharp, reminiscent of the ocean, envelops you and floods your senses. When his fingers graze your skin, it’s like you’ve been set aflame, and you shiver at the contact.

When he pulls back, he smiles at you. “You look beautiful.” His voice is even, but you catch something else, something low that makes your stomach flutter. “Breathtaking.”

It’s as if your vocal chords are finally retaliating against all of the stupid things you have ever said in your lifetime, because now - the one moment where you really want to reply back to him - you find yourself at a loss for words.

He glances down at his sleeves, adjusting his cuffs, and you see the tension in his movements - as if he needs a moment to collect himself.

Say something, please.

You shake your head again, slightly, trying to get your mind out of the gutter. (Who knew you just needed to see Kento in dress robes to forget how to talk? If Haibara knew about this it’d be over for you. He’d never let you live this down. Or, in fact, knowing Haibara, if he ever caught you running your mouth ever again, he’d simply make Kento dress up just to render you speechless. He’s creative like that.)

“You look very handsome,” you say, taking his hand in yours. It’s just instinct at this point. His warmth is like a balm to all of your worries, and it clears your head forthwith (and it works such wonders that for a moment you wonder if you’re suddenly thinking in 4K). “It’s unfair how you make anything look good. Even the necktie,” you admit begrudgingly.

His lips twitch. He laces his fingers with yours and says, “I told you you didn’t need to change anything about it. It’s perfect.” He holds his arm out for you to take. When you slip your arm through his, he shoots you a glance, and you swear that you hear him whisper something under his breath as the two of you make your way down the corridor to the Great Hall.

“Just like you.”

Everyone’s paired off, gently swaying to the delicate, sweeping melodies of the string orchestra, the music filling the air like a soft, enchanting breeze.

Anticipation swells in your chest. This is the moment of truth.The culmination of three weeks of practice under the moonlight, you and Kento honing every step and spin associated with a waltz, away from prying eyes and the weight of expectation (you weren’t that excited to attend the dance practice sessions led by your head of house solely because you knew you’d only end up embarrassing yourself).

Kento holds his hand out to you. “Dance with me?”

You bite your lip, your heart flipping in your chest, but you take his hand.

(You really hope you don’t trip over your own feet and crash headfirst into the table with the punch bowls. You’d have to use Obliviate on everyone in the room if that happened.)

He leads you onto the polished floor, looking as calm and measured as always, as if (you hope) his stomach isn’t doing somersaults and his mind isn’t calculating every single possibility that could happen, good and bad. You’re pretty sure you don’t look as composed as he does. In fact, you know what you look like - pupils blown wide, your hand weakly gripping a sliver of fabric as you walk, and your lips pursed together tightly (you don’t trust yourself not to say something to ruin the mood).

The world around you fades into a blur, narrowing down to him, and only him. For a moment, to steady your beating heart, you just gaze at him. His eyes, always so introspective, so sharp, so full of knowledge, like he’s seen almost everything there is to see in the entire universe, are soft now, relaxed, focused on you with a quiet intensity - as if nothing in all the galaxies could ever compare to you.

He’s smiling, and it’s small, but not invisible, holding a warmth that only you get to see - and you’re more than okay with that. He smiles like this when it’s just the two of you, reserved just for moments like these, moments when there’s no pressure and you can get lost in the ebb and flow of the music, of each other, of your hearts beating in sync.

His hand on your waist, holding you as if you’re something to be cradled with care, feels like an anchor in a storm. There’s something different about how he is holding you now compared to when you were practicing before. Before, his touch was protective, controlled - serious. Now, however, it’s softer, unguarded, like he’s allowing himself to have this, and tender, as if he’s silently letting you know just how much he is cherishing this with you.

You exhale quietly. You’re realizing that he’s more than just a crush - he’s been way more for a while now. This, plus every other thing he has done within the past weeks, is the final nail in the coffin.

You should say something. Anything.

Tell him you really love him?

You cringe inwardly. No, that’s too much too soon. You should just-

His touch pulls you from your thoughts, urging you to live in the moment, to relish in him, in dancing with him, in being with him tonight.

Suspended under the bronze glow of the chandeliers, sparkling like stars in the night sky, and wrapped up in the precise harmonies of the orchestra, your heart flutters, you wish, oh, how you wish that this moment could last forever.

As he guides you, maintaining eye contact throughout the entire waltz, you find that you’ve seen the various sides that come with Kento, the main dish - you’ve seen him serious, stressed, upset, stressed (again, but more intense) and, most commonly, composed and stoic, but this, right now? You’re getting to witness a side of him that’s more human, more open, filled to the brim with nothing short of pure affection. It makes your chest tighten with an emotion you can’t place (or something you just don’t want to name right now).

His eyes search yours, and you look back at him and hope that his body language skills are above average (he’s Nanami Kento, of course his skills are outstanding), because you have no words to describe how you’re feeling, how much you love this, how much you adore him.

His hand brushes against your gown, his other hand entwined with yours, and it’s all there, in the way he holds you, a silent understanding between the two of you that doesn’t need an explanation.

You’re so lost in him that you don’t notice what’s happening around you. You don’t notice the way Toji’s been roped into dancing with one of the professors, looking utterly miserable as he moves across the dance floor, how Haibara keeps stepping on the train of Shoko’s dress, how she simply laughs and slaps his shoulder, how Hogwarts’ champion Suguru is not-so-subtly glaring at the Durmstrang champion’s date, the girl from Gryffindor whom Sukuna had been talking about, as she lets him guide her - you barely notice Gojo casually sipping on some pumpkin juice whilst leaning against a table, or Utahime with one of her housemates near the food, laughing at something. (Okay, you noticed that one. But only because you were curious to see who Utahime’s date was since it definitely wasn’t Kento.)

“Looks like our practice wasn’t in vain,” Kento muses, his fingers flexing against your waist, sending heat running up your spine.

You tilt your head up at him, humming in response. “I lost sleep for this,” you tease - it’s the only way you can get yourself to think straight, by bantering with him, “so yes, I should hope so.”

His grip on your waist tightens ever so slightly as he guides you into a smooth turn. “I don’t do anything halfway, you know. I had to keep up with you,” he says, his tone level but his lips betraying a hint of a smirk.

“Oh, trust me, I’ve noticed,” you say, fighting a smile as you roll your eyes. It just comes so easily, this back and forth with him, the way he matches your wit, the way he looks at you with amusement and awe. You narrow your eyes at him, a teasing glint in your eyes. “You didn’t just practice with me, did you? Tell me, Nanami Kento, have you been secretly twirling around your dorm room at night?”

He exhales sharply, a mix of exasperation and mirth. “No,” he says, drawing the syllable out, “but I did consider replacing you with a mop once. Less... Hm, how do I say this?” He looks up at the bewitched ceiling, painted a starry night sky, before meeting your eyes again. “Distracting.”

You gasp dramatically, pulling back as much as his hold will allow. (You have to put some distance between the both of you before he realizes just how much that affected you. God forbid he actually starts hearing your heart thumping in your chest. He can already see the blush dusting your cheeks. You can’t handle a double whammy.)

“A mop?” you ask, incredulous. “You were going to replace me with a mop?”

His hand slips to the small of your back, flexing against the fabric as he draws you a fraction closer. (He’s not a fan of distance.) “A very cooperative one,” he deadpans. “Unlike someone who keeps stepping on my feet.”

This time you really gasp, hitting his shoulder softly. “That was one time-”

“Six times, actually,” he corrects, smoothly.

You frown at him, lips pursing in defiance. “Right, well, I hope you and your beloved mop have a wonderful evening together,” you huff, pretending to pull away from him.

But he doesn’t let you go. Of course he doesn’t. Instead, he twirls you, effortless, catching you back in his arms with an ease that steals your breath away. His voice drops lower, softer. “Unfortunately for the mop, I asked someone else to the Yule Ball and I intend to spend the rest of the evening with her.”

Your heart stutters so badly in your chest that you’re praying you won’t need jumper cables, but you don’t give him the satisfaction (even though it’s clear as day on your face) of seeing you flustered. “How gentlemanly of you, Kento.”

He smirks, rare and fleeting, but it brightens everything around you. “I try.”

(Pay attention, because this is where it all goes downhill. But think of it this way: what’s a ball without a little bit of chaos and a lot of misplaced dignity, right? (You’re in denial.))

The music draws to a close, the melodies crescendoing into silence. You hear the musicians taking a small break - reaching for a snack or a drink before they’re to start their next number. The other couples surrounding you pull apart from each other and, after curtsying and bowing, they make their way off the dance floor.

You know you’re supposed to curtsy after the dance comes to an end, but you abandon all common sense and wrap your arms around his neck, embracing him tightly. It’s not graceful, it’s sure as hell not refined, but it’s real.

He stiffens, taken aback, and you worry for a moment that he’s going to pull back and tell you that you should be curtsying, but then you feel his arms around you, enveloping you in his warmth and his scent, and you melt.

A curtsy simply doesn’t cut it; it doesn’t let him know how special tonight has been, doesn’t let him know that if you could do it all over again you would, that you wouldn’t be caught dead with anyone else as your partner - that no one else compares to him.

For a moment, neither of you speak. The hum of the ball fades to the background. It’s just you and him, standing in the center of it all, wrapped up in each other.

Something warm blooms in your chest. It opens like a rose and spreads to every inch of your body, filling you up with something golden and light, making you feel like you’re floating. Like you’re on cloud nine. It’s, simply put, warmth and comfort rolled into one huge flower, planted inside of you, engulfing you in a quiet happiness that lingers in your fingertips, in the way that your heart is no longer erratic, but steady and sure.

It spreads like fire in the cold, chasing away every single doubt you’ve ever had, every hesitation, leaving only the undeniable truth you’ve tried so hard to ignore all this time - that you are exactly where you’re meant to be.

With him.

You sigh, more of contentment than anything else, and pull back. He’s smiling, really smiling. It looks good on him (what doesn’t?), because for once, he doesn’t look like he’s bearing the weight of the world on his shoulders. He just looks happy - unguarded, at ease, like he’s allowing himself to simply exist without having to prove it.

And you, you realize with a jolt, you’re the reason for it.

You smile back, unable to help yourself. He takes your hand and leads you off the dance floor and towards one of the tables where Shoko and Haibara are seated already, munching on something you can’t make out just yet.

“You should smile like that more often,” you say, nudging him slightly. “Not the barely-there, stoic thing you’re always doing.”

Kento huffs a quiet laugh, tilting his head as he glances at you. “Maybe I would, if you were around to see it.”

Your breath catches. The words are casual, spoken so simply, but they carry a weight - maybe more than he even realizes. Or maybe he does. Maybe he does and he’s testing the waters, seeing if you’ll acknowledge what’s lingering in the air between the two of you.

You should know better by now. You constantly bait him, and when he gives you an answer, you’re always caught off guard. At this point, you’re just making a fool of yourself for seeming so surprised when he gives you exactly what you’re looking for.

You want to tell him that you feel it. It’s not exactly rocket science, is it? The tension is so thick that it’s practically visible, and yet you dance around it as if it will burn you the moment you touch it.

But maybe you’re not afraid to get burnt.

Before you can say anything, before you can make sense of the sudden, overwhelming feeling in your chest-

“Oi, Captain!”

Your heads snap toward the voice near the punch table at the same time.

Gojo Satoru stands there in navy blue dress robes lined with gold, elegant and sharp, still leaning against the edge, a glass in his hands, raised in the air as he beckons for you.

You cast Kento an apologetic glance. “Sorry,” you mutter, extracting yourself from him. “I’ll be back.”

He nods, then makes his way towards the table while you slide over to Satoru, curious to see what he’s up to. Maybe he’s realized that you don’t need to be his date for the two of you to be recognized for your Quidditch skills.

You lean against the table next to him, crossing your arms. “Where’s your date?”

“I thought you were my date,” he replies, taking a sip of his juice.

You glare at him, and he raises his free hand in surrender. “I’m kidding!”

The two of you settle, a comfortable silence permeating the air as you resort to people-watching. You can see the heads of the other two schools seated at the table assigned to staff, straight-backed and proper as ever.

You tear your eyes away from them before you psych yourself out. Maybe they’ve already noticed you and Satoru. Maybe they haven’t. Maybe they never will.

Satoru pokes your cheek. “What are you frowning about?”

You smack his hand away, your bottom lip jutting out at his audacity. You let out a sigh. “Do you think we have a shot at getting into the Nationals?”

The moment the words leave your mouth you realize just how childish they sound. Desperate, like you’re crawling on the ground, begging for scraps. You shouldn’t have to grovel for someone else’s validation, but damn if it doesn’t feel good to be recognized for your talents.

Satoru, for his part, simply shrugs and takes a sip from his juice. “I saw them watching you with Nanami earlier,” he says. His gaze drifts to a certain blond seated next to Haibara, no doubt entertaining one of the latter’s delirious stories about how he (allegedly) crossed paths with a Peruvian Vipertooth when he went home for the holidays last year and barely lived to tell the tale. Kento’s gaze is polite, never giving away anything more than required, occasionally nodding in agreement or arching a brow in dubiety (which you’ve noticed him doing at least five times within the last thirty seconds).

You find yourself smiling.

“I think we really do have a shot,” Satoru continues, yanking you from your haze. “They looked at me when they entered the Hall, too.”

Your mouth goes dry. If it’s really true, and they give you a referral, that’s your one way ticket to becoming a pro-Quidditch player. And who better than to be playing alongside none other than Gojo Satoru?

The mouth-watering prospect of having your dream come true curls in your stomach, and you feel like you’re going to throw up.

“Woah, hold on a second.” Satoru glances at you, noticing how queasy you suddenly look. He reaches for the bowl of pumpkin juice and pours some into a glass before shoving it in your face. His blue eyes are wide open, as if you hurling in front of everyone would be the worst thing that’s ever happened to him. (You don’t blame him, but he could’ve been more subtle about it.) “Here, drink this, you’ll feel better.”

You scrunch your nose as you take the glass from him, immediately hit by the sharp tang of something that’s definitely not pumpkin juice.

Slowly, you lift your gaze and shoot him a knowing look - there’s only one person who could possibly have had the balls to pull this stunt and it’s him. You’re not even remotely surprised.

“Relax, I wasn’t going to let you drink it without telling you,” he says. He rolls his shoulders before his lips split into a wide, mischievous grin. “I spiked them with Firewhiskey before the Ball started.” 

Satoru doesn’t meet your eyes, staring straight ahead, sipping his drink with faux innocence. You don’t look away. The gall this boy has, honestly.

Your eyes find Kento, looking like he can only handle one more story about Haibara’s antics, and you contemplate telling on Satoru. You tear your eyes away from your ever-responsible date - Head Boy Nanami. “Tell me you’re not letting the younger students drink this,” you hiss, your voice lowered as you tilt your glass, watching the orange liquid swirl ominously.

He lifts a shoulder, nonchalant as ever. “That’s why I’ve been standing next to this table the whole time.”

Okay, so he has a conscience. Great to know. That’s very important information, because you were beginning to doubt it for a moment.

You drag a hand down your face, then squint suspiciously at the drink.

What the hell, sure. You can handle your liquor. Probably.

You need something to help you relax and not overthink about every single thing until you lose your mind anyways.

You bring the glass to your lips, and take a sip.

The taste of pumpkin, cinnamon and nutmeg floods your mouth, followed immediately by a slow burn that makes you wince.

But that’s it.

You scoff.

Light work, no reaction.

You turn to Satoru, unimpressed, and point to the bowl of spiked juice. “Are you sure you did it right?”

He follows your gaze, his lips twitching upwards in mild amusement. “You’re aware that you need to take more than one measly sip for it to really hit, right?” He scoffs, crossing his arms, his glass dangling precariously from his fingertips. “Down that whole thing, and the next thing you know, you’ll be in Fushiguro’s arms.”

Your response is immediate, like a knee-jerk reaction solely at the mention of Toji Fushiguro (whose eyes you’ve been avoiding the entire time), and you shove him.

Caught off guard, Satoru stumbles, nearly losing his footing before he catches himself on the table’s edge. He blinks at you in momentary betrayal before the two of you burst into hysterics, drawing the attention of a couple of students nearby.

You catch your breath, holding onto his shoulder to steady yourself. You can always count on Gojo Satoru to be up to some sort of mischief at all times. It’s equal parts frustrating and comical, seeing how you’re always somehow drawn into the eye of the hurricane whenever you cross paths with him.

You squint up at Satoru, who’s trying desperately to stop his fit of laughter. You exhale sharply, suddenly determined to prove to him that he didn’t spike the pumpkin juice as well as he claims he did.

“Watch this,” you announce, downing the rest of the juice in your glass in one go.

Satoru stares as you grimace with the taste. Then he smacks your shoulder, throwing his head back as he laughs. “Atta girl, welcome to the good side!”

You roll your eyes at him. “I’m going back to Kento,” you say, elbowing him one last time before you make your way to your date.

“Don’t trip on the way over!” he calls behind you. You raise a hand up half-heartedly in response.

You’re not going to trip. What, does he think you’re some rookie when it comes to drinking? (You are.) That you can’t handle your liquor? (You’ll find out tonight.)

Gojo Satoru does not play around when it comes to drink spiking.

It hits you faster than you expect - one moment you’re weaving your way through the crowd, making you way back to Kento as you seriously doubt the legitimacy of the Firewhiskey Satoru’s used, and the next, your head feels light, the room tilting ever so slightly, your body buzzing with warmth. It’s like a delayed explosion, spreading throughout your body, from your chest to your legs to the tips of your fingers, until every inch of you feels light and floaty.

You pause, blinking slowly, desperately trying to recalibrate, but your brain has other ideas - like running on a ten-second delay. The realization creeps in like molasses - Satoru got you good.

Spurred by the sudden need for vengeance (or, at the very least, a show of good sportsmanship where you shake Satoru’s hand and tell him he does indeed know how to spike a drink), you whip around (a mistake), eyes scanning the Hall for the lovable menace. But you’ve turned around so quickly that now it’s like someone shook marbles around in your head and you’ve just gotten off a very violent merry-go-round that you can barely make out anything besides the sea of people who have seemingly swallowed him whole, his white hair nowhere to be found.

You grumble. How does someone that tall, that obnoxiously loud, disappear so easily?

Great, now you have to fend for yourself in your rapidly deteriorating state. Perfect.

You take a slow step forward. Then another. Then another. Then- oh, wow. Walking is a lot harder than you remember. If only you had your broomstick right about now. Everything feels a little too soft, too slow, too delayed, like you’re floating above your own body. And then you see him.

Kento.

He’s moving toward you, cutting through the crowd effortlessly (or maybe people are parting for him because he is, after all, Head Boy, and they’re worried he’ll write them up for obstructing his way), his eyes locked onto you with a sharpness that makes your stomach flip.

“Are you alright?” he asks when he reaches you, his hands finding your face with a tenderness that you immediately melt into. His palms are warm, grounding, his thumbs tracing the heat blooming across your cheeks. “Your face is red.”

You lean into his touch without thinking, your body practically melting into his hold as an indulgent, stupidly lovesick smile stretches across your lips. “It’s called… blush,” you murmur, voice slow and syrupy. “You should try it.”

His lips press into a flat line, like he’s contemplating what he should do with you. You swear you can hear the gears turning in his head. Or maybe that’s the murmur of the crowd. You’re not sure. But Kento doesn’t need to ask the question you know he wants to. He already knows the answer to that. (Any genius could figure it out in two seconds.)

He pinches the bridge of his nose, pulling his hands away from your face, a muscle ticking in his jaw. “How much did you drink?”

You hold up two fingers, making a pinching gesture to show him how much was in your glass. You start out small, then it becomes one inch, then two, then three- wait, no, that’s not right. You frown at your own fingers as if they have gained sentience and betrayed you.

(How rude of them.)

“...A responsible amount,” you reply finally, though your sluggish, uncoordinated movements paint a contradicting picture.

Kento sighs, pressing two fingers to his temple in an effort to ground himself. “Let me guess. Gojo?”

“Mm. Gojo. Satoru. Gojo Satoru,” you confirm solemnly. You had to say his name multiple times to make sure Kento knows who you’re talking about, because what if he’s thinking about some other Gojo? That won’t do.

Wait. You’re hit with the realization that you’ve just snitched on Satoru.

Shit, shit, shit.

You grab Kento by the collar and pull him close, so close, in fact, that your noses touch. “It wasn’t Satoru,” you say quickly. “Trust me, it wasn’t. It was…” You search about the Great Hall frantically, looking for a victim before learning that you don’t have the guts to throw an innocent person under the bus. "...Another Satoru."

(For the record, if you were a different person, you might have said Toji. But you’re not that person.)

Kento’s hands cover yours. You swear his lips quirk up ever so slightly.

“Okay,” he concedes. “Gojo didn’t do it.”

You breathe a sigh of relief. “Thank God. Don’t ever tell him I snitched on him.”

Kento raises his brows as if to say, Did you just hear yourself?

(You didn’t.)

Then, with no warning whatsoever, you giggle. You don’t even know why, but it bubbles up uncontrollably, and suddenly, everything is so, so funny.

Kento closes his eyes for a brief moment, as if mentally preparing himself for the ordeal ahead. When he opens them again, you’re gazing up at him like a love-struck fool, like he’s the prettiest thing you’ve ever seen in your whole entire life (he just might be). The fond exasperation in his eyes are clear, even through his deadpan stare.

Your eyes are wide and gleam with mischief, lips parted in an amused, breathless grin.

“Alright,” he mutters, prying your hands from his collar and adjusting his grip to steady you. “Let’s get you some water and-”

“You have really pretty eyes,” you murmur, cutting him off, tilting your head slightly as if to get a better view of his- wow, they are pretty. Gorgeous. 11/10. Then, as if struck by a great revelation, you lean in and whisper conspiratorially, “Did you know that? I bet you didn’t know that. A lot of people don’t know about that, actually.”

He exhales through his nose, his grip steadying you before you tip over completely. You don’t miss the way the tips of his ears flush crimson, and it makes your grin widen.

“I wasn’t aware,” he says dryly. “You’re the first person to tell me about this.”

You gasp, clutching his wrist like he’s just uncovered some deep, dark secret. “That’s because only like, one percent of the population know about it. But that doesn’t make it untrue, Kento! You have-” You wave your hands around, as if you’re trying to pull words out of thin air like some sort of linguistic magician, before settling on, “-historically significant eyes.”

He gives you a flat look, though the way his lips twitch gives his true feelings away. “Historically significant?”

You nod solemnly, like this is just another day of telling people the truths of life. You grip his forearm for support as the world continues to revolve, slow and syrupy and thick. “Yep. If someone painted a portrait of you, they’d have to put a warning on it. Something like, caution: do not gaze directly into the eyes unless you are emotionally prepared-”

“You’re so drunk,” he interrupts, unamused.

You scoff. How dare he cut you off, especially while you were spitting nothing but straight facts? “Am not.”

He raises an eyebrow. “Oh?”

You straighten up, attempting to look dignified, but instead, it backfires, and you sway slightly and end up grabbing onto his robe for balance. “I’m perfectly fine, actually,” you insist stubbornly, scrunching your nose. “It’s just that Satoru - Gojo Satoru-” you jab a finger in the general direction of where you think he might be after ensuring that you’ve clarified which Gojo you’re talking about (there’s only one in the entirety of Hogwarts) “-gave me some… some spoked pumping juice-”

Kento’s lips definitely twitch at that. He snakes an arm around your waist to hold you up, pulling you close so that you lean against him. “Spoked what?”

You frown, trying to piece the words together in your foggy mind, unsure of what you’ve mispronounced. “Spoked- no, spoked pumping- wait, pumped spiking-” You pause, your frown deepening as you shake your head, frustrated. “Whatever. The point is, I’m not drunk.”

“You can’t even say it properly,” he sighs, rubbing his temple with his free hand.

“Well, he spoked it too lame,” you huff, completely ignoring Kento’s words to focus on the real issue here.

Kento looks like he wants to laugh. “He what?”

You stamp your foot on the floor. “I said, he spoked it too lame.” You pause, pouting whilst deep in thought. You turn to him, pointing a finger. “Write that down.”

“Write… what down?”

You spread your arms, exasperated. “Spoked too lame! Shakespeare would kill to write bars like that.”

Kento stares at you for a long moment, probably contemplating what he should do with you. (His date has gone off the rails.) With the patience of a saint and the resignation of a man who has accepted his fate, he simply says, “Let’s get you some water before you start challenging people to duels next.”

You gasp. “Oh my God. We should duel. I should duel Satoru. Gojo Satoru.”

“Absolutely not.”

“Coward.”

“Drink your water.”

And, despite his exasperation, despite the fact that you’re stumbling and slurring your words, he keeps a firm yet gentle hold on you, like it’s second nature, like it’s exactly where he’s meant to be. And somewhere beneath the veil of intoxication, your heart is beating as fast as ever - but it’s not because of the alcohol.

(The rest of the night blurs into a hazy, dreamlike mess, most of which you barely remember. If you really try, you can piece together some things - flashes of laughter, the warmth of Kento’s hand in yours, Satoru’s obnoxious cackling from somewhere in the distance (you assume he’s staying away in case Kento sends him to detention for bypassing the charms and smuggling in contraband - Utahime’s greatest nightmare). You think you remember dancing with Kento again (or, at least, attempting to), knocking over someone’s glass, and passionately debating with one of the ice sculptures about the ethical responsibilities of enchanted objects.

But one thing is constant the entire night - him.

His presence is like an anchor in a storm, always there, steady and grounding, no matter how much the world around you spins. His voice is a calm reassurance cutting through the chaos, the fogginess of inebriation. His touch is a gentle reminder that you’re not alone in this hazy whirlwind - that he won’t let anything happen to you. Even as your memory becomes patchy and everything fades to nothingness, overtaken by the influence of the Firewhiskey, his warmth never leaves your side.)

It feels like you’ve been hit by a herd of Hippogriffs.

Your head is pounding, as if someone’s inside your head banging on a gong, and you groan, shifting between the sheets of your bed. You open your eyes reluctantly, trying to gain your bearings.

The events of last night come to you in flashes - bits of conversations lost to the recesses of your mind, laughter, dancing, and a dizzying, overwhelming feeling of warmth. But it’s all scattered like a puzzle waiting for you to put the pieces together.

(You’re not too ecstatic about that.)

Then there’s Kento, like a beacon in the fog of your memory. You remember the way he’d looked at you with those sharp eyes of his, assessing your insobriety, softening as he noticed your unstable gait, how he’d caught you, a sturdy arm around you to keep you upright before you could fall. The touch of his hands against your cheek, concern and worry laced into the press of his fingers against your skin, the sound of his voice, steady as ever and overflowing with anxiety, pulling you back to the moment, keeping you grounded.

You press a hand to your forehead. You’re slightly embarrassed. Did one glass of Satoru’s Firewhiskey-pumpkin juice concoction really flip your world upside down, or are you just very intolerant when it comes to alcohol?

Ugh. You’re officially a lightweight.

As sweet as the memories you can vaguely remember seem, you don’t even want to know how much of your dignity you lost last night, especially in front of Kento? The last thing you’d wanted was for him to have to babysit you, which is, if your faulty memory can be trusted at all, precisely what he did for the rest of the night. You’re not surprised if it was him who got you back to the Hufflepuff common room before handing you off to one of your housemates, ensuring you got to your dorm safely.

You run a hand down your face, groaning into your pillow.

Great, just great. This is exactly what you needed.

You silently curse Satoru and his entire bloodline. You’ll deal with him later. Right now, however, you think Kento deserves an apology for having to take care of you instead of being able to enjoy his night, and you’re not too thrilled about trudging out of the common room to go and face him.

You roll onto your back, still buried beneath the sheets, the heat holding you hostage, keeping you locked in place.

The first rays of morning sunlight filter in through the partly drawn curtains, casting a golden glow over the room. It’s quiet, too quiet, and you wonder just what time it is. It’s the type of silence that makes everything feel still and unreal, as if the world is holding its breath.

The constant ticking of the clock on the far side of the room is the only sound piercing the blanket of silence that’s settled over everything. You squint, trying to make out what time it is - seven in the morning.

A quick once-over of your dorm tells you that your roommates are both still asleep, probably exhausted from the events of last night.

You begrudgingly sit up, forcing yourself to leave the comfort of your bedsheets, and gather yourself.

If you’re going to have to talk to Kento, the least you could do is look presentable while doing it, instead of looking like you’ve gotten run over by the Hippogriffs and then the Hogwarts Express.

You rub your bleary eyes as you make your way to the bathrooms, already trying to come up with something to say to him. Your opening line.

So far, all you have is, Hi.

(You’re done for.)

Nanami Kento always wakes up at six in the morning, no matter how much has happened the night before. You’re pretty sure that even if he was absolutely hammered he’d still wake up early, like clockwork, because it’s practically muscle memory to him now. 

You can’t relate.

That’s why, even after waking up at seven, you only end up dragging yourself to the Great Hall two hours later, your stomach grumbling, begging for sustenance.

All the decorations from last night’s Yule Ball have been stripped away, leaving behind the familiar towering windows and the enchanted ceiling reflecting the cold, cloud-covered morning outside. The Hall, though usually bustling with chatter and the clatter of breakfast plates, feels oddly subdued today, with barely anyone else in there besides yourself and a few Slytherins and Ravenclaws congregated at the same table, probably because everyone’s still recovering from the events of the previous night.

You trudge towards the Hufflepuff table, stifling a yawn as you rub at your eyes. The scent of toast, eggs and warm porridge drifts into your nose, and you immediately feel your sense sharpen - food will always work wonders on you. (You’re ignoring how hypocritical your stomach is behaving - it has the audacity to twist at the thought of eating anything substantial right now when it’s literally telling you it needs food. Tch.)

You settle for tea. Tea sounds manageable.

As you drop on the bench, resting your head on your folded arms, your cup of tea steaming next to you, you run through what you’ll tell Kento when you finally get up and seek him out.

It’s so embarrassing. You have a penchant for getting into worst case scenarios whenever you’re around him. It’s like the two of you together are some kind of magnet for your misfortune.

A shadow falls over you.

“You look happy to be awake today.”

Your blood runs cold. You don’t need to look up to know who it is. The smooth, familiar cadence of his voice is unmistakable.

You groan inwardly, your day ruined. Kento always has a way of knowing exactly what you’re thinking, which is probably why he found you first. Now your whole equilibrium is off. You had planned to seek him out, but instead, here he is, casually upending your routine.

None of this stops your heart from skipping a beat, the memory of his warmth from last night echoing in your mind, so much that if you close your eyes you can almost imagine you’re there once more, drunk out of your mind (on one glass, no less), and in his careful, steady arms.

“And you look disgustingly put together,” you mumble, peeking up at him through bleary eyes. Sure enough, Kento looks pristine as ever, despite being dressed casually, in nothing but a soft shirt and jeans, his hair let down for once, slightly tousled, as if he didn’t bother to fully brush it. (At first, you’re confused to see him out of uniform, despite you not even being in one, until you realize it’s the weekend.) There’s not a single trace of exhaustion on his face. It’s almost as if he didn’t stay up late last night dragging your very intoxicated self back to your dorm.

He chuckles, running a hand through his hair. You stare at the way the strands flop back against his forehead, slightly damp, as if he’d just come out of the shower and half-heartedly dried it.

He slides onto the bench to sit next to you. “Drink this,” he says, placing a cup in front of you. The steam rising from it carries the faint scent of ginger and honey.

You raise an eyebrow. “What is it?”

“Something to help with the hangover you’re clearly suffering from.”

You huff, burying your head back into your arms before pointing at your cup of tea, now lukewarm from sitting idly for so long. “I already have my poison here.”

You hear the sound of your cup being moved away, replaced by the one he brought. He puts his hand on your shoulder and gives it a squeeze.

Reluctantly, you lift your head. He’s not going to let you off the hook, is he? You purse your lips doubtfully, then take a cautious sip. (What is it with you and guys giving you drinks that make your throat burn?)

Despite the harsh bite of the ginger, the honey follows close, smoothing everything over, as if gently undoing the ginger’s damage like an exasperated mother. It soothes the dull ache behind your eyes. You hate to admit it, but it’s actually good.

“You’re so responsible that it makes me sick,” you grumble, before taking another sip.

Kento hums in agreement, sipping on the tea he’d taken away from you.

For a moment, the two of you sit there in silence (whether it’s comfortable is up for debate considering you’re still wrestling with the mortification of last night’s debauchery, wondering if you should apologize to him for being a total disaster at the Ball), watching the other students yawn and stretch and filter out, most likely going back to bed or their common rooms to lounge around.

The more you drink the ginger and honey concoction, the more you find last night’s events trickling into your mind, as if someone has opened a tap, but hasn’t turned it all the way open. Drip, drip, drip. The dancing, the warmth of Kento’s hand on your waist, the way he held you steady when your legs threatened to give out - it’s all coming together.

You cringe, refusing to think about how many other things, no doubt appalling, happened after that. Still, you should just get it over with and apologize to him. The Yule Ball was probably the one night he should’ve been allowed to relax, and you’d gone and fallen into a state of befuddlement, leading to him having to tend to you the rest of the night.

It wasn’t fair to him, and the guilt eats at you.

You open your mouth to say something, but he beats you to the punch.

“So,” he says slowly, shooting you a curious glance, “how do you feel?”

“Like I drank a glass of Firewhiskey and pumpkin juice and handled it like a real champ.”

He laughs. A real, deep, wholehearted sound that resonates through his chest, rich and unguarded, like the warmth of sunlight breaking through the thick layer of clouds on a cold morning.

You’re momentarily distracted from your thoughts by the sound of his laughter. It’s not something you’ve never heard before, but there’s something comforting in hearing it now. You watch the way his shoulders shake just slightly, the way his eyes crinkle at the corners, little crow’s feet, and you almost forget you’re supposed to be feeling miserable. Almost.

Still, the sight of him looking so uncharacteristically carefree (though you’d argue that it suits him) soothes some of the residual embarrassment clawing at your insides. 

If he’s laughing, that’s got to mean that maybe, just maybe, you weren’t a complete disaster last night. That or, he just finds your choice of words particularly hilarious.

Even so, this is Kento. Ever-patient, ever-composed, ever-kind Kento. The same Kento who had, undoubtedly, spent the entire night making sure you didn’t accidentally fall face-first into a bowl of treacle tart when he should’ve been acting as carefree as possible.

You groan, dropping your head onto the table with a dull thud. “I’m so sorry,” you mumble into the wood. “You should’ve just let me pass out in the fountain or something. You know, the way someone with an ounce of dignity would.”

Kento smiles and shakes his head. “Right, because nothing screams dignity like being fished out of a freezing fountain in the middle of December.”

“Technically it’s almost the end of December,” you mutter.

“My point still stands.”

You groan again, turning your head to the side so you can glare at him without lifting it from the table. “It would’ve been poetic.”

“It would’ve been hypothermia, and then I’d have to carry you to the Hospital Wing again.”

The memory of that day crashes into you like a tidal wave. (All your efforts at compartmentalizing it into a box and hoping your brain naturally incinerates it are worthless.) You’re transported back to that day, weeks ago, when you, in a moment of pure, unfiltered insanity, had mustered the courage to ask Fushiguro Toji to the Yule Ball. When he’d looked disgusted and called you a Mudblood. When you’d almost got into a brawl with him. 

Then there was Kento, trying to restore order, and you, purposely shutting down your body to save yourself from the sheer, unadulterated embarrassment of him seeing you wild and untamed, ready to beat someone up.

This, of course, had been counterproductive, because when Haibara had told you that he and Kento had been the ones to carry your unconscious body to the Hospital Wing you wished you had just stayed conscious at the Great Hall and faced his look of disappointment instead of looking like some sort of damsel in distress. (God knows what you looked like passed out. You hope your mouth wasn’t open and your tongue hanging out.)

You can almost feel your soul leaving your body. You swear you can see it jumping ship, escaping somewhere, anywhere, other than here.

Kento watches your dawning horror with mild amusement, his lips twitching as if he’s barely restraining a smirk. “Wait, are you just now figuring that out?”

You hit his shoulder. “No, I knew you took me to the Hospital Wing,” you huff, trying to turn your head to hide how hot your face has become. “I just, I don’t know. I didn’t expect you to. You didn’t have to.” You bury your head in your hands. “This is so embarrassing.”

Kento tilts his head slightly, regarding you with those hazel eyes of his. “It’s not embarrassing. Besides, what was I supposed to do?”

“I don’t know,” you mumble into your hands. “Leave me there? Drag me behind a tapestry and forget about me, maybe?” You peek through your fingers. “There were so many options.”

He sighs, a long-suffering but undeniably fond sound, as he looks at you. “Of course, because leaving you behind a tapestry would’ve been the rational, humane thing to do.”

“Exactly,” you say, nodding solemnly. (Now we’re getting somewhere.)

His lips twitch. “Okay, and what if someone found you before you woke up?”

You lift your head slightly from your hands, blinking at him. The answer is common sense. “Then that’s their problem.”

Kento pinches the bridge of his nose. “You are unbelievable.”

(He’s not wrong. In fact, you can be insufferable, too. But maybe, maybe he doesn’t need to figure that out just yet. Or, and you hate to admit it, he already knows.)

You grin. “You knew what you were signing up for,” you point out. “You’ve been dealing with me for weeks now.”

And that is what does it - because when you say it, you mean it lightheartedly, an offhand remark at best. But Kento suddenly looks at you, his eyes soft, like you’ve struck something raw inside him, like you’ve wedged something unspoken between the two of you, teetering on the edge of acknowledgement, and you can’t help but feel a strange, raw vulnerability in that moment.

(Oh, brother.)

You shift awkwardly under his gaze, your face still unbearably warm. “What?”

He exhales slowly, shaking his head. “Nothing.”

You squint at him suspiciously, now curious to know what’s going on in that pretty head of his, but he doesn’t budge under your scrutiny. Instead, he rests his elbows against the table and continues to drink his tea, seemingly lost in thought.

You grumble, dropping your head back onto the table. “This is going to sound stupid-”

“It won’t be.” He sounds so sure, so confident.

“You didn’t even wait to hear what I was going to say,” you sulk, sitting upright now. Your head no longer feels like it's been submerged underwater, moving in slow motion while something behind your eyes tries to split your head in half. His drink worked.

He lifts a shoulder. “Nothing you say is stupid. Not even,” and he leans in close, your shoulders brushing, “when you were rambling about spoked pumping juice-”

You lurch forward, grabbing the sleeve of his shirt in desperation as the memory of you clinging onto him with no shame while you struggled to enunciate something as simple as ‘spiked pumpkin juice’. “Stop.”

He doesn’t.

“-which, I must say, was an enlightening moment for me. I didn’t know you were capable of such creative linguistic innovations.”

You clutch your head in your hands, letting out a soft, pained whimper. Everything you remember about last night is the equivalent of you digging your own grave. “I need to be Obliviated. Can you do that? Just selectively remove everything after I got drunk, please.”

As expected, Kento doesn’t dignify your plea with a response. He watches you with that same careful, unreadable expression he wears when he’s thinking too hard about something. Like a few minutes ago. It unsettles you. Not because it’s unusual, but because you can tell he’s wrestling with something important.

And it has something to do with you.

You don’t want to press him, so you lean your forehead against his arm.

The air between you two thickens with something unspoken, something that fills the space in ways words can’t reach. You’re not sure if that’s a blessing or a curse. The Great Hall is now empty and eerily silent except for the two of you. It’s almost as if the rest of the world has faded away, leaving the two of you locked in this quiet bubble of uncertainty and revelation.

“Ugh, I hate myself,” you murmur quietly to yourself. All the times you’ve been humiliated (mostly your own doing) in front of him float to the surface of the ocean in your mind. You’d be okay if he wasn’t there - you’re always getting into some sort of peculiar situation by default anyways. The fact that your crush is there to witness it all is just the final nail in the coffin.

His hand comes over yours, and you hear him, feel him pause before he says, so softly that you’re not sure he even says it, “That’s unfortunate, considering how much I like you.”

Your breath hitches, and you raise your head, because you’re struggling to comprehend that he, Nanami Kento, Head Boy, just told you he likes you.

That familiar warmth blooms inside of you, spreading around like cherry blossoms in the wind. Your heart swells, because isn’t this what you’ve waited for him to tell you for so long? Isn’t it what you’ve always wanted?

You haven’t realized until now just how much the weight of your self-doubt has been consuming. Every misstep, every embarrassing moment, feels amplified when Kento’s around. And yet here he is, not judging you, not pointing out your flaws as you’re so used to doing to yourself. Instead, the way he’s looking at you, the way he’s touching you, his hand on yours - he’s acknowledging something you never thought anyone would care to see: the genuine, imperfect, human side of you.

His words sink in slowly, like a soft wave that licks at the edges of your consciousness. How much I like you.

You should feel overwhelmed. You really should. Maybe even giddy. But the truth is, there’s a strange sense of calm in hearing him say those words. You hadn’t realized just how much you needed to hear them, from him, from Kento, how much it means to you that the person who you’ve always admired from afar, adored from a distance, always untouchable to you, but always someone you wanted to get close to, is finally revealing something you thought you might never know about him.

I like you.

You’re still processing his words, still floating in the warmth of his admission, but the way your chest flutters tells you everything you need to know, beating your brain to the punch. This isn’t just some casual expression of affection. No, because that’s not Kento’s style. He never says things he doesn’t mean. Anything he does, anything he says - it’s always deliberate, calculated. This is him, telling you something deeper, something he’s been carrying for, you realize with a start, who knows how long. 

You should say something.

Reply to him.

But no, your body betrays you, and all you can manage is a shaky breath, your thoughts a malevolent swirl of emotions that threaten to spill over if you so much as attempt to articulate them.

As the silence begins to stretch between you both, Kento moves again. His hand, still warm and steady, shifts to cover yours fully, enveloping it in a soft but reassuring grip. You can feel the steadiness of his touch, and it grounds you, pulling you from the storm when the floor feels like it’s about to give out beneath you.

The intensity of his gaze never wavers as he leans in close, his voice barely above a whisper, yet somehow it cuts through the tension that’s built between you.

“You’re so worried about how you look to others,” he says, his voice quiet but firm. Solid. There’s an almost tender frustration in his tone, like he’s been watching you struggle with this for far longer than you realize. (You realize that his people-reading skills are truly excellent, because now you’re wondering how many times he’s seen something happen to you and watched you shrink into your shell, especially around him.) “But I don’t care.”

His words knock the air right out of your lungs. You open your mouth to respond, but you’re not sure what to say. You want to argue that of course he must care, because everyone cares, and they remember, but the words get caught in your throat as his thumb brushes against your skin, drawing a soothing line over your pulse. It’s a simple touch, nothing more, nothing less, but it speaks volumes, calming the anxious thoughts racing through your mind.

You’re still reeling from the shock of his confession, still tangled in the weight of his quiet (yet incredibly loud) assurance, when he continues, his voice warm and patient, as if he’s making sure you know just what he means.

“Look,” he says, his breath mingling with yours as he leans in ever closer, his presence coveting you. You meet his eyes, holding his gaze as tightly as you can, like flowers gripped in one’s hand. “When are you going to realize that I don’t care about any of that?”

Your heart feels like it’s going to explode.

His question hangs in the air, and for a moment, everything goes still. The words seep into your heart, filling the cracks and crevices you hadn’t realized were there.

And then, finally, the weight of everything you’ve been holding in - everything you’ve been trying to hide - starts to lift.

But even so, you can’t seem to get the words out. You want to explain to him, to make him understand why you’re always so self-conscious with him, why you can’t seem to let go of your insecurities, even if it seems like they’re nothing much. The fear of embarrassing yourself, of being seen for who you truly are, has always been a shadow at the back of your mind. Especially when it comes to him. But here, in the soft light of the morning, Kento is offering you something you never thought you’d receive from him - acceptance.

You sigh. “I make a fool out of myself whenever you’re-” you begin to protest, your voice barely louder than a murmur.

He huffs out a quiet laugh, cutting you off. “Yeah, and that’s what makes you human,” he says with an affectionate grin, his eyes sparkling in that way they always do when he’s trying to make you smile, and he takes your chin in his hand and lifts it upwards, ever so slightly. Your pulse speeds up. “Besides,” he adds, his grip on your hand tightening slightly, “it wouldn’t be you if you weren’t doing something incredibly odd.”

And just like that, the tension begins to dissipate, like a storm passing over after a long, drawn-out battle. Kento’s words, simple as they are, wrap around you like a soft, fuzzy blanket. There’s no judgement in them, no pressure to be anything other than what you are. He’s not looking for perfection; he’s not asking for you to change. In fact, it’s like he just wants you to keep being you. (Humiliating and mortifying moments and all.)

That’s enough for him.

You blink. The weight of his words finally settling into your heart. The tidal waves that have been thrashing about inside of your mind for so long begin to tame, and for the first time in a while, you feel a sense of peace.

He likes you.

And maybe, just maybe, nothing else matters.

You look at him properly, and see not the Head Boy who has everything figured out, or the crush who is majestic and good at everything he does (although this still stands), but the person you’ve come to know - steady, patient, and unexpectedly tender in his own stoic way.

And it’s then that you really realize something. Kento doesn’t like you because of who you pretend to be, or because of the version of yourself that’s always trying to keep up appearances. He likes you because you’re you - the version of you that’s messy, and vulnerable, and imperfect (and always stuck in some impossibly troublesome situation). The version of you that makes mistakes and doesn’t hide behind a facade of control.

The version of you that, in the three weeks you’ve gotten closer to him, has let your walls down and allowed him to see everything. The version of you that he’s come to care about.

You exhale slowly, your chest lighter than it’s been in a whole while, possibly since the moment the Yule Ball had been announced.

When you meet his gaze again, you don’t feel the need to say anything grand or profound. You don’t need to explain yourself or apologize for anything.

Because, for the first time in a long time, you feel like you can be yourself, that you’re worthy of his attention, that you’re enough.

You smile - a small, timid thing, but one that’s full of more words than you could ever articulate yourself.

“Guess I really am a little oddball, huh?” you say softly.

He chuckles, his eyes softening as he meets your gaze. “A little. But that’s why I like you.”

You don’t say anything for a few seconds, allowing yourself to bask in his presence. You lean against his shoulder while he traces patterns along the back of your hand.

“You should’ve told me sooner,” you say, nudging him.

He hums, then looks at you, his lips pulled up into a smile. (Oh, he looks so handsome. He looks like a deity came down and sculpted him with their bare hands.)

“I was waiting for you to catch up.”

You laugh softly. Of course he’d say that. It’s so on brand for him. Little does he know how slow you can be when it comes to reading signals, which is why you’re glad he straight up said something.

(If you’re being honest, you were aware that Kento liked you, because there’s no way someone just kisses you on the cheek, or on your head if they’re a friend. You just never knew if he liked you as much as you liked him. But now? Now you’re not afraid to risk it and put yourself out there for him.)

It doesn’t stop your heart from racing - but it’s not from anxiety, but rather with a fierce longing, a desire you didn’t realize was so strong until now.

You lean back slightly, pulling away just enough to meet his gaze fully. Your breath catches in your throat when your eyes meet his, and for a moment, you swear time stops. You can feel something in the air, heavy and palpable - the tension, the anticipation, the realization that everything is about to change between the two of you. More than it already has.

“Kento,” you whisper. “I-”

He shifts before you finish, his face drawing closer to yours. His expression is soft, like he’s trying to memorize every little detail of your face, like he’s always wanted to know you in the most intimate way possible.

You hold your breath, your heart pounding in your chest like someone banging on a bass drum, the world narrowing down to the two of you.

He’s so close that you can feel his breath ghosting your skin. His hand, still clasped around yours, tightens slightly, but not enough to hurt. It’s like he’s giving you a second, some space to decide, to make this moment yours as much as it is his.

“I’ve liked you since Year One,” he admits softly, his gaze dropping to your lips before finding your eyes again. There’s a quiet sincerity in his words, a vulnerability you haven’t seen before. “I just-” He pauses, searching your eyes as if he could find the words he wants in them. “I didn’t know how to tell you, and you’ve always been a little ball of sunshine, shining brighter than ever, and I just convinced myself that I could sit back and be content admiring you from a distance.”

His hand cups your face. “But I can’t.”

Your heart flips at his confession. You’d never known, never suspected that all this time, while you were struggling with your own feelings for him, that he’d been silently carrying his own. And for you no less.

But now, it makes sense - the way he’s always been so patient with you, always there, always so understanding, accepting.

Your chest is suddenly too full to contain all of your emotions. The ache that’s been growing in your heart for so long, the longing, the hesitation - it all fades away in that one moment of realization.

You’re not the only one who’s been waiting for this.

You can’t resist any longer.

With a quick breath, you lean forward, your body moving on its own accord. Your lips brush against his, tentative at first, testing, probing, giving him a choice. But then, something shifts. It’s as if the world aligns, the planets all align, everything falling into place in the blink of an eye. His lips press into yours with a softness that’s almost dizzying, like you’re the most precious thing he’s ever known.

His hand cups your face gently, holding you in place, keeping you with him. You feel the warmth of his touch spread through you, his thumb brushing over your cheek in the most tender way, as if he’s trying to commit the feel of you to memory, just as you’ve been doing the same with him.

It’s… everything. It’s like flowers blooming after a harsh winter, it’s like the waves of the ocean carrying a message in a bottle to its destination, like the way the snow falls silently and softly, creating a blanket of comfort.

When you finally pull away, both of you breathless, you look at him, your lips still tingling from the kiss, your heart racing in your chest. His expression is a mixture of awe and something deeper, something that makes your face heat up.

“You’re the only one who’s ever made me feel this way,” he murmurs, his voice hoarse, as though the words are more vulnerable than he meant them to be. “I never thought… I’d be here, with you.”

You smile softly, tracing his jawline with your fingers, and you lean in again, this time with more confidence.

“Well, I guess you don’t need to be a Champion to win,” you whisper before kissing him again, this time deeper, more certain of what you both feel.

He hums in agreement against your lips, and it sends a tingle down your spine.

And as you kiss him, you realize that this is just the beginning. The start of something new, something real. And for once, you don’t have to worry about how you look, or if you’ll mess up, because this? This is right. This is exactly where you’re supposed to be. Right here, with him.

And for the first time, you don’t care about anything else.

A/N: thank you so much for reading this chapter! i'm so sad it's almost over, with one more chapter to go, but it's truly been a wild ride! i have to give @gojover credit for the entire 'spoked pumping juice' sequence, because of a typo she made while texting me. gave me a streak of inspiration. (art by elitamasan on X)

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had a shitty day and cant sleep because of it, wish moon was here to hypnotize me to sleep aaughg